We are sitting in the airport waiting to board the plane. Elliot is working on some things from his laptop and I am pretending to read a book. But, all I am thinking about is the last couple days. Yes, we decided to stay an extra two days. I finished my work and sent it in, and Elliot had a few zoom meetings he had to jump on, but the last two days were perfect. We ordered room service, barely leaving our room. We swam and had some drinks by the pool before our massage, but we stayed inside most of the time. We talked a lot about the craziness that happened. But relieved in a way. Elliot did confess he wanted to have kids, but obviously in a different situation. He talked a lot about his family, he loves them and I love him for loving them. He reminds me a lot of my dad. My dad is amazing. Really big on family and he taught me “You never go against the family. Loyalty is key.” That means some things you take to the grave. He wants me to meet his family, but in ord
Elliot took a ride to his parents house when we got back to the apartment. He asked if I wanted to go, but I decided tonight was just not the right time to meet them. I was tired, but wired and I just wanted to lounge in my tub for a while. That is exactly what I did. It was almost nine and I needed to just chill, so I lit some candles, put on the playlist Elliot made and turned the lights off. I needed to just decompress. It was magical. A nice romantic bath, alone. I checked my phone when I got out of the shower. I had a couple missed calls from an unknown call, a text from Elliot and two random voicemails. I check my text first. ELIOTT:: Hey just leaving my parents now, heading home. Wanna snuggle? ME: Absolutely, Just took the best bath. Changing your name to Els in my phone. ELS: Don’t take that towel off. I love you, be there soon. I laugh and check my voicemail. It’s just someone breathing heavily for a minute, and then “FUCK YOU BITCH” in the most creepi
The next morning was very uneventful. I worked, alot. Elliot was busy with meetings and I just wanted to crush my next manuscript. This promotion was coming up and I needed to get it. I am determined. If I nailed it, I would get promoted to head editor. I would get a contract that would help me out financially. It would help me pay off my student loans faster and be able to save, maybe get a car. Wait, I am definitely going to get a car. A little after noon Elliot got the call from his lawyer friend. He was going to write up a cease and desist letter to be served to Riley. She will be legally served papers to stop contacting us. If that does not stop her we may have to figure out the next steps. I don’t even want to think of that. I just want to go on living my life without her involvement. Elliot has slept here since we have gotten back from California. We will be on night three tonight. I enjoy it, it works. I know it’s the stage at the beginning of the re
On the ride in he told me how proud he was of me. “Babe. I knew you had this promotion in the bag. Your work ethic alone sold you on it, and you are a kick ass assistant editor. The role has been yours.” He kissed my hand. “I know, I deserve this, I do. But , I can’t help but feel bad for Roger. He is really good too.” Roger was the guy I was up against. We were friends, but I am afraid he won’t want to speak to me when he finds out. “If he was a supportive friend Soph, then he will for sure understand. Wait until Monday and then give him a call.” He smiles at me. “But, for tonight and this weekend, lets just celebrate.” The restaurant was really busy, but this place is always busy. It’s one of the most popular restaurants in Boston. It doesn’t matter if it's Monday night or a Friday, this place is always busy. We got Valet, which I was thankful for. It started to rain on the way in and neither of us brought a coat. From the moment we sat down we were treated with
I barely slept, I couldn't stop thinking about the promotion and Elliot meeting my dad, me meeting his family. Today was going to be a big day. I am nervous and my stomach is totally feeling it, too. My nerves haven’t been this bad in almost ten years. The last time I felt this was when I was about to make my confirmation. I had to get up and say something, but in front of what seemed like 500 people. It wasn’t a good day that day. I took out my journal. I am trying to write a little each day even if it is one sentence. I lifted the pen and wrote some things. May 4th 2023 Life is moving in a direction that is foreign to me. I can’t believe I just landed this amazing job, I have an amazing boyfriend. My bestie is amazing, life is amazing. Here’s to an amazing day. Gosh, I am cheesy. Xoxo Soph. I look over at my phone and the clock it's not even five in the morning. “What the heck?” I said out loud. I throw the covers off of me, and I put my sneakers on. I throw on a
Elliot had a car service pick us up. He did not want to drive tonight and I don’t blame him. The car arrived at quarter past six. The party was about twenty minutes away at the Belmont Country Club. I was so nervous on the ride over, I just stared out the window the entire time. “It’s going to be fine, babe. I promise. They are all going to love you.” He grabs my hand and kisses it. We pull up and there are cars parking and people walking in. Elliot gets out and walks around and opens my door, and helps me out. He grabbed my left hand and each person he saw shook their hands quickly as we walked in. They smiled at me, and I exchanged it. This feeling was like something out of a movie scene. Elliot is the main character and I feel like the lights are just on him. Or maybe I am just captivated by his every move. We walked into this beautiful hall. The lights are dimmed, with warm white uplighting. There are about ten round tables outlining the dance floor. There
I Woke up in the middle of the night. Frantic and I was soaking wet with sweat. Another nightmare but this time I was being chased with a knife down an alley. A dark alley with trash all over the place. I was being chased by a dark figure. I couldn't see who it was. I was trying to find a way out and I got trapped. I noticed a big dumpster I could try to jump on and climb up onto the roof but I couldn't get up. I kept struggling and the dark figure kept getting closer, and the next thing I know I am sitting up in bed dripping. Elliot rolls over to bring close and realizes I am sitting up. He reaches up to bring me down and feels the dampness of my sweat. The entire side of the bed where I am is soaked. “Hey, what's going on Soph?” I switch on the lamp and I just lose it. I am crying, my head in my hands. “I have no idea, I had another nightmare.” I am trying to breathe, in through my nose, out through my mouth. He gets up and goes over to my dresser. Opens the dr
I didn’t feel really good about staying in my place alone, so I asked Elliot to crash here. We stopped at his place so he could just grab some things. When we got back to my apartment we ate and he went to shower. So I made some tea and took my journal to the couch and had some time with my thoughts. May 7th, 2023 It's strange to be writing in this while Elliot is showering. This weekend has been the most exciting for me. I finally introduced Elliot to Dad and Papa. They loved him, I could tell. It was so nice to sit and chat with them for a while. I don’t get over there as often as I should. So, I vow now to make it a point to make weekly visits. I got my promotion, so i will be getting a car and it will make it easier, not that public transportation or uber is hard, but yeah. Here I am making excuses. That is another goal, to get to my dads once a week. Even if I just pop by for an afternoon hello. Then, I met Elliot’s entire family well for the most part. I don’t