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ElaineMy heart skipped a beat. I felt my pulse quicken when I heard how husky his voice was. A fluttering warmth filled my chest. Standing there in a plain white shirt and shorts, Trevor looked effortlessly cute. Every little detail about him just pulled me in more and more. “Elaine? What's wrong?” he called my attention again. Our eyes locked. And we both lingered in the moment. There was something in his eyes that mirrored what I felt. It was a blend of surprise, curiosity, and maybe... longing.The thought was enough to make my cheeks flush. I swallowed, finding it harder than I expected to break the silence. Trevor and I were so close to each other. I could pick up the faint scent of his cologne mixed with the fresh and clean aroma of his shirt. And though his hair was slightly messy, it didn't make him less handsome in my eyes.Finally, I had the courage to speak. “Can I… come in?” He blinked as if coming out of a trance. he then smiled and I could have sworn it was enough to
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ElaineThe world seemed to spin as I stood there. My heart was pounding so hard that I could feel it echo in my ears. For a moment, I thought it might explode.Everything felt surreal. It was like a dream I never wanted to wake from.Trevor’s lips were still pressed against mine, leaving me both paralyzed and speechless. I kept asking myself if any of this was real. I clenched my fists at my sides until my nails dug into my palms, just to check if I was dreaming. The slight sting reassured me I was awake. His lips moved softly at first, exploring, questioning, as if he wasn’t quite sure this was real. But then, the kiss gradually changed. His kiss deepened, and I could immediately feel his longing. His hand slid to my back, pulling me closer. At that moment, all my reservations vanished. The next thing I knew, I melted into him, tangling my fingers in his hair to savor every second.Dear goddess, how could a simple kiss be this life-changing?My knees shook, and if not for his support
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Elaine"W-What did you say?" The moment Trevor scooped me up from the ground, my heart started pounding so loudly that I was sure Trevor could hear it. My insides knotted feeling his arms around me. I should probably say something by now or do something, especially when he began to move. But words felt stuck in my throat. Everything about this moment tangled up with excitement and nerves.We moved through the hall toward his bedroom, and I held my breath in response. My mind spun with a million questions of “what ifs” and “will he?” and yet nothing seemed to have answered it. My pulse raced erratically, but I did nothing to stop him. Deep down, I knew I was more excited than I could ever admit. Whatever he was about to do, I was more than ready to do it too.Trevor nudged the door open with his shoulder and as we entered the room, he lowered me gently onto the bed. I felt the mattress beneath me as he placed me down with such care. When he looked down at me, I couldn't read anything
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ElaineThe next day, I woke up wrapped in Trevor’s arms. I shifted slightly, and his sleeping face came into view. I couldn’t help but study every detail. My eyes traced each feature, admiring the person lying beside me. I never expected he would look so vulnerable like this. He was like a baby sleeping peacefully in his crib. It was as if he hadn’t truly slept for days. The thought that he could finally find rest with me made my heart swell.Slowly, I lifted his arm from around my waist, careful not to wake him. I slipped out of bed and tiptoed across his apartment. I grabbed the stray pieces of clothing and items strewn around. Well, I couldn't leave him in this messy place. So, I found myself straightening his space. After tidying up, I took a quick bath. I let the warmth of the water shake off any lingering drowsiness. I pulled out a simple white shirt and shorts from his dresser. I was sure he wouldn’t mind me borrowing them, as I hadn’t brought any spare clothes from yesterday.
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ElaineI took a deep breath as I stood in front of the mirror, examining my reflection. My hair was swept up neatly. And the dress I’d chosen, simple but elegant, felt both like armor and an invitation to embrace the night. I was grateful Mr. Smith had sent me home two hours early to prepare. Initially, I’d protested, telling him that I had no problem working until my shift ended. But he’d insisted. He pointed out that I’d never once missed work or asked for time off since I’d been hired. “Elaine, you deserve some time for yourself. Go, enjoy the party,” he said with a smile.So, here I was, looking at myself in a way I hadn’t in a long time. The party was formal, yes, but it was more than that for me. This was a rare opportunity to reconnect with my past and bridge the gaps in my memory with the familiar faces and voices from the orphanage. This was exactly the reason why I decided not to invite Trevor. I wanted to have this time for myself and find the missing piece of life that I
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ElaineThe spotlight remained focused on us as Tristan inched closer to me. Everyone in the crowd was clapping. In their eyes, you could see how much excitement they were feeling to see us together. Lily made quite an expression by her introduction yet I knew that those words were far from the truth. I kept a small, polite smile on my face, trying to look calm. But inside, I was a mess. I came here to this event to reconnect with my forgotten past. However, Tristan was not part of it. My hands were sweaty, and I clenched them into fists to hide how nervous I was. My nails dug into my palms, just enough to help me stay steady. Part of me wanted to walk off the stage. I wanted to run away from all the eyes watching us that I felt was suffocating me. But I couldn’t move. My whole body felt stiff, and I could feel a chill down my back as if I was stuck in place. I felt trapped.I took a deep breath, trying to push down the uncomfortable feeling in my stomach. Everything felt wrong. This
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ElaineI froze. My fingers tightened on my purse. I turned around and glared at him. I didn’t hide my annoyance. “The party’s over, Tristan. I don’t have to pretend to like you anymore,” I scoffed. But instead of stepping back, he smiled. No, he smirked, making my blood boil. He didn’t seem to get what I was trying to say. Instead, his eyes glinted with the same arrogance he kept on showing to me. I stayed still as he stepped closer. I looked away and crossed my arms, determined not to let him pull me back in. I let him sense my irritation just by looking at him."You think this is over?" he said, his voice low and condescending. "You think you can just walk away like nothing happened? We’ve been through too much for you to act like this."I almost laughed. The audacity. "You’ve been through too much? What about me, huh? What about what you did to me?" I could feel the anger bubbling up, but I held it in, keeping my voice steady. "You don’t get to make this about you anymore. I am wa
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Tristan and I turned toward the direction of the voice. I instantly felt relieved when I saw Trevor standing just a few feet away. I could see the anger and worry that was written on his face. His eyes went straight to Tristan’s grip on my arm and I immediately saw his anger. No, he was furious and immediately showed his protective nature. I hadn’t realized how much I needed to see that in someone right now and I was so glad that it was Trevor who embodied that. Trevor strode forward fast. And before I could say anything, he shoved Tristan hard enough to make him stumble back. “What the fuck?!” Tristan cursed under his breath as he fell yet Trevor didn’t even glance at him. His attention was all on me, like I was the only she-wolf that mattered in his world. And that made my heart melt. “Are you okay?” he asked gently. He sounded so worried. He hovered his hands like he wanted to touch my arm but was afraid of hurting me. I felt the lump in my throat grow. For the nth t
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TristanI felt the oozing lust in the way Elaine looked at me. But at the same time, I caught a glance of tremendous desperation in her. That broke me into pieces.“I promise. We will get through this night together,” I responded.Elaine smiled. There was still some sense left in her. I knew it was the drug that was doing this to her.Soon enough, Elaine folded her knees and held onto her chest. The pain struck her.“I feel warm inside… so warm that I can’t take this anymore… help me, Tristan.” Then violently, Elaine pulled my arms into a hug.After years of struggling through a life without her, the embrace that felt like home touched my skin again.“Your hug is like water quenching decades of thirst in my body.” Her breathing became heavy in my ears.Elaine pulled the back of my head.“Hey, handsome.” Her voice started to sing a different melody. Elaine now wore a tune of seduction.I instantly pulled away from her embrace.“No, Elaine. Stop this.”Earlier, Elaine was begging desper
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TristanI carried Elaine until we reached the camp. I put her inside our quarters before confronting Elsa. Elsa was completely calm. From the outside, we could hear Elaine’s agony, but these wolves seemed to have no care at all. By the way they stood and portrayed strange calmness, it was like everyone expected it to happen.“Something is off about your medicine!” I shouted at Elsa. “You’re not deaf to hear those screams, are you? Why are you standing here doing nothing?!”Elsa suddenly jumped from the porch, launching at me. It was good that my reflexes were fast enough to dodge the attack. I jumped away from her group.“What the fuck was that?” I exclaimed. Ruther and Mike didn’t bother to help and just watched.The second I removed my eyes from Elsa, she launched another surprise attack. This time, I saw an injection in her hand. I jumped to the side, dodging another shot.“Stop running away,” Elsa told me.Elsa twisted her left ankle and pounced on my whole body. She managed to
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TristanI looked at Elaine, checking every detail of her body. Clearly, the exhaustion in her body was pushed to its limits. We made it up to the last second. The training was a success. But at what cost?“Elaine… Can you hear me?” I asked her.I felt something was odd with her body heat. I touched Elaine’s forehead using the tip of my fingers. It was as hot as a kettle. Her body temperature was soaring high.“This is bad…” I muttered, turning my head around, seeking Elsa and Ruther.Elaine started moaning because of the fever. She twitched her body in different directions. I saw how Elaine clenched her fist, battling against the pain in her.“Elsa!” I called out to her.I gently placed Elaine’s head on the soft pillow and grabbed the towel I threw earlier. Then I soaked it deep into the water in the sink, ran back to Elaine, and placed it on her forehead.“Don’t worry, you’re gonna be alright.” I carefully wiped her head down to her neck, hoping the wet towel would help with the high
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TristanA soul binding? I have never heard such a word. I never knew such a thing existed in our timeline.I put my hands on my head, feeling helpless, not knowing what to do or how to help. Is it even safe? Will it throw Elaine into danger?“This is the most vital part of being a Silvermare. Finally, her wolf wholeheartedly accepted Elaine.”“I don’t understand a single word you say. But this could kill Elaine. She’s not ready to morph. She’s not ready for this.”Elsa countered with a much louder voice.“It wasn’t you who would decide that. It’s her wolf.”Elsa has a point. I have no right to any part of Elaine’s life. I wish to know what’s running inside Elaine’s wolf. Why did she choose Elaine over everybody else? Her gift only leads her to more pain.Elaine continued the process. I could barely stand the sight. The groans of pain drilled into my head. I tried to turn away my gaze.My heart ached and pierced right through my soul. I slammed my arms against the ground in frustration
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TristanElaine suddenly emitted a beaming light coming out from her body. Those bursting beams penetrated the whole area. We took more steps away from Elaine. Elsa and Ruther stood tall in front of Elaine who levitated more into the ground. Probably the same height as the tall trees around us. Fear succumbed to my heart. I was scared and confused as hell. I’m like a child witnessing some things only adults could understand. “ELAINE!” I called out to her. My veins popped on my neck as I tried to scream her name. Her eyes were glowing yellow, shining so much that it made my eyebrows scrunched protecting my eyes. Elsa smirked. While Ruther remains unshaken. These two looked at Elaine like they had witnessed this kind of stuff before. “Now, you will see a Silvermare’s true form,” Elsa proudly declared. Elaine flows with the air. She dances with it. Elaine totally lost will over her own body. The place soon filled with more blazing lights, sparkling magically on the river and any li
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TristanThe waterfall crashed down with so much force. It had overpowered many before, and now, it was pushing Elaine to her limit.“10 more minutes!” I shouted as loud as I could. “It’s just a blink of an eye, and you’ll be done!”From where I stood, I could see how much she was struggling. Her whole body was shaking, her legs barely able to keep her up. She was trying so hard to stay standing, but I knew she was almost at her breaking point.At that moment, I had to accept the truth.Ten minutes probably felt like forever to her. The training had reached its hardest point, and Elaine just couldn’t hold on much longer. No matter how badly she wanted to, her body was giving out.Hope left in me. I know as Elaine’s mate, there was nothing more to do. I threw the towel in already, as a way of saying we did well at this training. This is brutal enough for Elaine’s physique. I knew from the start it was an impossible task. “That’s enough,” I shouted at Elsa. I went down to the water, tr
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ElaineAnother boost of energy surged through my body, but exhaustion was creeping in. I knew 30 minutes wasn’t that long anymore. I was so close to the finish line. Yet, the relentless force of the waterfall felt heavier than before, pressing down on my shoulders like a mountain. My muscles screamed in protest, and my breathing turned ragged.My knees started to bend, trembling under the weight of my own exhaustion. I clenched my fists, digging my nails into my palms, desperate to keep myself upright. I couldn’t fail now. Not when I had come this far. Not when Tristan was watching, his eyes filled with silent encouragement.“20 more minutes. Hang in there a little longer, please.” Maybe Tristan saw how I was about to lose consciousness that’s why he’s yelling desperately. I know I have little to no strength to continue. But I am almost there at the finish line. At that point, I decided to call out to my spirit wolf. “Neeya…” I whispered at the back of my head. My body lost balanc
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ElaineHis words mean a lot to me. It added some boost to my energy. This training improved my relationship with Tristan. We learned to work like a real team. We did well until the first 3 hours. My knees gave up on me again. Elsas stood up from her spot and yelled. “3 hours wasted, Elaine. You let the 3 hours of hard work be taken away by that fall.”Her yelling added another weight like usual. Soon, my mind and body won't work as one. As I see the disappointed face of Elsa, my mind sends signals of pressure and discomfort. My body reacted along with Elsa’s words. It lost half of its strength because I was nervous. Under the waterfall, I feel like a warrior battling for the lives of others. As long as I don’t master this special gift as a Silvermare, more lives will be put in danger. This is war already. So I gathered my strength again and stood tall. I didn’t guard the time. Until I realized how much time had passed when Ruther called out Tristan. “You did it, Alpha Tristan.” T
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ElaineThe next day came, and everyone acted like nothing happened. But I could somehow sense Ruther’s awkward stance towards us. Meanwhile, Mike was left in the cabin like usual.I tried to read Tristan’s mind. But he was strangely quiet throughout our journey. I’m not sure if everyone still dwells in the story of Elsa’s past. I was staring behind her. My heart aches for Elsa. I could definitely not handle her tragedy if that was me. Truly, as a she-wolf, Elsa is an admirable lady for her strength and resilience. “I forgot to tell you something…” Elsa suddenly speaks, still leading our way to the waterfalls. “What is it?” I humbly asked. “If you can’t pass the training today, I believe this has to stop. It’s gonna be pointless anyway.”Tristan suddenly stopped from walking. I bumped into his huge back. “Did I hear it right?” Tristan asked. Elsa didn’t say anything. Tristan chased her. It’s not just him. Even I was shocked to hear about this last training. Though my body recovere
