We all have that dream of finding the guy who would perfectly love us despite our imperfections. We even adore those hunks we saw in the movies we watched and wished that one of them would be our partners for life. But everything was just an illusion.
Five years ago, I had this paranoid, devastating, funny, sweet, and cheesy relationship with my first love. I can still remember our first encounter.
FLASHBACK.
3:00 PM during Filipino class. I was in my third year at that time. The class went boring and I suddenly felt the urge to go outside and find someone to bully. Yes! You got it right; I'm not the usual pabebe teenager during my high school days. I loved punching guys and I do love bullying the weaklings. My classmates have their groups every break time to talk to, but I prefer to stay alone at the Mango Tree reading books.
Our class was on the third floor. It's not that I loved skipping class, but I just felt bored and wanted to walk around campus. I don't want to sleep in Mrs. Del Rosario's class, that would be rude. The school's surrounding is so silent that I can only hear the teacher's voices while teaching the students, who obviously don't listen to them. I can see those students who kept playing at the back. Some are using their phones and some are having trouble as to how to keep their eyes open while listening to the boring class. Mr. Sanchez (guidance counselor) has his class during this time, that's why I feel so confident wandering around. But even if I acted stupid, I somehow excelled in academics.
I was about to reach the restroom when I saw a guy smiling while holding his phone and I felt irritated. I don't like those smiles.
I guess I have my prey now!
I walk quietly towards Mrs. Magno's classroom. Some of her students saw me walking by, so I whispered, "Don't tell Mrs, Magno" to them. They just laughed after hearing those words. I continue walking outside Mrs. Magno's classroom without her idea of what I am doing outside. I don't know what got into me, but I got the vase outside. Without a warning, I threw it at the guy in front of me.
I saw how startled he was.
"Shit!" he shouted.
I didn't feel scared, but instead, I felt satisfied while looking at how pissed he was. I couldn't control my emotions anymore. I couldn't help but burst into laughter after seeing him covered in mud. I did not realize that I had thrown him a living plant. I kept on laughing while pointing my index finger at him. I almost got a stomachache while laughing at him when the mood suddenly changed. His eyes went sharp. He was frozen and I could see how angry he was with me.
"Did I pick the wrong guy to mess with?"
I thought that was fun, but the gaze in his eyes went sharp. I swallowed my saliva several times. He didn't take his eyes off of me. I can hear the student murmuring at my back while looking at us. I thought this guy was a weakling. But it's too late. What's done is done. He threw his phone at me and it landed in my chest. Ouch! It really hurt like hell, but I acted like I didn't feel the pain.
I guess I made a mistake this time.
I saw his phone on the floor cracked, so damn cracked! I saw him slowly step his feet towards me. His face was covered with mud, but I could clearly see how fierce his gaze was. His polo shirt was unbuttoned and I could clearly see the dark coat inside. The sun shone on the silver-stained on her left ear. His earring shone, dazzling.
Why didn't I notice that he has a bad boy's image?
I made a few more steps backward while looking at him. I haven't experienced this scene before. I'm the bully. I'm the one who doesn't back down, but this day was different. I had nowhere to escape, so I entered the female restroom thinking that he would not follow me there. But that was again a wrong move. He cornered me even more. He is now holding my uniform. The laughter in his eyes is replaced by so much anger.
Did I really mess with the wrong guy?
"Hey! Wait!?" I stepped backward.
I saw his ID.
"Wait, wait Patrick? Yesss... Patrick, let me explain-" but he didn't listen. He even walks closer to me, cornering me more.
"Hey! Patrick? Are you listening?" I was holding his hand because he's choking me now. This is bad. This is NO JOKE anymore.
"Do I know you, Mildred?" He is looking at my ID and again looking at my eyes angrily.
"Nope, but I can explain-"
"I don't need an explanation!" he answered in a very husky voice. He is now choking me again.
I made a mistake after all.
"Stop! I can't breathe- You're harassing me now! Stop or I'll shout-"
"Try me," those two words came out of his mouth, followed by a smirk.
I felt so nervous, but I found it ineffective. I was about to kick his balls, but he seemed so ready for my every action. He is holding my left leg while leaning at the very end of the restroom. That scene was really awkward that whoever would see it might think of something unthinkable. That's why I shouted.
I stop. He kissed me.
Pervert!
I wanted to slap him, but he's holding my arms now.
"Pervert! Pervert!" I didn't see it coming.
He even smirked, I could not read his emotions this time.
"Mr.Alonzo! Ms. Garcia!" Mrs. Magno angrily shouted at us. The murmurs of the students are getting clearer and clearer now. I can hear what they are saying right now.
"Is it Alex?" a student asked.
"Yes!" another student answered.
I eyed the door while looking at Mrs. Magno's face.
"Holy Child! You're really flirting here!"
"Ma'am, No! Where not... I don't even know this guy-" I wasn't able to continue what I was about to say because Mrs. Magno cut me off. I can clearly hear the laughter of those students who are talking about me.
"Look how cute the guy is," the girl on the left said flirtily.
"I guess he's the one who got suspended the other time-"
"Go back to your room now!" Mrs. Magno shouted at them. I saw them walk back to their respective classrooms.
"Patrick, you just came back from suspension, this is it again!" Mrs. Magno said. "In Mr. Sanchez's office, now!"
"But Mrs. Magno- Ouch!"
Mrs. Magno pinched me even more.
I adjusted my uniform, which had been messed up when the man next to me strangled me.
Is he really going to kill me?
We both walked down the hallway while students were staring at us from the first floor. It would be a lot of trouble if Mrs. Del Rosario would find out what I did during his time. Patrick kicked his phone, which had fallen to the floor earlier. He looked at me again and suddenly smirked. His two hands were covered in mud as he walked. I just now noticed some scars on his right cheek. I didn't notice it before because it was covered with mud.
Mrs. Magno left us both at Mr. Sanchez's office. We both sat on the chair facing each other. He didn't move an inch while staring at me intently, which made me uneasy.
"Look, I'm sorry." I started the conversation. "Sorry if I mess with you," I said while looking at his face, hoping he'd forgive me. "I'll forgive you for stealing a kiss from me if-"
"Tss!" He averted his eyes from me as he played with his hands. I guess he doesn't want to listen, so I shut my mouth.
I opened my F******k and I opened the notifications. I saw a short clip of me and Mrs. Magno.
I can see on the video how Mrs. Magno pinched my ear.
Shit! Whoever uploaded this video will surely pay the price!
I looked for the person who uploaded the video, but it was a dummy account. This leads me to the point that I can't find who the hell uploaded the video. We waited almost 30 minutes before Mr. Sanchez came from his class.
"PATRICK? MILDRED?" Mr. Sanchez asked, puzzled.
I just looked down because I was still blushing with anger from the comments I read in my viral video. Patrick, on the other hand, did not move from his seat.
"Patrick, how many times do you we have to suspend you? You just came back now, another trouble again?" Mr. Sanchez stepped himself of his seat. "Based on Mrs. Magno's report, you were caught kissing her in the female restroom. Is Mildred your girlfriend?" Mr. Sanchez calmly asked.
"Yes!" Patrick's quick answer.
"What? Nooo! No Sir, I don't even know this guy!" I answered surprisingly. I even stood from where I was sitting. I can see how annoyed Mr. Sanchez is. "Mildred, I'm not talking to you!"
But I wanted to tell the truth. I really don't know the guy!
"But Sir! I'm telling the truth. I don't have a boyfriend-"
"We are kissing when Mrs. Magno saw us," Patrick said straightforwardly. His eyes meet mine and he smirks again.
I rolled my eyes, actually.
What is his problem with me? Is this revenge!?
"Noooo ... no ... Sir, that's a lie-"
"Shut up, Mildred!" Mr. Sanchez cut me off angrily.
"Shut up Mildred!", Mr. Sanchez cut me off with authority."But-"I wasn't able to deliver my sentence and I feel like crying because it's the first time I'd encountered a guy like him in my entire life. I feel attacked. I now know how others feel when I bully them. I was wondering, how the hell did those kids I bullied overcame the fear I'd given to them. And now, this guy in front of me is the wildest. I can't tame him. He is so good at making stories.He slowly opened his mouth and his words made the situation worse. "We really planned to meet there, Sir." He even looked into my eyes. "I was stripped in the stairs adjacent to Mrs. Magno's class that's why my uniform got dirty," he paused again and continued what he was saying. "I just couldn't hold my excitement to kiss this young lady in front of me-""Yuck! Are you hearing yourself, Patrick!?" I wanted to hit him this time. "I just met you and really? Claiming me as your girlfriend? Oh c'mon wake up!" I stood while waving my hand
"Can't you see what time is it?? Stupid!""Hi pumpkin!" and my eyes widened. I hurriedly turned off my phone.I feel so annoyed. "What the heck, where did he get my number?"Because of that stupid mistake, my calvary has already begun. I couldn't even sleep again thinking about where Patrick got my number from. Even my classmates don't have my digits. This is really bad.If I can only turn back time.End of flashback.I just couldn't stop my tears from falling, remembering how pathetic our start was."Alex! Alex! Hey!" The girl steps away from me were waving her hands, and she always has this happy face whenever she sees me.That is Miyah "Michaela Beatrice Lorejo" my bestfriend. I'm not anti-social anymore. I also got friends, and most of all I don't look like a gangster anymore. Thanks to Miyah. Breathlessly, Miyah approached me, "Hey! I've been calling you several times!" She was still chasing her breath."Are you crazy? We are inside the Mall and not in the supermarket" I said, an
We were about to leave the mall when suddenly Miyah's phone rang. Her boyfriend asks for a video call from her, but she refuses because she was too shy because I am here. So I gave the honor, we parted ways for the privacy of the two of them. I just smiled and bid goodbye. I just wandered around and saw gift wrappers and souvenirs, until I found a keychain similar to mine. It was the same replica of the keychain that I have. It was the Eifel Tower with an inked Paris. It was still attached to my bag. We were in our 2nd month when he gave it to me. It's just sad to think that until now he's still on my mind.Continuation of Flashback.Angrily, I leave the school and grab a taxi going home. I lied in my bed without even changing my clothes. I counted the stars in the ceiling to ease my mood."102, 103, 104-"I heard my phone ring. It was a missed call.I know, it was Alex and he is now ready again to irritate me.Another missed call went in."Pumpkin?" A text message from him. He is rea
I wake up in a room painted with white color.Where am I? What am I doing here?I was about to stand when I saw my hand with dextrose and the guy sleeping next to me was Alex.Alex?I check my watch and it's already 3 in the morning. I've been sleeping for too long. I can see, it was Alex who rescued me from that freaking library.Why, Alex?He moved a little and opened his eyes. He is intently looking at me. I got so nervous that I couldn't understand what to do. He looked so scary. I can see how fierce his gaze is, just like the first time we met. There is always hatred in his eyes.I can't find any words to thank him. I've been swallowing my saliva several times while observing every inch of his movement. Carefully, I don't want him to notice.He suddenly stood up. "You're awake? Stupid!" he said softly.I don't know how to respond to those words. All I know is I'm having a heart attack right now from thinking too much about what happened in the library. I was really afraid. It see
"Miss me?"His voice made me stand from where I was staying.Oh, shit!He's really awake. My hand became shaky while answering the phone. My heart keeps pounding so fast that I can't even control myself on how to breathe properly."I know you fucking miss me, pumpkin!" He chuckled and cut the line. I know he is smirking right now.What's with you, Alex?That made me more wide awake at this hour. It seems that the situation has become upside down. I missed him not messing with me.Jerk!Feeling blessed?I can't get why he's playing hard to get this time!I keep talking to myself. I handed the folded folder on top of my desk while calming myself. I eyed the air conditioner, thinking that it was not functioning because of the sweat coming from my forehead.Huh! You are not handsome anyway. Tss!I kept punching my pillows. I can't get enough from him answering the call. I couldn't find the perfect position that would put me to sleep.I'm in the middle of my confusion when I hear a beep fr
Alex dragged me to the Cafeteria. Yeah! He is holding my hand and everyone is staring at us."Hey!" He touched me. "Are you alright?" he asked me. He had the guts to ask me if I was okay. Honestly, I don't feel like talking to him."Pumpkin?" he asked softly.I raised an eyebrow again and pointed my finger at him."One more pumpkin and I'll really punch you big time!" I withdrew the hand he had been holding. "What's the matter with you? Aren't you done teasing me!" I said angrily."Chill!" he said jokingly. He raised both his hands facing me with a smile."Do you think I can still stay calm in my situation now?" I raised an eyebrow at him again. "Been to detention because of you, for a stupid reason!" I looked at him from head to toe. "For what? Kissing you?" I pushed him. "Correction Mr. Alonzo, I didn't even think of touching your face!" I keep saying. I didn't want to cause a scene, so I talked to him in a whisper. "First, I don't fucking know you! Second, I don't have plans on lik
I can't seem to handle the headache I'm having right now. I didn't know that this is what a hangover feels like. I wonder how I got to my bed remembering last nights scenes.I puked.That's the last scene that I can recall.What happened next? Who was the guy I was with last night?Did something happen? Oh my God!I kept remembering everything, but only a few scenes would come out.You're mine!A flashback quickly passes in my memory.What? Talking to a stranger all night long just to tell him "You're mine?"Are you crazy Mildred Alex Kate?Shit!When will I stop dismaying myself?Shit, Alex!Never drink alcohol again!I wanted to head-bang my head because of too much embarrassment, but I still couldn't handle the sore in my head. I check my wristwatch, it's past 9 am already and I know I'm
I am sitting on the sofa facing him."So, how are we going to go home?" I asked him with a raised eyebrow."I said, we can't!" He raised his eyebrow at me as well."We are in the middle of nowhere, Alex!" I stood up with my hands on my hips. "Far from the city! We don't even have money!" I waved my hands in the air. "So, how am I going to explain this to anyone? Huh?" I slowly narrowed my face at him. "I'm only 16, Alex! What if Dad finds out that I'm not home?" I sat down heavily, scratching my head.Stupid!"I don't know." That was his only response amidst all my words. He was still leaning against the wall. He seemed relaxed, but I felt so nervous.I can't even stand this guy for a day, how much more for a week!"What about our classes? We'll be absent for a week?" I asked. I was
Patrick's POV:Finally, I can be with Miyah now. It gives me a lot of courage to go back to the Philippines. Miyah gave me that strength.We're on our way to the restaurant where her best friend and her boyfriend are."Alex, Ken! Sorry, we're late!" Miyah said. The girl in front of me looks familiar. I can only see her back, but I'm already nervous.Is it you?"Alex, Ken, this is Patrick. Finally, you get to meet him!" Miyah happily said while holding my hand.It is her!It took me years before I finally moved on. Miyah is my life now. She completes the missing pieces of me.But why does it have to be her?Why does Alex have to be Miyah's best friend?"Babe, this is Alex, my best friend. And this is Ken, her boyfriend!" Miyah said cheerfully. She smiles at me, and I feel guilty."Hi,"
I was the one who left. I left him with no explanations, so it's right to act that he doesn't know me at all."Oh! Right, Alex. He's from Cebu, and I guess you went to the same high school," Miyah said while chewing her food."Really?" I pretended to be surprised by Miyah's statement. I acted like I didn't know him as well. I wanted to cry, but I knew I should not ruin this day."Yeah, right baby?" she asked the man from my past."Yes babe," he smiled sweetly at Miyah.This is killing me."Please excuse me!" I said, standing up. I went to the restroom and broke down. I know I'm still wearing makeup, but I can't help it now. I can't handle it.Why now, Alex?Why Miyah?Am I really entangled in my past?Why can't I be happy for Miyah?I stayed there for almost thirty minutes until
I woke up to the sound of my cellphone. "Hello?" I asked groggily."Alex! Where are you? Why didn't you come to class? Do you know we had a quiz earlier? What's your excuse for Mrs. Galvez? You know she's strict!" Miyah bombarded me with questions."I just woke up," I replied, not in the mood."Oh! Really? It's already two in the afternoon, Alex. Are you sick? Sorry—How are you feeling?" she asked, concerned."I'm okay, Miyah, just needed some extra sleep," I replied, still not in the mood."Okay, I'm on my way," she added."Wait, no! We still have the next subject—" I couldn't finish my sentence as she hung up on me.Miyah has always been like that, treating me like her younger sister. Whenever I'm sick, she's there to take care of me. She prioritizes me over her own needs, just like now, skipping class b
A moment of silence ensued, but curiosity got the better of me, so I asked, "Are you a transferee?"He seemed confused. "No, I'm not. You just don't see me because I don't like people looking at me. I'm always covered with my shadow," he said in quick succession. He took three consecutive sips.Ah, I see. Not all dreams come true."I was talking to my ex that time you threw the vase," he admitted, looking hurt.Really? Did I ruin everything?"But you were laughing that day, right?" I asked, puzzled."Yes, I was," he replied shortly. "She was asking for my forgiveness at that time," he said calmly. "She cheated, anyway!" He smirked again. "I find it amusing because, despite all the things she did, she still had the audacity to ask for us to get back together!" I just stared at him. "
I was enjoying my meal alone in the kitchen with explosions of thoughts about my dream still lingering in my mind. It felt so real, yet I could vividly see Alex's back by the beach, not quite the same as in my dream.As I sipped on a glass of water, a sudden flashback occurred."I liked you, Alex!"I gasped in surprise."No! No! That was just a dream, dear. Don't be so surprised. According to some beliefs, dreams are the exact opposite of reality!" I tried to calm myself as the scenes kept flashing back."Every time I call you ugly, that means you are the most beautiful woman in my eyes. When I said you're stupid, I was referring to myself that I can't even express how much I like you.""That's nonsense!" I shouted, tapping the table in frustration. My anger was reaching its peak."What nonsense?" Alex's voice surprised me as he was already behind me.
I am sitting on the sofa facing him."So, how are we going to go home?" I asked him with a raised eyebrow."I said, we can't!" He raised his eyebrow at me as well."We are in the middle of nowhere, Alex!" I stood up with my hands on my hips. "Far from the city! We don't even have money!" I waved my hands in the air. "So, how am I going to explain this to anyone? Huh?" I slowly narrowed my face at him. "I'm only 16, Alex! What if Dad finds out that I'm not home?" I sat down heavily, scratching my head.Stupid!"I don't know." That was his only response amidst all my words. He was still leaning against the wall. He seemed relaxed, but I felt so nervous.I can't even stand this guy for a day, how much more for a week!"What about our classes? We'll be absent for a week?" I asked. I was
I can't seem to handle the headache I'm having right now. I didn't know that this is what a hangover feels like. I wonder how I got to my bed remembering last nights scenes.I puked.That's the last scene that I can recall.What happened next? Who was the guy I was with last night?Did something happen? Oh my God!I kept remembering everything, but only a few scenes would come out.You're mine!A flashback quickly passes in my memory.What? Talking to a stranger all night long just to tell him "You're mine?"Are you crazy Mildred Alex Kate?Shit!When will I stop dismaying myself?Shit, Alex!Never drink alcohol again!I wanted to head-bang my head because of too much embarrassment, but I still couldn't handle the sore in my head. I check my wristwatch, it's past 9 am already and I know I'm
Alex dragged me to the Cafeteria. Yeah! He is holding my hand and everyone is staring at us."Hey!" He touched me. "Are you alright?" he asked me. He had the guts to ask me if I was okay. Honestly, I don't feel like talking to him."Pumpkin?" he asked softly.I raised an eyebrow again and pointed my finger at him."One more pumpkin and I'll really punch you big time!" I withdrew the hand he had been holding. "What's the matter with you? Aren't you done teasing me!" I said angrily."Chill!" he said jokingly. He raised both his hands facing me with a smile."Do you think I can still stay calm in my situation now?" I raised an eyebrow at him again. "Been to detention because of you, for a stupid reason!" I looked at him from head to toe. "For what? Kissing you?" I pushed him. "Correction Mr. Alonzo, I didn't even think of touching your face!" I keep saying. I didn't want to cause a scene, so I talked to him in a whisper. "First, I don't fucking know you! Second, I don't have plans on lik
"Miss me?"His voice made me stand from where I was staying.Oh, shit!He's really awake. My hand became shaky while answering the phone. My heart keeps pounding so fast that I can't even control myself on how to breathe properly."I know you fucking miss me, pumpkin!" He chuckled and cut the line. I know he is smirking right now.What's with you, Alex?That made me more wide awake at this hour. It seems that the situation has become upside down. I missed him not messing with me.Jerk!Feeling blessed?I can't get why he's playing hard to get this time!I keep talking to myself. I handed the folded folder on top of my desk while calming myself. I eyed the air conditioner, thinking that it was not functioning because of the sweat coming from my forehead.Huh! You are not handsome anyway. Tss!I kept punching my pillows. I can't get enough from him answering the call. I couldn't find the perfect position that would put me to sleep.I'm in the middle of my confusion when I hear a beep fr