The silence of the night that Bella hated arrived. Mother left later than scheduled. This afternoon her father called to ask about Mother. Bella said that Mother was out of town, and if it was according to schedule, she would come home late at night. Hearing that Father did not miss the opportunity to badmouth Mother."Not responsible!! Leaving the child at home alone.” Dad sounded emotional.“What kind of job requires an out-of-town service to stay overnight?! Didn't realize she was a woman who had two children! too workaholic!! To the point of neglecting children and husband.”Bella who heard this almost slammed the phone down. Father is not aware of himself. Judging Mother from the outside, shallow-minded. Can't Dad think with his senses? For a moment forget the problems between them to see with the eyes of the heart. That the woman he once loved at least, worked hard for his child too.That love will never return, but the proof of their love is still here. W
The first lesson begins. Bella avoided the teacher's gaze, not wanting to be questioned about her bandaged hand. Mrs. Rita is a counseling guidance teacher as well as Bella's homeroom teacher.To be honest, Bella didn't want to deal with her homeroom teacher as much as possible. Not because she is a killer, not even good. Bella called it too sharp, sharp in the sense of feeling. As a counseling teacher, Mrs. Rita's intuition is like reading a person's character. If Bella lingered with Mrs. Rita, she could see through Bella's heart and mind.Mrs. Rita's eyes were sharp, firmly ensnaring what she saw. Her words were firm, right on target. Moreover, her attitude seemed friendly but secretly prying everything from her interlocutor. Then by the time she attacked the opponent with what she managed to pick up, it was too late for the opponent to realize after all that had happened. Making goosebumps, Bella doesn't want to be Mrs. Rita's opponent or target.Bella can't deal with people like M
Today Bella is very tired but really fun. It would be nice if they could go together again. Bella put the photo taken earlier into the photo album. In the album are all the old photos. In the past few years, Bella has never taken a photo.Just look at this one photo, if she is not mistaken this photo was taken when their family attended a relative's wedding. And this photo when Bella was in elementary school, really made her miss those days.Bella's elementary school friends are almost all the female students in the class, and in other classes as well. Compact, always together until there are no secrets between them. She is grateful to have friends as well as a place for her to share stories if anything happens. She told everything to her friends, especially about Mom and Dad.At that time she was in fourth grade. Bella, who had just returned from the toilet, heard them talking about her. Bella suddenly stopped walking. She listened from where she was standing at th
Alec was waiting for Bella at the school gate that morning. Last night she got a lot of messages from him. It still has something to do with skipping school yesterday. Bella usually would try to avoid, looking for lies to make excuses. But is tired of all that, she will say it as it is. One lie will only give birth to another lie.Bella knew that Alec was upset and worried about her missing, not to mention skipping school. Plus her cellphone number can't be reached even though this one is unintentional. Alec tried not to use his anger to confront Bella.To avoid misunderstanding other people, Alec invited her to talk in a quieter place."Alec is a nice guy, too good for someone like me." thought Bella."Where were you yesterday? I went to your house because I thought you were sick.” Alec got straight to the point."I went for a walk," Bella answered half-heartedly."Go for a walk?!" Alec's tone rose.Of course, her answer irritated him, skipping scho
The atmosphere between Bella and Alec was heavy, she didn't talk to him all day. Maybe Bella was avoiding him. Bella's friends noticed the strangeness between her and Alec. Bella couldn't say she and him fought because of her own doing.In between the changing hours of the lesson, several female friends came to Bella's table."You and Alec are having a problem, aren't you?" Santy pulled her chair closer to Bella out of concern.“Right, we haven't seen you talk to Alec today at all. You guys are okay right?” A friend who sat opposite Bella joined in the conversation.“Did you avoid him or did Alec avoid you?”“Just say so if you want us to teach Alec a lesson. Has he done anything wrong?”One by one they stormed Bella with questions. All her friends offer to help make up with Alec but she refuses because this time Alec might be really angry.Bella and Alec are like a celebrity couple at school. The reason is that both Alec and Bella are TOP students i
"You know, I love you so much, Bella... After we fought I couldn't calm down, I thought a lot about our relationship.""I see, so you've made up your mind." Bella believed in her heart.“All this time I thought understood you more than anyone but it turns out I don't know you. I don't know anything about you. I didn't even realize that I couldn't accompany you when you had a problem. I'm sorry Bella..."“Never mind Alec, I understand. It's not your fault. You don't have to search for words. Just break up with me, I've prepared my heart for you to leave." Bella said still in her heart.Alec took the seat next to Bella again. But still can't look at her directly."Bella, I can't..." Alec said.Bella thought in her mind. "Can't date me anymore.""And I want to..." Alec said.Bella thought in her mind. "Want to break up with me."“I will put more effort into our relationship, give me one more chance!” Alec said hopefully."Attempted? Opportun
The roar of the fans echoed in the stadium. The audience gave their support to their mainstay team who was competing on the gridiron. This week the National High School League soccer match was held. Today's group B final match between Alec's school and the opposing school's team from countryside high school.The match entered the second half, the temporary position was the same for both teams. Alec scored the first goal to equalize in the 34th minute of the first half. Even though Bella couldn't give as much support as other supporters, she couldn't take her eyes off Alec's figure on the field. Bella's heart skipped a beat."Priiit!!" The referee's whistle sounded.Bella was shocked when an opposing team player violated Alec, now he is lying on the field. Teammates came over, checking on his condition. Supporters shouted protests. In anxious anticipation, Bella waited for Alec to get back upSeconds passed, and Alec was still lying on the ground holding his knee
For two weeks Alec is not allowed to play football or complete rest from strenuous activities and sports. He must be really bored and feeling down. The only thing Bella could do for Alec was comforted him.she made a schedule of events for two whole weeks. This is what is called wisdom in calamity. Bella wasn't supposed to be happy. But because Alec was injured, they were able to spend two whole weeks together. They were going out to play, to a watch movie at on cinema, to a date at a cafe, to a bookstore, she was impatient and too excited."I really don't deserve to be your girlfriend, I'm sorry Alec. I know very well you want to play soccer. But I'm too happy about this situation." Bella wept inwardly.Bella and Alec have an appointment at the bookstore. She is very careful in choosing what activities together they can do so as not to burden Alec's condition. For today, Bella's choice fell on her hobby of reading books.“I hope you don't misunderstand me, Alec
Bella and Alec have an appointment today. Coincidentally, their university announced it on the same day. Bella will go to university first to see the results, then go to high school to meet Alec.Bella's heart was beating fast, this was the same as when she announced the results of passing the exams at school. She pulled herself together and took a deep breath. Following the rhythmic heartbeat, feeling it with every breath.Bella's eyes followed each row of names on the sheets of paper posted on the bulletin board until her eyes finally found her name written there. Bella confirmed repeatedly that it was Bella's name and that she had been accepted."I did it!!"Not just stopping, Bella went back to reading looking for anyone from her school who was also accepted there, especially the names of her classmates. Some were accepted but they weren't the names of Bella's classmates. What can she do, hopes that her friends will be accepted at another university.Bel
Bella has also discussed dreams and aspirations with her friends. At that time Bella did not have any goals or dreams for the future. Every time that topic came up it would be a dilemma for her. At that time Bella will be more of a listener.“My wish is to leave the urban noise and live in the village. I want to live simply and enjoy the time.” Wendy's confession about her dream.“Indeed in the city, you can not do that. Live simply and enjoy your time.” Bella said."Can't at all. In the city, everything looks busy and time flies very fast. I want to enjoy my life for a long time.”“For me, I want to have a steady, stable, and guaranteed job in old age. In other words, civil servants." Bella said."Your dream is very simple." Wendy's comments."How about you Santy?" Bella asked."I? Hmm... I want to married young, had children, and lived happily together forever. Like my parents.""You don't want to have a career?" Bella is worried that her frien
Bella is still keeping the field of study she chose a secret when she applied to university. Bella had planned from the start that she would tell Mother if the chances of her being accepted were close to perfect. She has taken the entrance test but still hasn't received the results of the decision on whether she passes or not.From the entrance test that she took yesterday, Bella was actually able to predict and calculate the results. But her little heart said anything could happen, so Bella didn't want to be consumed by the confidence that could make her fall because of arrogance.What Bella wanted to say to Mom after the result announcement was in her hands. But to do that Bella still had to wait for another two weeks. Meanwhile, Mom and Jennie have been urging her to talk since Bella's graduation."Sis, you would tell me now or later what's the difference? What are you afraid of? Will Mother and I mock you if fail?!”"Don't say failure easily like that Jennie
A few months later.Today is Bella's last day as a high school student. Her last day at school, her last with friends. Today felt like an ordinary day as they were currently here still hanging out together as usual.Stay busy, laugh, and joke together with a cheerful atmosphere full of joy everywhere. Bella's classmates continue to do meaningless silliness. They also do not spare work for teachers.The graduation ceremony begins soon. The attendees of the ceremony, including the principal, teachers, school staff, parents, as well as third-grade students, and Bella, the main character who will be inaugurated after graduating from high school for three years, entered the event room today.A series of events ran smoothly until the speeches of the graduating students, where Bella was the representative. She had prepared this very well because Bella represented all the students who graduated today. She wants to convey well all the messages as well as the feelings of
During the exam period last few weeks Bella was unable to attend therapy sessions with Dr. Diane. This is their first meeting after spending a few weeks.Bella couldn't wait for it because she wanted to immediately share a story with Dr. Diane about her meeting and conversation with Dad that went very smoothly the last time. Also, she has some questions for Dr. Diane.What Bella didn't understand in her memory was that she had hated the shadows of the past. Memories of bad things in the past are etched clearly in the fragments of memories that she has. Memories that Bella wanted to forget and bury deep, at any cost until she almost lost her life.Now Bella was wondering why after meeting and talking with Dad, she could easily accept all of Dad's explanations. The anger, hatred, and disappointment that she had always believed she had for Dad vanished like air.Bella begins to doubt her childhood memories, whether the fragments of memories recorded and stored so f
On the first day, Bella went to volunteer, Mrs. Rita's words crossed her mind. On the day Mrs. Rita delivered the information she promised, she said to Bella. "Your personal opinion would be very suitable to do this volunteer activity, Bella."Mrs. Rita handed over a pamphlet about an invitation to volunteer from a social institution.“I have more or less heard about what happened to you. Of course, only a few people from the school know about this, I can guarantee that.”Bella never really told her friends the real reason behind her absence from school. What her friends know is that Bella is seriously ill and has to be hospitalized.“You will learn more about the PFA. Moreover, I feel that you will be able to empathize sincerely from your heart. Because after all, you've been in the same situation.”Mrs. Rita smiled warmly. “If you can overcome it, then you are also able to help others. Understand their condition and situation.”To hear honest comments
Bella was still awake but Mother didn't notice because she was sleeping facing the other way from the bedroom door. Bella used to sleep with the bedroom lights turned off. Mother thought she was fast asleep.Unlike usual, Mom usually only came to Bella's door to look and then left. Mother stepped in and sat down beside Bella's bed. Bella could feel the soft caress of her hair, but she still intends to sleep accompanied by a soft, loving caress from Mother. Then she started to hear Mother sobbing."Why is Mom crying?" Though Bella hesitated between pretending to be asleep or turning to look at Mom.Mom wouldn't want Bella to see her cry. But Bella couldn't help herself because she really couldn't stand to see Mother cry. Every drop of Mother's tears felt heavy for her, especially if the tears fell because of her."Mother... Why? What happens? Did Mom cry because of me?" Bella thought."Mother..." Called Bella turned to look at her."Oh Bella, I'm sorry I
Alec walked out of Bella's house. The original plan that was supposed to go with his girlfriend was finally canceled. Alec has free time that makes him confused about how he should spend it. Alec didn't want to stay with Bella for long, thus preventing her from resting."Brother Alec, you here. Didn't you go with Sister?" Asked Jennie who passed in front of the house with Alec."Yeah, your sister doesn't feel well. But she's fine, don't worry.""Thank you for taking care of my sister, Brother."Jennie had never spoken directly to either Alec or Bella about how happy she was to hear that they were back together. But before that happened Jennie always felt sure they couldn't let go of each other.Alec smiled. "I have to go now..."“Be careful on the road. Ah! Big brother waits—" Jennie stopped Alec from leaving.Alec stopped walking and turned to look at Jennie again. "Yes, why?""That, umm I..." Jennie looked doubtful."What is it? Just say it
Someone told Bella that Mrs. Rita was waiting for her in the counseling room. Now Bella doesn't have to worry about meeting Madam Rita. She had time to discuss with Dr. Diane about her counseling teacher.Doctor Diane tells Bella many things and opens her narrow-minded about the world and the work of a psychologist. Doctor Diane explained as if she really understood Mrs. Rita even though they didn't know each other and had never met before.Bella wants to apologize for all her actions and bad attitude so far. As Dr. Diane said, Bella misjudged Mrs. Rita, unable to understand her good intentions in wanting to help Bella. Only the approach of Dr. Diane and Madam Rita is different, it is very clear because they are different people too."Sorry for my attitude all this time Ma'am, and thank you for never giving up on me," Bella said, looking down in shame."I'm okay Bella, I accept your apology." Mrs. Rita smiled while drinking her hot tea.Bella and Mrs. Rita's