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2024-10-29 19:42:56"What? It's you?!" I squeak and burst into laughter staring at the dusty album Viktor pulled out god knows from where.
"Yeah, mock me. But you can't deny I was cute," he chuckles.
"Cute is one word for it," I snort.
Viktor was really a cute kid. Who could've predicted he'll become the God of lust.
His iconic raven-black curls were even curlier when he was young. So curly yet long enough to cover his eyes. He said he hated getting a haircut, so he was just one messy-haired, pink-cheeked and quite short boy. And there's barely a photo on which he's not eating.
" 'It was better if your mouth is busy with something'," he quotes his mother, explaining his food obsession to me, " 'otherwise you were not stopping talking'," he finishes the quote and laughs.
"Wow, your mother was a true beauty," I react in awe as I see a photo of what seems to
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