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30 - A True Test of Your Deodorant
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2021-04-15 07:18:14I had booked a flight home to Pennsylvania for Fletch and I the second week of December. Football season was not over, but apparently for Stanford it was -- I still didn’t fully understand it all and frankly, I zoned out most of the time he was talking about football. Much the same as what I did bored Fletch to death.
As dad would say, “some days are a true test of your deodorant.”
Well, that’s how I felt about bringing Fletch home. I was convinced he would probably leave me after this, and I was legit scared. We settled in our seats on the plane and I turned to Fletch and said, “you know we're going to have to get you a good coat as soon as we land, you're going to freeze your nuts off.”
He laughed and said, “yeah I've never needed a winter coat before actually, I d
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