Are you team Raiden or Zev?
Atalanta’s pov No good. I am no good. I ran while trying to keep the tears in. I couldn’t let Raiden know how much he had hurt me. He wouldn’t care anyway; it would probably only bring him joy to see the weak little mouse cry because of him. It’s what my parents always told me. No good. Only good to clean up after them. I am a mistake. Never should have been born. Unwanted and not good enough. Never good enough. And it wasn’t just because I am not a boy. I don’t have any talent. I’m not strong. I complain too much, and I’m in the way. I’m too short, and I am weak, dumb, and a waste of space. For a little while, I thought maybe people here would think differently. For a second, I thought that maybe my parents were wrong. But they aren’t. I’m no good. I am pretty sure I’m actually the opposite of good, considering the thoughts I’ve been having. Becoming friends with werewolves? Having dirty thoughts about werewolves? Caring about them? They are monsters, even if t
Zev’s povSuzie grabbed Atalanta’s back before class; we couldn’t see her, but she was never late to class. So she figured we’d meet Atalanta there. When class started and Atalanta wasn’t there yet, I felt some worry, and I could see Suzie looking around as well.The three of us had all begun to care for Atalanta in our own way. It wasn’t hard to do. While I hated the term little mouse, I understood why Raiden used it. Atalanta always seemed on edge, and she was so vulnerable.That quality was dangerous, especially here, surrounded by alpha males and cunning shewolves who wanted nothing more than to be a Luna.The teacher had randomly paired people, although the more I looked around, the more it became clear that he had picked new students and combined them with students that had been here for at least six months.Dylan was paired with Atalanta, but she wasn’t there yet. Mr. Bianco offered to pair up with Dylan, but she rushed in.The teacher had already explained some of what we were
Raiden’s pov“Stay here!” Mr. Bianco growled at me. “I will deal with you later.” He got some guys to help carry Dylan out of the gym. The motherfucker couldn’t walk. He couldn’t see either, since I beat his face to a pulp. There weren't enough curse words to describe the anger I felt for the bastard. I wish I would have killed him, but I was happy that he would be in pain for a few days or more.I had watched from a distance, making sure Dylan wasn’t pushing Atalanta too much. It was clear she had no training. Even simple things, like hitting Dylan, she didn’t do right. Not only did she start with her thumb inside her fingers, making it likely to break, she didn't use her whole body, only her arm. Dylan didn't show her how to stand in a figting stance, howBut instead of teaching her the right way, he just kept barking orders at her. I couldn't, however, spend the entire class staring at her as if I were some sort of stalker. She looked really good, too. She was filling out her spor
Atalanta’s povRaiden did a number on Dylan. Did that mean what I thought it did? Did Raiden beat Dylan to the point of becoming unrecognizable? I had never seen anyone look like that.Did he do it for me?He said I was no good. Why would he help me?Raiden saved me.But why?The questions kept repeating in my head as the hours passed by. Luckily, my throat hurt, so Suzie didn’t force me to talk by asking me questions. Instead, she had offered to help me get into something a bit more comfortable, which I had declined for now.Because all I wanted to do was rest. Suzie watched me like a hawk while I tried to get some sleep. Every time I looked around the room, I saw her staring at me as if she were scared I would drop dead at any minute.Why was Suzie nice? I had been hurt before, but no one had ever cared.An hour later, Mr. Bianco had stopped by to apologize to me. I didn’t understand why. He wasn't the one who hurt me. Besides, it was just me. I had gotten hurt plenty of times, and n
Raiden’s povZev came back from visiting Atalanta looking like he had seen a ghost. Was our little mouse that badly hurt?“Everything go okay?” I asked, not trying to show how worried I really was.“Yeah, um, fine. She looked perfect. I mean, not perfect. Um. I don’t know. I need a shower.” Zev said, sounding frazzled.What the hell happened there?While I wanted to see her to make sure she was okay, I knew it wasn’t a good idea. I doubt she wanted me there anyway, and I surely knew better than to go to her right now. If I saw how hurt she really was, I’d probably go finish the job and kill Dylan for real this time.Not that I could stay away from our little mouse for long, even if I wanted to. I had to train the mouse to become a wolf. An impossible task and one I really didn’t want. How could I possibly stop this stupid crush or whatever obsession I had when I was going to be training her?Training meant touching. Being close. Smelling her. Damn, it was going to be impossible not to
Atalanta’s pov“He’s just cranky,” Suzie reassured me after Raiden stormed off. But I knew it was more than that. Once again, I had made life harder for someone. It was my inability to fight and to keep a low profile that had caused problems.The day had started off great. Suzie had woken me up very early in the morning by singing Happy Birthday. I didn’t even notice the decorations and presents; I was too surprised that she had remembered.The song would have honestly been enough.I felt so guilty accepting the gifts she had bought me.“They’re from me, Zev, and Raiden,” Suzie clarified after putting present after present on my bed.I had never gotten a gift, and now I had a few dozen lying around me. It was so overwhelming, and I didn’t know where to start.Every time I tried to argue that it was too much, Suzie would scold me and say that not accepting the gift would be an insult to our friendship.“It’s like half of what girls like Lisa get for their birthdays, and to be honest, I
Zev’s povSuzie offered to buy some supplies yesterday while I helped Atalanta study. Apparantly, she needed to train her brain, according to Suzie, who was very worried about Atalanta’s health.She looked fine.Yeah, of course she wasn’t fine. Her hand hurt, her wrist was sore, and it was clear her throat wasn’t fine either. You could tell it hurt to swallow and talk, not that Atalanta would ever say that. It took me a while to feel comfortable sharing my feelings, but Ethan, Grace, and my therapist helped me with that.They showed me that showing emotions or asking for help wasn't a sign of weakness but of strength. Admitting your feelings takes guts; hiding them is far easier.That didn’t mean that I was always upfront about my feelings or shared everything I was thinking about or struggling with. Some things are just too big to let out.But I feel like Atalanta holds everything in. “So how much homework have you still got to do?” I asked Atlanta.She grabbed some papers from her
Atalanta’s povArcher was right. I was trying so hard to keep my head down and not be the center of attention, but everything that happened with Dylan and me hanging out with Zev and Raiden made people talk and stare.Nobody said anything outright, mostly because Raiden kept growling at anyone who came close to me.He didn’t want to be close to me either.There was a sense of relief knowing I wouldn’t have to tolerate his teasing today, but for some reason I missed it. Raiden always tried to distract me during class, whispering things in my ear or touching me somewhere. And now he seems to be ignoring me.It was obvious that he was angry with me. If I had done better at training, he wouldn’t have pulled Dylan off me.I’ve heard stories about how aggressive werewolves can be, especially alpha males. That’s probably why Raiden beat up Dylan so badly. He wanted to help me but lost control; now he’s being punished for it.How will Raiden be during training? Will he be as rough as Dylan is?