Chapter 2

I suddenly winced at what she said. I seem to hate those who came out of it's mouth.

"No way! I can't, Raquel!”

"I'm just saying it's so easy, you're just going to scream like this!" It took the pillow and turned it into a horse. "Ohh... ahhh... ahhh... go ahead! Go ahead, Zedrick! Press more!” she said with more eyes closed and moaning in front of me. Laughing, I took another pillow and hit my friend.

"Stop it, what you're doing is disgusting!" I laughed out loud here.

Laughingly, she seat down again. "I'm not kidding, Eliza! Come on, wake up from your modesty. Do you really want to lose your handsome and muscular husband? You're not the only girl in the world so think before everyone catches on!”

Raquel's words silenced me again. Do I really need to do that? I am a decent woman and I am used to being respected by men. My whole thought is that when you are married when you choose to be together for the rest of your life, you should be respected as a woman. Whatever you can do, he should accept it. But unlike Zedrick, most of the time when we have sex, he always sighs and loses his appetite. Do I have to be wild in bed, because my husband is also wild? How can I keep up with what he wants, so he doesn't have to look for someone else?

Just like now, it never came home again. Our house is big, complete with everything, but I am often alone here. I feel trapped in a dark place; joyless, colorless, and lifeless. Zedrick and I have been like this for two years, since we got married, everything has gradually changed. My husband is rich and has his own business. Everyone admires it and even though they know that he is married, many people are still crazy about my husband. I know all that. Because of the whole year we were together, I did nothing but compare myself to my wife's becoming women. I like stalking on the internet, so I know that the women who do business with my husband are not only interested in business, but there are other reasons that I don't want to look at anymore...

   I often eat alone at eight o'clock. At the big dining table it's sad that you're the only one sitting there and chewing your food. I'm getting used to being alone, but when I think of other families happily eating I just tear up. After all, I own Zedrick, because I am his true wife. But I don't have the courage to show his girls that I have more rights than them.

While eating, I was surprised when someone suddenly spoke behind me.

"Prepared me food," he said gently.

But because I thought I was alone at home, I was still surprised. My heart almost jumped in fear and my hair stood up in fear. I turned behind me but it wasn't a ghost who spoke, but Zedrick who was seriously standing behind me. How long has he been there? Why didn't I even feel his arrival? Was I so deep in thought that I didn't even notice that there was someone behind me?

“Ze-zedrick! W-what are you doing here?” I exclaimed after standing up from my seat, surprised that he came home early.

"What? This is my house, why do you ask that question?" I suddenly felt embarrassed.

By the way, this is his house. I mean it's our house, so why would I ask him that...

"I mean, I think you came home early today." I was about to ask a different question, but while asking that question, I turned around to take his plate. It seat next to my seat which surprised me even more. It's like everything is new to me because he just came home early and just now he accompanied me to eat again.

"I have nothing to do in the office, why do you ask that?" It looked straight at me, so my tongue seemed to freeze and I couldn't speak right away. "Troy is taking me on vacation tomorrow in La Union, so I came home early to tell you."

That's why he went home early. That's because of Troy Sebastian who has been our friend since college. And we haven't seen Troy in a long time because he is in America assigned as head officer of the military. Troy has a different attitude, he is kind but he doesn't want his friends to be offended. So Zedrick is here because he can't refuse our friend.

"Really? Did Troy come home?” I said in shock, causing Zedrick to flinch.

Troy was also one of the ones who flirted with me before, but I didn't answer him because I liked Zedrick more. So this is how it reacts to me.

"Yeah, we'll be at their resort for three days. So get dressed later because our trip is early tomorrow morning," he said without even a smile on his face.

Even so, I still felt joy in my chest. Because not only will we have a vacation, but I will be with my husband for three days. Maybe this is my chance to show that I still have more appeal than the girls he sleeps with.

I returned to my seat with a smile and ate. I think I suddenly felt excitement that Zedrick noticed right away. His eyebrows kept arching because of my reaction. Maybe it thinks I'm happy because we're going to La Union for Troy. But what he doesn't know is that I'm happy because in a while I'll be able to go on vacation with him again. Raquel needs to know this, because I'm sure if she finds out that our friend is here in the Philippines, she won't hesitate to go to La Union as well.

Because of my smile, Zedrick suddenly stood up. It was only a few bites of food that's why I was surprised.

"Are you done?!" I stammered to him.

"Yes." He drank the water and without saying a word he left and went up the stairs to the room.

What happened to that person? Did he not like my cooking? I suddenly felt sad because of that thought. I also lost my appetite so I just put the leftover food away and put it in the fridge. I'm sure the dog will benefit from it. Our dog is fine, he loves what I cook... while Zedrick doesn't even seem to appreciate what I do.

After I put the food away, I also went to the room. He was busy with his laptop and paper works that he brought home. I still thought we would go to bed early because he said he had nothing to do at the office. That's still work when it comes home. I sighed and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth. I just ignored him because I knew he wouldn't give me time either. After I brushed my teeth, I stared at the mirror and observed my appearance.

"You are beautiful, Eliza. You are not fat and you are not thin either. You have a breast and an ass. But why is that? Why did he lust after you in the first place?"

I'm like crazy talking to myself. So before I went completely crazy, I just took a shower so that the body heat I felt would disappear and I could put it aside. After showering I went out, Zedrick was still there at his desk and was busy studying the document. If I was a bad wife, I would have grabbed those papers and torn them up in front of him. At the same time I took his laptop and crushed it on our marble floor. But no... because I'm different from everyone else. I am the stupid husband who loves my womanizing wife.

I seat in the chair in front of the mirror. Took the lotion and applied it to my fair and smooth thighs. I'm still glancing at Zedrick, I'm checking to see if he'll even peek or drool at me. But it's still no effect, I've overcome the wind that doesn't even see me. But he can feel it because of the aromatic smell that comes from the lotion I use.

When there was still no effect on him for a few seconds, I thought about combing. There's really no hope, even if I mess up in front of him, he still doesn't want to pay attention. Even better than other women, he was very eager. But to me—nothing.

I lay down on the bed after texting Raquel. I just texted this because Zedrick might hear that I'm excited about going to La Union. I turned my back so I couldn't see him. I don't want to see him because I hate him, he doesn't even want to look at me to taste me. That feeling that you want to water because you're so dry... that's how I feel right now. And I feel like this plant of mine will just rot without even being useful.