"I'm sorry"

Liam Hunter POV

 I saw her leaving the mansion with tears in her sky-blue eyes, and I was unable to stop her. I deserve this entirely. I deserve to be deserted by such an amazing and kind-hearted woman.

When I married her, we shared just a small kiss which told me how pure and shy she was.

But I did not want this. I did not want to be married at twenty-five years. I am the CEO of my parent's business, and for me was more important to live my life at maximum and not let any woman control my life. I did not want a burn in my life and did not want to care for somebody else.

She did not deserve this pain, and clearly, she was sick enough of it, so she throws the white towel after two years. I was amazed that she survived so much but maybe was for her good.

But something there is still bothering me. I think thought where Crystal didn't care about my money all along this journey. She did not request me anything in these two years she was not fussy and full of herself being married to a billionaire. She was humble, and all she wanted from me was to be fair with her.

And because I'm a stupid son of a bitch I did not be fair with her.

I was still in "our" kitchen where she used to clean all the time and wait for me with dinner. Waiting for me so much, but I did not come home one time to share that meal with her. I did not think that seeing her leaving will have any impact on me. But It had somehow. I was feeling now lonely and sad, which is very unusual for me.

The kitchen was clean, everything was in order, her order and I was looking at my surroundings like the idiot I am. The sudden urge to get up from that chair and run after her hit me straight away, but it was too late anyway.

Crystal left, and after her was quietness and a small amount of flower smell. I was not there for her, not for her birthdays, not for her problems, not for her dreams. Thinking of it it starts feeling a strange pain coming through my chest, but I ignore it, and I pick up my phone, calling one of my friends for a presentation today and an afterparty.

I left the mansion and go straight to my office in the middle of the town. I knew that I am a free man now, and I can do whatever I want. But in the end, that stupid feeling did not disappear.

I did not know anything about Crystal for six months. And to be honest, maybe it's better like that.

Today I picked up Rebecca from her house for a fancy party at one of the most bigger clubs in this town. I knew Rebecca from when she used to come to my house to see Crystal. I knew they were friends, but I did not try to hit on her before my marriage with Crystal was over. In definitive, I did not like Rebecca too much because she was the opposite of Crystal. She was the type of female-like others. Hungry for fame, money and luxury. She is the typical type of female and a backstabbing person for Crystal. She tried to flirt with me when I was still married, but I had the decency to ignore her just for Crystal because I knew she did not have any friends besides her.

Rebecca arrives outside the house in a gold dress with a deep v between her breasts and heavy makeup. Her black hair was in a messy bun and smelled of five different perfumes. It was too much, but in the end, I did not care. I planned to get drunk and hit on Rebecca after. But still, I had a bad feeling in my chest coming again. Is like I was feeling guilty doing this because of Crystal. I shacked my head, and go in my car with Rebecca in the passenger seat.

On my way to the opposite part of town, it started raining heavily. Rebecca starts speaking, and I was not in the mood for her fussy things."Baby, can we go tomorrow to the mall, please? I will love a new dress."I heard her, and I nodded my head in approval to make her shout up in the end. When I saw Rebecca in that dress, I don't know why my mind flyes to Crystal and imagined her wearing that gold dress. I can't say Crystal was not a good-looking female. She was shorter than Rebecca, but you can see she had elegance and style.

I knew that because in these two years, I take her with me to a few parties, and she was turning heads around. But she was so simple many times, in her multicoloured pyjamas and fluffy slippers. I did not appreciate the fact she was just beautiful the way she was. I was eager all the time for something better, and now I have some regrets.

But again I'm forcing myself to be an idiot and go over it.

I did not see the colour of the traffic lights turn red, and I did not stop. That was the moment when my life flashes back in my eyes, the screaming coming from Rebecca and after just pain and darkness.

I can hear some voices in my head, like background voices, coming closer and closer to me. The smell of medication is hitting me straight away, making me feel sick for a few seconds. I'm coughing while opening my eyes, feeling my lips so dry and the bad taste in my mouth is disgusting.

"I am dead?" I manage to say very hard, and I turned my eyes in the room to see a nurse and a doctor looking throw some papers." Mr Hunter. Welcome back. We nearly lost you there."The doctor says with a smile on his lips.

"I will be ok?" I asked instantly, being afraid he will tell me some bad news like you will not walk again or things like that."Yes, you are out of danger. You had a contusion but after a few tests seem that you will recover well." I breathe in relief. And after I remembered about Rebecca. "And Rebecca?"

"She had some scratches and a few small injuries, but she is not in danger anymore. She will recover well. You want me to inform her you're awake?"

"No, thank you, Doctor."

"My name is Ralph, Mr Hunter. If you need anything else, don't hesitate to ask."

"Where I am Ralph?"

"You're on Intensive therapy, but I will move you soon to your private room downstairs, beside ER is our recovery section."I'm just approving with a nod of my head, and the man is leaving my room with his nurse following him.

I can remember the fact that I did not stop at the traffic lights and now I remember that I hit another car. I forgot to ask the doctor if the second car had any victims, so I tried to get up from my bed and walk to the door. Maybe I am a billionaire, but I am human in the end, and if I can help the victims, I will do it with no hesitation.

I'm feeling a lot of pain in my abdominal area and my head now. I knew very well I have a button on my bed to call for nurses, but because I'm a stubborn idiot I prefer to drag myself out of the room with a nightgown on me and my bare feet.

I walked through the hallway to find the elevator. After I find it, I call it and wait for it to go down, where Ralph said he was moving me, thinking he will be there. I saw myself in the elevator mirror, and I was shocked to see how many cuts I had on my arms and bruises on my face. I had a big white bandage on my head, my hair was a mess, and I was looking like a disaster. I let my body rely on that wall from my back, and I'm thinking now that nobody was there when I get up. I could die in this car crash, and I had no people in my life to come to my rescue. Is this the price I'm paying because I was a dick with Crystal? Or maybe because I did not care for anyone in this life.

But now again, the conclusion is I don't care. And I should not care at all, because my life can be perfect with nobody in it.

I heard the sound from the elevator telling me I'm downstairs and I stepped out from it to be face to face with a big noisy and agitated Emergency room, full of nurses and doctors, running around and helping people.

Just at that moment, I saw that red hair in a ponytail, running around, having a stethoscope around her neck, with a dark blue nurse uniform. I was thinking I'm not seeing well or is just my imagination after medication.

But when she turned around to ask another nurse something she spotted me and her big blue eyes meet my dark eyes and lock in each other. I can't believe she was here, probably working for this hospital. I felt my heart beating faster, and I felt my weak legs shaking. Why I'm feeling like that?

She notices my verge of collapse and she started a sprint from the spot she was to me. I can't leave, I can't move, is like my brain is frozen, and my body is not answering to anything.

She arrives and catches me with her small hands when my legs let me down. I let my upper body be sustained by her arms and strength, and I'm into so much sock that I can't speak.

"Hey, Hunter you hear me?"

I'm hearing her soft voice in my ear, and my heart again is hurting. I want her to leave, to leave me alone, but for the first time, Crystal's arms are feeling so warm and full of care. I didn't notice this before because I did not let her touch me at all. I didn't know how she feels because I did not touch her body. And now she is here, keeping me stable, making sure I'm safe and unharmed. And she had a lot of strength there because she was more than able to sustain my weight easily.

"Hunter answer me, please." I heard her voice again. Her voice is full of concern and care and is destroying me now. The same voice she used all the time when I was arriving home after three days, asking me if I was ok and if I need anything. The same concerned voice she used all the time waiting for me to come home to have a meal together.

"I'm ok. Leave me alone, please."

I can hear her sight when I'm saying this, and again I remember all these small sights full of disappointment when I used to tell her that I don't need her, I will not love her, I will not respect her and she is nothing for me. I used to say these bad things, and I regret after all the time. But everything I used to say I can't take it back and her heart were full of pain because of this. I did not respect her enough to deserve her support right now so I prefer to let her go again, not give her any pain anymore.

"You're on my territory now Hunter, you're not my husband anymore, and you can't tell me what to do. If you like it or not, I will help you to go to bed, and I will make sure Dr Ralph knows about your stupid careless ass."I was baffled to hear her speaking like this with me, maybe because she was not this type. Or because I don't know her at all.

I did not know that she was dreaming to be a nurse. I did not know her wishes or her mind at all because I didn't listen. I was not there for any of her mind or body. I was just a stranger to her, but I knew she loved me.

Is very hard to have this conclusion in your mind. That you lost the jackpot and now you will not find somebody like anymore.

"I'm sorry Crystal."

My words go out of my mouth, and I can hear her breath accelerating, and now she was looking into my eyes, concerned and full of worrying feelings. In the end, she was the only one who waited for me so long, with so much patience, and I was the one who fucked up everything big style, now I'm looking into her beautiful blue eyes, like a big and calm ocean, and I want to go and throw myself from a building because I don't deserve any of her kindness.