Chapter-02

“Ok fine. Let’s go.” I agreed and got up from my chair.

His face curved into a smile and he flee from there happily.

I walked outside and took my feet toward her room, which was situated in the left wing of my mansion.

My packhouse encompasses a large area of our pack.

I don’t live here alone.

Most of my ranked members share this mansion with me, or you can say I let them stay here to give respect.

But I have my personal area where no one can enter without my permission.

My Luna stayed on the left wings of the mansion where I cover the main building of the mansion.

None of my Luna has got a place in this main compound as I have kept it exclusively for my personal use and I only intend to share it with my mate.

Even if my life remained cursed and I could never find her, I will let no one taint her place in my life let alone in my mansion.

It will only belong to her.

Whenever I will find her, I will let her arrange her house as she wants.

But one thing I was very sure of. I won’t let her go away from me ever as my Luna left me.

I will try my best to protect her.

If I will have to fight with the entire world, even if with my fate I will die while keeping her alive.

My life, my Alpha hierarchy nothing matters in front of her.

When I reached her room, the maid opened the door for me.

Rose was lying there in her bed like a lifeless person.

Her face was pale white like paper, her beautiful brown hair has lost its life even her skin has lost its luster and glow.

She has lost a good amount of weight in these few days.

I am seeing her after months and her facial beauty was not there anymore.

She has transformed from a graceful lady to a person I barely could recognize.

Her face has got wrinkles like an old lady there were dark circles below her eyes and her lips were dry.

Though I was angry with her because she pulled such a disgraceful stunt looking at her lying like this makes me feel pity for her.

“Alpha.” She called me in her low voice and only uttering this short word makes her cough violently.

I looked at the maid, frowning, and she ran to offer her water.

She sipped a little and the maid help her sit up, leaning her back on the headboard.

Settling her properly the maid left, giving us privacy.

“You wanted to see me for the last time?” I asked, standing in the middle of the room.

When she noticed I was not going to approach her, her eyes dimmed.

Yet she tried to take a chance and call me close with her hand forwarding her hand.

Though I was not willing to show her any affection, I agreed to give her a chance, and I walked toward her and sat in a chair that was kept along her bed.

She must have ordered the maid to arrange it for me.

After all, she expected I would hear her for the last time.

“Alpha, I know you were angry because I took that step. But I was helpless.” She explained, looking away from me.

Her gaze was distant, and it looked like she was in great pain.

But I was not a little interested in her explanation because I was angry with her.

When we agreed to this companionship, she knew what was my thought about this bond.

She came here as my Luna and I have promised nothing that can give her hope that I will love her.

I thought she agreed with this deal and was happy living here.

She was getting provided with every necessary thing and I never mistreated them though I have never taken them as my mate.

So why did she need to take a drastic step and humiliate me?

I had taken her responsibility and I would have provided her with everything even if I would find my mate in the future.

Then why did she need to do this?

“You knew I would never fall for you. I have cleared this matter even before I mated with you. Then why you are expecting me to change?” I expressed my frustration.

Though I knew I have done nothing wrong, her step make me feel inferior.

It looked like I was bullying her.

Which was not the truth.

This feeling was not only bitter about our relationship I despised her.

That’s why I never came to meet her in these few months.

“Alpha, you won’t understand. You knew my mate died before I met you. That’s why my dad wanted to secure my future. Because I lost my hope of living life.” She said.

I know her mate died in a war, and I have accepted her only because of that reason.

I never wanted to come between mate bonds.

The bond is too sacred for someone to mess with.

Even my previous mate Maria and Rim were mateless.

“But you didn’t know why I agreed to this proposal.” She said, and that makes me look at her with a surprised expression.

We have never talked like this and tried to search our hearts as our relationship was only based on needs and benefits.

“Why?” I asked curiously.

“Because I fall for you at first sight.” She confessed, but her confession was a great shock for me.

We were together for almost three years, but I never know she had this type of thought about me.

“I thought I would make you fall for me. I was beautiful, graceful, and soft and I love you with all my heart. I thought you will move someday.” She sighed in defeat and a tear rolled down her eyes.

“But I was stupid. Neither I could move your heart nor god bless us with our pup. So instead of getting close, we fall apart. But after these three years, the situation made me realize how wrong I was. This thing was killing me from the inside. And that day, those feelings get over me and I couldn’t control my emotion.” She admitted, and I noticed a hint of guilt in her eyes.

“I thought maybe it was better to end my life than live in this despair.” Her eyes held truth and though I sympathized with her I would never want to change our life.

I am committed to my mate, and this was the only truth of my life.

Nothing can change this commitment.

I know she has tried everything to move my heart. But it only craved for my mate. No other girl could ever get a place here because this heart inside my heart has never beat for anyone.

With them, my relationship was only physical. My heart never agreed with all this.

If I was not desperate for an heir and not wanted to strengthen my pack, I would have never taken them as my Luna, even if I had to spend my life alone.

I was sad for her, but I was always loyal to my emotion. I can’t help her with this.

“You know, love can’t be forced,” I said, and she gave me a smile that was laced with pain.

I know she was suffering, but I was suffering too.

I was waiting for someone whom I don’t even know.

My only hope was to keep my heartbeat and with this empty heart how can I love someone?

“I know. That’s why I took my step back. But can I ask something from you? I won’t ask for anything more.” She added the last part hurriedly with fear. I won’t agree.

I have always tried my best to fulfill their wish, and this time was no different, too.

“If it’s not my heart, everything in this pack is yours,” I said, and she gave a self-mocking smile.

“But I wanted only that. What an irony.” Another tear slipped from her eyes.

Her tears were making me sad, but I didn’t stop them. I know that somehow I was involved in making her cry.

I couldn’t give her what she wanted. I have no power over that.

So I don’t deserve to take away her right of crying too.

“Don’t worry I won’t want that today. But can you stay the night with me? I want to sleep in your arm for the last time.” She asked me.

I know she won’t be alive for long and it won’t be the first time we will share intimacy.

Still, this time her word made me hesitate.

It felt like I would betray my mate if I do this.

This is not the first time I have felt that.

I have felt that every time whenever I have spent private moments with my Luna.

Because this was the right of my mate, which I was giving to them because of my duty toward my pack.