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2024-04-16 12:41:54Elaine
Then the golden light called upon me. “Elaine.”
"Who are you? How do you know my name?" I asked, as the light soothed my worries. Just hearing its voice made me feel better.
"I'm Neeya, and I'm your spirit wolf," came the reply.
"You're kidding.” I couldn't help but laugh. “I am wolfless, and I've come to terms with that already.”
“But it’s true,” the voice persisted. "Trying to explain why you can sense me now is difficult, so I won't delve into that. What’s important thing is that I'm here now, and I'll always be with you as your friend. You won't be alone anymore, Elaine. I will be your companion… forever."
Her last statement flattered my heart, and even though I couldn’t see her form, I could feel her smiling at me. A lone tear escaped my eyes.
Warmth and comfort like none I’d ever experienced flooded my senses.
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“Bestie? Thank God, you’re awake!”I opened my eyes to see my best friend, Liz, with tears streaming down her face. She held my hand, looking agitated but relieved.
“Liz? W-What are you doing here? Where… am I?” I asked, scanning the room. With the white walls, a steel bed, and the smell of antiseptic, it was clear I was in the hospital.
The question is, what am I doing here?
“You scared the hell out of me!” Liz shouted as she threw herself at me. She clung to me as if I had been brought back from the dead, and the way her shoulders moved up and down indicated she was crying non-stop. Eventually, she lifted her head and peered at me. “Good thing your healing power was activated somehow. If not, you surely would have died.”
Healing power? How could I have that power if I didn’t have a wolf? Wait. Was the dream real? Did I really meet Neeya?
“That's right, Elaine. I'm as real as it gets,” Neeya confirmed inside my head, startling me. “But no one should know about me, though. Let’s keep it that way for now, for your protection. Can you do that, hmm?”
“Of course, Neeya, you can count on me,” I said without hesitation, assuring her that I would keep our little secret.
Just then, Liz pulled away from me and asked. "How's your head feeling? ” she asked casually.
I furrowed my brows in response. I felt great headache.
“Why am I in the hospital?” I exclaimed.
“You had a car accident!” Liz protested.
“Accident? I’ve been in an accident?” I put a hand to my head and felt bandages, and my body felt sore all over.
“A car accident, yes,” Liz confirmed. She then lightly caressed my shoulder, looking concerned.“I can’t believe Tristan Hale didn’t even bother to visit you here.”
“Tristan? Why would the Alpha heir of Wolfsilver Pack bother to visit me?” I said sarcastically, expecting Liz to tell me she’d said that as a joke.
Instead, her eyes widened, and she couldn’t seem to find the next words to say. “Tristan is now the Alpha. His father is dead.”
I gaped. "Alpha Roman is dead? Since when? How come I didn't know?"
Liz palmed her forehead, looking even more concerned. An awkward silence followed before she said, “You’re married to Alpha Tristan, Elaine.
”My ears twitched upon hearing her words. Me, married to Tristan Hale? Was this some kind of a joke?
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ElaineTristan clenched his fists, his anger filling the room. “Fine then. Don’t you dare come begging for attention,” he said, his face flushed with emotion, his eyes narrowed in disdain. “Even if you threaten to harm yourself, I won’t yield. I'll never lay a hand on you again!” His words cut through the air like knives, sharp and filled with resentment. He ran a hand through his hair, muttering curses under his breath. Then he turned on his heel and headed for the door. With his hand on the doorknob and a dagger filled look aimed my way, he said, “Now, make your way downstairs and join me for dinner!” Then he stormed out of the room. I couldn’t help but sigh after the confrontation. His words struck me with the force of a blow, each one carrying the weight of his anger and authority. Though it had been a demand, a surge of defiance rose within me. But I knew better than to challenge him further. I also couldn't ignore the underlying acknowledgment of our relationship, our marriag
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Elaine If I were to ask, I wanted nothing from Tristan and couldn’t care less if he hosted a party without me. But I was also the Luna of Wolfsilver Pack, and I wasn’t that selfish to neglect my duty just because my husband and I didn’t get along. The Alpha Conference in Lycos was such a big event that hosting it would mean a lot of possible opportunities for our pack. Maybe that was the reason why Tristan chose me to accompany him at the party instead of Megan? And so, with no choice, I attended without any choice.When I entered the party hall, the atmosphere immediately shifted. Everyone stared at me with their judgment in their eyes, and several laughed and mocked me. "Can you believe the Alpha brought the Luna here? It's so unusual.”"I heard the Luna tried to end her own life. How embarrassing.”“Poor, Alpha. Imagine having a Luna as insecure and shameless as her!” Their gossip hurt me deeply, like a sharp knife slicing through my emotions. Even though some pretended to be p
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Elaine“Did you just remind me that you slapped me and wanted a divorce?”I took a moment to realize what I had done. Tristan’s face changed as his words registered with me. But surprisingly, his eyes no longer bore any hint of anger. Instead, expression softened, and now he looked at me with furrowed brows.My heart pounded in my chest as I instinctively took a step back away from Tristan. In the heat of the moment, what I truly desired to say came out suddenly. But unfortunately, I forgot that the wolf I insulted in front of everybody was now the Alpa of Wolfsilver Pack. Oh, shoot! What have I done? “Elaine…” the stranger uttered. His voice was filled with worry but I paid no attention to him. Tristan’s reaction mattered to me more and now waiting for his next move.I had just said some hurtful words, and on top of that, I had bravely hit him. The murmurs from the pack members reached my ears as they started gathering around. “Did we hear it right? Did she hit Alpha Tristan?”“A
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