On the ride in he told me how proud he was of me. “Babe. I knew you had this promotion in the bag. Your work ethic alone sold you on it, and you are a kick ass assistant editor. The role has been yours.” He kissed my hand. “I know, I deserve this, I do. But , I can’t help but feel bad for Roger. He is really good too.” Roger was the guy I was up against. We were friends, but I am afraid he won’t want to speak to me when he finds out. “If he was a supportive friend Soph, then he will for sure understand. Wait until Monday and then give him a call.” He smiles at me. “But, for tonight and this weekend, lets just celebrate.” The restaurant was really busy, but this place is always busy. It’s one of the most popular restaurants in Boston. It doesn’t matter if it's Monday night or a Friday, this place is always busy. We got Valet, which I was thankful for. It started to rain on the way in and neither of us brought a coat. From the moment we sat down we were treated with
I barely slept, I couldn't stop thinking about the promotion and Elliot meeting my dad, me meeting his family. Today was going to be a big day. I am nervous and my stomach is totally feeling it, too. My nerves haven’t been this bad in almost ten years. The last time I felt this was when I was about to make my confirmation. I had to get up and say something, but in front of what seemed like 500 people. It wasn’t a good day that day. I took out my journal. I am trying to write a little each day even if it is one sentence. I lifted the pen and wrote some things. May 4th 2023 Life is moving in a direction that is foreign to me. I can’t believe I just landed this amazing job, I have an amazing boyfriend. My bestie is amazing, life is amazing. Here’s to an amazing day. Gosh, I am cheesy. Xoxo Soph. I look over at my phone and the clock it's not even five in the morning. “What the heck?” I said out loud. I throw the covers off of me, and I put my sneakers on. I throw on a
Elliot had a car service pick us up. He did not want to drive tonight and I don’t blame him. The car arrived at quarter past six. The party was about twenty minutes away at the Belmont Country Club. I was so nervous on the ride over, I just stared out the window the entire time. “It’s going to be fine, babe. I promise. They are all going to love you.” He grabs my hand and kisses it. We pull up and there are cars parking and people walking in. Elliot gets out and walks around and opens my door, and helps me out. He grabbed my left hand and each person he saw shook their hands quickly as we walked in. They smiled at me, and I exchanged it. This feeling was like something out of a movie scene. Elliot is the main character and I feel like the lights are just on him. Or maybe I am just captivated by his every move. We walked into this beautiful hall. The lights are dimmed, with warm white uplighting. There are about ten round tables outlining the dance floor. There
I Woke up in the middle of the night. Frantic and I was soaking wet with sweat. Another nightmare but this time I was being chased with a knife down an alley. A dark alley with trash all over the place. I was being chased by a dark figure. I couldn't see who it was. I was trying to find a way out and I got trapped. I noticed a big dumpster I could try to jump on and climb up onto the roof but I couldn't get up. I kept struggling and the dark figure kept getting closer, and the next thing I know I am sitting up in bed dripping. Elliot rolls over to bring close and realizes I am sitting up. He reaches up to bring me down and feels the dampness of my sweat. The entire side of the bed where I am is soaked. “Hey, what's going on Soph?” I switch on the lamp and I just lose it. I am crying, my head in my hands. “I have no idea, I had another nightmare.” I am trying to breathe, in through my nose, out through my mouth. He gets up and goes over to my dresser. Opens the dr
I didn’t feel really good about staying in my place alone, so I asked Elliot to crash here. We stopped at his place so he could just grab some things. When we got back to my apartment we ate and he went to shower. So I made some tea and took my journal to the couch and had some time with my thoughts. May 7th, 2023 It's strange to be writing in this while Elliot is showering. This weekend has been the most exciting for me. I finally introduced Elliot to Dad and Papa. They loved him, I could tell. It was so nice to sit and chat with them for a while. I don’t get over there as often as I should. So, I vow now to make it a point to make weekly visits. I got my promotion, so i will be getting a car and it will make it easier, not that public transportation or uber is hard, but yeah. Here I am making excuses. That is another goal, to get to my dads once a week. Even if I just pop by for an afternoon hello. Then, I met Elliot’s entire family well for the most part. I don’t
It’s a Tuesday morning, and I’m working from my favorite spot. A coffee shop around the corner from my apartment, Joe’s Cafe. This is where I get most of my work done when I am not in the office. As I start getting lost in a manuscript, he walks in. Have you ever seen someone and instantly felt this connection, almost like you have met before? Someone whose energy draws you in? It happened to me today, with him. Joe’s is where I escape into my work. I go there with my laptop and work on most days that I work from home, and most weekends. I love going there and escaping into my writing. To get lost in the manuscripts and to sip on espresso. I find it soothing to be able to watch people and get my work done. I get inspiration there. Whether I am reading a manuscript or working on my book. I absolutely love going to Joe’s. I found this coffee shop the day after Tyler broke my heart. Coming to Joe’s is a routine. It’s been something I’ve been doing almost every day for a
I met Emily later that day at the Sips Cafe around the corner from her and Owen’s studio. Although we live together, she has been preparing for her showcase. She is a really talented artist/ photographer, and her work is really amazing. I haven't had a chance to really talk to her much in a few weeks. Her and Owen have been working all day till really late getting ready, so she spends most nights at his place. It’s closer to the studio and just makes sense. I took an Uber to see her. The studio is in Arlington on Mass Ave. So I had them drop me off at the corner of the Cafe. I looked up and saw her walking down the street towards me. I suddenly had this urge to run to her, so I did. I finally reached her. I grabbed her and hugged her. “Oh I have missed you, I feel like it's been forever!” I was almost in tears. “It’s because it has been.” She was my safe place for a long time, and it felt like an eternity since I had last seen her. We have never gone this lo
The days went on, and there were no more sightings of mystery man. However, I did sort of change up my routine a bit. For the next week I went to Joe’s later, the gym later. By later, I mean at night. I purposely went incognito. He made me feel so good, just by being in his presence. That scared me a bit. I have literally had one boyfriend, and look how that turned out. I have built a wall around myself, and I did not know how to tear it down. By the following Monday I went back to my normal routine. The gym was what I missed the most. Getting in my early workouts really make for a great day. Maybe it was all in my head, but I really did feel like the day was much better with an early morning workout. Emily’s showcase has literally consumed her. I hadn’t really spoken to her outside our text since our lunch. Our daily texts consist of funny memes. I decided to call her and left her a long detailed message about how boring my life has been. And I couldn't wait for
I didn’t feel really good about staying in my place alone, so I asked Elliot to crash here. We stopped at his place so he could just grab some things. When we got back to my apartment we ate and he went to shower. So I made some tea and took my journal to the couch and had some time with my thoughts. May 7th, 2023 It's strange to be writing in this while Elliot is showering. This weekend has been the most exciting for me. I finally introduced Elliot to Dad and Papa. They loved him, I could tell. It was so nice to sit and chat with them for a while. I don’t get over there as often as I should. So, I vow now to make it a point to make weekly visits. I got my promotion, so i will be getting a car and it will make it easier, not that public transportation or uber is hard, but yeah. Here I am making excuses. That is another goal, to get to my dads once a week. Even if I just pop by for an afternoon hello. Then, I met Elliot’s entire family well for the most part. I don’t
I Woke up in the middle of the night. Frantic and I was soaking wet with sweat. Another nightmare but this time I was being chased with a knife down an alley. A dark alley with trash all over the place. I was being chased by a dark figure. I couldn't see who it was. I was trying to find a way out and I got trapped. I noticed a big dumpster I could try to jump on and climb up onto the roof but I couldn't get up. I kept struggling and the dark figure kept getting closer, and the next thing I know I am sitting up in bed dripping. Elliot rolls over to bring close and realizes I am sitting up. He reaches up to bring me down and feels the dampness of my sweat. The entire side of the bed where I am is soaked. “Hey, what's going on Soph?” I switch on the lamp and I just lose it. I am crying, my head in my hands. “I have no idea, I had another nightmare.” I am trying to breathe, in through my nose, out through my mouth. He gets up and goes over to my dresser. Opens the dr
Elliot had a car service pick us up. He did not want to drive tonight and I don’t blame him. The car arrived at quarter past six. The party was about twenty minutes away at the Belmont Country Club. I was so nervous on the ride over, I just stared out the window the entire time. “It’s going to be fine, babe. I promise. They are all going to love you.” He grabs my hand and kisses it. We pull up and there are cars parking and people walking in. Elliot gets out and walks around and opens my door, and helps me out. He grabbed my left hand and each person he saw shook their hands quickly as we walked in. They smiled at me, and I exchanged it. This feeling was like something out of a movie scene. Elliot is the main character and I feel like the lights are just on him. Or maybe I am just captivated by his every move. We walked into this beautiful hall. The lights are dimmed, with warm white uplighting. There are about ten round tables outlining the dance floor. There
I barely slept, I couldn't stop thinking about the promotion and Elliot meeting my dad, me meeting his family. Today was going to be a big day. I am nervous and my stomach is totally feeling it, too. My nerves haven’t been this bad in almost ten years. The last time I felt this was when I was about to make my confirmation. I had to get up and say something, but in front of what seemed like 500 people. It wasn’t a good day that day. I took out my journal. I am trying to write a little each day even if it is one sentence. I lifted the pen and wrote some things. May 4th 2023 Life is moving in a direction that is foreign to me. I can’t believe I just landed this amazing job, I have an amazing boyfriend. My bestie is amazing, life is amazing. Here’s to an amazing day. Gosh, I am cheesy. Xoxo Soph. I look over at my phone and the clock it's not even five in the morning. “What the heck?” I said out loud. I throw the covers off of me, and I put my sneakers on. I throw on a
On the ride in he told me how proud he was of me. “Babe. I knew you had this promotion in the bag. Your work ethic alone sold you on it, and you are a kick ass assistant editor. The role has been yours.” He kissed my hand. “I know, I deserve this, I do. But , I can’t help but feel bad for Roger. He is really good too.” Roger was the guy I was up against. We were friends, but I am afraid he won’t want to speak to me when he finds out. “If he was a supportive friend Soph, then he will for sure understand. Wait until Monday and then give him a call.” He smiles at me. “But, for tonight and this weekend, lets just celebrate.” The restaurant was really busy, but this place is always busy. It’s one of the most popular restaurants in Boston. It doesn’t matter if it's Monday night or a Friday, this place is always busy. We got Valet, which I was thankful for. It started to rain on the way in and neither of us brought a coat. From the moment we sat down we were treated with
The next morning was very uneventful. I worked, alot. Elliot was busy with meetings and I just wanted to crush my next manuscript. This promotion was coming up and I needed to get it. I am determined. If I nailed it, I would get promoted to head editor. I would get a contract that would help me out financially. It would help me pay off my student loans faster and be able to save, maybe get a car. Wait, I am definitely going to get a car. A little after noon Elliot got the call from his lawyer friend. He was going to write up a cease and desist letter to be served to Riley. She will be legally served papers to stop contacting us. If that does not stop her we may have to figure out the next steps. I don’t even want to think of that. I just want to go on living my life without her involvement. Elliot has slept here since we have gotten back from California. We will be on night three tonight. I enjoy it, it works. I know it’s the stage at the beginning of the re
Elliot took a ride to his parents house when we got back to the apartment. He asked if I wanted to go, but I decided tonight was just not the right time to meet them. I was tired, but wired and I just wanted to lounge in my tub for a while. That is exactly what I did. It was almost nine and I needed to just chill, so I lit some candles, put on the playlist Elliot made and turned the lights off. I needed to just decompress. It was magical. A nice romantic bath, alone. I checked my phone when I got out of the shower. I had a couple missed calls from an unknown call, a text from Elliot and two random voicemails. I check my text first. ELIOTT:: Hey just leaving my parents now, heading home. Wanna snuggle? ME: Absolutely, Just took the best bath. Changing your name to Els in my phone. ELS: Don’t take that towel off. I love you, be there soon. I laugh and check my voicemail. It’s just someone breathing heavily for a minute, and then “FUCK YOU BITCH” in the most creepi
We are sitting in the airport waiting to board the plane. Elliot is working on some things from his laptop and I am pretending to read a book. But, all I am thinking about is the last couple days. Yes, we decided to stay an extra two days. I finished my work and sent it in, and Elliot had a few zoom meetings he had to jump on, but the last two days were perfect. We ordered room service, barely leaving our room. We swam and had some drinks by the pool before our massage, but we stayed inside most of the time. We talked a lot about the craziness that happened. But relieved in a way. Elliot did confess he wanted to have kids, but obviously in a different situation. He talked a lot about his family, he loves them and I love him for loving them. He reminds me a lot of my dad. My dad is amazing. Really big on family and he taught me “You never go against the family. Loyalty is key.” That means some things you take to the grave. He wants me to meet his family, but in ord
The next day we ordered room service for breakfast and stayed in bed till after noon. We decided to stay an extra day. So it made the morning that much more relaxing. Around two I decided to go work by the pool for a bit, and Elliot went to get a workout in. Another perfect weather day. After a while I decided to walk to the gift shop in the Hotel. I wanted to bring Em back a little souvenir. Anytime one of us would ever go on vacation we would always bring a magnet or coffee mug back for each other. The farthest was Maine and Vermont. I got her a cute magnet with a Dolphin and the words San Diego on it, and a cute set of coasters. There were also these cute beer and wine openers and I saw a beer mug for Owen. Perfect little house warming gifts. I got the sudden urge to send them a text saying I missed them both. We have a group chat so I sent it there. ME: Hey guys! I miss you. I hope everyone is recovering ok. We have to come back here when you guys are better, t