CIANA
August 26
07
He went to the library again. We talked a bit but later he went home so I tailed him. His black car stopped at an ice cream parlor so I also asked the taxi to stop. No sign of Airo stepping out of his car and just racing so suddenly. Some people complained. I feel like he is not in a perfect mood now so I went home straight. If only we are close, I might have done something crazy with him. I’ve always wished to try and make him laugh.
“Ciana! Why didn’t you text me?” I hide the phone in my bag right away. Jethro is making his way towards me and he looks a bit furious.
“S-Sorry. I--”
“I want to ride to school every school day with you.” I look at him and laugh a bit. He looks funny when he is in a bad mood. “Don’t look at me like that. Why are you in the parking lot anyways? ”
I noticed a black car which had just arrived.
“Uhh-- Jethro, you should go along. I’m going with him.” I point at Airo.
“What? I came here first.” He is obviously irritated and is complaining.
“But we are classmates.” I walk away from him.
“Hey Airo!” He looks at me with his cold eyes. If we haven’t talked before, I will feel bad. His blank face seems normal to me now.
“Hey.” He starts walking with me. I wanted to say something but I lost words, so we ended up walking to the room all silent.
Sitting beside Sarah, I lazily put my bag in the front and plunge my face on it with my two arms hanging down. I just thought I could be closer to him by communication but I can’t seem to find words to start a conversation. It’ll be weird to ask him if he is okay because it is obviously not. I am not that dumb.
“Are you okay?” Sarah asks me, so I show her a thumb up with my left hand.
“Excuse me, Ciana.” I lift my head to see who is talking. He is one of my male classmates, but I can’t recall his name. I smile at him and it seems like he finds me weird.
“Why?”
“Airo asked me if we could exchange seats.” My system becomes a hundred percent charged. A very swift reflex by my feet standing up startles them both, Sarah and the guy. I grab my bag right away with no hesitations.
“No problem.”
Before I could take my first step, Sarah stopped me by holding my shirt. I look at her.
“Are you two going out?” She asks with such a confused face. A hostile look on her face erases my smile.
I shake my head a little. “No.” It’s a simple answer not needing any other interpretation but she grips tighter and looks at me intently. She is trying to read if I am telling the truth.
“Can you let go of my shirt?” She let go at last. I can feel her gaze following me until I am seated. I feel like being stabbed by glares from the back.
“Did you have trouble?” Airo is asking as if it isn’t obvious. I try fixing my wrinkled shirt but it can’t be fixed so I let it be.
“Why do girls like him?” I murmur and look at him busy on his phone.
“Did you say anything?”
“Nothing. Why do you want me to sit here, next to you?” He stops poking his phone and gives me his whole attention. His action kinda feels weird.
“You told me I can, if I want.”
“Ha?”
“Just sit beside me. Stop asking.” Now he ignores me and never tries talking to me until the subject is dismissed. We walk to the library together after the second subject to do some quick study for the next possible topics. Then after a few moments, he is reading the book on parallel universes again.
“You really like that book, ha.”
“Yeah. I am so interested about the nature of time. How it works and how is it connected with the parallel universe.”
Time?
“I am a blank paper.” I raise both of my hands in surrender. He looks at me confused.
“What?”
“I mean, I have nothing to say.” He continues reading so I put my hands down and stare at him. He glances at me so I smile and open my book. Time seems to fly fast even when we are just sitting there, silent and reading books. I never have done this before. Jethro is not unto books so we do something else.
I never knew books are this interesting.
I smile at my thoughts and look at Airo again. After a few minutes more, he drove me in his car. I suddenly remembered my best friend. I immediately pull my phone from my pocket and send him a message.
Message sent.
The car stops so I check what’s going on. Nothing is in the front.
Ice cream parlor.
I look outside to prove that I’m right with my instinct. Yes, it is indeed an ice cream parlor. This place must be reminding him for something important and worth reminiscing.
“This is where my mom always takes me.” I hear him say in his low voice. I look at him. His face is the same but his eyes are telling something else. Pain is written there and he can’t deny it from me. I open the car door and pull him out.
“What are you doing? This place is only for kids.” I didn’t listen to him.
“Shut up! I’m still a kid.” We are finally inside. The pastel colors of violet, pink, orange and white are so cute. I took a picture of the place full of little kids eating their ice cream. I also steal photos of him looking a bit rosy and is trying to cover the camera.
I just realize he is cute when embarrassed. He tries pulling me to get out of the place but he only fails all the time. The kids are looking at us, their moms too. I just smile at them.
“Come on, what do you want to order?” I excitedly ask him. A woman mid-30’s is patiently waiting for the order. I feel his warm hand all sweaty when he tries pulling my hand.
“Okay. I’ll do it. Two ube--”
“Strawberry.” A low tone, deep voice cuts me off which makes me bite my lip to stop myself from laughing.
“Strawberry flavor for two.” I tilt my body to him and cranes my head up to look at him. He averts his gaze to the side. “I didn’t know you like pink,” I whisper. He turns his back.
He sits on a chair near a window. A woman comes in tightly holding her son’s hand. Her presence is enough for me to feel my stomach drop. I know her.
“Mom?” I utter.
CIANAA figure of a woman with full make up wearing different colors of body con dress, is the image I can recall about my biological mom. I see her drink, smoke and bring random men almost every night. I was five back then and I don’t understand things that much. She laughs with them, but never with me. I can’t even remember if we had a conversation.I thought it's what mothers normally do, but when I see the outside world, I realize it's not. My mother is not one of those typical parents and she does not have a single man for her life.She ignores me all the time and leaves me in the hous
CIANANo matter how many times I go back to see myself in the mirror, my eyes really look horribly swollen. I take my make up kit again and try putting some more concealer. I noticed the photo my mom left at my door last night. My siblings that I never met before are in that photo. I never knew I had four other siblings plus that Shawn I met yesterday.“Ciana!” I hurriedly pick all my things and put them inside my satchel, when I hear Jethro’s voice slowly becoming audibly near. There he knocks.“It’s open.”
CIANA“What are you doing here? I sent you a text last night, right? I have changed my plans.” My arms are crossed while looking at Jethro in front of my room. He is so early and is wearing his crazy smile with him. His two hands landed on my shoulders and pushed me inside.“Well whatever it is, I want to be part of it.” He barges in and I can’t even stop him. He is too strong.“Okay fine.”
CIANAAugust 2909Airo was alone today but I only talked to him a little. I was very happy I finally had the courage to talk about things with him. If he only sees me as a friend, I might have a chance to go out with him somewhere. I just realized I have wasted a lot of time relying with luck and fate. Who would ever think I won’t be seeing him someday.Rereading the last sentence twice, my eyebrows furrow as I slowly put my hands down. I remove the blanket cover
CIANA“I saw it.” I insist and stand in front of him. He stops walking and looks at me. “I can’t remember.” He is still denying it. My brain can still vividly remember that smile I saw yesterday. I cross my arms.No matter how hard I try, he always has the same monotone answer.“What’s the big deal? Ha?” His face slowly forced down and moved closer to me. My heart flutters as my stomach feels like being invaded by some butterflies. His eyes are fixed on me and the
CIANAToday, it’s Jethro who took me home. I started feeling nervous again when his car left. Today, I’m going to meet the phone’s owner. It bothers me that she knows this place. We talked last night where to meet and it’s weird she knows a lot.If I can actually see her now, that will only mean I am just crazy for thinking she is me from the future. I laugh nervously and step inside my room. It is still a bit early so I decided to paint something in order to kill the time. I started putting some colors on my palette and sitting in front of the canvass.A deep sigh escaped from me, realizing I don’t know what to paint today. I’m
CIANA“Hey! Class is dismissed.” I went back to my senses. Airo is waving his hand in front of my face. I hurriedly take my things off the desk and put them inside my bag. “You seem bothered.” He continues, dropping his hand.The thought about last night has eaten me up in the whole class period. I didn’t get any answer since she hung up after I asked him about her husband.“No. I just didn’t get a good sleep last night.”
CIANA“It’s party night, you should go this time.” Jethro’s excited face is the first thing I saw this morning, the moment I opened my door.“In one condition.”“Spill it.”“Invite Airo.” His face automatically went blank and his smile faded fast. “If you can’t, I’m not going.” He stops the door from closing.“Why do I have to talk to that sh-- gu
(THE FINALE)CIANAI can’t help but drink the 2nd mug of coffee empty and massage my temple. Jethro is giving me headaches again. How did I end up working with him, fusing our companies? I put down all the papers I’ve been checking this whole time. Resting my back at the swivel chair, the view outside the building caught my attention. It’s as beautiful as always, taking half of my stress away from my body.The stars are bright tonight surrounding the moon. An image of a man immediately took over the view which made me blink my eyes fast to erase him in front of my eyes.“Ciana.” That’s David, he’s a suitor. He always barges in easily. I moved to turn the chair to him.“What brought you here again Mr. Sanchez?”“You know I’m here for you.” My eyes rolled. His voice is annoying me and I hate his guts. I rejected him many times already but he is still as hard as a rock trying to get me.“Stop this David or I’ll have no choice but ban you,” I said without even bothering to look at him.“Ye
JETHROAnother Alternate Universe…
JETHRO“She’s locking herself in her room,”
CIANAI missed his cold stares, his natural blank expression on the face. His light brown eyes meeting mine making my heart always flutter. My face is in a state of shock and I’m even unaware a
CIANAI woke up the next day in the same position and my body ached a lot with my arm numb. My mom is busy doing something, preparing the food she brought. The hospital gives me food but she is still doing
CIANAThe doctor explained about it but I don’t care. That simple movement is strengthening my hopes that I will see him one day opening his eyes and I want the first person he sees when he opens the
CIANAHis hand is not the same. They are lifeless and cold now. I can’t move my hand well but I can feel him. Airo is beside me, with eyes closed and body plastered like a mummy. Jethro is still looking at me, at us. He looks happy just like everyone e
JETHROI swallow my own saliva trying to utter a word but my mouth is just halfway open and doesn’t know where to start. I can’t say goodbye yet. I can still wait for another five years.
JETHROWhen did my life start to look like this? These white walls look dark and gloomy. None of these are unacceptable. I’ve waited for years for them to at least give a sign that they are awake. I