Chapter 1

 "How are you, Eliza? Why do you seem so haggard now? Didn't you follow my instructions to dance with your husband at night so he won't look for someone else?" Raquel asked her gently.

I sighed before turning to the other side of the bed.

"I can't, Raquel. Every time Zedrick came home, I was preceded by a nervousness in my chest. I'm ashamed to wear the bikini you gave to me!" I replied that she just laughed.

"My God, Eliza! How will your husband treat you if you are always wrapped in your clothes? Well, all you need is to become a Muslim, so that your beautiful body will be hidden forever!" this is how my mother is expecting me to tell me.

I was too lazy to get out of bed, so it was noon and I was still lying down. Raquel dropped me off at my place early so my morning was noisy again.

I remembered my husband Zedrick again. I tear up again every time I remember what I saw a year ago.

It was ten o'clock in the evening when I went to his office. It's been a few days since he didn't come home early so I thought I'd bring him food to the office. The whole building is still bright but there are only a few people there because of the finishing work. I'm known there, that's why my husband's staff greets me every time I go. I only go there about once a month, because I don't tend to look after my husband even though there are many women who are flirting with him. But that day the change in my life began. When I saw my husband Zedrick with someone else's tricks.

I was on the opposite side of Zedrick's door when I heard what sounded like a dog howling. I frowned because I knew that there was no dog in the office, that's why I felt a nervousness that almost enveloped my entire being when I was sure that the growling was coming from my husband's office. My trembling hand grabbed the doorknob and gently opened the door. That's where I finally saw my husband who was kissing someone else, he was still sitting at the table and opened his mouth to my husband. It was like hot water was poured on me because I saw Zedrick cheating on me. I let go of the paper bag I was carrying with only food. My eyes were filled with tears staring at the two people who were eager for each other. They just stopped when they heard the paper bag I was carrying fall to the floor.

My husband turned to the door and he could clearly see the expression on my face. I cried while stunned by both of them. He quickly let go of the girl he was holding and immediately zipped up his pants. He was not wearing his necktie yet and he came to me in a panic.

"Eliza! Why are you here?!” he asked in shock.

I stepped back because of his question. After I saw what he was doing, he would ask me why I was here?

Because of the anger I feel, I couldn't stop my tears from continuously falling down my cheeks. I can't believe that he does this so he always doesn't come home early. He has been cheating on me for a long time and he has been doing this to me for a long time. Instead of responding, I turned and walked away in front of him. But he quickly stopped me by the arm.

"Eliza, wait. Let me explain!” said as if my ears were still ringing. I automatically turned to him, after that a strong slap suddenly landed on his face. I can't speak because I don't know what to say to him. This is the first day I caught him having sex with someone else. And I couldn't bear to listen to what he had to say to me, so before I completely lost my mind, I left and leave him in his office.

He didn't chase me anymore which made me feel even worse. It didn't even make a phone call, so I feel like I'm going crazy. Instead of going home, I went to my friend Raquel's and let go of my anger there. It's a pity for me because I cry all night and drink alcohol incessantly. I feel like time has messed me up, because I'm so beautiful I'm fooling only one man.

"Even before, I told you to take care of your husband! You're not listening to me!” Raquel said to me annoyed.

My mind is almost confused because of the mixture of alcohol and resentment that I feel inside.

"Isn't it when you get married, you have to trust your husband so that you can last longer? That's what I did, Raquel. I trust Zedrick so much that I let him do whatever he wants.”

"Yes, you did the right thing, but you are acting with too much confidence that he is cheating on you face to face! Look, you shouldn't let him treat you like that. Show him that you have the right to make decisions in both of your lives. He's not always the one to follow because he's the one who makes the money and he's the one who feeds you!"

I was stunned again and suddenly burst into tears every time I remembered what I saw.

Raquel just sighed, because of her pity for me.

The next day I went home to our house. I spent the night at Raquel's house, but when I got home my mommy and daddy were already there worrying about me.

"Iha, where did you go? Don't you know that you worry us so much? We had barely slept when Zedrick called us and told us that you left and never came home. What happened? Where did you go and not come home?” Mommy asked me.

I tearfully hugged Mommy. I couldn't say how I felt because they might think that I couldn't do what I went into. Another one of my reasons is that Daddy gets angry. I know that if he finds out that Zedrick is cheating on me, he might force me to divorce my husband, because even then it was no longer a vote for Zedrick. He said he feels different about it, it seems like it won't do any good. My husband and I were not close from the beginning. So as much as possible I don't want to tell them about the problems I'm having with my husband.

"Eliza, did your husband do something bad to you that's why you're acting like this?" Dad asked me angrily.

"Honey, calm down. It doesn't help if you go along with your questioning of our daughter in anger?” Mommy restrained Dad.

"No, Dad. He doesn't do anything to me. I slept at Raquel's house last night, and I didn't get to say goodbye to Zedrick, because I was a little drunk. I'm sorry if I worried you, it won't happen again." I apologize to my parents.

It's only right that I keep my husband and I's problem a secret from them. I know it won't help if I tell the truth. The situation might get worse if I report.

"Are you sure, Eliza? Don't cover up your husband! I didn't raise you just to obey others!” Dad is still making sure.

"Yes, Dad. I can take care of myself. Zedrick isn't doing anything to me, so don't worry about me."

That's when Dad calmed down, so I came to him and hugged him. I know what I'm doing is wrong, but it's even worse if I report like a child. Even though it was clear to me that Zedrick was cheating, I would still cover for him because this is the life I chose... marrying the man I thought would make me happy for life.

"Hey what's up! There you go again!” Raquel was with me so my thinking returned to the generation. I let out a deep sigh again. My chest seems to be filling up with air so all I do is sigh.

"I can't do what you say, Raquel. Maybe he'll get bored with his girls too so I'll just let him go!" I said to my friend that's why he suddenly hit me on the head. I was hurt so I held my head where he was shaking me. “Ouch! I think what you're doing hurts more than what Zedrick is doing to me!"

"I ordered you to find out! Hello, are you insane?! Why would you allow your husband to do that to you? Oh hey! Don't be a martyr! Love is blind, but not stupid! Stop being stupid!” This is what I just noticed.

"Why am I against his women? Sexy, beautiful, able to do everything my husband wants, maybe there's a lot I lack..." I sadly promised Raquel.

"Are you crazy? You're beautiful, aren't you, and it's no secret that you're sexier and smoother than your husband's women! There's only one thing missing from you...” she said, still hanging on a bit.

"What's missing?"

"Grind, so that your husband will fall in love with you again!"