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35: Sooner than expected
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2021-02-08 03:21:01"Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable."
~Bruce Lee
Rogue's POV
"Go to hell Rogue Von Quaint or better yet, kill yourself, throw yourself off a cliff and end it! Julian didn't deserve what he got, that was supposed to be you, but then, here you are. One thing is certain, I'll make sure you're not in this child's life evening it's the last thing I do" She spits at me in pure hatred, her eyes blazing red.
My heart shatters in a million pieces causing pain to shoot to every part of my body and I flinch back and stare at her in complete awe and I can't honestly recognise the Alex speaking or standing in front of me anymore. She didn't have to say 'I hate you,' her eyes and words said it all and her fury is anywhere, but gone as she
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