3 First day in many days

I woke up to the sound of my alarm blaring."shut up" I rolled to the side to stop that devil which is my alarm and went back to sleep.

The second time I woke up feeling something heavy on me and it crushes me."Ahhhhhhhhh! I yelled my lungs out.

"Stop yelling scar". Zay said laughing out loud.

I opened my eyes to see that the weight crushing me is none other than zay and she is laughing her ass off.

"Get off of me, you hippo! What the bloody hell zay, you look skinny but you are crushing me into the bed and I feel like someone is crushing me with a stone" I said while trying to get her off of me.

She gasps and said dramatically"take that back scar"

" What if I don't take it back," I said sassily.

" I am gonna count 1 to 3 if you won't take it back then see what will happen," she said threatening me.

"Stop being a drama queen Zay," I said while getting from the bed.

" 1,2 you have still time to take that back scar," Zay said throwing daggers through her eyes. Which makes me laugh because she is looking like a cartoon character.

"3 I have given you the time scar now it's time to show you what zayreen will gonna do," Zay said with an evil glint in her eyes laughing funnily imagining herself as some sort of villain from the movies but she is failing hard.

" Hahahahhahahahaha" now I am on the ground clutching my stomach laughing hard while tears streaming down my cheeks. Suddenly I felt the same weight and opened my eyes to see zayreen straddling me and she had that same evil glint in her eyes and a smirk this time.

" Buhahahaahhhaaa" now you are gonna laugh your ass off the scar," Zay said and started tickling me without giving me time to react.

"Stop stooooooooooop" I am screaming like a madwoman and laughing at the same time.

" First take that back, then I will stop," she said while tickling me hard.

" I am taking it back zay, you are not a hippo and you don't weigh like it too". I said between my laughing.

" Hmmm good girl, this is the first that's why I am sparing you, if you say it again then this tickle monster will tickle you until you pee in your pants," Zay said while grinning and getting off of me.

"Ewwwww Zay what the hell is that," I said while getting from the ground.

" You wanna see how it happens? Come one I will show you" Zay said while jiggling her fingers and coming my way.

" Noooooooooooooooo"

I yelled and ran to the living room and into the kitchen where lilly is preparing breakfast. I hide behind her " lilly please save me from zayreen, I think she had gone mad or something, she is tickling me" I said pleading.

" Zayyyyyyy, stop this now if not we are gonna leave you here and we will go to uni without you," lilly said hands on her hips and frowning.

" No need to threaten lilly, I am going to stop anyways," she said while pouting like a child.

" Good, now go and get ready you take more time than us to get ready," lilly said while smirking.

" You guys are evil, I am not talking to you both for two minutes," Zay said like a drama queen stomping her feet and going into her room.

" She is such a drama queen," lilly said laughing.

" That she is," I said laughing with her.

After our drama session in the morning ( note my sarcasm) we got ready, ate our breakfast, and getting ready to take off to the university.

I am currently sitting on the couch wearing my usual attire consists of high-waisted jeans and a hoody with boots and some accessories. Clutching my bag to my chest. I am drowning in my unnecessary thoughts and insecurities waking my demons in my head and they are clawing minds to free them and wanted to wreck me. I started doubting myself and the decision I took which is to come here and took admission to New York University. Planting insecurities in my head like what people think of my outfit, what my classmates think of me, what if I don't belong here, is everyone going to judge me? Bully me if I do something wrong? What if I am judged because of my style? My demons are pulling me towards the dark hole which exists in my head and making me degrade myself and wanna stop me from moving on and doing something good with my life. These negative thoughts are gonna mess with my life and I am gonna miss this opportunity that life gave me. So, I am not gonna let my doubts, insecurities win. I am gonna leave them behind and move forward towards the light. I am gonna come out from that dark hole where my demons are whispering to me to come back but now I am not gonna listen to them.

" Come to the earth scar," Zay said while moving her hand in front of my face.

" Stop it scar," I said with a scowl.

" Hey, what's with that scowl scar. Are you getting cold feet because this is our first to uni? Zay asked.

I nodded and dropped my head.

" Hey hey. Don't be scared or get a nervous scar. I know how you are feeling and to be honest I am scared more than you. Do you know why?

Zay asked me and I nodded no.

" Because back in turkey throughout my school life I got bullied because of my red hair but I always fought back because I know that they are just jealous of my hair and they envy me that's why they bullied me. People who judge you are just jealous of you because they can't have what we have. So get up and smile big. Today is our first to the New York University and we are gonna rock" she said while clapping her hands and jumping with a big grin.

Seeing Zay and listening to her made me relieve and somewhat confident.

I can do it I repeated this in my head through our journey to the uni.

We took Zay's car to the uni because she has a shiny red Porsche and we want to make a grand entry to our first day is what says words are.

After getting off from the car and entering uni's corridor we met with few glances but nothing like high school. We took our schedules and went to a seminar hall. There is a seminar which consists of welcoming new students to the university.

Throughout the seminar, we three sat beside each other and listened to the dean who is telling us about the university and the professors.

Seminar took 2 hours to complete. After that, we went to our separate classes.

I had 3 classes after the seminar and we all have classes in the morning session only so we have plenty of time to do anything we want to do in that time.

I am gonna find a job to pay bills and for my other necessities. I don't have to worry about money because my dad gonna send money to my account but I want to bear my expenses on my own I want to work and study. I want to take responsibility.

After our classes, we went to our apartment.

" I am dead tired," lilly said while laying on the couch like a starfish.

" Yeah me too," Zay said sitting on the kitchen table while sipping water.

I just nodded my head and sighed.

" So how are your classes and your professors," I asked lilly and Zay.

" They are good and already there is a lot to learn and store that in your brain," said lilly exasperating.

" Awww poor thing" Zay cooed from the kitchen with a pout.

" Anyways I don't have much work to do. I just have to use my creative skills and that's it" Zay said with her hands waving like a magician.

" Seriously Zay do you think you are a magician? With just a flick of a finger you are gonna finish everything" lilly said with a raised brow.

" Who knows maybe I, am," Zay said again waving hands like something is there in her hands and waving in front of Lilly's face.

" Stop it Zay or else I am gonna threw a bucket of water on you and drain all your magic powers," lilly said evilly.

" Oh no please don't do that lilly. How am gonna live without magic? Zay said dramatically removing fake tears from her eyes.

" Will you guys please stop your drama? If you two gonna continue any longer I am gonna hit my head to the wall. I said seriously folding my arms. But I am dying to control my laugh because of their antics.

" Oh, no scar please don't leave us. We can't live without you please" Zay and lilly both say while coming away to hug me.

" Oh my God! You two are seriously such a drama Queens. Will you two please stop it I am gonna die laughing this hard" I said while laughing.

Soon they joined me and started laughing aloud. " Seriously guys you two are such a drama Queens and who talk like that magic and all. Seriously! I said while laughing with them.

" Whatever but it makes us laugh that is the main point here," lilly said while getting off from the floor where we are rolling and laughing.

" Yes guys it makes us laugh and we are relieved from the uni's stress which we are feeling when we came back from the uni. And laughing is good for our health. Zay said like a therapist.

" Yes yes, it is," I said while sitting on the couch from the ground.

" Okay guys, what are you guys gonna eat? Tell me I am going it make it" lilly yelled from the kitchen.

Zay and I yelled spaghetti at the same time.

We looked at each other and laughed again like children.

" Okay, then spaghetti gonna be prepared by the chef," lilly said adjusting her imaginary chef cap on her head.

" Can you please make it quick chef?" Zay asked loud?

" You have to wait zay because this chef takes her time to make a delicious and mouthwatering spaghetti" lilly says while tying her apron.

" Okay then we will wait chef," Zay said turning on the TV.

" Ummmmm it tastes so good lilly," Zay said licking her fingers which had sauce.

"Yep, I never had this tasty spaghetti before. Where did you learn to make this? I asked while taking my last bite.

" My nana she taught me this and she taught me most of her dishes. She is an Italian so she knows how to cook and I begged her to taught me and to share with her all the secret recipes and ingredients" Zay said with a laugh.

After cleaning the kitchen and washing dishes we went to the living room to watch a movie before going to bed.

Zay selected a random chick flick and we laughed and dubbed it in our version by preparing random lines and mimicking the characters. We had a lot of fun and I laughed so much today which I hadn't done in the past two years.

This moment is giving me hope that everything is gonna be okay and I am gonna be okay and happy. If something happens these two people who have become my real close friends will be gonna there for me. It gives me hope for the future and makes me believe in something good.