I stared blankly at the wall for how many minutes now. Hindi ko alam kung ano pa rin ang mararamdaman ko ngayon.My heart swelled inside of my chest. I kept on holding back my tears but I don't think I can do it now.Tears pooled my eyes. My heart was still heavy. The agony building up inside of me has slowly consumed me.Okay naman ako ng mga nagdaang taon e, kinaya ko naman ng wala siya. Bakit na naman ako nagkaka-ganito dahil sa kanya? Nakaka-tangina lang! I glanced at the time in my phone. It's already three in the morning. Mas lalo kong kinagulat ang ilang missed calls galing kay kuya.They're definitely worried about my whereabouts. Siraulo kasi 'to si Brent!"Kuya." bungad ko nang masagot ko ang tawag."Yna? Nasaan ka na? Saan ka dinala ng gagong 'yan ha?" sunod sunod na tanong ni kuya."Nasa Tagaytay kami. But, kuya don't worry I can manage.""Siguraduhin mo lang, Yna, baka 'pag bumalik ka na naman dito sa Manila para ka namang asong ulol diyan sa gagong 'yan."I heaved a deep
Inis kong nilagay sa basurahan ang bulaklak galing sa table ko. "Puta." I cursed under my breath. Hindi talaga titigil ang lalaking 'yun hanggang sa hindi niya makuha ang gusto niya."Sa susunod pakiusap paki-tapon na lang 'tong mga bulaklak na 'to ah?""Hay naku, Yna. Hindi mo mapipigilan 'yan. Look at how persistent he is, ako na lang ang naawa e." Sinamaan ko ng tingin si Ricardo.I squeezed my temple. Ikinalampag ko ang sling bag ko. Ang aga aga, nagsimula na naman ang hinayupak na 'yun.Well, for several weeks now he kept on sending me flowers, chocolates and notes. Kahit walang pangalan ng sender, sino pa bang magpapadala nun? Siya lang naman.Kakatapos lang ng construction. It earned me a good reputation in the company. Hindi na kami nagkikita ni Brent, he's busy with his work overseas. That's great, anyways. I could live freely without any pest.I am also having the best time of my life since no one's bugging me. Peace is at my back.I took a glimpse on the clock. Since, I bec
"Shit! I'm excited naaaa!" Ricardo raised his hands in the air as we stepped out in the airplane and landed in El Nido, Palawan. Here we go! We were all dressed with our summer outfits."Let's gooo!" Kanina pa hinahawakan ni Ayesha ang mahaba niyang summer dress na tinatangay ng hangin.Good thing, I wore only a cropped top and a high waist maong shorts.Hindi na sumama si Asher dahil may aasikasuhin daw siya.Ricardo brought his gwapo boyfriend with him. When I say, gwapo he really looked like a European model with his features. Shit! Where did Ricardo get that guy?"Hoy, mata mo! Kanina mo pa pinagdidiskitahan ang boyfriend ko!" hasik ni Ricardo. Inirapan ko lang siya."Aba, babe o." pabebe niyang pagsumbong sa boyfriend niya na hindi ko alam ang pangalan."I'm Gregory by the way." He extended his hand for a shake. Ricardo looked at me with his disapproving look. As if naman, I'll snatch his boyfriend from him. I smiled and accepted his shake."Yna," tipid kong sabi bago pinuntahan
"Yna..." marahang tapik niya sa braso ko habang nakatalikod pa rin ako sa kanya. This is the first time we'll be sleeping together for God's sake!I didn't reply as my eyes were still open. I bit hardly my lower lip."Yna..." Tawag niyang muli sa akin."Yna..." malalim at maawtoridad niyang tawag kaya lumingon ako sa kanya. He cupped my face as he looked at me with the intense stares of his eyes giving me. I felt caged with the way his gaze locked on mine. His stares made my knees wobble. I couldn't help but mesmerize with the every inch of his face.The next thing I knew, I was sweating bullets. The aircon couldn't help the fire inside of me from igniting."Can you please just tell me if I did something wrong Yna? Hindi ko alam kung may nagawa ako. I find it hard to understand your actions. I feel like I'm always upsetting you, na bawat galaw ko mali para sa 'yo.." aniya."Hindi sa ganun--" I trailed off. "It's not your fault.""Then what?""Basta.. m-matulog na tayo." Kumunot ang no
It's been a week since the last encounter with kuya. Brent has been very sweet to me since then. Kalat na rin sa buong department na kami na.Hindi ko nga maisip na mangyayari pala talaga 'to na parte lang ng pangarap ko.We were holding hands as we were heading to our house. May binili raw siyang regalo kay kuya. Kanina ko pa nga siya tinatanong kung ano pero ayaw niya talaga.I could see Brent's effort to really please kuya. May pinagsamahan naman sila, sana iyon ang makita ni kuya, hindi lang 'yung galit niya.He stopped the engine. Naningkit naman ang mata nito nang tumingin sa akin. "I know what you're thinking, Yna but I won't tell it. Just wait and see." He even winked. What the hell? Ilang beses pa akong kumurap. Nang bumaba siya, sumunod na rin ako.Hindi na kinagulat ni ate Bea nang makita kami. Nasanay na rin siya na lagi kaming magkasama na pumupunta rito. Sa totoo lang, hindi lang naman kay Brent galit si kuya. Sa akin din. Hanggang maaari, ayokong saktan si kuya. He's th
"Yna, look I'm sorry for what I said. It's my fault. But, don't get there Yna. Breaking up? Really? No, I won't allow that," matigas niyang saad. He looked frustrated and vulnerable."Magpahinga muna tayo, Brent. Minadali kasi natin lahat —""No, Yna okay naman tayo ah. Why are you insisting that? Okay, sige. Cool-off muna tayo kung gusto mo. I'll give you the time and space you need but please do not break up with me. Nandito na tayo.""I won't break up with you if you promise to tell me what you're up to these past few days. Hindi ako manghuhula, Brent." Tumahimik siya sandali."See? You can't tell it to me! Para saan pa at naging tayo?""Hindi sa lahat ng oras Yna sasabihin ko sa'yo ang pinagkakaabalahan ko. May buhay ko at hindi sa lahat ng oras alam mo ang bawat detalye ng buhay ko.""Fine, naiintindihan ko. Girlfriend lang naman ako, okay. I understand."Which means he doesn't trust me as much as I am to him."Yna naman..." he pleaded. I walked to my bedroom. Mabilis kong sinarad
Pagod akong humiga sa kama ko at niyakap ng mahigpit ang unan ko nang makarating ako sa apartment ko. I couldn't just get rid of Brent's face in my mind.How would I be able to say this to him? The last encounter we had was when I was drunk. He told me he didn't want to see me anymore.Paulit-ulit kasing rumerehistro sa utak ko ang usapan namin nila Hera. And it's killing me too much.Love is really destructive. It's either you destroy or you'd get destroyed.I needed to tell him this.The next morning came and I went to his place. I gathered my strength together as I was standing in front of his apartment. I heaved a great sigh before I pressed the button. Nangangatal pa rin ang aking kamay dahil sa kaba. Kagat ko pa rin ang labi ko. Nanghihina ang aking mga buto. Nanginginig ang tuhod ko.Pinindot ko muli at naghintay. Pero, wala siya. I wonder where he is now. I called his phone number but there was no response.I called Kuya Dexter's number, baka sakaling alam niya. Ilang beses ak
"H-Hi..." she said with a smile plastered on her face. It was a smile I've never seen from her. For some odd reasons, it felt genuine."H-Hello. Why are you here?" I managed to ask. I had to show her that it was fine. I didn't want her to know how terrified I was."Can we talk for a while?" she asked with her calm voice."Sure."We ended up in a coffee shop nearby. "I've been wanting to see you, Yna but I never got the courage to do it," panimula niya. She lowered her gaze and I saw her in pain while she was telling it go md. "You know, I'm sorry for what I did back then. I was just really pissed off at that time. I know this apology is a long over due but I wanted to say how sorry I was.""Okay lang, Danica. Nagmahal ka lang naman. Mali rin ako noon dahil alam kong nandoon ka pero pinili ko pa rin siya.""Yes, Brent was the only one I love. He was there for me whenever I need him. It was difficult for me to let him go especially when you came into the picture. I thought it was your