Chapter Eighteen

My words made Jonathan laugh in a second, his hand firmly clasped around my throat loosened and I fell to the floor. I coughed quickly gasping and taking in every oxygen I could and as colour slowly returned to my cheeks.

“You should count yourself really lucky, just now I really thought about killing you” Jonathan said and I turned to take a glance at him. My hand slowly rubbed my neck and I didn’t dare doubt his words. If he held me any tighter, my neck would have been snapped into two. He was an alpha, he possessed incredible strength.

“You should listen to Serena, you should live well and good so that your family and Kingdom can do the same as well” he added as he slowly walked away.

Serena rushed towards me immediately grabbing my shoulders, “Amira, are you okay? Do you need water? Do you need to lay on your back?” her questions reeled out one after the other every single one laced with worry and concern.

“Why did you have to talk back to Amira?” Serena quietly chided me as he raised me to my feet and I slowly smiled at her.

“Thank you” I replied to her and Serena chuckled as we both walked to the room quietly. Lillian was already standing there with fury blaring in her eyes.

“What exactly is your problem?” she shot at me and I glared at her.

“I overheard you and Serena talking. Why would you want him to die?” she yelled at me again and I chuckled.

“I still want him to die, what are you going to do about it?” I hurled at her back.

“You are such an evil person, a devil!” She screamed and I laughed.

“Evil? If i’m evil then he’s the devil because tell me what kind of man kidnaps a girl going home and kills her father right in front of her and drags me off to be a slave!” I yelled as tears started running down my cheeks.

“How do you kill my father in front of me?” I continued screaming as more tears ran down my cheeks, blurring my vision.

“He didn’t even allow me to bury him or give my last respects. I am his first child, that was my duty, he did not only make me responsible for my father’s death, he also made me an irresponsible child who didn’t do her last respects, I couldn’t even carry his ashes” I sobbed and I heard Lillian sneer.

“Killing your father shouldn’t surprise you Amira because that’s exactly what your father did to his father. He killed his father, do you think he was going to just let your father go?” she asked and I burst into laughter.

“It was a war Lillian, a war that if my father didn’t kill him, he would have been killed. Imagine the reverse of the case and I came here to kill his own father, what would it look like?” I asked and Lillian scoffed again.

“You are a female beta Amira, you aren’t that strong” Lillian replied as I stormed towards her and grabbed her by her neck ignoring how she clawed at me and struggled to breath.

“You bitch, let me go” Lillian screamed as I stared at her watching the oxygen drain out of her. The situations were reversed as a smug smile crawled up my face.

“Amira, please, please” Serena begged as she held my hand and I slowly let Lillian go and she slumped to the floor gasping for breadth.

“I guess I’m not that strong but I’m strong enough to kill you. Never forget that” I muttered to her as I walked back to my bed and sat down, closing my eyes and sighing softly.

“I don’t care if he’s the nicest person to you, if he saved you or if he’s the love of your life, I’m always going to wish for his death and I honestly hope he dies. I can’t try to kill myself because  if i try to, he’s going to kill every single member of my family and if he dies, my entire kingdom will be erased from history, do you know what that means?” I asked and the room went silent. 

“So think hard and think well, what you say to me because I cannot guarantee you your life” I added as I load on my bed closing my eyes.

I knew I had gone out of control strangling Lillian, there was no difference between Jonathan and me at that moment. We were both heartless devils but I was anything like Jonathan. I just wanted to keep my family safe. That was all I wanted.

I slowly opened my eyes and I realized that Lillian had gotten off the floor and got into her bed hugging her legs, our eyes met midway and she immediately withdrew her eyes, not before I saw the fear in them and it made my mood plummet.

I missed home. I missed Runa. I missed my mom. I missed my sister. I missed taking walks in the kingdom. I missed walking in the backyard of the palace and tending to the garden. I missed my father.

I slowly sat up on my bed and stared into space. I could see Serena and Lillian giving me glances. I couldn’t blame them, my outburst must have scared them and it was a side that burst out when my emotions were all over the place. I hadn’t meant to strangle Lillian to prove a point. I wasn’t supposed to strangle her, we were both in our emotions.

I had moved before I realized that I had moved and I was strangling her. Her words had triggered something I thought I was over. At the moment of realization, I sighed softly.

“I don’t like you Lillian” I said slowly as our eyes met again, “But I was wrong for strangling you. For your own good, try not to talk about my capabilities, I’m way more capable than you think and I’m sorry” I added as I got up from the bed and walked out of the room.