Ash blinked a few times, more in the present like he’d just woken up from a trace. “How do you feel?” He asked stepping closer to me.
“No pain just a small ache.” I responded with a grateful smile.
“You remember our talk about you being a bad lair?”
I rolled my eyes. “Okay, it’s a throbbing big ache.”
“Is she going to be alright?” Ben asked his face full of worry.
“She’ll be fine,” Ash answered still smiling. I wasn’t sure exactly what was up with him. Precedence had taught me the smallest attention from a male who wasn’t in his pack was usually met with hostility. “She just needs to lie down.”
“I’ll walk you.” Joe offered. And by walk, he meant lifting me to my room. He placed me gently on the bed, shifting the pillows around to make me comfortable. “Don’t worry,” he began with a smile, &ldquo
“I thought I’d find you dead and Baku and Sabrina would have finally killed me. And then when I couldn’t feel them or hear them cry anymore I knew for sure I’d just lost another family. At that moment I didn’t want revenge, I just wanted to die.”I looked up at him and saw a tear stray down his cheek. I’d hurt him, worse than I possibly though I could.He chuckled, wiping the tear away. “Only to get home and find out you took my children and ran away from me,” the pitch of his voice was higher, anger replacing the sad dazed look he had in his eyes.“I’m so sorry Ash. I didn’t mean to hurt you. I was only doing what was best for the twins!” I cried, very close to tears.He snorted, “Best for the twins.”I sat up, determined to get my point across, “We were a distraction and you didn’t need that if you were to finally catch Baku and Sabrina.”
I spent that entire day in my room, and when night came, my sisters took my children away anticipating Ash’s arrival but he didn’t come. So I spent that night alone, and the next night and the next night too. I sat at the top of the steps in the early morning cold, staring out at the forest hoping to get a glimpse of him. I was worried, not for his safety but that he’d left me again and this time he wouldn’t come back. I have always known my relationship with Ash would never be easy, but I never banked on this. Once I found out all that he was hiding from me, everything seemed to get easier, despite the constant threat to my life. We were inseparable and so deeply in love. But when I found out I was pregnant, it all got complicated. Those three months without him were hell and when he got back and the month before I left they were awkward, loving, threatening, and then loving again. For those seven and a half months I’ve spent loving him, it’s been a wild emotional roller coaster ri
Empty. I was forever empty. “Why don’t you just go lie naked in the snow?”“What?” I hadn’t noticed Ann was sitting beside me until she spoke. Her voice pulled me out of my daze. My mind had been completely preoccupied with the news that everything around me ceased to exist.“You are sitting outside with a giant ice pack on your back.”“Joe wants the bruise to disappear before Ash comes back.”I had moved to the back of the house and waited there for the guys to come back. After my check up, Joe joined them in the forest. He said they would be back after half an hour; I checked my watch, they were fifteen minutes late.“When is he coming back?” “Soon.” I looked at my watch again. They were sixteen minutes late. “What’s keeping them?”“Keeping who?”“The guys. They should be here by now.” I was getting anxious, did something bad happen to them? Did Ben’s training with Billy go horribly wrong? Was one of them hurt? Why
“Give her a straight answer Billy or I’ll show you what I can do!” Ann threatened from behind me. Billy’s face creased at the threat and then his smile was back as he blew a kiss at her.I saw Joe and Ben come out of the forest at a slower pace than what’s normal for them. “Never mind, I see him,” I said walking towards them. It took a few minutes but I got close enough to shout. “What happened?” I called out.“Why?” Joe asked with a smile.“One you are smiling and two,” I looked at my watch, “You are twenty seven minutes late.”“I always smile,” he defended himself coming to a stop in front of me.“Yes. But when you smile like that it’s because you want to hide something from us.” I stared past him at Ben; he was a few feet behind Joe with his head down and his arm across his chest, “What’s wrong with him?&rdquo
I sat close to the campfire and stretched my hands out to the flames. Ash was busy putting up the huge tent. It looked like a hut, completely on the extreme side of a normal camping tent.I moved closer to the fire. I was wrapped up like a kesedia but I was still freezing! But Ash was walking around in a T-shirt like it was the middle of summer. “You are making me jealous.”“How so?” he asked me, lifting two huge logs and placing them at the sides of the tent.“I’m freezing my ass off while you have a natural heating system. I bet you can’t feel how cold it is.”He turned to me and gave me a smile, “No. I can’t,” he spoke lifting two more logs and taking them to the other two sides of the tent.“You don’t have to gloat you know?”He chuckled, “I’m not! Okay how about we share my heat?”I rolled my eyes, “How charitable
The next morning we strolled back to the house, enjoying our quiet white surroundings before we went back to our complicated lives. I wanted to stay a day or two longer especially after the wonderful surprise but I’d missed my kids and Ash also wanted to see them. My memories of the past few days of them weren’t enough. He wanted to stop being a secondary spectator and actually be there when they did something silly and memorable.I had one more treasured memory. And it was better than the first time we made love.We were barely out of the thicket before Billy appeared in front of us, bringing with him a very cold breeze that chilled me to the bone.Ash put his arms around me, “What do you want Billy.”He pointed at me, “Her.”“Why?”He walked- no, more like stomped- away. We had no choice but to follow him and finally see what I’d done wrong this time. Billy stopped a few times to
“Because I know Ash... and I’ll also be there. Give me a minute.” I rushed to our room and placed Meri next to AJ then I rushed back out and joined the other humans on the steps.Josh rushed in and back out with a bowl of popcorn. I stared at him confused. He shrugged his shoulders, “Hey, if it’s going to be a show better than the Royal Rumble I need popcorn.”Ann laughed, “You sure can pick them Lee.”“Okay Ben, are you ready?” Ash asked loosening up his body like a boxer would before a fight. Ben gave me a long look and I could feel his fear. “She’s not going to help you Ben,” he taunted, crouching down and holding his arms out, silver slowly sipping into his eyes.“Don’t worry Ben, he’s exhausted.” I yelled out.Ash laughed. “Actually, after last night I feel rejuvenated.”“What happened last night?” Josh asked.
I sat on the bed watching my happy babies wondering if Ben was alright. My eyes rested on AJ and it took everything in me to keep from crying. How did Ash’s mother survive all six initiations? The thought of it was driving me crazy. When and if that day came, I’d surely die from the anxiety.AJ grabbed my thumb and chewed on it, rubbing it against his bare gums. “I wonder if daddy will put you through the same thing.”He whined. He pulled my thumb out of his mouth and began kicking and waving his tiny hands around as his face creased in discomfort. “Are you wet again or hungry?”I checked his diaper. He was dry, “You eat like your father.”I looked at my watch. It had only been a half an hour they’d probably take another hour or two to rip Ben apart. I shook my head trying to clear the image of Ben’s head meeting the white ground in a bloody kiss.“Okay. Let’s just do something