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Elaine“You must be starving now. I made you breakfast,” Trevor said as he placed the tray on the empty nightstand.I greeted him with a smile and warmed by his kind gesture. He sat on the bedside and revealed the food he had prepared. The tray held freshly made pancakes drizzled with honey syrup, a pile of crispy bacon, and two sunny-side-up eggs. To pair with the meal, Trevor had included a glass of orange juice and water.“That’s too much, Trevor,” I said with a smile as I looked at the spread he had made.Trevor shook his head lightly.“Looks just right to me,” he replied with a playful tone. “Anyway… how are you feeling?” His warm hand covered mine as he gently stroked it, waiting for my response.“I feel better now,” I replied, though my mind was still preoccupied with a strange dream I had earlier. Suddenly, panic shot through my body as a thought hit me.“What time is it?”Trevor glanced at his wristwatch. “It’s 9:30,” he answered.I leaped out of bed in a flurry of panic and
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TristanEver since the mating ritual, Elaine had taken over my thoughts like a parasite.Each day, my instincts became stronger. I couldn’t stop thinking about her, no matter how hard I tried not to. I couldn’t think of anything else except for her. It felt impossible to live my life while holding back these feelings. I never knew being away from my mate could be this difficult.Every second that passed made me want her even more.“What is she doing now? Is she with Trevor? Does she think about me the way I think about her?” I whispered to myself in the office.After the ritual, I could never feel calm again. Sitting still without her near me was impossible. Whenever I thought of Elaine, my mind felt broken. I couldn’t focus. I couldn’t act right. The bond between us was so strong it controlled everything I did.I wanted to be with Elaine so badly that I would do anything to make it happen. I gritted my teeth as frustration filled me. I had no ideas left to win her over. And the thou
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ElaineI spent the whole day happily with Trevor. There was nothing more fulfilling than having him by my side. His presence brought me so much joy and a reason to fight. His love became a new hope for me. How could I let anything destroy us? We spent our time watching a movie, being cozy under a thick blanket and snacks he personally made. I feel like the world belongs to us.But there was one thing that I couldn’t get rid of my head.That was the reality of me being fated to another and I couldn't seem to do anything about it.At least, for now.“Are you okay?” Trevor asked as he wrapped his other arm around my shoulders. “Yeah. Why do you ask?” I responded calmly, not hinting that something was off with me. “You’re more quiet than usual.” Trevor worriedly stated. He paused the movie we were watching and focused his attention on me. I tried to let him know what happened at the mating ritual. But seeing his sweet smile made me unable to express my words. How could I let myself br
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ElaineMy eyes remained shut. I was afraid to look at him, as the expression I might see on his face could haunt me. I didn’t think I could handle witnessing his pain upon hearing the truth.But the silence was unbearable. My ears strained to catch his words. But moments passed, and Trevor was still silent. Slowly, I opened my eyes. I lifted my head and tried to steal a glance at him. My heart sank at the sight of the sadness on his face. There was an obvious disappointment in his eyes and the way his jaw had dropped at what I’d said.Then, he spoke.“Does this mean you’re still not rejecting your mate?” My vision blurred as tears threatened to fall, blurring the devastated expression on Trevor’s face.“Y-yes,” I answered weakly.Trevor’s delighted mood vanished in an instant. The sweet smile he’d been giving me disappeared without a word. Even in his silence, I could feel how deeply I’d hurt him. Overwhelmed with guilt, I grabbed his arms tightly and began to explain.“I don’t want
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ElaineThe next day brought another chance to be happy again. I was back to work. After having a proper talk with Trevor, I felt ready to face a new day.When I arrived at the office, the usual sights greeted me. Everyone was busy chit-chatting before the clock struck the time to start working again. While placing my belongings on my desk, I overheard people discussing the recent mating ritual. Most of the employees who had attended the event were glowing. It seemed the mating ritual had been a huge success.At least, for them.Their excitement echoed throughout the office, and I felt like a middle school student entering class after a long vacation.One of my colleagues approached me with a curious expression.“Oh, you’re finally here! How was the mating ritual?”I had expected this unnecessary involvement in the conversation. I simply gave a polite smile and told the truth.“I already have a boyfriend. Whoever I met that night doesn’t matter to me.”Rumors spread quickly like wildfi
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ElaineWalking down the hallway toward Mr. Smith’s office with Nancy, I began to wonder what the sudden call could be about. Maybe there’s a new project coming up that I missed while I was gone. Did they have a meeting that I wasn’t informed about?A lump formed in my throat as I thought about it. A morning call is unnecessary unless it’s urgent. There’s no way I wouldn’t get nervous thinking about it.The workday had just begun, and now Mr. Smith wanted to see me.Should I get worried? What if something bad happened again? The thought is killing me. Nancy stood in front of the office door. She knocked three times before entering. I followed her inside. Unexpectedly, Mr. Smith was sitting with his serious demeanor. This made my heart throbbed inside my chest. “I brought the package, Mr Smith,” Nancy joked. The light banter made my nerves settle down a bit.“Thank you, Nancy,” he responded with a lighthearted smile. Nancy bowed slightly and left the room. Afterward, I took a step f
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TrevorI stretched my arms into the air, smiling. Today had been a productive day. I’d finished the entire file I was supposed to complete today. I checked the time on my wristwatch as I folded my laptop. It was only 3 p.m.Standing up from my office chair, I already had a few ideas about how I wanted to spend the rest of the day.I’ve always been grateful for the little things. This job doesn’t rob me of the beauty of spending time with Elaine. It gives me plenty of freedom to enjoy life. Anytime, anywhere, and on any occasion, I can get my work done on my own terms. Nothing feels better than that. Elaine can always have me whenever she needs me. I can provide for her, and I’m proud to fulfill my responsibilities as her chosen partner in life.“She might appreciate a little surprise. What do you think?” I asked my wolf inside.“What’s the occasion?” Dillon asked in return.“Nothing, really. But she’s special enough to deserve a surprise, even on ordinary days.” “Psh. Whatever, Mr.
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TristanI was shocked to see that familiar face staring back at me.“TREVOR?!” I exclaimed in my head.“Why does he have to be everywhere?” I thought, with resentment seeping into my mind. I didn’t need a mirror to know the irritation was clear on my face.No way could I just look him in the eye like everything was fine. After all, he’d taken my property. He’d stolen Elaine and poisoned her mind with his lies. Trevor had done nothing but throw gasoline on the fire and make sure Elaine hated me even more.Trevor’s gaze met mine, and, just like me, he didn’t look thrilled to see me. His presence radiated an air of intimidation like he wasn’t afraid of me. I just scoffed at it.But then, something colorful caught my eye. This bastard was holding a fresh bouquet of flowers!The sight immediately soured my mood. I knew those flowers were for Elaine. My blood boiled. How dare this bastard give flowers to my mate. TO MY WIFE! The anger hit me like a tidal wave. Every muscle screamed to lash
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ElaineMike and Ruther looked at each other. I didn’t know what they were thinking. But I saw something in their eyes that I hadn’t seen in the days we were together. Fear. Worry. Something…serious. My stomach turned. I suddenly felt my throat dry all of a sudden. There was something eerie hovering in the air that made my skin crawl. And yet, all I could do was to stay quiet and observe. I felt Tristan stepped beside me. He was close enough for me to feel the heat from his body. His body became tensed. I wasn’t looking at him but I could feel through his whole posture that he was preparing for something worse. He was ready to protect. To protect me. Elsa walked a few steps and crouched low. By the looks of it, she was looking for something. Or to describe it exactly, she was investigating the ground for any clues. Suddenly, I heard her growl. It was enough for me to be nervous more. “There’s blood,” she said. Her voice was cold but full of concern. “It’s still fresh so whateve
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ElaineEight days since we left Silver Rose Pack.I still couldn't believe that we had reached the final stage of our training. I watched the trees outside by the window of the cabin that became our temporary home with gratitude. It was like they were waving goodbye to me. I smiled at the thought. Maybe, they did. After all, they were the sole witness of the things we’ve been through here. And I was so glad that those sufferings yielded positive results that we were all grateful for. Tristan was packing the last of his things behind me. Meanwhile, the others were outside getting ready for our journey home.I pulled the straps on my bag and took a deep breath. I tried to keep my mind calm. So much had happened in the last few days. And today, we were finally leaving those things behind and ready to move forward. Towards our goal. I remembered our training under the waterfall. The water was freezing cold and hit our bodies hard. We had to stand under it for six hours without falling.
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TristanI felt the oozing lust in the way Elaine looked at me. But at the same time, I caught a glance of tremendous desperation in her. That broke me into pieces.“I promise. We will get through this night together,” I responded.Elaine smiled. There was still some sense left in her. I knew it was the drug that was doing this to her.Soon enough, Elaine folded her knees and held onto her chest. The pain struck her.“I feel warm inside… so warm that I can’t take this anymore… help me, Tristan.” Then violently, Elaine pulled my arms into a hug.After years of struggling through a life without her, the embrace that felt like home touched my skin again.“Your hug is like water quenching decades of thirst in my body.” Her breathing became heavy in my ears.Elaine pulled the back of my head.“Hey, handsome.” Her voice started to sing a different melody. Elaine now wore a tune of seduction.I instantly pulled away from her embrace.“No, Elaine. Stop this.”Earlier, Elaine was begging desper
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TristanI carried Elaine until we reached the camp. I put her inside our quarters before confronting Elsa. Elsa was completely calm. From the outside, we could hear Elaine’s agony, but these wolves seemed to have no care at all. By the way they stood and portrayed strange calmness, it was like everyone expected it to happen.“Something is off about your medicine!” I shouted at Elsa. “You’re not deaf to hear those screams, are you? Why are you standing here doing nothing?!”Elsa suddenly jumped from the porch, launching at me. It was good that my reflexes were fast enough to dodge the attack. I jumped away from her group.“What the fuck was that?” I exclaimed. Ruther and Mike didn’t bother to help and just watched.The second I removed my eyes from Elsa, she launched another surprise attack. This time, I saw an injection in her hand. I jumped to the side, dodging another shot.“Stop running away,” Elsa told me.Elsa twisted her left ankle and pounced on my whole body. She managed to
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TristanI looked at Elaine, checking every detail of her body. Clearly, the exhaustion in her body was pushed to its limits. We made it up to the last second. The training was a success. But at what cost?“Elaine… Can you hear me?” I asked her.I felt something was odd with her body heat. I touched Elaine’s forehead using the tip of my fingers. It was as hot as a kettle. Her body temperature was soaring high.“This is bad…” I muttered, turning my head around, seeking Elsa and Ruther.Elaine started moaning because of the fever. She twitched her body in different directions. I saw how Elaine clenched her fist, battling against the pain in her.“Elsa!” I called out to her.I gently placed Elaine’s head on the soft pillow and grabbed the towel I threw earlier. Then I soaked it deep into the water in the sink, ran back to Elaine, and placed it on her forehead.“Don’t worry, you’re gonna be alright.” I carefully wiped her head down to her neck, hoping the wet towel would help with the high
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TristanA soul binding? I have never heard such a word. I never knew such a thing existed in our timeline.I put my hands on my head, feeling helpless, not knowing what to do or how to help. Is it even safe? Will it throw Elaine into danger?“This is the most vital part of being a Silvermare. Finally, her wolf wholeheartedly accepted Elaine.”“I don’t understand a single word you say. But this could kill Elaine. She’s not ready to morph. She’s not ready for this.”Elsa countered with a much louder voice.“It wasn’t you who would decide that. It’s her wolf.”Elsa has a point. I have no right to any part of Elaine’s life. I wish to know what’s running inside Elaine’s wolf. Why did she choose Elaine over everybody else? Her gift only leads her to more pain.Elaine continued the process. I could barely stand the sight. The groans of pain drilled into my head. I tried to turn away my gaze.My heart ached and pierced right through my soul. I slammed my arms against the ground in frustration
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TristanElaine suddenly emitted a beaming light coming out from her body. Those bursting beams penetrated the whole area. We took more steps away from Elaine. Elsa and Ruther stood tall in front of Elaine who levitated more into the ground. Probably the same height as the tall trees around us. Fear succumbed to my heart. I was scared and confused as hell. I’m like a child witnessing some things only adults could understand. “ELAINE!” I called out to her. My veins popped on my neck as I tried to scream her name. Her eyes were glowing yellow, shining so much that it made my eyebrows scrunched protecting my eyes. Elsa smirked. While Ruther remains unshaken. These two looked at Elaine like they had witnessed this kind of stuff before. “Now, you will see a Silvermare’s true form,” Elsa proudly declared. Elaine flows with the air. She dances with it. Elaine totally lost will over her own body. The place soon filled with more blazing lights, sparkling magically on the river and any li
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TristanThe waterfall crashed down with so much force. It had overpowered many before, and now, it was pushing Elaine to her limit.“10 more minutes!” I shouted as loud as I could. “It’s just a blink of an eye, and you’ll be done!”From where I stood, I could see how much she was struggling. Her whole body was shaking, her legs barely able to keep her up. She was trying so hard to stay standing, but I knew she was almost at her breaking point.At that moment, I had to accept the truth.Ten minutes probably felt like forever to her. The training had reached its hardest point, and Elaine just couldn’t hold on much longer. No matter how badly she wanted to, her body was giving out.Hope left in me. I know as Elaine’s mate, there was nothing more to do. I threw the towel in already, as a way of saying we did well at this training. This is brutal enough for Elaine’s physique. I knew from the start it was an impossible task. “That’s enough,” I shouted at Elsa. I went down to the water, tr
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ElaineAnother boost of energy surged through my body, but exhaustion was creeping in. I knew 30 minutes wasn’t that long anymore. I was so close to the finish line. Yet, the relentless force of the waterfall felt heavier than before, pressing down on my shoulders like a mountain. My muscles screamed in protest, and my breathing turned ragged.My knees started to bend, trembling under the weight of my own exhaustion. I clenched my fists, digging my nails into my palms, desperate to keep myself upright. I couldn’t fail now. Not when I had come this far. Not when Tristan was watching, his eyes filled with silent encouragement.“20 more minutes. Hang in there a little longer, please.” Maybe Tristan saw how I was about to lose consciousness that’s why he’s yelling desperately. I know I have little to no strength to continue. But I am almost there at the finish line. At that point, I decided to call out to my spirit wolf. “Neeya…” I whispered at the back of my head. My body lost balanc
