Prologue

"Why do you keep on hurting me, Wyatt?" I yelled at him while crying like a goddamn baby.

He looked at me emotionless and puffed his cigarette. Hanggang ngayon ay wala pa rin siyang pake sa 'kin, even though his seeing me crying because of him... again.

"Don't act like you're the only one who's hurting here, Sierra," he uttered while looking at me sleepily.

"'Yon na nga eh. We're both hurting pero magkaiba tayo ng rason." I wipped my tears and looks at him confidently na parang hindi ako umiyak kanina.

I will cry, but not forever. I don't want to be weak and sympathize by others. He's the only person na hinayaan kong ipakita ang pagkamiserable ko.

"I'm hurting because of you. But you're hurting because of that fucking bitch!" Nagulat ako nang bigla niyang binato sa pader ang bote ng wine.

Laglag panga ko siyang tiningnan but he looked at me like he saw me as a prey that ready to be ravish by a lion. Mabilis siyang lumapit sa 'kin at mahigpit na hinawakan ang balikat ko.

Malakas akong dumaing sa sakit pero mas hinigpitan niya pa ang hawak sa balikat ko. Naramdaman ko na naman na malapit ng tumulo ang luha ko.

"Don't call her bitch, Sierra. Because we all know who's the real bitch here!" he shouted.

Malakas niya 'kong tinulak kaya dumiretso ako sa couch. Ngumiwi ako sa sakit nang tumama ang likod ko sa arm rest nito.

Naluluha ko siyang tiningnan but he just rolled his eyes and sat on the single couch. He put his cigarette on his mouth and puffed in without looking at me.

Mabilis akong tumayo at inayos ang suot kong bloody red maxi dress. I raised my chin and walks towards him like a runaway model. Patuloy lang ito sa paghithit ng sigarilyo nang hindi ako tinatapunan ng tingin.

He's really heartless when it comes to me. Ano bang ginawa ko at ganito niya ako tratuhin? All I do is to love him, is it bad to love a man like him?

"Why do you keep on siding her? I am your wife, Wyatt. But why are you treating me like a piece of trash? Ako ang asawa mo pero bakit siya pa rin ang mahal mo?" naiiyak kong sabi sa kanya.

Bahagya itong umiling at nilapag ang sigarilyo sa ash tray. He grinned at me and put his hands on his pocket.

"Yeah.. you're right. You're my wife. Pero asawa lang kita sa papel. And that goddamn paper can't replaced her in my heart. Keep that inside your psycho heart," he grinned.

I looked at him dumbfounded. How can he said that? He knows that his words can break my fucking heart. He really loves to see me suffer huh. How can he be so heartless?

"How dare you, Wyatt. After what my family done to you and to your fvcking family. This is what you'll return to me? Wala kang utang na loob!" I screamed.

I know that was below the belt. But he started it first. I'm aware that our relationship is fucking toxic and unhealthy. But what can I do? I can't let him go. I love him to the point that I can't lived without him.

Sometimes, I wish that I can teach my heart. But no, he's the only man that I want. Kaya kahit na nagkakasakitan na lang kami. I will endure it because I love him. 

"What? Bayad na bayad na ako, Sierra. Sobra pa nga. I did marry you and I have to fvcking tolerate your fvcking obsession. Isn't that enough? In fact, it's fvcking too much!" bulyaw niya sa mukha ko.

"You agreed to get married with me. But don't forget na pinagbigyan din kita, Wyatt. Pinagbigyan kita na itago ang kasal natin even though you know how much I wanted to shout to the world that I'm fucking married with you!" I cried.

Yes, I'm secretly married to the heartless man infront of me. Kahit na gusto kong ipagsigawan sa lahat na kasal na kami. Hindi 'yon pwedeng mangyari. He said that he will not marry me if we won't keep it to ourselves.

And because I fucking love him. I did agreed to his nonsense agreement. I want him to be my husband. I want to be with him kahit na hindi niya ako gustong makasama. How can I fucking love this jerk? He caused me too much agony yet I'm still here. I'm still obsessed with him.

"That's the last thing you can do, Sierra. I would be ashamed if you'll do that. Who would be proud to have an obsessed wife right? No one..." he playfully said while smirking like a devil.

His words are like a fucking knife. He just fucking stabbed me a hundred times because of his goddamn mouth.

"How can you be this cruel, Wyatt? Why are you treating me like this? You don't respect me as a wife. Nether be as a woman. How can you be this heartless, Wyatt?" I cried.

His jaw clenched and loosen his neck tie while looking at me dangerously. If I was a mere human, I would be scared because of his glare. But no, I'm used to it and that's the reason why I'm obsessed with him.

He didn't know that his rough attitude is turning me on. He didn't know that, that's the reason why I'm acting like a psycho.

"You want to know why, Sierra?" panunuya nitong tanong.

Taas noo naman akong tumingin sakanya at ngumisi na tila hinahamon siya. Tumayo naman ito at pinantayan ako habang nakapamulsa.

"Because I fucking hate you," he uttered before turning his back at me.

I know that he hates me.. no, he loathes me to hell. But I don't care. He can hate me as much as he want. As long as he's with me then I'm okay with that.

"And where are you going, Husband?" nakangisi kong tanong at pinagkrus ang kamay.

Tumigil naman ito sa paglalakad at bahagyang tumagilid para tingnan ako. He gave me his signature emotionless look and I just returned it with a smile.

"To my real wife, Sierra." My jaw dropped after he said that. He smirked at me before walking out.

"Fyi, Mister Esquivel. I am your real wife," taas noo kong sabi.

"Oh yeah? You're my wife in paper but not in my heart. Goodbye Sierra. I'll see you in two days," ngisi nitong sabi bago ako tinalikuran.

"Try me then, Wyatt. If you go to your fucking mistress... I will make sure that she will suffer to death. You know that I can do that, Husband. After all, dati ko nang nagawa 'yon sakanya," nakangisi kong sabi sakanya.

Umigting naman ang panga nito at mabilis na naglakad papunta sa harap ko. He was about to raise his hands at me when I raised my eyebrows. Nanigas naman ito at nanlalaki ang matang nakatingin sa nakataas niyang kamay.

"Try to raise your fucking hands on me, Wyatt. Kakalimutan kong asawa kita," matigas kong sabi at tinalikuran siya.

"You... you're a fucking cunning witch Sierra! And I will never fall inlove with a woman like you. You disgust me woman. I fucking hate you!" nanggagalaiting sigaw nito.

Natawa naman ako at agad na tumigil sa paglalakad. Hindi pa rin siya nagbabago. He's still acting like a goddamn kiddo. He's like a kid making a tantrums to his Mommy.

"Hate me all you want, Wyatt. Because time will come, ikaw naman ang maghahabol sa ating dalawa," I said and walk without looking back.

I even heard him shouting because of frustration and I just laughed at him. Reject me and keep on resisting me, Wyatt. Because I know na ikaw naman ang mababaliw sa ating dalawa.

I can feel it, honey. And I can't wait for that to happen. Dahil kapag nangyari 'yon, ikaw naman ang papahirapan ko.