Chapter 341MaxI'm not a sore loser. I just don't like losing knowing that I got a phone and knowing that I tried my best and lost is a horrible feeling. I don't want to sleep tonight. I don't remember ever having a sleepless night over something that I couldn't quite grasp. My friend was having a pretty party today and I needed to make an appearance. It's not fair to not make an appearance at a friend's birthday party and show disrespect and it shows that you don't care which is the one thing that I don't want to happen. I remembered that Toby was my minder, but after the call that I had with Daniel, I can see why my boyfriend decided to call in the backup because of what I did to my father who I just found out that is working for the enemy. The more I tried to make sense of what was going on the more I got confused. The last thing I want is confusion but the one thing I do want is to let go and have a good time from what Fabio told me; Michelangelo is a party animal and he comes ou
Chapter 342 Ellie I love playing dress-up. I love it, even more, when I have to dress up to go to a party that is the party of the month, not the year because my birthday is coming up in a short while well in a month or so after we celebrate Michelangelo's birthday, Carlo's, and Matteo's. We have a history that I haven't told anyone for my safety for his safety and for the safety of both parties involved I've always known how he has operated and I always know what he uses to hack into other people's systems I'm just 10 steps ahead of him and I knew that he knew that I knew where Romano and Melech were. I couldn't ask anyone within the gang to help me. I had to ask somebody outside the gang to help me pull this off and he helped me pull it off in spectacular fashion because the only way I could get the recording was that they were looking for ways to ask for it and it would be given to me by mentioning his name. The main reason I kept Melech and Romano hid in plain sight was bec
Chapter 343 Max Contrary to popular belief ;I don't like going out. I am a homebody. I'd rather spend my nights with my family .Right now I'm feeling all sorts of feelings but the most palpable of them all is a feeling of regret . I'm regretting a lot of things right now and most of all I'm regretting in the way I treated my girlfriend when she tried to at least tell me that she was mine and I didn't believe her instead I believe someone who I thought had my best interest at heart mean while he didn't have my best interests at heart . I believed my own father who had a hit on my girlfriend for no reason other than the fact that she isn't good for me . He claims that she is using me and she has never loved me the way I deserved to be loved. The truth has a way of coming out whether you want to believe it or not. Eventually the real truth will come out. People ask ,what is the truth ? Truth is the one thing that we have after all is said and done without truth. You'll be stuck in lay
Chapter 344EllieI've said it before and I will say it again; if the one thing that you fear happens to you you're not afraid of it happening again and if you face the mountain that you faced before you're not afraid to climb it again and overcome the mountain. However, there are certain things that you fear that will always plague your mind at the worst of times. There is such a thing as seasonal drawing. I can describe it because it's only the people around you who notice the change in your behavior and that you're not as happy as you usually are, not your normal self and I guess I keep quiet and I withdraw from people including the people that I care about. I'm celebrating a friend's birthday party tonight and I've got two more friend's parties to celebrate. I also have to acknowledge the fact that next month will be my baby's heavenly birthday. Five months later I also have to celebrate Axel's twin's birthday and my baby boy's birthday and possibly prepare to give birth in Decemb
Chapter 345 Max When your memory comes back a lot of things start to make sense and you can start putting the pieces of the jigsaw puzzle that you thought was up in the air and you can find the right pieces to fit the picture and the little bits of memory that make the pieces fit together. I remembered a lot of things , and more specifically I remembered my time with my fiance. She is still my fiance. I just need to reaffirm to her the fact that she is my one and only. A memory that came back was my first date with Ellie . I was comfortable around her and she has always accepted me for who I am regardless of any condition I was in. He wasn't as popular as I was at school but she had her head in the books . Her book smart nature was an attractive trait more than that it was her heart that I fell for and her personality because she was the most down to earth person that I had ever come across. The day before I asked her out on a date I was nervous and you know you get those nerves bef
Chapter 346Max You know when your life flashes before your eyes and you prayed to God that you'd never see the day that your life almost ended I was having one of those days and those days happened today of all days and I saw the worst thing that I could ever see happened to the person I love I don't know if my baby love is alive or if she is still breathing but all I know is that I want to save her what was the use of serving someone when you don't know where they are or if they are alive. This Sunday was supposed to be the best Sunday I could have ever had with both my son and my fiance but now it looks as if it's not going to happen. I've already gotten one person taken away from me. I don't need another person that I love being snatched away from me again. I don't know how to feel and I don't know how to explain it. It's a feeling of numbness and a flood of all the feelings you should be feeling and you can't process everything. You feel nothing and everything at the same time a
Chapter 347EllieI have always been good at keeping secrets; and it has never bothered me until now. I've kept many secrets that I've been comfortable with up until now. I've worked with Matteo before but we trained together and no one of either getting you that we trained together if anybody knew that we train together and we know how each one of us thinks I'll cover would be blown but he's made sure of that our cover wasn't blown full stop truth be told both gangs have made peace. They have called a truce and everybody is happy but the faction that Matteo runs has always had issues with the truce that was called. I have to phone up what they are looking for but I'm not going to say anything. Nobody knows that I have the full map except for Romano.I also wonder if Michelangelo knows that I have a full map of half of the map he was given because I made sure that I memorized it and I knew how to draw it out you read 50
Chapter 348MaxEver since Michelangelo said that my girlfriend could be part of a cover-up. I couldn't stop thinking and stop thinking about who the person I was going to marry was I wish it was less complicated but it wasn't this complicated it was more complicated than I thought because the person that I thought I was gonna marry turns out to be someone that I don't even know I don't even know who the person I've been sleeping with for the past couple of months is, I don't even know the person who I've felt like I've known my whole life is .I've said it before when I'm going to say it again there's never been a day that I can't remember ever not loving Ellie. She's been with me through a lot and I can't get over the fact that she was abducted right in front of qq eyes. I feel like I'm not in control or that I am powerless with things that I can control and things that are within my control I couldn't control.I could