CIANA
“It was just a coincidence. It’s not that, the person behind that text knows everything.” I was mumbling while heading to the library. It will be very impossible if he is here. How can a person predict?
My jaw drops when I see him right away just by entering the door. He rolls the book's cover holding it by one hand and leaned on the chair. The book is blocking his face now. It doesn't seem like he noticed me sitting in front of him. I placed my satchel on my lap.
The book has taken over his world. It's how I see it. He is reading something about parallel universe, it’s what I can see from the rolled page.
I lean closer so he could hear me perfectly.
“Do you believe in a parallel universe?”
He close the book that he’s been reading this whole time and create a distance between us. Well, maybe he is reminding me that we are not acquainted. I lean back from the table that’s separating us. I wryly smile while he is looking at me like I am an annoying creature that approaches random strangers. Oh well, it’s partially right, or absolutely.
“Well, do you?” he ask me back with his cold expression unchanging.
Do I?
I give him a shrug. He looks irritated by my answer, and ignored me. The book is open again by his hand and gives his attention back to the book.
Okay. I did talk to him. Wait. Am I fulfilling things that the sender failed to do?
I crossed my arms and stared at the back of the book that this guy is reading.
Why would someone want to talk to someone as cold as him? And worse make memories?
I studied him for a while.
His wavy brown hair is messed up, but he still looks good with it. He wears dark colors. Maybe it reflects something about his deep psychology. He doesn’t look like a murderer or anything, and he seems like he’s been deprived of human emotions. He looks blank and empty, but it makes him interestingly mysterious.
“Parallel universe ha,” I mumble.
I leaned close again. “So, tell me. If I do believe them, will you talk to me?” He remained as is just like a rock unmoved and seemed like he is not planning to waste his time talking to me. I move back again with a sigh.
Why am I even putting myself in this kind of stuff? I do sound like a desperate woman thirsty for his attention.
I am about to give up, but something inside me is making me stay and stare at him some more. The text is quite giving me the impression that whoever that person is, she is sincere for those wishes.
I went home as soon as my last subject dismissed. I commute to work and get back home at 10 PM. I am not tired, and I still can’t sleep, so I decided to open my phone. I remember the other phone fast, so I also take it. Search for new models of phones, new releases in all brands, but there is nothing similar to it. I also try taking its photo and use it to search more, but still no related results.
The phone is thin, and I think the battery is built-in. It has several cameras at the back, and it’s much bigger than the existing phone I have. It has an existing charger, too, I lately noticed.
Now, this oddity is somehow inviting some attention.
Before I could drown into deep thoughts, I accidentally touch the camera. I move the phone to capture some parts of my room, but the phone seems broken. My room looks old and abandoned on it though it’s actually not in reality.
I switch the camera and see myself with much longer hair, and what scares me there is the baby bump I had on the camera. I switch the camera again to the back and try to roam around. Some things here are gone, including my phone. I film my hand and see a dazzling wedding ring on it. I cannot touch it when I try.
I press the home button and place the phone away from me.
I wake up late the next morning. Before I go down the stairs, the phone steals my attention again. I place it in my bag. I am planning to use it for something. I am at school late, as expected, for waking up late. No text message today, I guess.
“Hey! Ciana,” It’s Jethro. “Exactly what time do you walk to school? I can’t seem to guess. I could give you a free ride every day. Oh! Why don’t you just text me?” He is walking as fast as I a in the hallways.
“Let’s talk later, I am super late.”
“Okay.” He slows down, so he is now far behind me. I suddenly remember the phone. I stop and take it. After I open the camera, Jetroe looks like he is a successful man on it. With a black suit perfectly tailored for him, and a different haircut, he looks more mature. He looks more serious and focused. It seems like life takes him far, but he ends up not that happy. I look at the present Jethro that I know. I just wonder, what happens next that changed him as such.
I hide it back when I realize he is staring at it, and so I run away.
Now I have my last target, Airo. When the subject is dismissed, I immediately tail him while setting up the phone to the camera. I want to see what he will look like. This phone’s camera is like a mirror to the future.
Also, I actually got married? And who was the guy? My moon?
I position the phone to his back while I am still following him and is puzzled. He is gone from the camera. The camera can’t see him.
What does this mean?
CIANAAugust 1803I wish I never invited him to Jetroe’s party. Something happened.The message is surprisingly very short today. I feel a little bit tired since I only sleep like 4 hours. I got eventually drowned by crazy thoughts. At the same time, my head is too slow to figure things out. Now the thing that’s bothering me most, is the thought about the future. Airo won’t probably make it there. Does it mean, the sender lives in the future and she knows what will actually happen next?The sender, is she my future self?
CIANA“No. You can’t!” Everyone in the library looks at me. “Sorry.”I grab his hand pulling him outside. I can feel how people stare at us. Jealousy and anger has filled the library’s atmosphere. I immediately let go of him before he thinks I am such a crazy stranger who approaches him, grabs him like this as if we already had an exchange of names and are acquainted. We are outside now and I don’t want to be slaughtered or murdered at this young age.“You can’t go.”
CIANAHe is back wearing his blank expression when he guides me inside his house. The house is huge and luxurious with dominant white paint. It is two-storey and has a wide area outside with a swimming pool and a garden. I see three different luxurious cars and fountains too.I feel like a walking trash between bundles of gold. My black shirt and black jeans are too simple for this place. I look at Airo’s back when he halts in front of his brother’s coffin. He is a lucky guy born in such a family but he seems like being left alone and is dead with emotions. But now, I can see he is not that dead inside his heart. He is wearing a mask, I presume.I s
CIANAAugust 2607He went to the library again. We talked a bit but later he went home so I tailed him. His black car stopped at an ice cream parlor so I also asked the taxi to stop. No sign of Airo stepping out of his car and just racing so suddenly. Some people complained. I feel like he is not in a perfect mood now so I went home straight. If only we are close, I might have done something crazy with him. I’ve always wished to try and make him laugh.“Ciana! Why didn’t you text me?” I hide the phone in my
CIANAA figure of a woman with full make up wearing different colors of body con dress, is the image I can recall about my biological mom. I see her drink, smoke and bring random men almost every night. I was five back then and I don’t understand things that much. She laughs with them, but never with me. I can’t even remember if we had a conversation.I thought it's what mothers normally do, but when I see the outside world, I realize it's not. My mother is not one of those typical parents and she does not have a single man for her life.She ignores me all the time and leaves me in the hous
CIANANo matter how many times I go back to see myself in the mirror, my eyes really look horribly swollen. I take my make up kit again and try putting some more concealer. I noticed the photo my mom left at my door last night. My siblings that I never met before are in that photo. I never knew I had four other siblings plus that Shawn I met yesterday.“Ciana!” I hurriedly pick all my things and put them inside my satchel, when I hear Jethro’s voice slowly becoming audibly near. There he knocks.“It’s open.”
CIANA“What are you doing here? I sent you a text last night, right? I have changed my plans.” My arms are crossed while looking at Jethro in front of my room. He is so early and is wearing his crazy smile with him. His two hands landed on my shoulders and pushed me inside.“Well whatever it is, I want to be part of it.” He barges in and I can’t even stop him. He is too strong.“Okay fine.”
CIANAAugust 2909Airo was alone today but I only talked to him a little. I was very happy I finally had the courage to talk about things with him. If he only sees me as a friend, I might have a chance to go out with him somewhere. I just realized I have wasted a lot of time relying with luck and fate. Who would ever think I won’t be seeing him someday.Rereading the last sentence twice, my eyebrows furrow as I slowly put my hands down. I remove the blanket cover
(THE FINALE)CIANAI can’t help but drink the 2nd mug of coffee empty and massage my temple. Jethro is giving me headaches again. How did I end up working with him, fusing our companies? I put down all the papers I’ve been checking this whole time. Resting my back at the swivel chair, the view outside the building caught my attention. It’s as beautiful as always, taking half of my stress away from my body.The stars are bright tonight surrounding the moon. An image of a man immediately took over the view which made me blink my eyes fast to erase him in front of my eyes.“Ciana.” That’s David, he’s a suitor. He always barges in easily. I moved to turn the chair to him.“What brought you here again Mr. Sanchez?”“You know I’m here for you.” My eyes rolled. His voice is annoying me and I hate his guts. I rejected him many times already but he is still as hard as a rock trying to get me.“Stop this David or I’ll have no choice but ban you,” I said without even bothering to look at him.“Ye
JETHROAnother Alternate Universe…
JETHRO“She’s locking herself in her room,”
CIANAI missed his cold stares, his natural blank expression on the face. His light brown eyes meeting mine making my heart always flutter. My face is in a state of shock and I’m even unaware a
CIANAI woke up the next day in the same position and my body ached a lot with my arm numb. My mom is busy doing something, preparing the food she brought. The hospital gives me food but she is still doing
CIANAThe doctor explained about it but I don’t care. That simple movement is strengthening my hopes that I will see him one day opening his eyes and I want the first person he sees when he opens the
CIANAHis hand is not the same. They are lifeless and cold now. I can’t move my hand well but I can feel him. Airo is beside me, with eyes closed and body plastered like a mummy. Jethro is still looking at me, at us. He looks happy just like everyone e
JETHROI swallow my own saliva trying to utter a word but my mouth is just halfway open and doesn’t know where to start. I can’t say goodbye yet. I can still wait for another five years.
JETHROWhen did my life start to look like this? These white walls look dark and gloomy. None of these are unacceptable. I’ve waited for years for them to at least give a sign that they are awake. I