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Chapter 187

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Elaine

“What do you mean?” Holding my tightened chest, I could barely manage to ask. Neeya’s words made no sense. My head spun as I tried to understand her. But when I looked down, I saw blood dripping from my mouth and pooling on the floor. I coughed hard, more blood coming out, and fear filled my mind.

This couldn’t be real. My chest hurt more, and my breathing became faster. I needed answers, and I needed them now.

“How can a simple rejection spiel kill?” I added.

Neeya took a deep breath before answering. “It will, if your wolf power is like mine.”

Her words were calm and sounded convincing. Yet still, it was still hard to process. Wolf power like hers? What did she mean?

My head spun as none of her words made sense. I placed my fingers on the side of my head and massaged it. I wanted to ask more questions, but the tightening in my chest and the stabbing pain that came out of nowhere held me back. Perhaps sensing my weakened state, Neeya continued to shed some light.

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