Chapter 324 Ellie I try to remember a time when I didn't have to worry about a lot of things at once and I just can't find one because there's always something happening and no matter how many times I tried to find that moment of peace there's always something that messes it up. I've also concluded that my taste in men is bad Dexter was the biggest mistake of my life but I know for a fact that Daniel wasn't the biggest mistake of my life and you just throw away what we had and he did it right in front of my face so, I'm at a point where I have a guy who is a combination of both my exes. I've always known that my ex-fiance was a secretive man but to do stuff behind my back is just so wrong in the sense that you should have told me that his blood work was dirty because he knew that he was taking the contacts on the side. He did voice out that he wanted to leave the club and that certain procedures need to be followed. How to explain in a meeting that I had with the team's management
Chapter 325Max I'm starting to wonder what type of person I was before waking up in hospital with no memory or recollection of who I was. I'm still struggling to remember things and Daniel is a doctor.He told me to give my memory time to recover I can remember the basic things and I can remember how to drive a car and hopefully I can remember how to play football because I think I like it I don't know how to flick the switch if I'm making sense. He told me that it's like scraping your knee. It might take time to make your knee heal, but it will eventually heal. You can't tell the body when and how to heal itself unless you know how to hack certain emotions or speed up the healing process. The healing process comes in stages. Rushing something that needs time can sometimes result in something not ending up the way you wanted it to end up all the way you hoped it would end up. You'll get the direct opposite of the outcome that you wanted to get because you wanted to speed things up.
Chapter 326 Ellie For someone who's supposed to know how to keep secrets I just got me and my mum came and it really really sucks because I just got beaten by someone who I had a relationship with had being the operative word because I've had memory loss before and my memory came back at the right time because I think I gave my body time to heal so what I need to do is give Maxwell's body some time to heal because he as going to get not only an earful but a mouthful from me. I'm not sure if it's the kind of guys I attract or is it just me and my bad taste when it comes to men that I'm finding out stuff that I didn't know about my supposed ex-fiance right now that I didn't know existed before . If he was battling addiction again I don't know why you didn't come to me and tell me that he was slowly losing grip and maybe I wasn't paying attention but Max deciding that it was okay for him to start taking narcotics to deal with problems that he should have told me and addressed before
Chapter 327Max I love traveling with friends. I have a friend and not many friends which is a good thing. Not having any recollection of who I am and figuring out who I was adventurous but tedious I constantly got stopped by people that I didn't know and I had people who I thought were friends ask me to take pictures with them.I did have chosen to stay with my father because he said that any time I needed to come and stay with him or just chill with him I can come through and I can just chill or talk to him. And I'm all grown up and there's no such thing as sleepovers. You are either crashing or staying over at a friend's or just spending some time with a friend at a friend's house. Either way I was staying over as a guest at Daniel's house .His house was supposedly next door to my house which I didn't know it didn't look familiar to me. I wasn't broken up by anything I just got up and I got cleaned up changed into proper clothes because I was sleeping and flannel pyjamas and since
Chapter 328Ellie I need a break. I need to get away and forget that I had an ex fiance who thinks that everything that's going on wrong in his life is my fault none of this is anyone's fault but his. He was the one who messed up his own life. I can't forgive a lot because I'm not perfect either but the one thing that I struggle to move on and let go of is the fact that I've been fighting for someone who doesn't love me. He doesn't love me and I don't think we are meant to be because if we did then he wouldn't have said what he said to me ,and somehow his heart would tell him that she's the one you asked to marry . I know that he's lost his memory and all sense of who he is but he's starting to remember stuff or he wouldn't have gone to the gym and worked out. If he remembers how to work out then he could remember other things but again I think that's wishful thinking on my part because I have to make peace with the fact that the man I thought I knew is a man that I don't know. Befor
Chapter 329MaxI don't know why I feel so bad. I just can't connect the dots and it's getting to a point where I'm getting frustrated and I'm getting impatient that I cannot seem to connect with anything or anyone except for my baby boy. I'm also friends with the doctor which is beyond cool because they can keep an eye on me and if he sees any improvements maybe I can go out and be the person I used to be but at the moment I'm sitting still until I can remember something . The one thing that has come back is my ability to build momentum, run and workout for long periods of time. I'm just happy that I can remember how to do something that I used to do and hopefully that's a good sign because I really want to remember everything about my life , bad or good maybe cringe-worthy but I want to remember everything. I can't stop thinking about what I did yesterday and how I made someone feel. I want to make someone feel good and I don't want to be mean to anyone but it seems like I need to
Chapter 330 Ellie I have a theory about darkness. There are different types of darkness does the darkness that we are Led into and then there is the darkness that is within us because through every good there is bad and very bad there is good so that in turn creates a balance if they are young fairy however there is the darkness within ourselves that we need to get comfortable with because if you are not comfortable with your own darkness how else are you ever going to get comfortable with the light . We aren't all perfect and even though he seem to appear perfect we all have demons we have to fight on a daily basis and we all have voices in our heads that irritate the living daylights out of us full stop no matter how many times you tell that voice to shut up it won't shut up until it's gotten its message across . There's a line from my favourite song that I love. I can't remember who the artist was. They had written a song about; staying with the one you love no matter how hard
Chapter 331MaxI don't like triggers, they trigger other things that trigger the things that create a domino effect. In all honesty, I think I love domino effects that expose a lot of things but my favorite domino effect is the domino effect that after everything has fallen or everything has been knocked down a beautiful picture is unveiled so basically not all domino effects are bad some can be good with some can be quite revealing. In my case, some of my memories came back and I remembered part of who I was and I felt as if I was in the wrong place. The result wasn't a real home I started remembering All The homes of the nun and everywhere I've lived what's funny about remembering where you live is you remember who you were with and what you were doing at that specific point in time; for some people, it might take us and it might take seeing a picture or looking into someone's eyes and remembering who you are and why you are with that specific person but for me, it took my ex-fia