5. Past's Aggression

Earlier, Mark was sitting in his office with the continues smile on his face, remembering the yesterday when he met his mother,

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"Mom?" He called her when she was busy with work. She hummed, "Yes?

"A girl named Selena was coming to you earlier when I dropped by in the afternoon. So, did she get the job?"

She looked up at him suspiciously, "How do you know her, Mark?"

"I met her here when she was coming. So? Did she?" He looked curious to her and she said, "But, I'm not sure, but I guess she would.. No, actually she did get it."

"Really?!-" He stopped and said again, "I mean, really? That's good for her." He cleared his throat and sat back."

"Now tell me, 'why' are you asking about her?" She asked again,

"I told you, because I met her today, Mom. Nothing else." He tried to shrug it off, then she loosened her shoulders and said, "Son, but, you should bring something other than nothing, okay? What about that girl who I introduced to you for marriage?"

He rolled his eyes, "Mom…"

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He feels happy now that he knows she works not anywhere but where he works. What else could he ask after this?

Soon Shaydon was back at his office and, some time later, he stopped and unwillingly began to think.

'Why did I lie? I know she won't matter to me, still? Whatever happened now but I can't bear her face, that's what I know.'

He couldn't control his feelings and began to call someone to bring Selena to his office, but stopped.

'No, she doesn't even deserve my calling.'

He put back the phone and got up from his seat. He got out of his office and began to find her with the urge to let out his hatred when he got a chance, but did not find her. When he was walking through a corridor, he saw her walking from there. He immediately pulled her there by grabbing her arm harshly and made her walk inside.

"Ouch! What is this?-"

She stopped her sentence when she saw Shaydon made her come here while harshly pulling her there and left her arm when he pulled her a little to himself, asking her while his eyes wide in anger.

"Now, tell me. Why did you come here in the first place? Other than your 'job', what is it that you made your ways again to make my life hell? Do you think I will let it slide this time? Tell me, what did you think!"

She was taken aback, but more than anything she felt bad. "No.. there's nothing-"

He suddenly leaned closer to her face with a dangerous gaze, "What did you plan this time, huh? Won't you tell? And don't you think if you'll not tell me I'll think it's nothing. Were you not at peace when you shattered my life and even now you want more from me? How can a person be 'this' shameless?"

He ended with a disgusting face, convinced in his mind that she's still wanting more than that. Selena was hurting to hear his words, but half true. But doesn't feel like trying to even try telling him anything because of his closeness and gaze. "No, I- How should I tell you? You're not listening to me.."

He made an amusing face, "Oh, and you think something could change if you tell any lie to me?" He asked and then made a serious face and said, "No."

Selena began to shake her head vigorously, "You are thinking wrong, really. This is not my intention, what would I want from you now? Listen to me-"

He took a step back and looked at the side, showing her how he couldn't stand seeing her this much. "How do you know Mark? Are you planning something with more filling of your poisons this time? So, you've made your research even more than before, that he's my friend. Right?" 

He looked at her and said in a deeply cold tone, "Amazing."

She shook her head like she’s about to give up, "No.. No.. No, that's not a bit of it." She knew he would never believe her, still she continued.

"I don't know him, really. I swear I didn't know he works here or he knows you- you probably won't believe me but I didn't. I met him in a college where I went for a job, where his mother is a deen there. I know nothing about his life, okay?"

She said nervously and he didn't remove and inch nor his cold and the gaze with hidden meaning behind it, from her. She didn't know why but she again began to say,

"How to tell you, but, all my life I couldn't bring myself to go for you. That I felt guilty, I felt bad and very much bad that only I knew.. Really. That I thought you have lost your life from your-"

He suddenly began to take huge steps to her that she she hit the wall behind her and he slammed his both hand harshly on either side of her on the walls that it made her scared enough, face coming close to hers, saying with detest,

"I would've totally believed your words and had not seen anything around you which could make it show like I shouldn't have. I would've only looked at your eyes which would be lying, but I loved not to see it in there. I would 'only' listen to my heart,"

He stopped and his loathful and her scared eyes met for a few seconds, and he continued a bit more calmly than before.

"But you know what? I'm not what I used to be when I was blind after you. I don't even 'want' to look at your manipulating face now, nor do I want to see if your eyes are actually lying or… not."

Her eyes were filled with tears which came for the first time because of him, because of 'his' words. He slowly began to pull away from her and removed his hands from the wall.

"Don't try to come near me in the office, I'm warning you." He said and turned around, "Or else.. I will do much worse to you than what you have done to me!"

"No, no, no I will not come close to you. I got to work in a company, I don't want anything more.. Just please don't fire me-"

She literally pleaded, and he looked at the side for the last time to say something. "And yeah, keep that in your mind. Despite that I don't like your very being, I'd still not leave you alone for good."

He said and walked back from the other direction where he came from, and she kept standing there for several minutes to grasp what just happened, how he had really changed. He 'is' now what he says he is.

'I didn't ask if he gave his approval to give me a job? If no, then why is he letting me stay even after this moment? And if yes, then why did he lie?'

She went where she was going, the restroom. Then somehow continued her work without letting her thoughts go anywhere else. 

Soon it was evening and that's when she heard people talking when they were about to leave, how Shaydon never leaves first but stays in his office until night. She thought whatever the reason was, but her staying too will definitely upset him, so she took her leave.

After finishing his work, Mark was about to go to Shaydon’s office like usual, but stopped and saw Selena’s seat and that she had left. He went inside and began to say while walking,

"Hey. Do you know about that new girl? It was you who had her interview.."

'How can I forget that interview?' Shaydon thought coldly.

"You didn't say anything about her- Oh!" He sat and continued curiously, "You didn't give her the job because you can't give this job to 'that' girl, huh?-"

"Shut up, Mark! It's not like I can't give her. What do you think? Am I that weak? That love ended 'years' ago. And right now, I don't need her for anything. Except.."

He trailed off and thought, 'To take revenge for shattering my every desire to live, and my heart.'

Mark thought he unwillingly gave another person with the same name the job but not her because he was weak enough and without deciding. But he didn't know, that's not it.

"Except?"

"Doesn't matter. So, leave it." He sighed and tried to do something else.

Mark shrugged and asked casually, not understanding. "But, come on. You are crazy about her-"

He suddenly stopped and corrected him, "I 'was' crazy about her."

"Um.. Yeah.. I think I should leave.." Mark said hesitantly and got up to leave after saying him bye, thinking he should less the time he comes here after working hours.

Before Selena went to sleep, she was on a call with Jenny who got time to ask her about her first day. "I promise we will talk tomorrow, Jenny. After coming back from work I had to meet the landlord, and God knows how I would convince them."

She sat on the bed and sighed, "At work, I was not in any place nor my mind thinking what if something unusual happens? And similar to it did happen like that too.. Still I tried my best to adapt in their environment."

They agreed to talk more peacefully tomorrow after Jenny was convinced to talk about what similar happened, tomorrow. And before she fell asleep, she thought,

'Is there not a way I could tell you that you are right? But, I can't unsee it when you're not totally right..'

Next morning when she went to work, eyes were automatically searching for him. When she didn't see him, the hours began to pass by but not when the lunch break came and she was on a call with Jenny.

"Finally now you're also working, finally your struggle ends at least? How's it going?" Jenny was happy about the positive thing that happened, and asked excitedly. "Everything…" Selena was thinking where to start telling her, and she asked again.

"Tell me that later. Tell me what was about yesterday you were saying?"

Selena told her from the outside, that he made sure he doesn't believe me from anything now and doesn't want to see her face, and that he thinks she made another plan. She made sure no one heard it, and then began to say normally.

"I don't know what I should do, Jenny.. I want to work here, but whenever I would see his face, everything would disturb me. And how much it did to 'him' gets back in my mind. My mistake will come, that selfishness will."

"Selena.. Don't you want to get rid of this feeling?"

"What?"

"Or should I say.. Do you want to get rid of this tension, be at ease and leave him in his better mind too?" This leaves Selena confused as she said, "I don't understand. How?"

"How about you make him fall in love with you? He will change his mind, and so your mind will be at ease." She suggested. Selena felt angry at her for saying what she would never consider doing at this position, not after how he became.

'Never..'

"What? Make him fall in love? Are you serious-"

She turned around to see if anyone’s there and her eyes opened wide along with shame as she saw he was behind her, present in his waist coat and perfect fitted tie and his eyes stopped at her with no amusement on his face. Who, she thought, heard her last sentence for sure. 

"S-Shaydon?" She slipped her phone down from her ear, "It is not what you think, I would never think of doing something like this. I'm again forced out to say something to you which you would not take as believable but still I want to, it is not what you think. Please, please don't think-"

"Sir."