GreedyHindi ko alam kung paano niya nagawang kumbinsihin ako para sa palabas na ito. But here I am, following him while dragging my small luggage. Sinalubong kami ng mga staff ng cruise ship at kinuha ang mga maletang dala namin. I turned to look at Lideon's bodyguards, sakto namang pag-alis ng van na sinakyan namin."Let's go," Lideon turned to me and held my waist.Napapakurap akong sumunod, hindi matanggal sa paligid ang tingin. His warm hand ignited my skin that I jolted a little with his touch. Hindi rin nakatulong na hindi mawala sa isip ko ang mga nangyari ng nagdaang gabi.It was my first time being intimate on that level with a man. Matagal man ang naging relasyon namin ni Francis pero kailanman hindi umabot sa ganoon ang intimacy naming dalawa. Sure he kisses me and I do, too. But what I felt last night with Lideon's touch and kisses was different.Ipinilig ko ang ulo para pawiin ang mga naiisip. Pero kahit ano'ng gawin ko pilit sumisilip sa utak ko ang mga nangyari. Hindi
WantI stared at the blue sky reflecting on the waves as I try to gather my thoughts. Kung bakit ako nakaramdam nang ganoon ay hindi ko rin mawari. These past days have been confusing, kahit alam kong hindi naman dapat.I shouldn't get curious about who that woman is. That wouldn't be right in any way. Kanina ko pa kinakastigo ang sarili sa mga isiping iyon. O dahil kaya to sa nangyari ng nagdaang gabi? Siguro nga.The deafening silence bore me that I decided to go out and explore the whole cruise. What else would I be doing in a ship like this? Hindi ko pa alam kung saan papunta ito at nakalimutan ko ring itanong kay Lideon. Not that it matters. Gayong palabas lang naman ang lahat ng ito. So might as well enjoy myself while this extravagance lasts.I went out to see if Lideon's around but he wasn't. Ni anino niya ay hindi ko mahagilap sa mga guests na paroon at parito sa corridors. Karamihan sa mga guests ay mga foreigner. May mangilan-ngilang mukhang pinoy.Nagsimula kong tahakin an
FearIt's probably because I'm tipsy. Right. It's probably the alcohol. There's no way I'd be this affected with his gazes when I'm sober. Dahil lang sa alak ito. Ang init na ito, dahil lang din sa alak.But why can't I withdraw myself from staring back at him?I know I should gather my senses together. Dahil alam kong pagsisisihan ko itong lahat kapag nagising ako kinabukasan. This heat, this tension... This desire. Ngayon lang ito."Almene," his hoarse voice tingled my skin.Napakurap ako at tumitig sa kanya nang maayos. His eyes remained the same. The emotions I see in them are still the same. Desire, lust, and something else I couldn't name."O-Oh?" Nanunuyo ang lalamunan kong sambit.I don't understand myself anymore. I want him near, so near until I couldn't get ahold of my sanity. I want him so close to me I feel like dying. Ano itong nangyayari sa katawan ko?His fingers trailed from the bed to the hem of my shirt. Bahagyang nasagi ng kamay niya ang balat ko na lihim akong nap
Torture"What are you thinking?" He whispered softly.Hindi ako umimik. It doesn't feel right to open up to him just because something happened between us. Naninibago ako. At hindi ko rin alam kung tama bang hayaan ko ang sarili nang ganito. Lalo pa't hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin natatanggal sa isip ko si Francis. Ilang linggo pa lang mula nang mailibing siya. And I don't think what I'm feeling is right.I don't know anymore. Maybe it's safer to just distance myself even after what happened. It don't feel right about everything at all.He caressed my stomach lightly which tingled my insides. Marahan niya akong iniharap sa kanya at sinilip ang mukha ko."You're making me nervous," aniya at hinawakan ako sa pisngi.God, it would have been simpler if he's not treating me like this. I roamed my eyes around and all I could ever see were unfamiliar faces. He couldn't be doing this for people to see, right? Kung ganoon, bakit?I couldn't bring myself to ask him either. Kung ano na ba kami ng
SmittenSabay silang nag-angat ng tingin nang pabalibag kong sinarado ang pinto. Lindsay smirked at me and bend closer to Lideon. Bahagya niya pang isinanggi ang dibdib niya sa balikat ni Lideon bago tuluyang lumayo."Opps! I thought your 'wife' isn't coming?" Mapanuyang aniya na diniinan ang salitang 'wife.'Though affected, I just looked at them with indifference. Tila noon lang natauhan si Lideon at mabilis na tumayo at naglakad palapit sa akin."It's not what you think," he quickly held my arm when I was about to turn my back on him.Imbes na tingnan siya pabalik ay muli akong bumaling sa nakangising si Lindsay. She's giving me the kind of look that she knows something I don't. At lalo lang nagngitngit ang loob ko dahil doon."Mukhang may ginagawa yata kayong importante. Nakakaistorbo ba ako?" May diin sa boses ko nang tanungin si Lideon. I stared at his hand on me then to his face. Naroon ang pagkataranta sa mga mata niya.He clenched his jaw and let out an exasperated sigh. Pagi
ArticleI couldn't take my eyes off him even when he's busy with other things. Hindi naman ako dating ganito bago kami tumulak sa honeymoon na iyon. Maybe because we became more intimate with each other? Or was it because he confessed?Naguguluhan man ay hindi ko rin maipagkakaila sa sariling masaya ako sa nangyayari. I hate to admit it but I can't deny either that I'm starting to develop something for him. Even when a lot of things are unclear between us, lalo na ang pabigla-bigla niyang pag-amin ng nararamdaman. He had always been straightforward, I'm aware of that. But, something else is bothering me.Walang ibang laman ang isip ko kundi iyon kahit sa kalagitnaan ng presentation ng mga empleyado ni Lideon. They were presenting different designs of buildings. They were great. Kahit naman wala akong madyadong alam sa Architecture ay marunong naman akong tumingin ng magandang gawa ng sining."I heard you personally wanted Mr David Allen for this project, Mr Webb?" Lideon's voice is co
BurnMy tears fell before I know it. Bahagya pang nanginig ang katawan ko sa biglaang pagbugso ng emosyon. I have never paid attention to what really happened after the accident. Ang tanging inalala ko lang ng mga panahong iyon ay ang kalagayan ni Francis. For once...it didn't occur to me that this could happen."Hey, hey."Lideon tried getting my attention through pulling me from my seat. Hindi ko maigalaw ang katawan ko sa gulat na kailangan niya pang hawakan ang dalawang braso ko para tumayo. My tears poured down even more when he hugged me."I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I didn't know. I won't let you do this," he whispered over and over again while I cry on his chest.Hanggang sa pag-uwi ay hindi ako makausap nang maayos. I always end up spacing out thinking about the article and the accident. And the fact that I have to face that man and talk to him bother me even more."Do you want us to eat out or we'll head home straight?"I went back to my senses when Lideon held my hand. Nawala sa
AccidentHis eyes looked like a blackhole.Iyon ang una kong napansin pagkakita sa kanya. His eyes emits no emotions at all it made me speechless. Iyon ang palagi kong binabalik-balikan habang nakatunganga sa loob ng hotel room na nai-book ko papunta rito. Raul went back to Manila as per my instruction. Ayaw niya pa ngang pumayag noong una pero kalaunan ay napapayag ko rin. Lideon bombarde me with calls all day asking if I was okay. Katatapos niya nga lang tumawag kaya may pagkakataon na akong mag-isip.I couldn't help but feel pity for that man now that I've seen him. Labis din akong nasaktan nang mawala si Francis, while he lost his fiancee too in that accident. Ang sabi sa article ay dead on the spot ang fiancee niya habang siya naman ay naisugod sa hospital at naka-survive.I walked through the small balcony of the room. Agad na sumalubong sa akin ang malamig na hangin na siyang nagbigay ginhawa sa nararamdaman ko. My eyes fixed on the sparkling lights of the different establishmen