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I didn't expect that someone would come for me on such a cold night.

Kai stood in front of me, covered in the chill of the fall night, the tips of his ears red from the cold, but squeezing his usual coy smile.

"Jacob called Mia and told her that you left home, but she was out of town so she contacted me. I wasn't sure and came out to try and find you, but I was surprised to actually run into you."

He said it lightly.

But my nose was so sore that my tears were about to fall uncontrollably.

How easy is it to find someone at night in such a big city?

Kai is in a rush.

"Eh, why are you crying?"

Having just experienced bone-chilling indifference, Kai was so concerned that I suddenly broke my defenses and crouched on the floor, hugging myself as I cried snotty tears.

Kai squatted down beside me, a tall man of six feet, his hands full at the moment, and mumbled half-heartedly before carefully saying,

"Chloe, I could lend you a shoulder to lean on."

After a long silence, I finally cocked my head and leaned up lightly.

It was clear to feel his heartbeat almost beating out of his chest and his stiff body.

Suddenly felt a little funny. Almost thirty years old, how can you still be as innocent as a young teenager?

Kai took me back to his house in a cab.

I took small sips from my glass of red wine and looked at Kai, who was busy tidying up my room, and my heart slowly settled down.

In fact, I know Kai even earlier than Jacob.

In high school, Kai was a typical science scholar-lord, who only thought about his studies and won all the awards.

In college, he was the most popular person.

During my sophomore year, he confessed his love to me under the guise of being drunk. I was shocked and rejected him.

At that time, I was deeply cultivated by youth drama, I like humor and domineering sunshine boy.

Kai, who was dull and shy, did not look like my choice of spouse.

But Kai was more stubborn than I thought.

Over the years, he stayed by my side in silence and never mentioned a word about liking me again.

Tonight's behavior beyond the boundaries of friends is still the first time.

He hides his emotions too well, just as I didn't figure out why he liked me back then, I can't see his feelings for me today.

Kai cleaned up his room and came out. I poured him a glass of red wine.

"Kai, thank you. I'll move out tomorrow when I find an apartment."

He frowned imperceptibly and drank the wine in one go.

"No, you can stay here. I have another house in the neighborhood, I'll stay there."

I thought for a while and told him.

" Well, I'll pay you the market rate for rent every month."

He nodded.

"That's fine."

The sad thing about adults is that no matter how much you cried yesterday, you still have to get up the next day and be a corporate slave.

After a long day of drowsiness, I managed to get off work and saw a familiar figure just as I stepped out of the elevator.

It’s Jacob.

He came over to me to take my shoulder like nothing happened, with a light smile on his face.

"Chloe, let's go home."

I slightly sidestepped and dodged.

My colleagues around me smiled at each other and jokingly said that the loving couple had quarreled one day, and asked Jacob to go back and coax me.

Jacob responded favorably while observing my mood.

I was expressionless the entire time. It wasn't until my coworker had finished walking that I spoke to him,

"Jacob, we've broken up, don't come to my company anymore."

Jacob's body paused at his words. But soon, he smiled without thinking and asked me.

"Chloe, what do you want to eat for lunch? I'll make it for you."

I looked at him as if nothing had happened, and an incident that happened last winter suddenly popped into my mind.

At that time, my grandmother, who loved me the most, died suddenly, and I rushed back to my hometown.

While grieving, Jacob and I quarreled.

I had the intention of seeking comfort from him, but as soon as I saw that the last message from Messages was still stuck on the 'can we talk' that I had posted a week ago.

I felt a deep sense of helplessness.

On the third day after Grandma's funeral, I didn't resist calling Jacob on the video.

He picked up when he was about to hang up.

What was revealed in the large screen, however, was not his front face, it was the phone flat on the table.

He was looking straight ahead, only a view of his jawline visible, with the faint sound of a keyboard tapping away.

I froze.

"Jacob, what are you doing?"

He didn't even look at me before returning.

"Cybercafe, playing video games."

I didn't say anything at that time, just looked at him fixedly for a long time.

My heart ached so much that it was suffocating, and I suddenly didn't understand why I was continuing this relationship.

What's the point of being in love?

That was the first time I broke up. I was determined to break up with Jacob.

But a week later, I was flying back to school, and when I was struggling to lift my suitcase to the shelf above, my hands suddenly became lighter, and someone behind me helped me to lift it up.

I turned around and saw Jacob, holding the luxury brand bag I wanted the most, with a smile on his dusty face.

"Chloe, I finally found you."

I was surprised, after all, it was hundreds of kilometers away from the school.

"Why are you here?"

Jacob looked at me with a smile in his eyes.

"I heard that you are going back to school today, so I bought a ticket in advance and rushed back to accompany you back."

When people are in the most pain, they can't afford to reject the light given by others.

At that moment, the whole world was blurred, and only the gentle boy in front of me was infinitely enlarged.

No matter how hard I had been hit by the "stick" before, the "sweet" at that moment was indeed sweet to the core of my heart.

So I once again chose to jump into his arms.

But now I finally understand that Jacob's most ruthless place is here.

I love you, but I don't seem to love you that much.

No matter how hard I had been hit by the "stick" before, the "sugar" at that moment was indeed sweet to the core of my heart.

So I once again chose to jump into his arms.

But now I finally understand that Jacob's most ruthless place is here.

I love you, but I don't seem to love you that much.

Hit a stick and then give a sweet, let you keep falling into it, but never escape.

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