Chapter 9

When I was in my deep thoughts,I heard some footsteps coming up the stairs  . I wiped away my tears and closed my red swollen eyes in a spilt second. Then the door swung opened in the darkness and a black figure appeared and it was none other than my handsome husband "Aaron miller..."

He slowly came inside and turned on the table lamp. Then he removed his suit and walked into the bathroom. He finished his quick hot shower and came out with his pajamas. He slowly sat beside me and touched my hair.His thumb caressed my cheek then my bottom lip.

"Why do I always felt that she looks happy outside but she was sad deep inside her heart. It's strange for me think something like that but my heart felt this way from the beginning. Did she hide something from me or my love for her is not enough???" He murmured to himself in a low voice and his voice had some hint of sadness in it.

Though his voice is low, I heard it clearly. Tears welled in my eyes and my heart sank in guilt and sorrow.I didn't opened my eyes because I don't have enough courage to show him my red swollen eyes.

Then he gently kissed my forehead and turned off the table lamp and slept beside me. His words echoed in my head and tears flowed from the corner of my eyes.I wanted to pour my heart out to him and I wish to cry out my feelings to the whole world.

But the sad reality is I can do nothing. It's true that I have strong feelings for Victor but my love for Aaron is also true..........

I can't do something that hurt my husband because he loves me from his heart and he gave me everything that I can't imagine.He always showed his love and care for me .He never cheated me and always stood by my side.I can't hide the truth that I love him .I didn't fall in love with him as I was lonely or lost. I fell for him after getting to know about his love and care for me and I wanted to make him a permanent part of my world.

"The most painful and the saddest truth of my life was I love them both......"

Yes, i love them both and I can't choose my life with either one of them. They have equal halves in my heart and I can't make my own choice.

These thoughts killed me the whole night and I didn't had a little bit sleep that night.It was the most painful night that I ever had which passed with my tears.I fell asleep with my deep thoughts and painful eyes....