CHAPTER 1

DIANTHA

“Good morning, baby.”

Mula sa pagtitipa ko sa keyboard ng aking laptop ay umangat ang aking mukha at tumuon ang aking atensyon sa pintuan ng aking opisina.

Awtomatikong sumilay sa aking labi ang isang malapad at masayang ngiti ng mapagsino ko ang aking bisita.

It is Ashton. My boyfriend—no, scratch that because he is not my boyfriend anymore. He is now my fiancé.

Ashton was holding a bouquet of my favorite flowers, tulips.

He closed the door of my office before making his way towards me with a beautiful smile on his lips. Kaagad naman akong tumayo upang salubungin siya. And the moment our bodies met, he immediately gave me the flowers and kissed my lips.

Lalong lumapad ang aking ngiti sa kanyang ginawa at walang ibayong kilig ang aking nadama.

Magda-dalawang taon na din kaming magkarelasyon ni Ashton, at noong nakaraang buwan lamang ay inalok na nga niya ako ng kasal.

Kahit dalawang taon na kaming magkasintahan ay hindi pa rin talaga nagbabago si Ashton. He still treats me the same way he was treating me when we just started dating.

“What are you doing here? Akala ko ba may maaga kang nakaschedule na meeting today?” Tanong ko sa kanya as I pulled him towards the chair where I sat before he arrived.

After settling himself on the chair, I immediately sat on his lap and put the bouquet of flowers on my table.

Mabilis na yumakap ang mga braso ni Ashton sa aking beywang, saka niya ako hinila upang mas lalo pa na dumikit ang aming mga katawan.

Ashton pressed his cheek on mine. “Medyo male-late ang mga ka-meeting ko, so I had a bit of free time and decided to come and pay you a visit. Alam mo naman na hindi ko kaya na hindi makita sa isang araw ang lucky charm/energizer ko.”

Kung mas may ilalapad pa ang ngiti ko, malamang ay iyon na ang nangyayari sa ngayon.

I moved my head a little upang maabot ng mga labi ko ang labi ng nobyo ko, and when I was already able to, I quickly gave him a peck before smiling once again.

Ngumisi na rin si Ashton. “Ayan. Iyang ganyang pahalik mo na ‘yan talaga ang dahilan kung bakit sabik ako lagi na makita ka eh.”

Hindi ko napigilan na matawa sa sinabi niya, saka ko siya hinampas sa dibdib. “Ang pilyo mo,” komento ko habang nakangiti at umiiling.

“Pero gustong-gusto mo naman kapag nagiging pilyo ako,” Ashton retorted while grinning from ear to ear and moving his eyebrows up and down, causing me to laugh once more.

Alright, I admit it. I do like it when Ashton gets naughty. I like it so much that I want him to get naughty more.

Don't get me wrong. I love Ashton. I love him enough for me to say yes to his marriage proposal. But I won't lie either that the sex with him was sometimes—or maybe most of the times—lacking, at least in my own opinion.

Ashton is not bad in sex. It's just that we have different preferences when it comes to it.

Ashton prefers vanilla sex, while I am leaning more into kinky sex, and Ashton doesn't know that's what I am into.

He doesn't know that I have fetishes, that I love role-playing, and that I love being treated roughly. He knew nothing about it, and I didn't want to tell him either because I was afraid of how he'd see me once he learned how much of a bitch and a slut in bed I could be.

Ashton fell in love with me because of how innocent I look and because of how I acted so prim and proper, which he found perfect for someone like him who holds a high status in society.

So I can't imagine how he will react if he learns my secret. I can't imagine how he will look at me once he gets to know that the Diantha in bed is very different from the innocent-looking, prim and proper Diantha that he knows.

But there were still times, which were very minimal, that Ashton would get out of his comfort zone. From vanilla sex, he would sometimes surprise me with rough sex, though it still wasn't enough to satisfy me. And it seems that this day will be one of those times.

“I hit the jackpot, hmm?” Ashton muttered habang pinipisil niya ang aking bewang na siyang nagpa-igtad sa akin. “Silence means yes, baby,” he added.

At bago pa man ako mabigyan ng pagkakataon na sagutin siya ay kanya ng hinuli ang aking mga labi and started kissing me.

His kisses were needy and yet gentle, as if he didn't want to hurt me.

I groaned not because of the way he was kissing me and because of how his hands were playing on my waist and on my navel but because of greed. I don't need him to be gentle. I want him to be rough with me!

But I know that's far from happening, kung kaya't pinilit ko na lamang ang aking sarili na gustuhin ang ginagawa ng aking nobyo.

Look, I do get an orgasm from our lovemaking. But I still wanted more. I want to reach more; to taste more. I want to experience that again with him—no, I shouldn't be thinking of that. Fuck, it should not have come across my mind. I have already forgotten it, or at least that's what I want to believe.

“Baby,” Ashton uttered, calling my attention as he continued to kiss me.

Thankfully, he didn't notice the change of expression in my face dahil abala siya sa paghalik sa akin. And maybe it was also because he was too turned on to notice that my mind was occupied with someone else for a moment. But if Ashton was turned on, kabaliktaran naman ang aking nararamdaman.

The memories of him made me feel guilty. Too guilty that I suddenly didn’t want to do it with Ashton anymore. I was too guilty to keep pretending that I am into this as much as Ashton is. Kung kaya’t sinubukan kong patigilin si Ashton.

Akmang itutulak ko siya palayo sa akin nang bigla niyang kinagat ang aking ibabang-labi na siyang dahilan upang napaungol ako sa gulat. And Ashton took that as a chance upang maipasok ang kanyang dila sa aking bibig. Dumiin din ang pagkaka-palibot ng kanyang mga kamay sa aking bewang.

“Ashton… ang meeting mo,” hinihingal kong sabi nang sa wakas ay pakawalan na niya ang aking mga labi at nagsimula ng bumaba ang mga halik niya sa aking leeg.

“It’s fine. I still have enough time to play naughty with you, baby,” ani Ashton habang nagsisimula ng puma-ibaba ang kanyang mga kamay sa aking mga hita at humimas kahit pa natatakpan pa ito ng suot kong damit.

“But… don't you think it’s too early for this?” Sagot ko naman sa kanya as I am still trying to make him stop.

But Ashton is stubborn, which he usually is not, by the way, and did not stop kissing me at all. Sa halip ay tumungo lamang ang kanyang mga labi sa aking tainga, and then he bit my earlobe.

"I want you,” he whispered sexily in my ear na nagpatayo sa mga balahibo ko sa katawan, and damn, it started to turn me on again, leading me to question myself kung ganito lang ba talaga ako kadali na maakit, or am I just really this much of a slut?

Ngunit hindi ko na nagawang hanapan ng sagot ang sarili kong tanong when Ashton nibbled my ear while his hands started to fully work on the lower part of my body.

A moan came out of my mouth nang inangat ni Ashton ang suot kong damit at walang anu-ano'y kanyang dinama niya ang aking pagkababae na unti-unti ng namamasa.

"Ashton..." Sambit ko sa kanyang pangalan ng walang pakundangan niyang ipinasok ang isa niyang kamay sa loob ng aking panty habang ang isa naman niyang kamay ay pinipigilan ang damit ko na pumaibabang muli.

Ashton's finger then traced my wet slit, causing me to gasp and my eyes to widen. At tuluyan na akong napahalinghing ng mula sa pagdama lamang sa labi ng aking pagkababae ay kanyang ipinasok ang isa niyang daliri sa aking butas.

That made me lose my sanity.

Fuck! Anything that gets inside my hole just really drives me fucking crazy!

Okay, I found the answer to my question now. I am definitely a slut. And because I am a slut, nawalan na ako ng pakialam kahit nasa opisina pa kaming dalawa and that anytime, my assistant, Ana, would come barging in as that's what she usually does and see us in this scandalous situation.

Nope. That did not bother me at all. Not even in the slightest. Nawala na rin ang guilt na kanina lamang ay naramdaman ko. All that I am feeling now is lust and the desire to get off from Ashton's fingering.

If there's one thing Ashton is good at when it comes to sex, that would be fingering, and that's why it excites me the most.

From my ear, bumalik ang mga halik ni Ashton sa aking labi. This time, our kissing was definitely better. We were kissing as if there's no tomorrow, with our tongues fighting for dominance.

While still reciprocating my fiancé's kissing, naramdaman ko ang pagsimula ng paggalaw ng daliri ni Ashton na nasa loob ng aking pagkababae, rotating his middle finger that was inside me while he let his thumb settle on my clit, pressing it, na siyang dahilan upang mapahawak ako sa kamay niya na pumipigil sa damit ko.

After that, ay nagsimula ng magatras-abante ang daliri ni Ashton, and that caused me so much pleasure that I couldn't stop myself from biting his lower lip.

As I said, my man is definitely good at fingering.

Pakiramdam ko ay mawawalan ako ng lakas dahil sa sarap na dulot ng mga daliri ni Ashton. Kung hindi lamang ako nakakandong at nakasandal kay Ashton ay malamang kanina pa ako nabuwal.

“Oh God!” Halinghing ko nang bumilis ang paglabas-masok ng daliri ng aking nobyo sa aking pagkababae.

I separated my lips from him and laid my head on his shoulder instead as I continued to moan. Dumiin din ang pagkakakapit ko sa kamay ni Ashton na para bang doon ako kumukuha ng lakas.

Ashton's finger did not stop moving in and out of me until I finally felt that familiar feeling—the feeling of about to reach the zenith.

“I'm coming. Oh god, I'm cumming, baby,” I announced through heavy breathing.

“Yes, baby. Come for me, Dian. Come for me,” hinihingal na saad naman ni Ashton.

Mariin kong ipinikit ang aking mga mata habang aking dinadama ang nagbabadya ng pagsabog ng aking pagkababae.

A few more thrusts. That's all I need to finally erupt. A few more thrusts of Ashton's finger, and I will finally orgasm.

I'm almost there. I can feel it.

“Fuck, Ash! I'm cum—”

“Diantha.”

Mariin kong naibukas ang aking mga mata at tila tumigil sa pag-inog ang aking mundo nang marinig ko ang pamilya na boses na tumawag sa aking pangalan. Bigla akong nahimasmasan at tila umatras din ang paparating ko na sanang orgasmo. Maging si Ashton ay natigilan rin, though his finger remained inside me. My fiancé is wearing the same expression that I have on my face—surprise.

“Kuya?” Nagtatakang sambit ni Ashton makalipas ang ilang minuto.

Napalunok ako ng sarili kong laway at bumilis ang pagtibok ng aking puso.

It took a few minutes before we heard the person, who is clearly just right outside my office, standing behind the closed door, speaking again.

“Don't mind me. I'll just wait.” At ang sunod na lamang naming narinig ay mabibigat na hakbang ng mga sapatos niya.

Nang hindi na namin marinig ni Ashton ang mga yapak niya ay doon na ako nakahinga ulit ng normal, although my heart was still beating fast.

It took a few minutes before Ashton spoke again.

“Do you…want us to continue?” Ashton asked me awkwardly.

Hindi makapaniwalang tinitigan ko ang aking fiancé. “Are you being serious? Your brother just heard us! Nakakahiya!”

At dahil hindi pa rin inaalis ni Ashton ang kamay niya sa pagkababae ko ay ako na mismo ang nag-alis nito. Tumayo na rin ako mula sa pagkakakandong sa kanya, then I grabbed the tissue that was sitting on my office table to wipe my womanhood and my thighs. I cleaned it perfectly, making sure na walang naiwan na bakas ng ginawa ng mga daliri ni Ashton kahit pa hindi naman iyon kailangan pa sapagka't alam naman na ng kuya niya kung ano ang ginagawa namin sa loob ng opisina ko.

“Come on, baby. It's fine. I'm sure Kuya doesn't mind. Hindi naman na bata si Kuya para hindi niya tayo maintindihan,” sagot sa akin ni Ashton. Unlike me, tila wala lang sa kanya na nahuli kami ng Kuya niya, and it kinda pissed me off. Because while I was getting frustrated because of embarrassment, he was acting so calm about it.

“The fact that he's your brother makes it more embarrassing!” Tugon ko sa kanya as I made my way to the trash can and threw the tissues I just used, then I remained standing there, just facing the trash can while I was trying to calm my heart.

Ang totoo ay hindi lamang dahil sa nahuli kami ni Kuya ni Ashton na may ginagawang kababalaghan sa loob ng aking opisina kaya labis-labis na lamang ang hiya ko. There's more to that. Something that Ashton doesn't know, and I pray to God he would never know.

After what happened between me and Ashton's older brother, ay pilit ko na siyang iniiwasan. God, I can't even look at him anymore without remembering what happened. I could even remember that one night of fucking mistake even without seeing him!

Yes, may nangyari sa amin ng nakatatandang kapatid ni Ashton. But it was just one night, and it only happened due to us being inebriated. It was a mistake that I wished would never happen again.

I heard Ashton sigh, causing my attention to go back to him, though I remained just looking at the trash can.

Matapos ang ilang minuto ay naramdaman ko na lamang ang paglapit sa akin ng aking nobyo at kanya akong pinaharap sa kanya bago niya ako niyakap habang marahang hinaplos-haplos ang mahaba at maitim kong buhok.

Napabuntong-hininga na rin lamang ako bago ko siya niyakap pabalik, my face on his chest.

“It'll be fine. We did nothing wrong. We're dating and soon to be married, so what we did was normal. I'm sure Kuya is cool with it, so stop being shy now, okay?” Pagpapakalma sa akin ni Ashton before kissing my head.

But despite that, ay hindi pa rin ako makakalma. I am sure that Ashton was thinking that I was overreacting, but as always, he said nothing about it and instead calmed me down, totally understanding me.

Kung kaya naman kahit mahirap ay pinilit ko ang aking sarili ko na kahit papaano ay kumalma. I need to do that upang hindi makahalata si Ashton.

I am just hoping na maging totoo nga ang sinabi ni Ashton—that it's going to be fine. Everything is going to be fine.

After just hugging each other for a few more minutes, nagdesisyon na kami ni Ashton na lumabas na sa aking opisina. Nakaakbay siya sa akin habang nakapaikot naman ang kamay ko sa kanyang bewang.

We made our way to the waiting area, kung saan prenteng nakaupo ang nakatatandang kapatid ni Ashton at ang lalaking palaging laman na ng aking panaginip gabi-gabi na si Icarus.