~ ANASTASIA ~
The first time I saw him, I was eight years old. He was the boy who'd made my life a misery, the one who'd taken pleasure in my pain. If there's anything like hate from afar, it would be me to him. But I think I should try to say that to my under-satisfied libido and clenched thighs. I shake my head, shaking the thoughts off as I rub my thighs together one last time. I have a boy-fucking-friend and lusting for that fucker shouldn't be part of the plan. He's not just my neighbour. He's the enemy. My enemy, and my family's enemy. Damien fucking Vincenzo is a bastard hiding behind a body that looks to be sculpted by the gods themselves. And if I should get the chance, I will carve his skin, inch by every bloody inch and feed his eyes to the Vultures for everything he made me go through at Crescent high. And again. I have a boyfriend. My sinfully hot neighbor who's walking around butt naked in a fucking glass penthouse without curtains shouldn't be a distraction right? I stand up abruptly, my reading chair screeching loudly against the tiled floor as I bolt for my bedside table and snatch my phone away from its charger. My fingers scroll through my contact list before I hurriedly click on Hector's number. I smoothen my hair with my hands waiting for him to pick the call. After five rings, he picked the video call but nothing had prepared me for the scene before me. Hector's so-called best friend was the one that picked the call, her fiery red hair was a mess and her eyes looked dazed as if she just woke up from a deep slumber. I've forgotten the bitch's name but do best friends of the opposite sex share beds? I inhale, keeping my anger at bay. “Where's Hector?” At the sound of my voice, her hazel eyes flutters open and she gazes into the camera with a smirk. “Asleep.” She says, turning the camera to her side where Hector was fast asleep, naked from the chest. I spring to my feet. “What the actual fuck is going on?” “Shhhhhh.” She coos, “We just finished a round of thorough sex. I'm sure you don't mind, right?” I see nothing but red. Hector. That bastard. “Since when?” “Before you entered the picture.” Then, she cuts the call. I laugh, dropping my phone on the bed as I grab my belly. It hurts, but I laugh nonetheless. I laughed and cried at the same time. Hector. I… can't believe I'd given him my virginity and my heart. Does he dip his cock into the bitch's pussy and tell me to lick her cum off him? I think it's high time I get my hands soaked in fucking blood. It's hard to breathe. But I just sit there, letting the cold from the tile seep into my bones. Hector is my first love, and not just any type of first love, but one that I defied my brother for. Maybe this is Karma's way of getting back at me but one thing I know is that heartbreaks hurt like shit. The sound of my phone vibrating pulls me away from my thoughts and I want to grab the shitty thing and throw it against the wall but I hold myself back when I see the name flashing across my screen. I bite my lip, letting it ring for more minutes. I don't know why my brother, Alexander, is calling me at this time of the day, but whatever the reason is, I know it won't be a good one. I'd hoped he will leave me the fuck alone after I moved out of the family house and into this glorious penthouse but no, he just doesn't respect boundaries. Picking up the call, I put it on speaker. “And will you tell me you haven't been with your phone or were you just dancing to your ringtone?” He asks, his voice a low rumble. I smile. “You know me too well Alex.” “How have you been?” He asks with a sigh. “The guards didn't tell you?” I ask in confusion, picking at my newly manicured pink nails. And just so you know, but my brother has guards stationed around me who pass him information at every chance they get. He sighs. “It won't hurt to ask from my little sister her—” “ —I'm fine. So, tell me why you called.” He sighs. “There's a meeting tomorrow at home, you should come.” He says, and I hate it. I hate his tone. He sounds just like father. “Send me the link.” I say dismissively. “I will join through zoom.” There's no way in actual hell that I'm going back to that place. He sighs “Don't be too hard on me, will you?” “Don't be too hard on yourself.” I bite out.” “Please…” He wanders off. “Isabella is coming.” My ears perk up. “Are you sure?” “Yes.” He says, and I can already imagine him nodding while he sits behind that huge office chair with a victorious grin on his face. “Time?” I ask. “Anytime before evening. It's dinner.” “I didn't say I was hungry Alex but since Isa is coming, I will try to come but I won't promise.” He laughs. “Claud will be there to pick you after picking Isabella tomorrow.” I nod, chewing the insides of my mouth. He's silent, I am too. He sighs. “See you tomorrow Nastya.” I hum, hurriedly cutting the call. Perhaps, it's wrong that we grew out of things to say to each other and no matter how we act, one of us keeps widening the gap. Which is me in most cases. Hector. I stand up on wobbly feet and strip before changing into a baggy shirt. Sleep. That's my only escape for now. I will be good when I wake up. I promise.~ ANASTASIA ~I was crying in my sleep. And when I woke up, my face was filled with dried tears and my nose was blocked.Good.Just how I wanted my weekend to start.I unplug my phone. The whole scene with Hector and Alexander better be a nightmare. But when I scroll through my call logs, I discovered it's one hell of a reality. I groan, crawling out of the bed.If this goes on, I might just end up a lonely Billionaire. But I still need to confirm from Hector. Like, who knows, the bitch might be lying or something. I enter the bathroom and stand before the mirror.Stormy gray eyes and chestnut brown hair stares back at me. And ‘a mess’ will be a fucking understatement to describe the current me. Like, my hair looks like a bird's nest and my eyes are all puffy and red as if I just walked straight out of a horror movie. I turn on the faucet, allowing the cool water to drop onto my hand before splashing some on my face. After brushing my teeth, I move back to my room and grab my phone.
~ ANASTASIA ~But I'm not even halfway towards the entrance of the restaurant when a warm hand grabs my shoulder and I try to wiggle free with my grip tightening on Isabella's wrist who's spotting the same reaction as me. “Chill, will you?”It's Claud's voice. I turn to him and he winces, probably seeing the confusion and question mark on my face.“Chill?” I ask, assessing him as if he'd grown two heads. “Do you need me to spell out the name of…” I tilt my head to his direction where he stood, leaning casually on his car with his hands in his pocket. But wait. My eyes dart around my surroundings in panic. His men. His men that are present are not even drawing their guns and he's not too. Is this some sort of prank? Like, according to the lifelong enmity between the Vincenzo and the Zhukov, they will always be at each others throats.I turn to Claud again. “What's going on.” “Just… chill.” He says, looking at anywhere but me.I bite my lips, moving beside him and some minutes later
~ ANASTASIA ~I watch as the little crowd floods out of the room and with a swallow, I stand up too. It's suffocating. I'm suffocating. I feel like I might die if I stay in this restaurant’s private booth for any minute longer.“Nastya.” Alexander calls and I stop, sensing his soft undertone.He stands up, motioning for me to come closer. “We need to talk.”I grit my teeth, holding myself back from an outburst, watching as Claud leads Isabella out of the room.But I sit down, too tired to cry or oppose him. He sits too, taking my hands in his.“I need to apologize for today” He says and I turn my attention to him, watching him as if he'd grown two heads.“Apologize? You mean for not telling me I was going to be a political bargaining chip?” He turns his gaze away from me and nods. I pull my hands away from his firm ones. “I'm not interested in marrying Damien, Alex.”“You don't have a say in this.” He says, his voice turning harder.I grit my teeth. “You don't get to tell me what to
~ ANASTASIA ~“Say ‘I do’.” Claud’s voice rings in my ears and I gulp.“Do you, Anastasia Zhukov, accept Damien Vicenzo as your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do you part?”“I…” I open my mouth, my eyes landing on the devilishly handsome man clad in a black suit before me. It's hard. I wonder how he said ‘I do’ so effortlessly and I gulped again. I can't subject Isabella to the gruesome fate of wedding him in my stead.“I do.” I say.The crowd erupts into cheers and my eyes dart to Alexander who's staring at me in satisfaction. I grit my teeth, glad that the veil is still covering my face.The ring bearer brings the ring and Damien steps closer to slip the golden ring with a ruby stone into my left ring finger.My hands shake as I take the second ring from the case. I hold my breath, slipping it into his extended finger as the crowd e
~ ANASTASIA ~ My breath catches in my throat as my brain stops working for some minutes. He continues to drag me towards his place instead. But soon enough, I try to yank my hand away from his but his grip only tightens. “You don't get to decide that for me.” I say, my voice shaking. I left that fucking mansion so I could have a place for myself. And now, after having a taste of what liberation feels like, I can't allow it to get snatched just like that. “How do you expect the greek and the Irish to believe that we are united if not for us living together?” I swallow the lump in my throat knowing I couldn't argue my way out of this situation because the bastard has a point. But… I can't give up just like that. Or can I? “What about —” “Anastasia.” He calls, his voice dropping to a low edge and I don't know, but the way he called my name sends some odd tingles straight to my core and I suddenly get the urge to rub my thighs together. I nod and he takes that as a sign t
~ ANASTASIA ~ The warm glow of the floor lamps and the soft hums of the air conditioning welcomes me as I step foot into Damien's penthouse — my apartment if not for his freaking involvement. But my brain wasn't focused on the plush white couches and sofas. Instead, my mind still reels from the kiss. The first kiss at the altar was vicious and fierce. It was as if he was trying to pass a point across to me. Claiming me. Punishing me. Making his stance known. And yes, it made my brain mushy and my pulse run hot. But it's the second kiss that ignites my blood and has my toes curling in my shoe even if I don't want to admit it. It was playful and something I think looks like regret lingers in my heart. I should have— “Ahhh…” I gasp in surprise when my head suddenly meets a hard coarse surface. I step back, seeing it's Damien who'd suddenly stop. “What the fuck are you thinking?” “I should be asking you that.” He scowls. I hiss, gathering my veil into my hand before rumpling
~ ANASTASIA ~I'm choosing to be reckless. I know I will probably regret this when I'm down from the high but I couldn't care less, not when my body melts against Damien's and I whimper when his tongue delves deeper into my mouth.‘This isn't right’ My brain whispers, but I push the voice back, deciding to turn a blind eye to it for now. This is Damien, my fucking high school crush who crushed me. But we are married. A contract marriage for that matter. Maybe we are just making things easier by…“Ohhhh…” I let out a long throaty moan when he cups my face and grips my hip possessively while his mouth descends to my neck, his tongue licking my throat from base to top.I let my hands roam over his bare chest which doesn't have even a spec of ink on it. And sweet Jesus, his body. Ohh, his body. I've gawked at him from afar, even lusted after it, back when he was my enemy of a neighbour without curtains and when he was the central midfielder in the school's football team when I'd joined th
~ DAMIEN ~ I have always thrived on control. Seeing people at my mercy, knowing that I have the power to mould them or break them, that I have the pen and eraser to seal their fate. Most call me monster, some devil, some even call me bastard. Well, I'm all. You may be thinking that my experience made me like this. Maybe I'd gone through some shitty moments in life, perhaps from an abusive father or an abusive mother. Newsflash? No, I didn't have any of that. My ruthlessness didn't stem from my childhood, and I wasn't like a diamond that was forged under pressure. Instead, I've always been like this. Thriving on control, brutality, beauty in blood, love for the sound of gunshot, wanting to watch the world burn. Everything. I was born this way. It was like that placenta that followed me to the world but was cooked for me to eat instead of being buried with the demons of the world. It was like my flesh that expanded as I continue to grow and now, it continues to impact those aro
~ ANASTASIA ~I step deeper into the large household, mentally rolling my eyes as an old man in white and black butler outfit after speaking with Damien walks towards me.“Good evening, Mrs Vicen–”“Ms. Zhukov.” I correct.He frowns in puzzlement.“I'm keeping my maiden name.” I say, the words sounding like a lie even to my own ears.He nods stiffly. “Very good ma'am. Shall I excort you to the–”“Oh no, thanks a bunch, but I can manage.” I wonder what that bastard was thinking. Does he think I need a babysitter or something? I watch as he stands stiffly before me. He spares Damien's retreating back a glance and turns back to me.“Allow me to–”“Where's the way to the bathroom?” I ask, cutting him off. He nods in satisfaction and points to his left. “That way, then turn left and walk downwards, you will see the sign on the door.” I nod, forcing a smile. At least, he won't follow me to the bathroom. I spare him one last glance before making my way to the direction he'd given, my head
~ ANASTASIA ~The past two days have been monotonous at best. And it consist of me avoiding Damien like the plague which is a hard thing to do because of the open settings of the fucking penthouse.Just like I'd expected, we are under something I've decided to call a house arrest because Damien said we must make them believe we are on our honeymoon and it should last for at least three to four days. This is not what I envisioned for my wedding and its honeymoon for real. Or, at least what I planned with Isabella when we were watching Cinderella. But as I grew up, I knew mine won't be normal and it will be just a childhood dream. Afterall, what's normal? I've only heard about it and I've never lived it. Other kids are not forced to learn how to use a gun at seven or forced to move undercover or under tight security.I let out a bitter chuckle as I grabbed the shot and down it in a go before grabbing the bottle to pour another one. Right now, I'm sitting in the bar area of the penthous
~ ANASTASIA ~I think I'm going insane. Or. I've already gone insane. Jesus Christ, what have I done. I close my eyes tightly, feeling the mild tingles between my thighs. I've never been this embarrassed in my life, jeez.I slowly peel my eyes open, and I shut them again when I catch him sitting beside the bed in my peripheral vision. Jesusfuckingchrist. ‘Don’t you dare act like a hussy!’ Inhaling, I gather what's left of my pride and sit up, rubbing the remnants of fake sleep away from my face with a yawn. I spare him a glance which soon turns to a glare when I spot the amused look on his face.“What time is it?” I ask, the question coming out harsher than I'd intended.He places his palm under his chin. “An hour and fifteen minutes after you blackout from cumming around my fingers.” I feel heat pooling between my thighs as my face grows hot from embarrassment. Then, I clear my throat and throw away the duvet, hurriedly climbing out of the bed.Wrong move.Blood rushes to my head
~ DAMIEN ~ I have always thrived on control. Seeing people at my mercy, knowing that I have the power to mould them or break them, that I have the pen and eraser to seal their fate. Most call me monster, some devil, some even call me bastard. Well, I'm all. You may be thinking that my experience made me like this. Maybe I'd gone through some shitty moments in life, perhaps from an abusive father or an abusive mother. Newsflash? No, I didn't have any of that. My ruthlessness didn't stem from my childhood, and I wasn't like a diamond that was forged under pressure. Instead, I've always been like this. Thriving on control, brutality, beauty in blood, love for the sound of gunshot, wanting to watch the world burn. Everything. I was born this way. It was like that placenta that followed me to the world but was cooked for me to eat instead of being buried with the demons of the world. It was like my flesh that expanded as I continue to grow and now, it continues to impact those aro
~ ANASTASIA ~I'm choosing to be reckless. I know I will probably regret this when I'm down from the high but I couldn't care less, not when my body melts against Damien's and I whimper when his tongue delves deeper into my mouth.‘This isn't right’ My brain whispers, but I push the voice back, deciding to turn a blind eye to it for now. This is Damien, my fucking high school crush who crushed me. But we are married. A contract marriage for that matter. Maybe we are just making things easier by…“Ohhhh…” I let out a long throaty moan when he cups my face and grips my hip possessively while his mouth descends to my neck, his tongue licking my throat from base to top.I let my hands roam over his bare chest which doesn't have even a spec of ink on it. And sweet Jesus, his body. Ohh, his body. I've gawked at him from afar, even lusted after it, back when he was my enemy of a neighbour without curtains and when he was the central midfielder in the school's football team when I'd joined th
~ ANASTASIA ~ The warm glow of the floor lamps and the soft hums of the air conditioning welcomes me as I step foot into Damien's penthouse — my apartment if not for his freaking involvement. But my brain wasn't focused on the plush white couches and sofas. Instead, my mind still reels from the kiss. The first kiss at the altar was vicious and fierce. It was as if he was trying to pass a point across to me. Claiming me. Punishing me. Making his stance known. And yes, it made my brain mushy and my pulse run hot. But it's the second kiss that ignites my blood and has my toes curling in my shoe even if I don't want to admit it. It was playful and something I think looks like regret lingers in my heart. I should have— “Ahhh…” I gasp in surprise when my head suddenly meets a hard coarse surface. I step back, seeing it's Damien who'd suddenly stop. “What the fuck are you thinking?” “I should be asking you that.” He scowls. I hiss, gathering my veil into my hand before rumpling
~ ANASTASIA ~ My breath catches in my throat as my brain stops working for some minutes. He continues to drag me towards his place instead. But soon enough, I try to yank my hand away from his but his grip only tightens. “You don't get to decide that for me.” I say, my voice shaking. I left that fucking mansion so I could have a place for myself. And now, after having a taste of what liberation feels like, I can't allow it to get snatched just like that. “How do you expect the greek and the Irish to believe that we are united if not for us living together?” I swallow the lump in my throat knowing I couldn't argue my way out of this situation because the bastard has a point. But… I can't give up just like that. Or can I? “What about —” “Anastasia.” He calls, his voice dropping to a low edge and I don't know, but the way he called my name sends some odd tingles straight to my core and I suddenly get the urge to rub my thighs together. I nod and he takes that as a sign t
~ ANASTASIA ~“Say ‘I do’.” Claud’s voice rings in my ears and I gulp.“Do you, Anastasia Zhukov, accept Damien Vicenzo as your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do you part?”“I…” I open my mouth, my eyes landing on the devilishly handsome man clad in a black suit before me. It's hard. I wonder how he said ‘I do’ so effortlessly and I gulped again. I can't subject Isabella to the gruesome fate of wedding him in my stead.“I do.” I say.The crowd erupts into cheers and my eyes dart to Alexander who's staring at me in satisfaction. I grit my teeth, glad that the veil is still covering my face.The ring bearer brings the ring and Damien steps closer to slip the golden ring with a ruby stone into my left ring finger.My hands shake as I take the second ring from the case. I hold my breath, slipping it into his extended finger as the crowd e
~ ANASTASIA ~I watch as the little crowd floods out of the room and with a swallow, I stand up too. It's suffocating. I'm suffocating. I feel like I might die if I stay in this restaurant’s private booth for any minute longer.“Nastya.” Alexander calls and I stop, sensing his soft undertone.He stands up, motioning for me to come closer. “We need to talk.”I grit my teeth, holding myself back from an outburst, watching as Claud leads Isabella out of the room.But I sit down, too tired to cry or oppose him. He sits too, taking my hands in his.“I need to apologize for today” He says and I turn my attention to him, watching him as if he'd grown two heads.“Apologize? You mean for not telling me I was going to be a political bargaining chip?” He turns his gaze away from me and nods. I pull my hands away from his firm ones. “I'm not interested in marrying Damien, Alex.”“You don't have a say in this.” He says, his voice turning harder.I grit my teeth. “You don't get to tell me what to