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Chapter 208
Chapter 208
Max
Three days when I feel like nothing is ever going to go right. I listen to most important people in my life. I lost Blake my mother. I know that I should be talking to someone what what I'm going through but at the moment I feel everything and nothing at the same time I want to feel the good and bad it is just too difficult to process what's going on.
When Raphael told us that both my mother and my brother and my mother didn't make it, it felt like the whole world and went dark including mine I know I should be thankful for what I have right now. It's hard to focus on the good when everything bad is happening around you and you just want to be left alone full stop in my case I want to be left alone because I had an important match to play on the day after the unthinkable happened I had contractual agreements that I had to uphold so I ended up doing what needed to be done .
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