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chapter 25: regretting pasts.
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Xander's point of view"how long does it fucking take Reena to get to a God damn office" I said through gritted teeth while taking my hands into my hair continuously.I had been waiting for Renna for more than two hours of my time,but it did not look like she planned on coming,and to be honest it didn't help cause I felt like I was losing my mind cause I knew I needed to talk to her about Nessa.I knew I wasn't going to be easy,but I knew I needed to do it if I had any plans of keeping my sanity, because I was getting more restless with every minute that passed by.I picked up my phone to check it a new message might have come in,not like I needed one though,but I felt like I just needed to do something to get my mind off over thinking.Picking my phone and going through my test for the umpteenth time in two hours,I realized I did not have as much as a beep from any body which made me drop back the phone with irritation,as I played with my fingers on the office desk."I'm sorry for ke
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Xander's point of view"Ohhh come on Xands what do you think was going to happen....I warned you didn't I?" I heard Andrew's accusing voice from the other side of the line.It has been over 30 minutes since I had called Andrew about what had been bothering me,but instead of him trying to lessen the situation,he did nothing but had fuel to an already burning fire."Do you think I do not know that Andrew....I already do,all I need right now is a solution" I said while pinching the bridge of my nose,as I suddenly felt an headache form in my head."Yeah I thought you already had that planned out....keep hiding it,so she does not find out" I heard his mocking voice say from the other side of the line."That is if that was possible any longer" I muttered but still made it loud enough for him to hear me clearly."And what do you mean by that?" He inquired and I could clearly sense the confusion I'm his voice from the other day de of the line.'Diane knows" I said simply,with fear evident in
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Aneesa's point of view"Are you sure everything is okay Reena?" I asked for the umpteenth time since I had got to Reena's apartment earlier in the afternoon.I had gotten to Reena's apartment earlier in the afternoon, only to meet her acting all sober like she had lost something so precious to her.I could not help but feel ticked off though, cause I really did not get to see Reena often ever since I got married to Xander and had to pack over to his house.I mean,I had planned for the day to be more like a girls hangout,so one could only imagine how bad I felt coming over to meet Reena behaving all moody." Yeah I'm okay" she said again unconvincingly and I could almost swear that she had given me a very pitiful look,which was totally unusual of Reena."Okayy....what was with that look of yours about a minute ago?" I inquired unable to let it slide at the moment, wondering why she was suddenly behaving like this all of a Sudden,as I suddenly felt fear engulf my whole being." It meant
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Anessa's point of viewI parked my car in our parking lot and there which after highlighted from it,still with furrowed brows,as I continued to wonder what the message I had received earlier on had meant and more importantly who it was that had sent the message."Why do everything keep looking so weird today?" I thought to myself as I made to get into my apartment wondering what was wrong with people today,as I was still very well shocked about Reena's reaction just some minutes ago.I could not help but smile though, immediately I stepped into the apartment and I found Xander sitting on the chair yet to notice that I had arrived looking had handsome has ever.It had been over a year since I had gotten married to Xander,but I still could not get over the fact that he was very handsome,and I felt so lucky to have him all to myself."So what could be so interesting about the movie that you did not even notice I had come in more than a few minutes ago" I said while pretending that I was
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Xander's point of view*One week laterIt has been exactly one week since I had promised Reena that I would tell the truth to Anessa, and I still haven't done that.I had been battling internally on how to break the ice to Anessa,but I just could not bring myself to do it, because I knew I would not be able to take it if she left me.I knew it was me being stingy and all because I knew I had to eventually bring myself to tell her, but it was crazy cause despite knowing that I could not still bring myself to tell her the truth."Arggghh" I groaned internally once I remembered the threat that Diane had said to me exactly one week ago,I knew Diane was not one to make a threat without actually fulfilling it, so it got to me greatly.I picked up my phone hoping it would serve as a distraction cause I felt like my head was about to explode, when I suddenly heard the bell to the elevator ring,I squinted my eyes wondering who it could possibly be cause I knew that I was not expecting anyone a
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Anessa's point of view."Wh...at th..e Fu..ck is going on here" I said immediately I got into the room looking at the two people in front of me with shock overly evident on there faces,as I tried so hard to form a complete my statement but failing miserably."It's not what you think it is" I heard Reena say,with fear very obvious in her eyes, totally ignoring what she had said, almost like I didn't hear her,I turned towards Xander's direction."S..oo it..t wa..s all a liee" I stuttered unable to find a complete sentence due to the fact that I was shoken at the conversation I just heard earlier on."I can...." I heard Xander begin but didn't let him finish as I turned to Reena's direction."So yo..u al...so kn...ew" I turned to the direction of Reena totally shocked while still trying to get out a sentence completely but still failing miserably at it, due to my trembling lips."I swear Aneesa,I tried to tell you but he made me promise not to....that he would tell you himself at his ow
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Aneesa's point of view"Heyy babe please open up the door.... let's talk about it please" I heard Xander plead for the umpteenth time,since I looked myself inside the four walls of the guest room.I was currently confided in the guest room for close to the third day now and refused vehemently to get out of the room, cause I could not stand seeing Xander's face,as it only did as much as infuriate me further.It made me hurt to the core of my energy that I was doing this to myself,but what hurt more was the fact that I still felt like my stupid heart still loved him regardless.I knew I had to leave the apartment,but what I didn't know though was where exactly I was going to go if I left the apartment,as there was know one I really knee that well.I would have gone to stay at Reena's,but I could not do that because I could not stop the continues feeling of betrayal I felt anytime I thought of her and what she had done to me.I suddenly heard the door bell ring,which indicated that someo
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Xander's point of viewI walked into the apartment,while wondering what changed about the whole scenery of the apartment, cause for some reason I could not bring myself to fathom, something seemed to look odd and very different about the apartment.I squinted my eyes as I noticed a note atop The center table, wondering what it was I picked it up,to be met with worst news I had ever come across in my entire existence.Furrowing my brows,as I cleaned my eyes from invincible dirts,I checked again to confirm if what I had seen on the letter was totally correct of just a figment of my own imaginations.But no what I had seen earlier on was still correct,as I stood in shock staring at the note Anessa had left me, telling me not to come look for her,as even if I did,I would not find her.Trying to process if what I had seen had been absolutely correct,I could not help but stare into space for almost five minutes, before I was able to snap myself out of my little trance,as I felt my feet move
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Xander's point of view " fuck!" I exclaimed as I punched my hand right into the glass frame in my office thereby drawing blood.I could not believe that I had been so stupid by letting Williams cajole me into manipulating a whole company and to think it had to be Anessa's company of all company there where in the world. I knew I had to do something and I had to do it as fast as possible, but I honestly did not know what it was,cause what could I possibly say or do that would want to make her see me any longer.I just had to mess things up when it just started getting better.I move out of the office in a haste catch up with aneesa to see if there is anything I could do to try to make her listen to me to begin with. Not like I had any reasonable explanation though, but I did not want her to leave me just like that.I go to her office but I did not see any sign of her there any longer,as I moved to her assistants desk."Good day sir. Is there a problem? " I hear her say while smiling
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Xander's point of view." heyyy mommy,I had a very nice time with daddy. You should have come with is too" he said happily while grinning from ear to ear,totally oblivious of the growing tension between his mother and I." I suppose you did" she said while smiling and kneeling to his level as she ruffled his hair." of course! dad said we would go out again one of this days,tell me you would come along too. Pretty please " I hear him say to his mother, and I almost laughed because I knew quite well that he was putting Anessa in such a difficult situation and the last thing she wanted at the moment was being in the same space with me." of course darling " I hear her reply through gritted teeth and at that moment I wanted to jump up in the air with joy,I mean it was not my intention to use my son as a ploy to get what I wanted,but that seemed to be the only weak point Anessa seemed to have at the moment. " Thank you momma!" he said while smiling so happily at her" you are welcome. So
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