Chapter 329MaxI don't know why I feel so bad. I just can't connect the dots and it's getting to a point where I'm getting frustrated and I'm getting impatient that I cannot seem to connect with anything or anyone except for my baby boy. I'm also friends with the doctor which is beyond cool because they can keep an eye on me and if he sees any improvements maybe I can go out and be the person I used to be but at the moment I'm sitting still until I can remember something . The one thing that has come back is my ability to build momentum, run and workout for long periods of time. I'm just happy that I can remember how to do something that I used to do and hopefully that's a good sign because I really want to remember everything about my life , bad or good maybe cringe-worthy but I want to remember everything. I can't stop thinking about what I did yesterday and how I made someone feel. I want to make someone feel good and I don't want to be mean to anyone but it seems like I need to
Chapter 330 Ellie I have a theory about darkness. There are different types of darkness does the darkness that we are Led into and then there is the darkness that is within us because through every good there is bad and very bad there is good so that in turn creates a balance if they are young fairy however there is the darkness within ourselves that we need to get comfortable with because if you are not comfortable with your own darkness how else are you ever going to get comfortable with the light . We aren't all perfect and even though he seem to appear perfect we all have demons we have to fight on a daily basis and we all have voices in our heads that irritate the living daylights out of us full stop no matter how many times you tell that voice to shut up it won't shut up until it's gotten its message across . There's a line from my favourite song that I love. I can't remember who the artist was. They had written a song about; staying with the one you love no matter how hard
Chapter 331MaxI don't like triggers, they trigger other things that trigger the things that create a domino effect. In all honesty, I think I love domino effects that expose a lot of things but my favorite domino effect is the domino effect that after everything has fallen or everything has been knocked down a beautiful picture is unveiled so basically not all domino effects are bad some can be good with some can be quite revealing. In my case, some of my memories came back and I remembered part of who I was and I felt as if I was in the wrong place. The result wasn't a real home I started remembering All The homes of the nun and everywhere I've lived what's funny about remembering where you live is you remember who you were with and what you were doing at that specific point in time; for some people, it might take us and it might take seeing a picture or looking into someone's eyes and remembering who you are and why you are with that specific person but for me, it took my ex-fia
Chapter 332 Ellie I don't like picking up heavy things. The last thing I needed was home to pull this stunt he did and I know for a fact that Tobias is going through a lot of things right now and the last thing I want to do to Toby is to interrupt him when he's got family problems to sort out. He was Maxwell's minder but since Maxwell decided that it was okay to overdose and the result of his actions resulted in him losing part of who he was and now that he hasn't self back which is a good thing I'm not stuck with having to drag him to the lounge and try to at least put him on the couch. Fabio is also off on assignment which only leaves me with; Daniel who was busy, at the hospital checking to see if everything is run in order and all his patients are doing okay and Raphael being knocked out cold by his son who's knocked himself out cold but trying to speed up the process of remembering who he is. Trying to do too much too quickly or trying to speed up the process that needs time
Chapter 333Max If there's one thing that I hate it's my own body betraying me. I was sure that I was going to get the answers that I needed and breaking into my own house was nothing short of exciting because I knew where everything was because I remembered how to get into my own house. The part that I don't remember was my now ex-fiance owning a gun. I do however remember her shooting me and I am still recovering from that injury. I don't know who to trust. I don't want to end up trusting someone and then have my trust betrayed the one thing that I don't want and I don't want to do things for the sake of doing an answer to break off my engagement with my ex-fiance because I don't want to have food you don't feel I wanted to know that the feelings I had were real and that we did happen. Recovery gives you time to get everything you need to get in order and when it happens with your memory it's like a movie of your life. When you wake up you become reborn again but you don't have e
Chapter 334Cleo We have a couple of lost out on the spoken in the gun but you do know that once you accepted into the gang there's no way out the only way out is …basically there's no way out. You choose your battles you choose your side and you stick to it where lines are drawn you need to know which side you fit in best and who will be your family for life it's not as hectic as people make it out to be a cyst that you need to know where you belong and turns of sides. If you are a free agent and you are working for a company and nabbed by someone who works for the enemy then your main task is to not get discovered. Carlo has always supported Angela and so has sprained and it came as no surprise when I got an invite from both Carlo and Angelo to come to their parties. I can't say no because both of them are like my brothers and they are also good friends. Brent had always had my back too but I needed to keep my guard up at all times. Last week was a mess full stop in between my ex-f
Chapter 335Max I think that I've been cheated on before, my memory is a bit foggy but I can remember everything I've been through with Ellie. I was lucky to have her, and I still am. Before she left there was something in me that switched on. I wanted to go through her stuff because I didn't know how to handle the guilt I was feeling. When I saw the condoms I just lost my cool. Everything started coming back to me and even the moment I gave Ellie the condoms for safekeeping. I wanted to use them until I was sure I was going to be a good father and not cheat on her. I remembered everything as soon as I calm down and he was telling the truth I was the one who was being skeptical and before she left she told me that she would be back to come to get ready and then she would be gone full stop and which in that time that she goes to the party and the time that she comes back it will be a very long time. If I didn't have an answer as to what the nature of our relationship was or is rig
Chapter 336EllieI'm not perfect. I have my days. There are days when I moody and there are days where I want to fight back with everything that I have but right now I'm really I've run out of find and I could really use a friend but all of my friends are busy getting ready for a celebration which I am invited to and have been warned not to go to but I'm going to go to it anyway. I know that Angela would understand if I said that I didn't want to go to his party because of the gang tensions but I figured I need a night away from my life and everything that has to do with my life and I needed a change of scenery and I also need to change my hairstyle and go back to my natural hair color which was dark brown . On top of that I also needed to find an outfit to wear for the party tonight and it was a themed party which wasn't that bad because I love them . The theme was Kings and Queens. It was a fitting theme to A very lovely couple. I wanted to arrive as a princess but I can't do that