Chapter 22

Wife

'You will be my wife real soon.'

'Mahal na mahal kita, Almene.'

I closed my eyes as those words kept playing inside my head. They sound like a lullaby trying to put me to sleep. My tears fell nonstop. As if it had finally sunk down to me.

Wala na siya. Talagang wala na siya at hindi na siya babalik. Wala nang pag-asa pang makikita ko siya ulit.

With those thoughts my chest tightened with an excruciating pain. That the only way I could lessen it is through hurting myself. Pero pakiramdam ko kahit ano'ng pisikal na sakit ay hindi makakapantay sa sakit na nasa dibdib ko. Still, just to lessen it a little.

"Babe, bakit naman ganito? A-Alam mong hindi ko kakayanin. A-Alam mong hindi ko kaya. You said you wouldn't leave me. Y-You s-said you'll be my family. B-Babe ang s-sakit sakit dito," I cried pointing at my chest. Halos hindi na ako makahinga sa paninikip ng dibdib.

I thought I had overcome the greatest pains in my life. Mula sa pagkamatay ni mama, sa pagkapariwara ni papa, sa mga s