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94. Childish

Author: Naomi D.
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-22 20:21:01
Raiden’s pov

I knew something was up. I always do. But I also know my little mouse sometimes needs time to process. She is not used to voicing her thoughts or saying what she wants or needs.

It’s my job to be her safe place. To allow her to come to me when she needs to.

And I know when my mate is lying and she isn’t lying, she’s trying to find the right words.

"Does it not bother you that she's still not able to speak freely?" Atlas asked.

It does. But maybe that’s on me. Or on her parents. Yeah, of course I get insecure when she doesn’t talk to me. Especially because I know if Zev wasn’t an asshole, she’d be able to confide in him.

‘What if that was still, -‘

Nope. Not even going to go there. There are some things that are unforgivable. Rejection is not something you can just do, change your mind, and then take it back. A rejection is permanent. It hurts for a reason.

Your heart isn’t merely breaking; it’s severing the connection, the bond, to your mate.

I am glad Atalanta hasn’t had
Naomi D.

I did not plan this chapter lol. Or at least not the sex part. But then i thought how petty would it be for Raiden to leave his scent everywhere. To mark his territory so to speak. and thank you for your comments on my idea for Nivia. I always enjoy starting a new story, because I love writing about people falling in love.

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