JUSTIN
I slumped onto the bench, my chest heaving and my lungs burning as I struggled to catch my breath. Sweat dripped down my forehead, stinging my eyes, but I could barely feel it. I wiped it away with a shaky hand, struggling to centre myself. The whistle would blow in five minutes and I would have to go back into the game but as it was I could barely feel myself. It was like I was operating my body from some remote island and I wasn't actually inside it. The different emotions I was sorting through were so confusing and annoying.
I could hear Coach's voice booming over the din of the crowd, each word a sharp reprimand slicing through the noise. I was suddenly able to bring his voice into focus and I realised the entire team was gathered in a semi circle around my left side and Coach was shouting down on me from my right.
"You call that playing, Justin? Where's your head at? You need to get your act together!"
My eyes moved to the stands where they found Astrid easily. She was sitting and watching. From the confusing mix of emotions, three rose to the surface: anger, hate and disgust. The sight of her twisted my insides into knots. I clenched my fists, nails digging into my palms, as I tried to anchor myself to the present moment. Of course Coach picked up on the fact that my mind was even more far away and immediately grabbed me by the front of my jersey, his face inches from mine. My mind returned from whatever remote island it was on as my eyes came face to face with his reddened ones.
"I don't care what's going on in that head of yours. You shove it to the back of your mind and lock it up tight! This isn't the game to lose, not when we're this close to the cup!" His finger jabbed toward the glittering trophy on display, the thing that was supposed to be a beacon of the winning team's hard-earned triumph.
My gaze fixed on the cup, its gleam was a stark reminder of everything the team had worked for. I had worked for. For my mate… I swallowed as the realization hit me like a slap to the face. This was it. This was what I had promised her.
I nodded slowly as I pulled myself from Coach's grip, bending over and taking in a deep breath. Even after the game, Astrid would still be there, her disappointment of an existence an unavoidable evil. But it ought to be a problem for later. Right then, I had a game to win.
I shut my eyes tight as my teammates clapped my back in encouragement, forcing myself to focus, to push Astrid out of my mind. I hadn't slogged through endless practices, endured all the grueling drills, and fought through the pain for nothing. I wasn't about to let her ruin this for me. Not now, not when we were so close. Not after all the other things she had ruined.
The whistle blew, signaling the end of the break and I shot up, fresh adrenaline coursing through my veins. I glanced at my teammates, their determined faces mirroring my own resolve. We had come too far to fail now. We let out the team chant and then took our positions. The noise of the crowd faded into a distant hum as my focus narrowed to the field and the ball at my feet. We moved as one, a seamless unit formed by countless hours of practice. Every pass, every dribble, every tackle, executed with precision.
My mind became a steel trap, shutting out everything but the game. I felt the rhythm of the play, the flow of the team's movements. It was like I had gotten to a higher level. Like I was now God of the field.
The final minutes were a blur of motion and sound, the roar of the crowd swelling to a deafening height. With a final burst of energy, I broke free, sprinting down the field. I could see the goal, the keeper's eyes widening in realization. This was it. I couldn't miss.
With a swift, practiced motion, I struck the ball, sending it sailing past the keeper and into the net just as the final whistle blew. The stadium erupted in cheers, the noise echoing through my bones.
I collapsed onto the field, my head bowed. We had done it. We had won.
Of course, I could only be spared precious few seconds to myself as, panting and screaming in jubilation, my team rushed over and lifted me into the air, carrying me around the field. I tried to look happy. But my mind had returned to that remote island and once again, I was just going through motions. I glanced toward the stands, where Astrid was of course screaming with the rest of the girls. My chest tightened and I forced myself to focus on the trophy that was being pushed into my hands. At least this I had done. I hadn't failed, I had won.
••••••••
The air was electric with the thrill of victory, everyone around me buzzed with excitement. But I couldn't bring myself to feel it. I didn't feel up to half the excitement I’d felt for the other games I'd won, and this was the win of the season – all the others combined. The weight of the cup in my hands felt hollow, its importance was just a cruel reminder of what I'd lost. I knew everyone noticed my detachment but their concerned glances only deepened my isolation. This win was supposed to be for my mate, for Audrey. So now all I could feel was a deep, aching void.
I went through the motions, raising the cup high for the cameras, forcing a smile that didn't reach my eyes. I stood with my teammates, the picture of a triumphant athlete. But inside, I was crumbling.
As soon as I could, I slipped away, heading straight to my car. Once inside, I locked the doors and took a deep breath. And finally, I broke.
Sobs wracked my body, tears streaming down my face unchecked. I slammed the steering wheel over and over again and as though there were some forces who didn't think I was going through enough already, at that moment I caught a whiff of Audrey's scent from the backseat. I threw my head back and let out a roar of deep sorrow. My body felt like an empty husk as I heaved and heaved, unable to stop the violent sobbing.
I don't know how long I wept. I don't know when the tears began to reduce. I just know that when I finally regained my senses, I was leaning my forehead against the steering wheel, my breaths coming in ragged gasps.
"I did it, Audrey…" I choked out, my voice trembling and my vision completely covered with tears. "Baby, I did it for you."
The words hung in the air, unable to reach her. I shut my eyes tight, the memory of her voice flooding my mind. Her panicked tone the last time she'd spoken through the mate bond. The pain of her absence cut through me like a knife. I hadn't even gotten to say goodbye. That cruel fact twisted my grief into anger, a burning need for revenge. Astrid had taken everything from me. She had stolen my world, my heart, my Audrey.
"I swear, Astrid," I whispered viciously, my lips smarming over the words through the spittle that had gathered in my mouth because of my crying. "I will make your life miserable for what you did. For taking her away from me."
The vow echoed in the silence of the car, a promise forged in the fires of my pain.
I wiped my tears, my sorrow turning into a cold, determined rage. I had won the game, but I had just started the battle.
I gripped the steering wheel tightly as I drove home. The road was familiar, yet tonight it felt foreign, each mile stretching endlessly. My mind replayed the events of the game, the cheers of the crowd still echoed in my ears, but they were drowned out by the aching emptiness that had settled in my chest.
I thought of Audrey, her bright smile, the warmth of her touch. She had been the anchor that kept me grounded. The memory of her voice was a whisper in my mind, a haunting reminder of what I had lost.
“I did it for you, Audrey.” I thought, “It all means nothing without you.”
The house loomed ahead, a dark silhouette against the evening sky. But home wasn’t home anymore. Not without Audrey. As I pulled into the driveway, I noticed Father's figure illuminated by the porch light, he was sitting with his beta. The sight of the man made my blood boil. Astrid's father. The man who had a hand in this mess, who had helped orchestrate the union that felt like a betrayal. That was a betrayal.
I stepped out of the car, my heart heavy with dread. Father's sad smile was a look of understanding that only increased my bitterness. The beta's presence was a thorn in my side, a constant reminder of the woman who had taken everything from me.
"Father," I greeted, my voice strained but respectful. I barely glanced at the beta, my eyes barely going over him with cold detachment. "I've made my decision. I will marry Astrid."
The words felt like poison on my tongue. In my mind, I made a vow: I will never make her my luna.
My gaze shifted to Astrid's father, and a dark thought took root,
I will ruin her. I will make her life so unbearable that she will wish for death.
Father nodded, a mixture of relief and sorrow in his eyes. "That's good, son. You will be married next week."
My heart twisted at the words. The finality of them, the way they sealed my fate.
I heard a very slight footstep and turned, to see Astrid standing at the foot of the porch, her eyes widened at the words my father had just uttered.
ASTRIDI stared at my reflection in the mirror. I looked and looked. Really looked. Every day since I'd returned from prison I looked at myself, trying to see if it really was me. If that innocent and almost care free girl was still there. Every day, I came up negatively.She was long gone. Gone like the blood of my best friend from the hardwood floor it'd been pooled on.That girl had been replaced by this abused husk. This unsmiling and constantly trembling husk.It constantly escaped me why I was the one living in fear. When I was the one who'd been framed. When I was the one who had served time, I had no business serving. I should have been let off the hook by now right?Wrong.It turns out death can't be forgiven at all. I'd thought knowing that I'd been more than punished for my ‘crimes’ would make things easier, but since I returned… I'd been treated worse than a pariah.There were days when I figured that ending things would be far better than living like this.Then I would re
JUSTINI don't know how long I'd been sitting and staring into space…I know I found my way back home and in here immediately the marriage rites were concluded. I couldn't have stayed there one second longer. I was sure of it. If I'd had to look at her pale doe eyed face for one more second, I was sure I wouldn't have been able to help myself from reaching out and grabbing her lithe, thin neck and snapping it in two.I'd shifted and run through the woods to get here. I'd needed the distraction and the feel of the wind in my fur at such high speed. I remember being scared. The kind of fear that startled you and made you tremble. The kind that had anger so potently mixed in, you couldn't tell where one started and the other ended. I'd been scared that I wouldn't be able to stand her presence long enough to torture her. Scared that I would deliver a swift death to the being that deserved the most excruciating end.I blinked, bringing my dazed vision back into focus. I had to find a way t
JUSTINI found myself standing in a room. It’s design was that from two years ago. The space was empty, I didn’t know what this was or why I was here.But then I heard it. That laugh I never thought I’d ever hear again. I walked in the direction the voice came and that was when I saw them.Before me were my most precious girls. Audrey, my mate, was seated on the couch with my sister beside her, chatting away.Seeing them again when I thought I’d never again knocked the wind out of me. I stood frozen, overwhelmed but fucking glad that they were here.This is a dream, isn’t it? It has to be. I thought to myself.Almost as soon as the thought left my mind, they spotted me. Audrey beckoned to me, calling me over to them.“You have been standing for forever, Justin. Get over here. Come sit with us…” Goddess, it was good to hear that voice again.A little laugh on the side I recognized as my sister’s rang in my ears as well.How were they here?Could I just stay here with them and never wake
ASTRIDI lowered myself onto the bottom step in a stairwell that was mostly deserted because classes were still going on. I'd made it to my lecture hall but I couldn't bring myself to enter. My encounter with Justin had left me too shaken and reminded of my station in the pack. I was a traitor. The worst of my kind. And I wouldn't be welcome anywhere as long as I was here.I pulled the hoodie I'd used to cover my head off so I could take a breather. I sighed and buried my face in my hands. I'd been doing so well all morning, no one had noticed or recognised me – until Justin had cornered me – and I'd been getting into the idea that I actually could pull off schooling here without suffering too much. But no. Justin had rid me of that delusion.My life would never improve with Justin as my… husband? Goddess. Was that really what he was to me now? I couldn't even utter it with my mouth.The realisation was like cold water pouring on me. I was married to my best friend’s brother now. My d
JUSTIN“Bro are you going to tell me what the hell is going on?” Jonah persisted as we both made our way to the locker room.He'd been pestering me since we left Astrid, demanding to know what I'd been doing with her. Honestly he was already getting on my nerves. It hurt me and made me hate myself enough that I'd married the evil bitch and couldn't tell my friends, but Jonah who was supposed to be my best friend and beta, refusing to understand when to drop something was making me feel all the more worse and annoyed.We arrived at the locker room and continuing to ignore him, I made my way to my locker and opened it against his face which he'd decided to plant on the other side.“The fuck?” He sputtered, punching my arm and coming to stand on my other side. The corner of my mouth rose in amusement. He'd deserved it anyway.“Fine. I don't care what you were doing with the traitor, why haven't you been picking up or returning my calls the past few days?”I bit down a sigh. I'd completely
JUSTIN“Asta…” I groaned, guilt washing over me.“I'd hoped it was a lie, hoped they hadn't gotten to you too –”“Asta, Asta please, it's not –”“It's not what I think? So I'm dreaming and you aren't really married to her?”“Asta I had to.” I began walking toward my room, sure I didn't want to have this conversation here, the walls had ears and eyes. “You have to believe me when I say I did this for Audrey, I –”“You married her murderer for her ?” Asta screeched. “Justin, have you lost your mind?”“Yes. Yes Asta I have lost my mind. I miss my mate so much it has driven me over the edge.” I settled onto my bed in slow motion.My words seemed to have shut her up and I decided to forge on. Asta would understand. She was one of the few people who actually understood my pain. She'd lost her sister too.“It's keep your friends close but your enemies closer, Asta.” I lowered my voice to a whisper. “The closer she is to me, the harder I know I can hurt her. And I want to hurt her Asta.” I sa
ASTRIDI shivered and trembled as I lay on the cold hardwood floor. Tears flowed freely from my eyes and I couldn't help but whimper in pain. Physical and emotional pain. I curled in on myself and wept and wept. I forgot to be scared of someone finding me lying in the hallway like that. When I'd cried enough for the fear to seep back into my bones, my heart collapsed at the cruel realisation that if anyone found me lying there in the pitiable state I was in, they would feel anything but pity. They might even try to inflict more pain on me.I’d started to pride myself on being strong of heart and logical about feelings since I returned from prison. Justin thought I killed his mate and sister, he believed I was evil, any action he carried out against me should be justified and I shouldn't take it to heart because he was acting on ignorance. I'd been acting on this principle all this time and I'd been impressed with myself for being able to bear all his harsh treatments so far with this
ASTRIDI should have trusted my gut. Coming to the basement was clearly a bad idea but I had nowhere else to go. If I hadn't been here, I wouldn't have been found. Being known as a killer was already hard as it is, I didn't want to be tagged a thief either. “I–.” I barely had time to explain why I was here to the Luna when she reached out and gave me a slap that sent me sprawling to the floor. My face stung and tears gathered in my eyes at the pain I felt from falling to the floor, crashing back on the boxes I had picked up a while ago.Before I could recover, I was dragged across the floor by my hair, for the second time today, and dumped at a corner of the room while she towered over me. For a woman her age, I couldn't fathom just how strong she was but she was Luna for a reason. Ordinarily, she shouldn't be able to move me but here she was, pulling me like I weighed nothing. Goddess.She crouched in front of me and I cowered, turning away, unable to look at her in the eyes, her bl
JUSTINMy heart was pounding against my chest widely and a strange feeling settled over me as my eyes drifted from my father to my mother . I had never seen my parents so- tense like that before, the seemed so bothered about something I couldn’t understand why it was. My father’s jaw was tight and my mother’s lips were pressed together in a tight line as if she was trying to hold back her words. For the first time in my entire life, it seemed like there was an unresolved issue lingering between them, something neither of them wanted to talk about.My mother sat down and my father sat beside her, he held her hands tightly as if to anchor him. Then with a small sigh, he started talking. “There’s something I haven’t told you before and I guess this is the time for you to know, Justin,” he let out, his voice firm but I could tell the tension underneath it. “Years before I met your mother or even began dating her… I used to date a witch.”I frowned at what he said, refusing to believe his
JUSTINI knew something was off about that girl right from the start. And right here, she proved me right the moment she disappeared. Of course, she was a witch but why had she come here only to disappear? Why show herself now if it wasn’t a part of some plan?I turned around and saw Astrid with wide and startled eyes, a million thoughts were swirling in her head. I could hear her thoughts and she was back to thinking about her wolf, back to believing she needed a witch to fix whatever was wrong with her wolf. But not this witch. Raina, Sasha, or whatever she called herself. She was the wrong person for that. A very wrong one and I had this feeling she was dangerous too. It was clear too.I walked to Astrid and placed my hand on her arm, but her mind was too preoccupied with what she was thinking she knew about Raina. “Astrid,” I whispered through our link. “Look at me. She is not the witch you're looking for, snap out of it, baby. Raina is a liar and a friend of Hunter’s. She can’t
ASTRIDI was sure it was him- or at least, I thought I was. Maybe it was just my mind playing tricks on me, spinning my fears into shadows outside the window. I didn’t feel safe. Not anywhere. Not anymore. The only place I felt safe was in Justin’s arms. But what are we going to do now?I was trembling and crying quietly into his chest as he held me tight, his hands rubbing my back up and down soothingly. The only thing that comforted me was his presence and the warmth of his body. Not even a minute later, the room was filled with everyone else. The door burst open, and my parents and Justin’s came inside. I could feel their eyes on me, I could see the worry in their eyes and I started feeling overwhelmed. “What happened?” Justin’s mother asked, her voice laced with concern. “The fucker was here,” Justin replied her, his voice was strained and I could tell he was trying to control his anger. “Astrid saw him.”They all let out a low gasp immediately the words came out of Justin’s m
JUSTINI was torn between staying with Astrid to protect her and the baby and going over to where Hunter was to confront him. I felt that familiar feeling of fear and all my body became tense as my mind started racing, calculating the risks. Under no circumstances must Hunter find out about the baby. If he found out, his games could get dirtier, more dangerous, and I could not afford that. Not now. Not ever. I pressed a kiss to Astrid’s temple, she was too focused on her ice cream, completely unaware of anything happening while mine was melting in my hand, dripping down my fingers. So, I got to eating it and took my eyes back to where Hunter was, but he was gone like he had never been there. I turned Astrid and tried to get her walking so we could get out of there but she wasn’t budging. “I want another one,” she whined, holding out her empty cone. I forced a smile, trying to keep my fear out of my eyes and our link. “We have to leave sweetheart,” I said, my voice steady despite th
JUSTINWith an opponent hot on my heels, I ran across the pitch, the wind whipping over my hair. I didn't care that running had scorched my lungs and pushed my legs to the breaking point. There was only one thing on my mind- reaching the goal post. I focused, dodged an opponent and narrowed my eyes. And Immediately I got to the goal post, I swung the pusher against the ball straight into the net. The stadium exploded in cheers as soon as the ball got past the goalkeeper and into the net.Victory. I turned immediately to the stands, my eyes searching for the one face that made this whole moment worth it. Astrid was there, her eyes shining with pride and a big smile playing at the corners of her lips. I blew her a kiss, grinning like a fool. I could barely hear my teammates rushing towards me, to celebrate with me. The championship game had just started and this was our third win. I ran to where she was in the crowd in the stand as soon as the game ended. I immediately lifted her int
HUNTERI stared at Raina and her mother, Celeste, with a bored expression plastered across my face. The room felt suffocating with their presence, their very existence was dripping with deceit. If there was one thing I had learnt from dealing with these two, it was that they were up to something. The fact that they had the audacity to show up at my pack unannounced only confirmed my suspicions. Whatever they were planning, I needed to figure it out- and fast. I had zoned out for a moment, allowing the dull hum of their voices fade to become background noise, but then, Celeste called my name, snapping me back to the conversation. I blinked, trying to focus on her as she spoke. “Hunter, we heard what happened,” she said with sympathy in her voice and I rolled my eyes. “So, what are your plans now?” She asked, her voice smooth and practiced. It was as if she was trying to sound genuinely concerned, but I knew better. I could see the calculation in her eyes, the way her lips curled into
ASTRID "It was- I…” I opened my mouth to respond, but then it hit me. It has actually been a while. I stared up at her, my eyes widening as a wave of terror and bewilderment passed over me. With my heart pounding, I muttered, "It can't be." “We have… well- it can’t be what I’m thinking right? I mean yes, we have done it a few times. Well a lot since that day but could I really be?” My heart was beating fast against my chest and the room bounced a little in my eyes. Goddess.She nodded knowingly. “There is a high chance,” she replied. “I have a few pregnancy test strips in the pack’s first aid kit downstairs. You stay put, I'll go and grab one for you.” I nodded in response.As she left the room, I felt my mind waving. This was exciting, but also terrifying. This was not the right time at all. A lot was still going on. Hunter was still out there. What if he found out? And school- oh my God, I still had two years left. How was I supposed to manage being pregnant and finishing school? I
ASTRIDA few weeks has passed since I found out about my adoption, Hunter’s intentions and Justin getting hurt. My relationship with Justin had gotten even better and it was flourishing. Even now, I was still in shock at how much had changed so quickly. I no longer felt the weight surrounding me, and for the first time in my life, I felt like I fit somewhere. My relationship with my parents was… progressing. Slowly. But, we were getting there. The hardest part, though, was trying to get used to Justin’s mother change in attitude and how she was so sweet to me now. I was finding it hard to accommodate her but I was sure I’d get there eventually. Justin had helped me pack my things back into the Alpha’s home after everything had settled down and it felt good to be back, surrounded by people that cared about me. And I could always see Justin and not wait or count down until time I would get to see him. Everything was going well. All was well. But there was a nagging feeling at the back
ASTRIDBest news of the year. Hell, best news of my life. She loves me.Astrid, the girl who always made my heart race, who kept me awake at night, and haunted my thoughts whether she was around or not, had finally confessed to loving me back. I felt a raw, powerful feeling go through my veins as soon as she finished speaking. A high I hadn't felt in years. It was taking up all of my mental space, making the physical anguish I was experiencing seem unreal and distant. I forced myself up, scowling at the way the stitches were pulling at my flesh, ignoring the pulsating pain in my ribs. Astrid, always the worrier, immediately moved to get me to lay back down. She attempted to gently lead me back to the bed by saying, "Justin, you're still hurt." But I would have none of it. Grabbing her wrist, I pulled her in until she was inches from my face. I could smell her skin, that subtle aroma that always made me crazy, and I could feel the warmth of her breath. She made an effort to make me