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Ferrah-

Fear is a word with many meanings but it means different things for different people. For example it could be a fear more associated with worry because your running late for a meeting or possible even getting in trouble. It could be fear more associated with the unknown like meeting someone for the first time or like when your swimming and you feel something rub along your leg, only to latter find out it was some kind of debris in the water.

Fear like I said means something different for everyone, but for me… is the actual meaning of the word. My heart pounds against the inside of my chest, thumping against my ribcage as I listen to the lock on the outside of my bedroom door click as he comes to let me out for my daily punishment or he could be letting me out because he or one of the other pack members need a maid.

I wasn’t always our alphas punching bag or even the rest of the high ranking members maid.. no I was once the youngest free spirited, outspoken and fearless daughter of the Falls Hollow alpha. My father was a man who learned that not all things needed to be handled with violence, there for he lead out pack with the belief that fighting and acting like a bunch of wild animals. He taught his members how to fight but not to the extreme like other alphas do, he taught his member that education and being one with our wolves and our ancestors was what mad us strong.

Its only now that I wish that he would have been just as ruthless as the other packs that surrounded ours.

They ambushed our pack and took over our lands, forcing all of the unmated women to become their playthings and all the unturned male pups who had yet to have their first shift out of the lands, banishing them. They killed all the young men who they saw as a threat and poisoned all the elders of the pack along with their mates. I how ever was given, as he calls is ‘special treatment’ because I was an alphas daughter, I was the only remaining unmated daughter of an alpha.

When alpha Banner took over I had yet to have my first shift and for some reason I still haven’t. mona says its because of the shift in the lands but Cassy another prisoner in this hellish pack says its because the moon goddess in surprising my shift. What ever the reason maybe it makes me feel like a failure to the remaining members of my pack who are stuck here along side me.

“Were expecting guest and I want this place fucking spotless” he says from his spot at the bottom of the stairs. “Mona and that fat one will help you prep for the feast but you’re the only one to fucking do the cooking” I answer with a small yes alpha and rise to my feet, with my head low and my eyes downcast.

I quickly learned my lesson about looking into any of their eyes after I was dragged back four years ago, I was defiant and fought back at every turn, which earned me repeated beatings until I learned to just stay quiet and obedient.

My bare feet feel as cold as the hard wood floors I’m sweeping and the dress I swear I’ve been wearing since the night of the attack feels like nothing more then a reminder of that night. The once bright baby blue fabric is now thin and frail and I feel if I were to take a deep enough breath it would rip off my body.

The scar from where Carl drug me back the is still raised and red serving as a reminder of my inability to heal. I pray every night to the moon goddess to bring us some sort of salvation or allow my shift so I can try and save my lads and pack, but they go unanswered and I’ve grown to resent her for allowing this to happen.

I ask myself every day why the lord alphas and luna’s haven’t stepped in to right this wrong, why they didn’t stop these barbaric wolves from turning on their own kind and turning my pack into nothing but a faded memory.

“Mona can you start peeling all the potatoes and carrots please” she gives me a small nod and gets to work, while I start gathering the other ingredients ill need to prepare what I’m sure will be some extravagant feast.

“Pheobe honey can you start pulling all the good dishware from the spare room next to alpha Banners office” she gives me a hesitant nod and starts to walk off “Ask Cassy to help you if you need her help she’s changing all the bedding on the main floor” again she nods and scurries off with her head down like we have been taught.

Cassy, Pheobe, Mona and two other girls are all that remain of the women of my pack, many where either killed after they had their fun with them or mated to members of this hellish pack.

“Do you know who’s coming” I whisper to Mona as I stand next to her as I gather the already peeled carrots and set them in luke warm water with salt to brine them a little before butter glazing them later.

“I heard one of them say that a young alpha and some of his back will be coming for dinner to celebrate some kind of new contract for trade” she whispers back. I give her shoulder a small pat then walk out of the kitchen to finish with my other chores before returning to start cooking dinner.

I set to finish cleaning the main floor along with the master bedrooms on the second floor before heading back down to the kitchen. Turning the corner around the back hall that leads to the kitchen from living room so I can remain out of sight I see Banners beta Carl standing over Mona who’s laying on the floor with her hands over her head in an attempt to keep her head as safe as possible from the heel of his boot.

Carl has been trying for the last two years to get Mona to mate with him but she refuses and thankfully he hasn’t forced himself on her like the other scum would have, all he does is come onto her and a maybe grope her every now and then, then knock her around when she refuses him again.

Poor Cassy has had two small pups by two of the members of Banners pack after they raped her, and Pheobe lost a pup three weeks ago while giving birth and she hasn’t been the same ever sense and well then their me the alphas favorite. Banner has raped me three times over the years and has made it clear that I’m his property and to not be touched in that way by anyone, but it doesn’t stop them from trying. When I had my first heat, which came as a surprise since I haven’t shifted yet, he went mad and forced himself on me. Then with every heat he takes his chance at possible impregnating me. Thankfully I haven’t gotten pregnant.

Anger washes over me when I see her helpless against his much bigger and stronger brutality “Leave her the fuck alone” I say through grit teeth causing him to still with his foot in the air above her “What the did you just say, bitch” he steps away from her and slowly starts to walk towards me, giving me a chance to do what I have always done… ask for forgiveness and beg for mercy.

fuck “I said, leave. Her. Alone” I speck slowly making sure to say each word slowly for his small mind to understand.

He chuckle darkly with a slow shake of his head before coming to a halt a few feet away from me. The echoing sound of heavy footsteps reach my ears and I know with out a doubt he’s mind-linked Banner, to tell him about my acting out. I feel his hand grip the back of my hair then I’m being yanked backwards and tossed to the floor with a thud. I hiss in pain as my head bounces of the floor “It’s a real fucking shame” he says crouching down besides me “I really fucking thought you would behave yourself today, Farrah” he shacks his head as he looks down on me before straightening up.

“I was going to allow you to take a nice hot shower and get all dolled up” he says with a tisk “I was going to let you have the honor of sitting on my lap like the good little lap mutt you are and eat freshly cooked food” with a hard few pats on my check he stand over me with a thoughtful look on his face before he kicks me hard in the side, causing me to slide across the newly polished wood floor. “I was going to be a gracious alpha and allow you and the other mutts to attend the festivities” he tisks again then kicks me again, then again, then again a few more times, only stopping when I cough up a little blood from biting into my cheek to stop myself for giving him the satisfaction of hearing me scream out in pain.

“Get the fuck up and fucking finish the cooking” he kicks me in the face this time causing me to scream from the impact and see spots. “Get this bitch out of my sight” he says then spits down on me before leaving the dinning room with what I call his fleas following behind him like pups following behind their mothers tiets.

I hiss and hold back a scream that wants to escape as Pheobe and Cassy help me up off the floor and to my feet. They help me to the kitchen where Mona and Annet are waiting to help clean my new cuts and stitch me up if needed. I give them a small thank you before sending them back to work.

“This is the last one Ferrah” Karina says as she helps me line the heavy table up with he others. “Thank you hun, you can go to your room now” I dismiss her for the evening knowing that it will only be Mona and possible myself allowed to serve Banners guest tonight.

Setting the sprawling long tables with the last of the dishes I’ve worked so had to prepare, I step back and take in the cleanly decorated table. The long table form the main pack house was brough here an hour ago and I set to work setting it with a shimmery gold runner and black chargers, in the center of the chargers set pristine gold plates and freshly pressed black napkins.

I hold back a sniffle as I look at the beautifully set table, seeing the dishes, runners and elegant decor that would have been used for my father transfer of title ceremony with my older brother Wren makes me miss them even more then I already do.

“Well would you look at that” Thomas the new delta says as he claps his hands together behind me making me jump.

Approaching the door I’m instantly hit with the mouth watering smell of spice and warm vanilla, that only gets stronger the closer I get. Once I’m at the door I open it wide and step aside, allowing who ever is here to enter what was once my family home.

I hear a deep throaty growl but refrain from looking up to see who growled. I’ve learned my lesson and now know my place in this new pack and keep my eyes downcast and my head down.

“Get the fuck out” Banner says as he walks into the room.

Doing as he says I hurry out of the room and down the hall towards the stair but halt when I hear a loud knocking on the door. “Don’t fucking stand there like a stupid cunt, answer the fucking door” Carl says waving his hand from me to the door.