~ ANASTASIA ~
I was crying in my sleep. And when I woke up, my face was filled with dried tears and my nose was blocked. Good. Just how I wanted my weekend to start. I unplug my phone. The whole scene with Hector and Alexander better be a nightmare. But when I scroll through my call logs, I discovered it's one hell of a reality. I groan, crawling out of the bed. If this goes on, I might just end up a lonely Billionaire. But I still need to confirm from Hector. Like, who knows, the bitch might be lying or something. I enter the bathroom and stand before the mirror. Stormy gray eyes and chestnut brown hair stares back at me. And ‘a mess’ will be a fucking understatement to describe the current me. Like, my hair looks like a bird's nest and my eyes are all puffy and red as if I just walked straight out of a horror movie. I turn on the faucet, allowing the cool water to drop onto my hand before splashing some on my face. After brushing my teeth, I move back to my room and grab my phone. Hector owes me an apology and an explanation. I dial his number. And I watch it ring until it goes to voicemail. I grit my teeth. Hector is always with his fucking phone so the little fucker deciding not to pick this call… I call him again, and he picks up after two rings. “Wassup?” His deep voice asks from the other side and I bite my lip in relief. “Hector…” “Why did you call, Anastasia?” Anastasia? Hector never calls me by my full name. I inhale. “Did the bitch tell you I called yesterday and did she tell you she filmed you —” “One. Rose is not a bitch. Two. Don't you ever dare verbally harass her again.” He snaps. “Please give the phone to Hector.” I say, my grip on my phone tightening. He barks out a laugh. “Well, baby, this is Hector, and sorry to break it to you but we are done. And it'd been so long since we were done but guess what? You never read the vibe. It was nice doing a mafia princess Annie.” Then the phone beeps. I stare into the distance. Hector… he cut the call. He… I bit my lip, trying to keep in the tears but it came spilling anyway. I bolt to my feet. Escape. I need an escape. But I just woke up, and I'm not sleepy. I walk towards my reading table and sit down, drawing my books closer. This is an escape too. Working towards my masters degree at Stanford is an escape too. Then, I start. I don't know how long I'd started but when I lift my head, my gaze lands on the glass penthouse without curtains opposite mine. And again, Damien fucking Vincenzo is naked. But bless the gods, he was wearing pants — his chest which is not riddled with even a spec of ink was bare — leaning casually against his kitchen's sink, a cup of coffee in hand. I glance at the clock. But who the fuck drinks coffee at four fucking PM in the e— Wait! Evening? I spring to my feet, my books scattering on the floor. Evening?! I wince, imagining the lectures Alexander will make me go through. Right at that moment, my doorbell rings and I groan before walking towards the door. On opening the door, I was tackled to the ground. “Anaaaaa!” Isabella chimes, almost suffocating me with how she held my neck in a chokehold all in the name of a hug. I smile, awkwardly patting her back. She moves back to look at my face. “I've missed you.” Me too. But I didn't say it. Instead, I pull her into another hug, inhaling her cherry scent mixed with channel. Someone clears their throat and Isabella pulls away from the hug. I shift my gaze behind her and my grin widens. “Claud.” I whisper. Claud has been Isabella and I bodyguard since when we were on strollers. Shit, that might be an overstatement. Well, what I meant was that, Claud has been with us since when I could remember. He walks towards me and pulls me into a hug before rubbing my head like how he used to do when I was a kid and I groan, swatting his hand away. “Stop that will you? I'm nineteen now.” He smiles, his left cheek dimple revealing itself. “I won't.” Isabella, my younger sister grabs my arm again. “Why are you not dressed?” I roll my eyes. “Well, I lost the sense of time.” I say, my face almost heating up when I remembered what reminded me of the dinner. I turn to Claud. “And do you know why Alex insists I come with you guys?” He stares at me. I stare back. “You know, do you?” I ask again. “I'm sorry, Ana.” He says, breaking my gaze. I turn to Isa. “You?” “He said nothing throughout the ride here.” She says, shrugging casually. I grit my teeth, pinning my glare on Claud. And I sigh. Knowing Claud, he won't tell me. “I will be back.” I say to them, moving into the apartment. They follow. I rush to my room which sure looks like a total disaster and I hurriedly grab a short black Gucci gown from the bed. Blame me for doing laundry and not folding them. After wearing it and matching it with strapless black heels, I rolled my hair into a messy bun and applied lipgloss and mascara. I step out of my room. Isabella was checking the books on my reading table and Claud was checking his phone with his legs crossed. I shift my gaze to the apartment opposite mine. He's dressed now. Prolly going out to save the day just like the devil he is. “I'm done.” I announce. Claud stands, motioning for me to take one of his arms and Isabella, the other. “Let's get this done with.” The car ride was filled with Isabella's chattering and Claud’s bickering with me trying to hold back my laughter. It was ten minutes past five when we finally reached the venue. A high-end Chinese restaurant. We were leaning against the car with Claud definitely conversing with Alexander through the phone when another car pulled up beside ours. I shift my gaze to the car, my eyes widening in horror when Damien fucking Vincenzo steps out of the car.~ ANASTASIA ~ And all the memory comes rushing in again. He's probably here to pick up the remains of my shattered soul. The door was opened for him and he strolls towards us. I inhale, barely regaining my composure after hiding my shaky hands behind me. All the nerves in me are screaming for me to run. The enemy is here, and for what reason if not to cause destruction. And before I can stop myself, I find myself saying. “Well well, look what the trash truck spit out.” Then, I grab Isabella in panic and start to run towards the entrance of the restaurant. Vincenzo won't hurt a Zhukov in public. He… won't… But I'm not even halfway towards the entrance of the restaurant when a warm hand grabs my shoulder and I try to wiggle free with my grip tightening on Isabella's wrist who's spotting the same reaction as me. “Chill, will you?” It's Claud's voice. I turn to him and he winces, probably seeing the confusion and question mark on my face. “Chill?” I ask, assessing him as if
~ ANASTASIA ~ I watch as the little crowd floods out of the room and with a swallow, I stand up too. It's suffocating. I'm suffocating. I feel like I might die if I stay in this restaurant’s private booth for any minute longer. “Nastya.” Alexander calls and I stop, sensing his soft undertone. He stands up, motioning for me to come closer. “We need to talk.” I grit my teeth, holding myself back from an outburst, watching as Claud leads Isabella out of the room. But I sit down, too tired to cry or oppose him. He sits too, taking my hands in his. “I need to apologize for today” He says and I turn my attention to him, watching him as if he'd grown two heads. “Apologize? You mean for not telling me I was going to be a political bargaining chip?” He turns his gaze away from me and nods. I pull my hands away from his firm ones. “I'm not interested in marrying Damien, Alex.” “You don't have a say in this.” He says, his voice turning hard. I grit my teeth. “You don't get to tell me w
~ ANASTASIA ~ “Say ‘I do’.” Claud’s voice rings in my ears and I gulp. “Do you, Anastasia Zhukov, accept Damien Vicenzo as your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do you part?” “I…” I open my mouth, my eyes landing on the devilishly handsome man clad in a black suit before me. It's hard. I wonder how he said ‘I do’ so effortlessly and I gulped again. I can't subject Isabella to the gruesome fate of wedding him in my stead. “I do.” I say. The crowd erupts into cheers and my eyes dart to Alexander who's staring at me in satisfaction. I grit my teeth, glad that the veil is still covering my face. The ring bearer brings the ring and Damien steps closer to slip the golden ring with a ruby stone into my left ring finger. My hands shake as I take the second ring from the case. I hold my breath, slipping it into his extended finger as the
~ ANASTASIA ~ My breath catches in my throat as my brain stops working for some minutes. He continues to drag me towards his place instead. But soon enough, I try to yank my hand away from his but his grip only tightens. “You don't get to decide that for me.” I say, my voice shaking. I left that fucking mansion so I could have a place for myself. And now, after having a taste of what liberation feels like, I can't allow it to get snatched just like that. “How do you expect the greek and the Irish to believe that we are united if not for us living together?” I swallow the lump in my throat knowing I couldn't argue my way out of this situation because the bastard has a point. But… I can't give up just like that. Or can I? “What about —” “Anastasia.” He calls, his voice dropping to a low edge and I don't know, but the way he called my name sends some odd tingles straight to my core and I suddenly get the urge to rub my thighs together. I nod and he takes that as a sign to releas
~ ANASTASIA ~ The warm glow of the floor lamps and the soft hums of the air conditioning welcomes me as I step foot into Damien's penthouse — my apartment if not for his freaking involvement. But my brain wasn't focused on the plush white couches and sofas. Instead, my mind still reels from the kiss. The first kiss at the altar was vicious and fierce. It was as if he was trying to pass a point across to me. Claiming me. Punishing me. Making his stance known. And yes, it made my brain mushy and my pulse run hot. But it's the second kiss that ignites my blood and has my toes curling in my shoe even if I don't want to admit it. It was playful and something I think looks like regret lingers in my heart. I should have have— “Ahhh…” I gasp in surprise when my head suddenly meets a hard coarse surface. I step back, seeing it's Damien who'd suddenly stop. “What the fuck are you thinking?” “I should be asking you that.” He scowls. I hiss, gathering my veil into my hand before rumpling i
~ ANASTASIA ~ I'm choosing to be reckless. I know I will probably regret this when I'm down from the high but I couldn't care less, not when my body melts against Damien's and I whimper when his tongue delves deeper into my mouth. ‘This isn't right’ My brain whispers, but I push the voice back, deciding to turn a blind eye to it for now. This is Damien, my fucking high school crush who crushed me. But we are married. A contract marriage for that matter. Maybe we are just making things easier by… “Ohhhh…” I let out a long throaty moan when he cups my face and grips my hip possessively while his mouth descends to my neck, his tongue licking my throat from base to top. I let my hands roam over his bare chest which doesn't have even a spec of ink on it. And sweet Jesus, his body. Ohh, his body. I've gawked at him from afar, even lusted after it, back when he was my enemy of a neighbour without curtains and when he was the central midfielder in the school's football team when I'd joine
~ DAMIEN ~ I have always thrived on control. Seeing people at my mercy, knowing that I have the power to mould them or break them, that I have the pen and eraser to seal their fate. Most call me monster, some devil, some even call me bastard. Well, I'm all. You may be thinking that my experience made me like this. Maybe I'd gone through some shitty moments in life, perhaps from an abusive father or an abusive mother. Newsflash? No, I didn't have any of that. My ruthlessness didn't stem from my childhood, and I wasn't like a diamond that was forged under pressure. Instead, I've always been like this. Thriving on control, brutality, beauty in blood, love for the sound of gunshot, wanting to watch the world burn. Everything. I was born this way. It was like that placenta that followed me to the world but was cooked for me to eat instead of being buried with the demons of the world. It was like my flesh that expanded as I continue to grow and now, it continues to impact those around
~ ANASTASIA ~ I think I'm going insane. Or. I've already gone insane. Jesus Christ, what have I done. I close my eyes tightly, feeling the mild tingles between my thighs. I've never been this embarrassed in my life, jeez. I slowly peel my eyes open, and I shut them again when I catch him sitting beside the bed in my peripheral vision. Jesusfuckingchrist. ‘Don’t you dare act like a hussy!’ Inhaling, I gather what's left of my pride and sit up, rubbing the remnants of fake sleep away from my face with a yawn. I spare him a glance which soon turns to a glare when I spot the amused look on his face. “What time is it?” I ask, the question coming out harsher than I'd intended. He places his palm under his chin. “An hour and fifteen minutes after you blackout from cumming around my fingers.” I feel heat pooling between my thighs as my face grows hot from embarrassment. Then, I clear my throat and throw away the duvet, hurriedly climbing out of the bed. Wrong move. Blood rushes to
~ DAMIEN ~A mistake.That's what it is.It shouldn't have happened. I shouldn't have let my joy overwhelm me, forgetting Anastasia's wants in the process.When did it get to this?Fuck it. I think I'm losing myself.I stare at her retreating back in a daze. She didn't say anything to me as she steps into the car. Her bodyguard fixes his eyes on me and if looks could kill, I would have turned into ashes but two can play the game, so I shoot him one of mine.“I'm going to kill you.” He mouths before stepping into the car and driving her away.Do I follow her?I shake my head at the intrusive thought.If Anastasia wants space, she wants it. I've already locked her in. She should be a free bird tonight.With a sigh, I turn and make my way back into the house, trying to ignore my beating heart which I'd thought was dead.Anastasia is a thief.And she's not only a thief, but a worm too.She stole my heart or anything that's left of it with her snide sarcastic comments and she wormed her wa
~ ANASTASIA ~“What actually happened?” Claud asks as we speed off into the night.I say nothing, my gaze outside the window. “Nothing you should worry about.” I whisper.“You know you can tell me anything.” How do I tell him that I was angry because Damien didn't put my personal feelings first at first and he'd let his joy overwhelm him? How do I tell him that I'm angry that I'm angry? How do I tell him that my mood is slowly getting haywire and I'm irritated for nothing?Telling him I'm pregnant is not an option.The purpose of this arranged marriage is merging. The child that's slowly growing in me is the result of the merging. Telling them I'm pregnant will bring attention and I will feel like… an animal. An animal that was led to the slaughter that finally produced leather or an animal that was grazed that finally started producing milk.I don't want to feel like that. Ever again.“Fuck it.” Claud suddenly curses, jerking me out of my thoughts.Claud never curses unless overwhel
~ ANASTASIA ~“Oh darling.” She chimes before standing up and engulfing me in a warm hug - or, as warm as her lithe body could allow.She cups my face, her eyes searching mine before they dart to Damien behind me and they wrinkle in the corners as she smiles.Were they talking about me?Was she telling him about my resemblance to mother or father?My heart beats fast in my chest as I stay still, my palm feeling sweaty. She smiles at me one last time before pulling away and grabbing my hand.“We have dinner waiting, my dear. Come come, let's eat.” She says, leading me to the dining hall.I gulp, hoping she won't notice how sweaty my palm is. My other hand tightens on my bag which has my phone, my tummy tingling in paranoia.I spare Damien who was walking behind a glance and a shuddering breath slips past my throat. Nothing is wrong.It's just my anxiety and paranoia.I convince myself as we step foot into the vast dining hall.Damien's brother was there. Including Dimitra. Seems like
~ ANASTASIA ~I hold my breath, my eyes on his face, waiting for his reaction.Is he as confused as me? Did he hear his dreams and hopes shatter with the news of the pregnancy? Is his mind and heart torn between keeping the pregnancy and aborting it? Did he–He smiles. Not his regular tight-lipped one or his hearty laughters or his annoying grins and smirks. But he smiles, showing all his thirty-two white pearl-like teeth as he walks towards me and lifts me before spinning me.I stare at him in confusion, watching as his eyes crinkles at the side. Then, he drops me and kisses my forehead. Maybe I didn't know what I was thinking, but my lips stretch into a smile too and my heart blooms in happiness as I inhale his scent, his happiness rubbing off me. His puckered lips meet my forehead, pecking me before descending to my neck.I tilt my neck, giving him more accessibility.“I'm so happy right now.” He whispers against my skin, pulling me closer to him as if wanting to eliminate the li
~ ANASTASIA ~° A week later ~ Still under ‘home arrest’.°“Take. You pee inside a bowl or potty. Then, you dip it inside it to check.” Isabella says, passing me a pregnancy test strip she'd gotten for me.With scrunched nose, I collect the strip from her. “It's just fever.” I grumble. “That's how I always feel when I have fever.”“Yes, it's just fever but still, use it. I'm leaving now. Text the results to me sissy. So, I can know if I'm going to be an aunt soon.”“Shut up bitch.” I say with a chuckle. “I use my pill after the third round and my calendar says that's not a fertile day.”“Hmmm, your pale face says something else.” She says, leaving me as she walks towards the door. She blows me a kiss before shutting the door close.My gaze lingers on the kit in annoyance, a strange feeling starting to pool in my belly. It's… dread.I don't feel good.But I can't be pregnant.I let out a sigh and stand up, taking my shorts off while I mentally praise the being above. Damien had gone t
~ ANASTASIA ~That day was the first time we would have sex. But it wasn't the last.The other day, Damein bent me over the counter and fucked me until I cried. There was a day he fucked me with my face pressed against the wall to wall window, overlooking the city while I fear that no one would catch a sight of me getting railed from behind.So many scenarios I'd forgotten in the span of eight days.And now? I'm tired!Like, I've had enough!And yeah, I can't walk without feeling him in me.With my pussy throbbing mildly, I walk towards him. He lifts his gaze, his eyes landing on my face as I sit down on the sofa opposite me.“You good?” He asks.I shake my head. “I can't keep up anymore.”Not with the thorough fucking.“I need to go out.”He sighs and leans his back against the head rest of the sofa. “Someone is after your life, Anastasia. We have two attempts in just two weeks. If you are to go out, you must take at least six guards with you.”My brows shoot up, my mind wandering to
~ ANASTASIA ~I can't stop myself from falling. And no, not in love.But into a dark abyss due to exhaustion. I stay on the bed, limp, my breath coming out in short shuddering whimpers. I know my clitoris will be swollen by tomorrow.I feel someone pulling me up and some minutes later, I'm enveloped my something warm. Is this aftercare? I've never experienced it before. But I'm too tired to swat him up, to tell him that I can take care of myself. Maybe it's because I simply can't shoulder the… romance of this? Only real lovers gives aftercare.Damien and I are not one.He lathers my body with a scented shampoo and cleans my core with a wet towel. Even though I'm tired and I feel like I might die if I have another orgasm, I still moan when his fingers and the towel brushes over my core.Horny? Probably yes. Damaged? Definitely.He leaves me in the water and comes back minutes later before picking me up. As soon as my back meets the surface of the bed, darkness fully consumes me...
~ DAMIEN ~Fuck.I unbutton my shirt in a hurry, holding her gaze, watching as her chest heaves up on down with her hands pinned above her head.“Let go off me.” She pants, eyes dazed and her pouty swollen lips glistening causing my cock to throb in my pants.I didn't.I pull my shirt with force, buttons popping and flying everywhere before I lean down again and claim her lips. I suck her lips hard as I release her hands and start fiddling with her gown without breaking the kiss.Then, I draw her up a little and tug the gown off, leaving her in strapless bra and boyshorts. She's… breathtaking.“I want to kiss you everywhere.” I say, my voice coming out hoarse.“Please do.” I start by tugging her bra off. Her boyshorts follows. Then my pants, and my boxer, leaving us naked.My eyes rakes over her perky firm tits with hard pink nipples. I lean down and start with her neck. I squeeze her left breast as my mouth meets her right nipple and I bite it before sucking it.She gasps, squirmin
~ ANASTATIA ~I'm really going to die.I don't even get to talk to Isabella after ignoring her calls for days just because of being stressed.I'm going to die.I never got to apologize to Damien for what mother did nor did I get to fuck–Then, with brutal force, I feel something tugging me backwards before I meet the hard ground, eliciting a wince from me as pain shoots through my skull due to the impact. I feel someone shaking me wildly as if I weigh nothing, their body shielding my face from the rain which continues to beat down on other part of me except for my face.“Ana!”I blink in daze before his figure comes into focus.“Are you crazy?!” He screams, his eyes darting to the direction the truck had disappeared to. Maybe I am.Then, he picks me up and I can't even refuse.I almost lost my life. Again.His hand tightens around my thighs as he lifts me up, his other hand supporting my back. I can't feel my arms as I place my head against his chest, listening to his erratic heartbe