***Long Island, New YorkAlessandraThe sound of commotion had us pausing at the door, each of us sharing a look of knowing and worry. The women in my world were conditioned to their lives and what it meant to be part of the criminal underground. We were prepared for any and every eventuality, knew exactly what to do when danger lurked and our enemies reared their head.We are, after all, usually the first targets in such a situation. We were expendable, collateral damage in the grand scheme of things so that the Made men can battle it out, oblivious to our own suffering. It was one among many things I detested about this world.We aren't human beings to them. Simply weak women who can be used, abused and thrown out, all for the sake of the end game. I refuse to be a statistic in someone's mind games.My sisters and I shared a look, each of our instincts on high alert as we prepared for whatever was to come. I may have clashed a lot with my Papa and disagreed with him on many matters
*** Long Island, New York Alessandra The bang of the door coincided with my little sister's attack as she instantly latched onto the figure who had forced his way in, subduing him without any thought of hesitation or otherwise. That usually meant death in our world. The man groaned, clearly struggling and failing to get out of her death grip as she placed the knife against his neck and the gun against the side of his forehead. "I suggest you stop struggling or I'll make you old news twice over." She muttered threateningly, pushing the man to instantly freeze as he, no doubt, recognized the precarious position he was in. "I told you you should have let me go in first." The sound of Zeno's exasperated voice calmed my fast beating heart somewhat as each of us watched our brother emerge through the throng of suit-clad men who all pointed their guns at us, none of them relenting even under my brother's glare. "Zeno?... What is the meaning of this?" Mama exclaimed, finally finding h
***Long Island, New YorkAlessandraIt was not that I loved Diego with all of my heart. That would be a foolish endeavor, certainly not wise in our world. Love wasn't something that we knew about. It was not encouraged, mainly because we didn't know when or how we would lose it. Despair would come and wipe it all away, break us and shove us out of the fantasy we made for ourselves.It's an unnecessary emotion, especially when you need to be on the top of your game at all times. Any sign of weakness is usually considered to be a way in and no one will show you mercy once you give them a glimpse of your jugular.Diego's death was both painful because he was not only a close friend that I cherished so much but also the man who was meant to free me from the prison of my world. He understood me, wanted to fight the system beside me. How could it all be taken from me in one blow? When I was so close to the finish line?I glanced down at my wedding dress that was wrinkled, certainly not hol
***Long Island, New YorkAlessandraI brushed a hand down the lace of my new wedding dress, admiring the lace and swarovski diamonds that embroidered the fabric. It was beautiful, just like I remembered it to be. It was one of the two dresses I was conflicted about when choosing. The mermaid, open back design was just as unique as the detachable ball gown bottom that gave it a gorgeous train.My cathedral veil was emroidered with pearls, both blue and white, melding perfectly with the dress and my baby blue Louboutin bridal heels. He had gotten me everything I wanted but was too afraid to purchase lest it made my marriage with Diego even more real. My make up was refreshed with light hues, winged eye liner and mascara, golden eye shadow and nude lipstick. My jewelry was replaced with baby blue diamonds and pearls, all of which were provided for by none other than my husband to be.None of my sisters, mama or my aunt commented on it all but I could see the question deep in their gazes
***Long Island, New YorkAlessandra"The union between our families has been completed with the joining of our children. Now, we are one. Join me in raising a toast to the new couple in town. Draken and Alessandra, congratulations once more. Cheers!"All of our wedding guests raised their glasses in response to my papa's words, his smile radiating a level of confidence. He was pleased with the finality of his plans. He's gotten what he wanted and nothing else matters.I could still hear the words he spoke to me at the altar before he gave me away.The shock value was yet to fade but I couldn't allow myself to believe him. Not when he has done nothing but be a man unworthy of my trust during my entire lifetime up till this moment.He wedded me to a man I barely know. A man who makes me feel things I shouldn't...I was fixating on my Papa and not on the kiss Draken and I shared in the Church or the way it made me feel. I couldn't allow my little crush to grow into something more. Not w
*** Long Island, New York Alessandra He moved so gracefully, so self assuredly across the dance floor as everyone watched. He held me close, his arm around my waist never once relenting as we waltzed under the chosen song. I had not been involved in the finer details but I had to admit, the song did meld so well with the moment. We did not speak once, did not even acknowledge anything other than the intensity that our close proximity provided. Nothing needed to be said when our eyes revealed so much more. Deep in his gaze, he allowed me to see much more than usual. He was impressed, awed even by my skill which was unusual considering the world we live in. Dance lessons were a must, a way to keep us cultured because our society was so focused on stuff like that. I was glad for it in this moment, though, because it allowed me to keep up. He’s making me almost enjoy this... I hadn’t danced like this in a long time, an activity I once enjoyed so much in my younger years. I would sp
*** Manhattan, New York Alessandra The drive to our next destination was silent, neither one of us conversing with each other or trying to make the moment we were in any less awkward. Only the sounds of the Mclaren P1's impressive engine vented the car within, making me smile inwardly. It was a familiar sound, one that I had grown up around with my older brother's fascination with cars. He would almost always take us on joy rides in his restored, vintage cars as well as his newly acquired sports cars that were courtesy of Papa's credit card. That got us into a lot of trouble, now that I think of it...We must have been crazy to do that... The memories were many, making me smile as I turned my head to take in the impressive skyscrapers that made up Manhattan. Although I could feel my husband glancing ever so casually at me, I could not allow myself to meet his gaze. Not when nostalgia was bringing forward memories that were a mix of happy and sad. Mostly sad now...Fucking hell, Al
***Manhattan, New YorkAlessandra"It's okay, Alessa. Just breathe. You do not have to anything you don't have to. You're the one in control."The woman staring back at me through my reflection looked anything but confident in the words coming out of her own mouth. I was not surprised by my anxiety. We were now in the hotel room, a Penthouse suite that embodied the luxury and class that The Carlton was known for.Although Draken had said nothing of what comes next, choosing instead to pour himself yet another glass of clear liquid I suspected was vodka, I had given off some obscure excuse of going to the bathroom to freshen up.As if that would make things any better, Alessa...He probably thinks you're doing all of this for him, dammit...Many are the times that I have faced off with my father's anger or other nerve-wracking situations. Heck, life or death moments have been there and yet none of them has ever made me feel this scared.This frustrated.That I would not only be tied to
***Long Island, New YorkAlessandraI stared at my little sister, a small smile on my lips as I took her in. She was radiant in her wedding gown, looking every bit like the gorgeous bride that she was meant to be. Her wedding day was here and although we had believed that it would be a day of sorrow, it had turned out to be a happier occasion than the weddings that had come before it.For one, she was smiling wide, readying herself for the massive change in her life with a man who seemed to care more for her than she had anticipated. Keisuke Satarou had revealed his hand on the night of the attack and although he had tried to play it cool afterwards, the sentiment had not worked as well as he had hoped. We now knew how he truly felt and it filled all of us with a sense of calmness to know that the two of them would be okay.They may not want to admit their true feelings for each other but they are perfect for each other. They are going to be just fine, especially now that everything
***The Hamptons, New YorkAlessandraI crouched low, reloading my gun as I did while the gunshots ricocheted all around us. Tori and I had been holding our own in the wake of our accident, the two of us watching each other's backs as we advanced towards the individuals who had attacked us. Although some of our guards were still in the fight with us, others had been killed in the crossfire.And we were determined to avenge them as we reloaded our weapons and shot towards the army of men who had been sent to take us for some reason."Who the hell are these people? And why the fuck do some of them look like our men?!"Tori shouted, ducking back behind our bullet-ridden car as our assailants pushed forward. My stomach plummeted at my sister's words, reminding me of the realization that we had come to several days ago. Draken had been determined to find evidence that showcased my Uncle's involvement in all the shady fucking deals. We had uncovered illegal dealings existing as recent as no
***Brooklyn, New YorkDrakenI stared at the man before me, knowing well enough that there was certainly more to him than met the eye. Zeno Rinaldi may have been involved in one too many scandals with his Father that had traversed the underworld but it had seemed to strengthen him all the more. Despite Massimo Rinaldi's efforts, word of the hate that existed between his heir and his twin brother was commonplace.Which was why he had been the perfect person to approach- or rather to wait on for a much more comprehensive conversation away from small talk. Although our relationship wasn't strained, there was a tinge of awkwardness that could only be explained away by the tumultuous relationship between our families.It had nothing to do with the fact that he and Suyin Castellanos had made sure to pass across their veiled threats on the day of my wedding...they were protective of Alessandra and I respected that...My gaze shifted to the heir of the Triad who was every bit as terrifying a
***The Hamptons, New YorkAlessandra"Thank you for your reassurance, Vittoria. I do hope that our families are united through this union as well. I would love to get to know you both as well with time if it's okay with you."Aysun shared, a shy smile on her lips as she tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear. It was an unlikely reaction that neither Tori nor I had expected as she shared the same stunned look but we nodded eagerly all the same, glad to have gained such a great friend. She always kept her distance from people and was not easily approachable but she seemed to have warmed up to us considerably."We would love that. Thank you, Aysun."Granting us a final smile, she turned just as yet another couple of people walked up to pay their respects to her. Her walls were back up instantly, the unreadable gaze that was a familiar look on her and reminded me so much of my husband. It equally reminded me of the fact that she was a trained killer and one of the best at the craft i
***The Hamptons, New YorkAlessandra"Now remember, don't do anything I wouldn't do, malyshka. Play nice until I get there, okay?"Draken's instructions made me chuckle as I stared out of the window of the moving SUV. We were on our way to a formal event organized by the Sahin family. Although I had met the Turkish mafia's Don on very few occasions, she had been kind enough to extend an invitation not only to Draken and I for her younger sister's upcoming nuptials to one of the main Aristocratic families in the Cosa Nostra.The woman was an enigma, and the one and only female Don in the entire criminal underground. She was a force to be reckoned with many individuals choosing to stay away from her due to the rumours of her madness and ruthlessness. I, however, found her to be kinder than most with the familiar glint of hard brutality that was given in the world we lived in.She has to be tough to make it in this cruel world we live in...To stand at the top as she always does...She d
***Upper East Side, New YorkAlessandraThe ride home had been silent as we both seemed to get lost in our thoughts. Doctor Valentine had been incredibly pleased by the progress, recommending two sessions per week to continue down the right path of healing. Although I had been petrified at the thought of recalling everything, I was glad I did for the PTSD had distorted my memory, and made me bury it deep into my subconscious."It was my Uncle Salvatore. He had us kidnapped, the bastard. I've always been wary of that man but never would I have imagined that he had been behind that. I guess I always subconsciously knew that he was an evil piece of shit. I know Papa might not believe me but I should probably mention it to him. My only question is why? Why would he have kidnapped me? I'm not as valuable as Zeno probably would have been. I'm essentially insignificant in the grand scheme of things so why me?"I murmured out loud, earning a side look from my husband. He was driving us tonig
***I was in the back of the black SUV, windows tinted as always with two guards at the front. Mama was angry with me. I had defied Papa and embarrassed him at the event we had just left. I couldn't help it, though. The Serrano sisters had been mean again and I refused to let them talk ill of my little sister. I wouldn't let them bully us.Although Papa had been the one to banish me for giving them a beatdown, there was a proud glint in his eyes. I knew he wouldn't punish me too thoroughly. Probably a week in the basement or some gruelling training from Antonio. Zeno had been proud, Selene had been amused and Tori had hoped she could come with me. My siblings were my priority and knowing they had my back was all I cared about.At least I got to leave the boring party first. I was grounded but I was definitely okay with it. I didn't regret my actions one bit. The drive home wasn't as fast as I hoped it could be. I wanted to get out of this stupid dress. Mama always insisted on putting
***Upper East Side, New YorkAlessandraI stared ahead, trying not to internalize the place we were or the people milling about around us. I tried to process the decision I had made this morning- agreeing to follow the man sitted beside me who hadn't let go of my hand since we left the mansion this morning. He had stuck by my side even as he promised that his entire day would be committed to me.And now I know why...we're in a literal psychiatrist's office...I was moderately confused, alarmed by the fact that I had not fought off the man before me, stormed off and been incredibly offended by his initiative and yet here I was, Seated beside him, biding our time to wait for the Doctor to see us.Could it be because of last night? Because of yet another nightmare....They had been coming in more often for the last couple of weeks, some more brutal than others but lately, since the brunch from hell three days ago, I had experienced one of the worst nightmares since I'd left my childhood
*** Long Island, New York Draken I watched my woman walk away, revelling in her presence and her love. I could see it wedged deep within her gaze. Although the words had not been spoken, the sentiment was there and strong. I knew it would only be a matter of time before everything would be revealed. Everything was coming to a head, and soon, she would remember everything. She needs to know how long this has been simmering...how long I have longed for her and loved her... She had always been the one. The only one who owned me- body and soul. She was my Queen and I would worship the ground she walked on, always and forever. She had no idea how long I had longed for her. But soon, everything will change. Especially after all that has been revealed...Our revenge is coming to a head. Soon, this will all end...and I can finally be with her. She is my true reward, the woman I have been longing for all my life... I turned to gaze at the man before me, the literal scum of a human being w