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13. Pretend

Author: Naomi D.
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Raiden’s pov

Shit.

I stormed off in anger, leaving my best friend, little mouse, and Suzie behind. It probably looked like some temper tantrum to them, and I didn’t care right now.

Yesterday night messed with my head. I had been so desperate to prove to Zev that he was wrong, that I had sex when I wasn’t even in the mood.

This was the first time in my life that I had made myself have sex. I felt dirty and weird.

After Lisa entered my room, we began kissing each other, but I just wasn’t feeling it. It wasn’t like she sucked at kissing; it simply lacked passion. Mostly on my part.

It had never bothered me before, but suddenly it didn’t feel enough. I barely knew Lisa, and I had fucked girls whose personalities I didn’t really like before. But yesterday, I needed more than just lust.

I tried to compensate by focusing on her pleasure. Sex doesn’t feel right unless I make a woman cum first. It’s not just that I feel like it’s the right thing to do; it’s usually a big turn-on as well. It ma
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Are you team Raiden or Zev?

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I think I’m team Atalanta. She needs someone in her corner to help give her the confidence to find who she really is. I have a theory, but will wait and see how it all plays out.
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