43Back fire“Is this your way of making it up to me?” I cling on his arms as we both enter the mall.We just finish going to my OB for our monthly check up. I’m currently three months pregnant and my baby bump is getting big and noticeable.“Hmm, I guess, it’s my way of saying sorry that I’m constantly over-timing.” I smile and nodded.“I understand. Plus, you always go home to eat lunch together and I appreciate that even though I still lack skills for cooking.”He shook his head and kiss my lips instead of replying to me. I pouted and look at the people who was looking at us and they immediately look away when I caught them, I rolled my eyes Arthur still has many admirers where ever we go.Where at the baby station again, We haven’t talk about the name of the baby
44Divorce“I can’t believe it’s done. I love you so much, you definitely the best engineer I know.” I smile and hug Arthur as we both watch the nursery.“You’re a good designer and I just follow you’re instruction. It’s all thanks to you.” He smile and kiss my forehead and hold my belly. “You’re the only one we’re waiting baby but don’t come here to soon. You still have four months there.” I chuckle as he said that using a baby voice.“I’m excited for the baby shower.” I said. “and I’m dying to know if it’s a boy or girl but either way I will love our baby the same way.”“Have you thought of any names yet?” He ask and let me sit on the couch near the crib. The nursery is color neutral and it’s actually very cute even though we combine the color pink and blue to some colors but I like it.“Hmm, nope. I want to name it when we’ll know it’s gender. It just felt right that way. I don’t want us to be fighting for name if it’s a boy or girl.” He nodded and made me lay my head on his should
45Baby showerI’m nervous and excited at the same time. I know I said that it would matter if it’s a girl or boy but I don’t know why I’m feeling this way. They told me that it might be a girl because I look so blooming but I don’t want to assume but I must admit I also wanted a mini me. I want to take my baby to a ballet class, dress her up and the likes but that would be a nightmare to Arthur as he told me that he’s a little scared that if it might be a girl guys would come following her and court her.“I’m nervous.” I look at Arthur who’s driving the car as we’re on our way to the venue of the baby shower. “Do you think I will be a good mother? What if I failed her or him? Would they still love me?”He hold my hands in my lap while he continue driving. “You will be a great parent plus no one is perfect at this and we’ll figure this out together. You’re not alone in this. I’m here by your side.”That made me calm down and feel at ease. He always know what to say when I’m doubting m
46HopeI feel great. I feel accepted and I stand up for myself and it feels so good to be accepted even though it looks like I just force them to do so but I don’t know I gave them a choice whether they should leave or not but they chose to stay and I’m not going to let them regret giving me chance to prove myself.“You look happy.” Nena said as she drive me to the company. Arthur is at the site so Nena is driving for me.“I am happy. What happen last night was nerve-racking but I manage to stood up and speak up. It was satisfying to see them silent and stay.”“I should’ve witness that. I can’t believe I didn’t.” She said as I told her all the details that happen last night.I didn’t even realize that we’re already at the company but I’m still not done sharing her what happen last night. She laughs and it made me laugh too rem-incing what happen.“You have a meeting today.” Nena said as we get in the elevator. She’s also one of my many secretaries and she keeps me organize.I nodded
47AliveI woke up with a foggy feeling. My whole body hurts like hell and when I open my eyes my vision is still blurry but I know I’m in the hospital because I know this feeling so damn well. I look at the ceiling and my eyes wander around the surrounding and when I saw my parents talking with Arthur while panicking all the memories gushing back to me.My brows creased as I try to remember what happen after the accident but I can’t it’s just making my head hurt.“My baby.” I hold my stomach and was about to sit when I felt pain in my stomach and in my head. I hold my head and notice that wrap by a bandage.“Emily!” they all notice me and Arthur immediately went to me and made me return to lay on bed.“W-what happen?” I ask them as I felt scared. “Reign, where’s Reign. She’s still inside me right?”I’m scared and nervous because there’s this feeling that she’s not here but I felt a slight hope and that what’s keeping me from going.Arthur shook his head and that made me lose my mind
48ReignDay by day I get better and my wound is healing and so does Reign. I always visit her in the morning but I’m not allowed to see her up close as she’s still incubated and I’m happy even though I can’t hold her. What’s important is she’s safe and getting better.“She’s so beautiful.” I’m not going to get tired of saying that. I can stand now and can walk on my own and it’s been three days since we’re admitted in this hospital and my parents chose to stay here in the US for the meantime and Arthur refuse to work and he’s always on my side and taking care of me and my parents don’t mind that he doesn’t work, they kind of like that he’s taking care of me and even though I’m kind of worried because he has work and his projects but I think some other engineer is taking over it and I heard it’s Nathan
49 (Part 1)HealArthur’s POVI don’t know what to do without her and I can’t lose her too, I can’t take anymore losses in my life. I had enough of this. I just want Emily to be okay.It’s been hours when the doctors took Emily to the operating room and I haven’t head from them yet. They say it’s good because the surgery is going good and I’m hoping it will.“Arthur, you should rest. It’s been six hours and you haven’t even eaten yet.”Emily’s mom give me food and water but I chose to stay outside the waiting room. I don’t want to stay in the room alone I feel more at ease here. This way I will see people, it gives me hope when the doctors deliver the good news to them but it has a down side too, I also see them deliver bad news and I feel my body breaking thinking if that will happen to me too but Emily is strong, she will get through this like she get through all the obstacles life throws at her because that’s the Emily that I know.“She’s strong.” I whisper again and again until th
49 (Part 2)Heal?TW: SexEmily’s POV“I hate you!” I start to throw my pillows at him as he walk inside the room. I hate him for being so emotionless, I feel like I’m the only one who’s mourning for Reign’s death.How can he ask me questions like what do I want to do with Reign’s body? Do I want to bury it or do I want to cremate it. I know I nodded when he ask if I want to cremate it but that’s because I don’t want her to be far from me.“You don’t care about anything. I feel like I’m the only one who cares for Reign. You move on so quickly, I’m the one who’s mourning.” My tears began to fall as I ran out of pillow to throw at him and I sat weakly at the bed.“What? Emily, I’m here for you. Everyday I’m here by your side and I’m mourning too but will how will we handle this situation when we both sulk inside the nursery? I’m in pain too I just don’t want to show you because I know you’re more in pain and I must stay strong for the both of us. We can’t be dependent of other people wh