Two different ways

Liam Hunter POV

I was expecting a lot from her, but not this attitude.

To be honest I kinda deserve it. Crystal has all the right to be mad at me and treat me like crap because I cause her so much pain. Ending up in the hospital was not the best idea for myself and my reputation. Now I needed to somehow go out of here without being seen. And this will not be easy knowing a lot of people have seen me collapsing in the ER room.

So after Crystal left I phoned my best friend Seth. He was the only one I trust in my entire life, and I knew very well he is my right hand, helping me with anything I need usually. He was, and it is like a brother to me, and we know each other since middle school. His parents are friends with my parents, and we meet in a private middle school where both were some pain in the ass for the school teachers.

He grows different from me, and I have short moments where I'm the envy of his life. He has his own business, a very powerful one but the difference between us is that he finds his soul mate, Angela. They get married and have a beautiful life together. I have moments when I want that as well, I want to be loved like he is. Hi's personality is very different from mine. He is open and funny, very good at social skills and engaging with people, while I am grumpy, lock in myself and very hard to get open in front of anyone.

Maybe I should learn from him, but I am who I am. I can't be different because this is how I learned to be. My parents concentrate on that business more than me, so I grew up with different nannies, and different strangers in my house who didn't care for me, and just want to be there for the money. So I learn I should behave the same and don't give shit about anything and anyone.

Thinking of everything I heard my room door opening and I can see this blond-ish goofy man entering with his funny and stupid smile as well. Seth was slightly shorter than me but impressive build, with dark sand hair and chocolate eyes. He was big, strong and soft like a teddy bear.

"How the heck did you manage to end up here now?"I share a short smile, and I get down from my bed easily, feeling small pain in my abdomen. I knew there I hit the wheel, and this is the reason I still had this pain.

"Just don't ask. Help me get out of here fast. I'm in the worst place possible."

"Ahh, is it because your ex-wife is working here, or because the hospitals usually terrify you?" My sharp look hit him straight away, and he just smiles and put his hands up in defensive mode.

"I see her on the corridor running around here with a stethoscope around her neck. So I'm assuming you had contact with her until now." I sigh and roll my eyes like is the most boring shit he can give to me.

"Not the best encounter ever, but can be worse I think."

I answer calmly while I change myself into my clothes. I had an old black suit that had a few blood patterns on it because of the accident. I let the bow I had around my shoulders, and we open the room door sustained by Seth to walk faster from that place. But my luck disappears when I see Crystal coming to us with a big smile on her face.

That smile was not meant for me, no. It was for Seth.

The only friends Crystal had while living in my mansion were Rebecca and Seth. Rebbeca was just a backstabbing person, looking for me the most not for the benefit of Crystal but I accepted that. Seth to another hand was the true, and real friend Crystal made. Seth was looking after her like a big brother because apparently, he can connect better with simple people than I do.

Seth was on Crystal's side, and as well he tried many times to open my eyes, to show me what I can lose if I continue to be an ass with Crystal. I was such an idiot to not give attention to what was said to me. Now I know deep in my heart that he was right all the time, and now I can't turn anything back. I need to remember that Crystal is gone and I am a free man ready to conquer the world and do whatever I want.

"Hi, Seth. Are you ok?" I heard her voice, and I tried to step back from that conversation. I had pain in my stomach and my heart now, and I did not know why.

"Hi Crystal. Jesus, I didn't see you for ages. How are you doing? you work here?"

I see the two of them hugging each other with such an open hearts. It was killing me.

"Yes, I'm a trainee for a nurse diploma."

"Wow, I knew all the time you have such an amazing soul. I will tell Angela I saw you. She will be so happy."

"Ohh yes, please. Can you give her my new number, please? I'm dying to have a chat with my old friend."

"No problem Lil sis. So how are you living?"

"I'm living in a small apartment, not so far from the hospital, and I'm working part-time as a waitress for a cafeteria here on a corner of the street. Is a cosy apartment, but I love it."

"Wow, you like to work hard, ha?"

"Yes, it is my type, you know that. Hope I can go over these three years of school and practice, so I can have my diploma and have a career."

"Good job. I'm very proud of you. Angela will be thrilled to hear from you, and maybe you want to come to our house for a drinking night and video games, like before."

"I will love that. I will try to open my schedule a little bit more, and you can give me a shout when you want me over."

"You can arrive any time, night or day you know that. Our door is open to you at any time."

"Thank you so much, Seth. I miss you guys."

I just watch the discussion between them and a feeling of regret is hitting me straight away. I knew all the time Crystal was a strong person, but I did not know that she can be so human. She can keep contact, and she can be loved so easily by so many people. She was like a burst of sunshine for a lot of people, and she gains the trust of everyone so easily because of her honesty. I was the only one who rejects her and locks her out of my heart. "Hei, you grumpy face, you don't say hi to Crystal?" I woke up from my thoughts when Seth implicated me in that discussion. I should not be between them, but what can I do now? I need to say something, or I will be the idiot here. Not like I'm not all the time.

"We see each other a few hours ago. Nothing new. We should go, Seth, I need to catch up with papers."

"Yes, is ok Seth. Is nothing new anyways? Is not like we can be friends. We did not have this friendship relationship when we get married, now is too late, so we should ignore each other for the rest of our life." I heard those words, and I felt that sentiment of eminent disaster coming into my head, and I tried my best to keep my stern face and my usual personality. But in reality, I just wanted to say loud that I regret my actions and my attitude regarding her, and we should give ourselves a second chance.

Why do I just think of this stupid idea? I need a cold shower and a good night's sleep because something is wrong with me, and I know is not from medications.

"Ok, I will see you around Crystal. Take care of yourself and don't push too much."

"Yes, thank you, Seth. See you soon."

I started walking before they finish the end that chat, and I tried so much to ignore my feeling of nervous.

I was furious, and I did not know why. I felt like I just get dumped or something like that. It did not happen to me to be dumped by a girl, but apparently, now I felt for the first time that the opposite sex just crush me down with that divorce.

Somehow just now seeing her again after six months, seeing her working and trying to have something in her life without me pissing her off and making her feel like shit all the time, made me realize that I lost something so important. I lost somebody who is more than normal, loving and carrying, and I did not do anything to stop her. She was the only female who didn't ask me for absolutely anything in two years. And now she is not mourning for me to come back, she is stronger than at any time, and she wants to do something with her life.

Do I hate this type of attitude? yes, because I'm used to people coming back to me, imploring me to give them something. I'm used to people kneeling in front of me for attention. And usually, because I'm a billionaire females throw myself on my feet for a little bit of attention and money.

But she just ignored me after our marriage, she grows up stronger and she continued to be so kind and different. She was different, she was unique, and I fucked up so bad that she doesn't want to hear from or see me all her life from now on.

"You fucked up mate, big style."

I heard Seth's voice beside me, and I just stay silent.

I knew that very well, and I still didn't know what is happening to me now, because the feeling of regret and pain is not going away. That feelings, so powerful feelings grew stronger and stronger and I still didn't know why I'm feeling that. I didn't love anyone in my life more than myself. I did not respect people too much more than Seth who was a different situation. But usually, I didn't give a crap about anyone. Now the feeling of sadness and guilt and regrets are crushing me down.

"I know, but what it's done is done."

"You don't feel anything for her at all? She is fighting back with her life for a future, but you're not capable to fight back for her?" On this question, I just share a glare with Seth, and I didn't know the answer. I remain silent, and I go out of the hospital with that sore taste in my mouth.

I didn't know what I feel about this situation, and these question marks are killing me. I like to be in control of everything, but now is feeling like I lost control and I don't know what is happening anymore. Did I done the right choice to sign those papers? I don't have any idea, and now I'm thinking if I should follow my heart, or I should give up on everything and go over with my life.