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TrevorI stared down at Elaine’s previous messages. [Hi! How are you?][You seemed busy these days. I hope you are well, though.][I’ve got a lot of things to update you about. I hope to see you when you’re available.]The messages were so straightforward yet it made my chest tighten. I knew I should’ve replied the moment I saw them but instead, I just sat there with my phone in my hand unable to type a single word back. What the fuck was wrong with me?My wolf, Dillon, spoke up inside my mind. “How long are you planning to keep ignoring her?”His voice only added to my frustration. In the end, I chose not to answer him. I just picked up my wine glass and took a long drink, hoping it would dull my pent-up emotions. But Dillon wasn’t about to let this go. He’d been at me ever that night… pushing… trying to get me to forget about what happened that night.“You’re making a mistake, Trevor,” Dillon added. “You should go to Elaine. I have a feeling that Elaine needs us. She’s reaching ou
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Elaine"Home at last!"My feet dragged as I stepped inside and quietly shut the door. I double-checked each lock I’d installed and made sure everything was secure. The last thing I wanted was to face another intruder and end up in a dangerous situation again.I let my bag drop to the floor lazily before sinking into the couch. The cushions wrapped around me, providing some comfort I needed at the moment. A deep sigh slipped from my lips. Somehow, I’d thought a day at the mall would help me relax and clear my head but I was wrong. Because now, I felt even more exhausted than when I’d left earlier and I didn’t even know why. I shook my head and I almost laughed at myself. Emotional exhaustion.That was the only way to describe it. It was like there was a heavy, invisible weight that suffocated me. Unfortunately, no amount of shopping or casual distractions could lift it. Dang! How did I end up in such a miserable state? I brought my hand to my temple to massage it a bit. The pleasur
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ElaineMy heart skipped a beat. I felt my pulse quicken when I heard how husky his voice was. A fluttering warmth filled my chest. Standing there in a plain white shirt and shorts, Trevor looked effortlessly cute. Every little detail about him just pulled me in more and more. “Elaine? What's wrong?” he called my attention again. Our eyes locked. And we both lingered in the moment. There was something in his eyes that mirrored what I felt. It was a blend of surprise, curiosity, and maybe... longing.The thought was enough to make my cheeks flush. I swallowed, finding it harder than I expected to break the silence. Trevor and I were so close to each other. I could pick up the faint scent of his cologne mixed with the fresh and clean aroma of his shirt. And though his hair was slightly messy, it didn't make him less handsome in my eyes.Finally, I had the courage to speak. “Can I… come in?” He blinked as if coming out of a trance. he then smiled and I could have sworn it was enough to
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ElaineThe world seemed to spin as I stood there. My heart was pounding so hard that I could feel it echo in my ears. For a moment, I thought it might explode.Everything felt surreal. It was like a dream I never wanted to wake from.Trevor’s lips were still pressed against mine, leaving me both paralyzed and speechless. I kept asking myself if any of this was real. I clenched my fists at my sides until my nails dug into my palms, just to check if I was dreaming. The slight sting reassured me I was awake. His lips moved softly at first, exploring, questioning, as if he wasn’t quite sure this was real. But then, the kiss gradually changed. His kiss deepened, and I could immediately feel his longing. His hand slid to my back, pulling me closer. At that moment, all my reservations vanished. The next thing I knew, I melted into him, tangling my fingers in his hair to savor every second.Dear goddess, how could a simple kiss be this life-changing?My knees shook, and if not for his suppor
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Elaine"W-What did you say?" The moment Trevor scooped me up from the ground, my heart started pounding so loudly that I was sure Trevor could hear it. My insides knotted feeling his arms around me. I should probably say something by now or do something, especially when he began to move. But words felt stuck in my throat. Everything about this moment tangled up with excitement and nerves.We moved through the hall toward his bedroom, and I held my breath in response. My mind spun with a million questions of “what ifs” and “will he?” and yet nothing seemed to have answered it. My pulse raced erratically, but I did nothing to stop him. Deep down, I knew I was more excited than I could ever admit. Whatever he was about to do, I was more than ready to do it too.Trevor nudged the door open with his shoulder and as we entered the room, he lowered me gently onto the bed. I felt the mattress beneath me as he placed me down with such care. When he looked down at me, I couldn't read anything
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ElaineThe next day, I woke up wrapped in Trevor’s arms. I shifted slightly, and his sleeping face came into view. I couldn’t help but study every detail. My eyes traced each feature, admiring the person lying beside me. I never expected he would look so vulnerable like this. He was like a baby sleeping peacefully in his crib. It was as if he hadn’t truly slept for days. The thought that he could finally find rest with me made my heart swell.Slowly, I lifted his arm from around my waist, careful not to wake him. I slipped out of bed and tiptoed across his apartment. I grabbed the stray pieces of clothing and items strewn around. Well, I couldn't leave him in this messy place. So, I found myself straightening his space. After tidying up, I took a quick bath. I let the warmth of the water shake off any lingering drowsiness. I pulled out a simple white shirt and shorts from his dresser. I was sure he wouldn’t mind me borrowing them, as I hadn’t brought any spare clothes from yesterday.
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ElaineI took a deep breath as I stood in front of the mirror, examining my reflection. My hair was swept up neatly. And the dress I’d chosen, simple but elegant, felt both like armor and an invitation to embrace the night. I was grateful Mr. Smith had sent me home two hours early to prepare. Initially, I’d protested, telling him that I had no problem working until my shift ended. But he’d insisted. He pointed out that I’d never once missed work or asked for time off since I’d been hired. “Elaine, you deserve some time for yourself. Go, enjoy the party,” he said with a smile.So, here I was, looking at myself in a way I hadn’t in a long time. The party was formal, yes, but it was more than that for me. This was a rare opportunity to reconnect with my past and bridge the gaps in my memory with the familiar faces and voices from the orphanage. This was exactly the reason why I decided not to invite Trevor. I wanted to have this time for myself and find the missing piece of life that
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ElaineThe spotlight remained focused on us as Tristan inched closer to me. Everyone in the crowd was clapping. In their eyes, you could see how much excitement they were feeling to see us together. Lily made quite an expression by her introduction yet I knew that those words were far from the truth. I kept a small, polite smile on my face, trying to look calm. But inside, I was a mess. I came here to this event to reconnect with my forgotten past. However, Tristan was not part of it. My hands were sweaty, and I clenched them into fists to hide how nervous I was. My nails dug into my palms, just enough to help me stay steady. Part of me wanted to walk off the stage. I wanted to run away from all the eyes watching us that I felt was suffocating me. But I couldn’t move. My whole body felt stiff, and I could feel a chill down my back as if I was stuck in place. I felt trapped.I took a deep breath, trying to push down the uncomfortable feeling in my stomach. Everything felt wrong. This
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TristanAfter everything I had witnessed, I knew I had to do something. My mind was filled with countless thoughts about the conflict within my own territory. I knew I had to act, or I would lose my head in front of everyone.I had no idea how long I had been staring blankly at the empty seats inside the council room. But soon, I decided to head back to my office. I didn’t want to go home. As much as possible, I wanted to learn more about the welfare of the pack. I had been left behind, so I needed to adapt and make everyone realize I was still someone they could rely on as a leader.On my way to my office, I felt the urge to go to the bathroom. I stepped inside one of the cubicles, relieving myself after holding it in since the meeting. Until I heard a group of wolves enter the bathroom.“I admire your patience, Gamma Jeff.” From the deep pitch of his voice, I knew right away that Gamma Ben was the one speaking.“If I were in your shoes, I would have totally lost it. It’s impossible
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TristanOnce the final decision was made, the council members quickly moved on. They gathered their notes and folders and stacked them on the table without a second thought. Their focus was elsewhere. Their movements were smooth and natural. Again, they acted as if I wasn’t even there.Not one of them looked my way. Not one of them showed the slightest hint of interest or even acknowledgment after the meeting ended. It was as if I was just another wolf sitting among them. That I was present only out of formality and nothing more.As they got ready to leave, a tight feeling settled in my chest. I couldn’t ignore it. My pride as Alpha wouldn’t let me sit there in silence. I couldn’t hold back anymore. So, I raised my hand and tried to get their attention.“I don’t appreciate being made to feel like I’m no longer needed here.”My voice was calm enough but I am sure they all realized the firmness and authority I wrapped beneath those words. I might be disregarded but I am still the one
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TristanThe morning air was crisp as I woke before dawn. The faint glow of early light barely crept through my window. I stretched, running a hand through my tousled hair My mind was already set. Today, I had made a decision, one I hadn’t made in a long time.Pushing back the covers, I rose from the bed and moved through the familiar routine of getting ready. The mirror showed a face I hardly knew. I saw a wolf with tired eyes, a hard jaw, and a shadow of the Alpha I once was. For too long, I had stayed away and neglected my duty. My mind had been full of thoughts of Elaine and all the mistakes I made and the things I could no longer fix. I forgot my responsibilities while drowning in my past.But now, the divorce was final. The last connection was broken, and nothing could hold me back anymore. Today, I decided to pick up the pieces and focus on the work I had neglected for so long. For today, it was time to get back that Alpha side of me. My shoes tapped against the wooden floor a
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ElaineSpending time with Trevor always made me happy. Dinner was wonderful. We decided to go to a nice French restaurant for a change. While we both loved Chinese food, we agreed to try something different this time.I twirled the last bite of pasta around my fork and enjoyed the creamy sauce. Across from me, Trevor leaned back in his chair. He was looking happy and relaxed. The soft light from the restaurant’s chandelier made his eyes shine.I felt my cheeks warm. He looked so handsome in my eyes! "You always do that," he said with a small smile, looking at my plate.I tilted my head. "Do what?""Save the best bite for last."I laughed. "Of course! The last bite should be the best one, right?"Trevor chuckled. "That makes sense. Maybe I should start doing that too.""Or maybe you should stop eating so fast," I teased.He laughed louder this time, shaking his head. "Hey, it’s not my fault. The steak was really good."I smiled and felt warm inside. Everything about this night felt ri
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Trevor"Good morning, Sir Trevor!" A she-wolf from the distant desk enthusiastically greeted me.As usual, these she-wolves never let me have a peaceful morning at work. One of them approached."Are you free later for lunch? A new store just opened right in front of our building. Wanna check it out?"She leaned her body against my arm. I slowly pulled away and freed myself from her grip."Well… I already told you, I have a girlfriend. And she wouldn't be impressed with the attention you're giving me." I chuckled playfully.“Aww…But it’s just lunch—”"Sorry, ladies, you came too late. Someone already owns my heart."The she-wolves surrounding me pouted."Come on… saying yes just once wouldn’t hurt her feelings."Awkwardly, I tried to change the topic."If you want, I can set up a date with some guys I know from our sister company. I’m sure they’d love every single one of you.""But no one will ever beat you.""YEAH!" another one exclaimed. "I mean, who wouldn’t want a guy like you? YOU
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TristanMy hands shook as I held the piece of paper I had received on my desk.“This can’t be real.”I checked every corner of the paper to verify the legitimacy of the signature and the mail. Seeing the real signature and stamp made it even more convincing. At that moment, reality hit me like a slap.“It’s over…” My soul whispered to me.Yes, Elaine was gone. She was no longer tied to my life, and this divorce paper served as proof. I had lost this battle, despite doing everything to win. My hands slowly pulled the paper into my palms and crumpled it with all my might.How had I let myself lose my wife? The thought alone was unbearable. Maybe it really was too late. Maybe, at some point, Elaine’s decision had been right. My anger crawled through my veins, surfacing in my office. I growled before slamming my arms onto the desk, which seemed fragile under the force of my rage. I shoved everything in front of me…pens, papers, even the glass of water and sent them crashing to the floor.
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ElaineThanks to Trevor, my normal routine was back on track. Those little things that always warmed me inside were finally back. His presence made everything brighter. Trevor was finally home. And this home finally felt complete.“Let’s eat,” I said, smiling at Trevor.Trevor’s smile suddenly faded. I looked at him, wanting to ask what was wrong.“Umm… you know…” he said hesitantly. “About what happened.”“Shhh.” I stepped closer and hugged him. “It’s alright now, my love. Let’s leave that in the past.”I saw the relief in his eyes as he hugged me back.“I’ll try to be better… for us,” Trevor assured me.“You’re always doing your best, my love.”Trevor pressed a sweet kiss to my forehead and thanked me.“Did you order the usual?”I nodded and carefully laid out the food on the table. He went to the kitchen cabinet and grabbed some plates for both of us. As he carefully served the food, I noticed a change in his smile. And I knew mine had changed too. Our happiness was intertwined. Wi
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ElaineFinally, after a long week, Sunday came. No office papers, no work, no pressure. Nothing beats the morning sun with nothing ahead in my time. It’s 8 o’clock. My body is already used to waking up early even during the weekend. A quiet and peaceful day. I played some soft music and decided to start my day doing some chores. During my work days, I didn't have plenty of time to clean. So usually, Sunday is a cleaning day. The soft music calmed my brain activity. Every worry left in me. For the first time in a week, I feel lighter and stress free. I started cleaning the living room. It didn’t have much mess since I was here all alone. The 2 rooms were also almost nothing to clean aside from the dust remaining in desks and shelves. Since I haven't been preparing food much lately. I only ordered food outside and was expecting a Chinese food delivery around lunch time. “A good day isn’t it?” I suddenly told my spirit wolf. “Hmmm. I’ll say a better day compared to what you had late
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Elaine I didn’t know why I let myself mindlessly follow him. Tristan was walking in front of me all quiet. Even I didn't even dare to speak to him. Though my head has a lot of thoughts running tirelessly. “This clearly is not a good option either.” I told myself while staring at his back. But anyone with their right mind would do the same thing. Compared to those perverts from that bar, Tristan was a lesser jerk. Still, I couldn’t even imagine where I have to deal with him again. The truth annoys me too. No matter how badly I think of him, Tristan saved me tonight. Unfortunately, I knew saying my gratitude would be like swallowing a whole piece of watermelon. “What if Tristan did that so he could do something to me?” This question that randomly popped in my head sending shivers into my spine. My heart pounded like crazy. It was possible for this jerk to do that. He was basically the same as the perverts if I would give it a deep thought. I grabbed my purse so hard from nervousn
