Fox held me upright as she poured cold tap water over me from a bucket, she listened to every scream of pain as the water made contact with the gash on my abdomen.
She never said a word, her face remained expressionless throughout my torture.The torment was almost enough for me to forget that I was standing naked in front of a complete stranger. Something that was entirely unfamiliar to me. Except for this morning with Irina.My heart panged at her memory, but I couldn't let her face linger in my mind. It hurt too much.Finally we seemed to be finished, Fox tossed the bucket into the corner of the cement block "shower area." Which was just a small square without a curtain, a rusty spout with a drain.My teeth shuddered together from the cold, it felt like the building had no insulation at all.Fox was assembling a stack of clothes, presumably for me from a disheveled box labeled "newbies."She brought the pile to me, on top a large mens T-shirt that read out "EASTERN FISHING CO." It had rips the size of my hand all throughout it.I just stared as her hand held it out for me, I had never worn a shirt before.She rose an eyebrow at me. "Not fancy enough for you?"My cheeks became red hot in a flash, I tried to cover them with my hands to hide my embarrassment."No I just have never -""I'm just pulling your chain!" She said with a deep laugh, her red stained lips pulled tight around her slightly crooked teeth. She was definitely native here."My chain?" I questioned, my teeth still chattering from the cold and my body still undressed.Fox gave me a serious expression again and shook out her hand again waving the shirt at me."Just put this on before you freeze to death."I cautiously took it from her and pulled it over my head. My still wet hair creating damp patches around the neck. It came down to around my mid thigh, shorter than the dress I had on before. But at least this was clean.When I was done putting on the baggy shorts and thick wool socks she gave me a small smile and said, "Let's go sit and chat, I'll grab tea."I followed her out back to the main bedroom, except now there was somebody resting on a bottom bunk.She lay on her stomach with her feet kicked up in the hair, singing to a song that carried over the walls from the bar area.She had an array of different colored pencils around a small red notebook that looked like it had been well loved. Her shoulder length hair sat in big voluptuous curls like lazy springs.She jumped up when she saw me."Yo man what the fuck, you have to tell me when people are coming in here." She said gathering her pencils and shoving them under a pillow. I knew instantly that the art supplies had to be contraband. My eyes widened, I had never be seen real contraband in person. She most definitely was not assigned those tools, so how did she get them?"Relax Vixen." Fox said then gestured to me."This is our newest, Bambi."It took me a second to recognize my own name. My new name.She gave me an expressionless stare. Her blue eyes showed nothing except for.. discontentment?Still I pulled forth my trainings from school on etiquette and tried out my warmest smile."Hello! I am so glad to meet you." I said.Vixen rolled her eyes at me as she stood up,"Oh, your one of those girls." She said distastefully,Fox reprimanded her quickly, her tone loud and serious."Vixen grow up, also go ahead and take your sketchbook out of the pillow case. Your switching to the top bunk."At this Vixens eyes flashed with rage. "Absolutely not, I have notoriety here! I earned that bed!" She shouted.Fox didn't entertain her attitude at all, instead walking over to an electric kettle placed on the vanity labeled with her name and turning it on before speaking."I think your forgetting who has the actual notoriety here, I don't want Fawn having to climb that janky ass ladder. She just got out of red room surgery." Fox said.At this Vixen huffed and left the room, slamming the door shut.I almost opened my mouth to disapprove of switching, but I didn't in fear of saying the wrong thing. I was already making negative impressions here and I don't want to continue that wave.Fox let out a sigh before pulling out two coffee cups from a vanity cabinet.She noticed me just standing there in the middle of the room awkwardly and offered me to sit next to her, I happy obliged.She poured sugar into our mugs and then leaned back into the wooden chair, wrapping her hands around the mug tightly to warm up. I copied her, instantly my hands began to have feeling again."So, are you one of those majesty type people?" She said."I uh- don't understand what you mean?" I stuttered, taken aback by her question.She took a sip before answering. "You know, Westians and all their hullabaloo."I gave her a blank stare, not understanding what she meant."What is hullabaloo?"She chuckled at me, "it just means that they're unnecessarily extra. The weird dresses and talking."I bit my tongue to hide my offense, we talk and dress weird?I brought my mug up to my face, the steam clinging to my cheeks."I actually think you speak and dress weird." I said gesturing to the top of her dress that showed off almost her entire chest.She looked down at herself before coming back to me, she pursed her lips."I'll give it to you, your right. But you'll probably wear something similar when you get your supply drop box tomorrow.""My what?" I asked."Things you'll need to work here will be supplied and dropped off tomorrow by the committee. Usually Luis deals with that but he has his hands full." She said taking another sip. I decided to try my tea finally.I raised my mug and brought it to my lips. Immediately I could smell Earl gray, a familiar scent. Mothers favorite.I couldn't bring myself to drink it. It reminded me of my home too much."What do we do here?" I asked trying to get my mind off of my past life.My assumption was perhaps bartending? Maybe we were poker hosts? These were the seediest professions I could think of.Fox smirked at me from behind her cup. "They really teach you nothing over there in west huh?"I frowned, "that's not true at all! I was in school for many years."Fox leaned forward, biting her lip."Do you know what a server is Fawn?"My cheeks flushed. I had once overheard Warren and his friends once speaking about sexy "beer girls" My young brain could connect the dots that it had something to do with non-marital affairs."Uhm, kind of?" I said unsure.If Fox shook her head slowly, a smirk solid on her lips."Have you ever danced before?"I cleared my throat, "I took ballet lessons for many years."She let out a chuckle," Well this isn't that kind of dancing. Don't worry though we won't throw you out there too soon."I had so many questions I wanted to ask, but my mind couldn't pick one to ask for first. Finally I settled on one that piqued my interest earlier."What is a bed night?" I said.Her eyes flashed down into her lap, her smirk disappearing, she spoke very slowly as if picking each word out carefully."It a- it's a service we offer. Usually to the committee when we can't meet dancer criteria."The majority of that made no sense to me, I wondered for a second to push it or leave it.I chose the latter.Fox finished her tea in one big gulp and then stood with a sigh."Well I have some preparations to make for tomorrow, you should get some sleep to heal that wound quicker. We have some creams to keep it from scarring I'll apply tomorrow. " she said pushing in her chair."Preparations?" I quizzed.She gave me a big genuine smile, like I had said the funniest joke."The selectors sons are coming. Get ready for the biggest party of your life."I woke up in the morning to shrieking voices and loud clattering, I barely had a second to sit up and rub my eyes before I had someone crushing themselves into me with one of the tightest hugs I've ever had. "Oh my god! You are so pretty!" A high pitched voice squeaked in my ear. I pulled back from the embrace to see a girl half on top of me, the other half of her on the other side of my bed. I stared back into big brown eyes, pink glitter smeared over both monolids. Her platinum bleached hair lay flat on her head cascading just past her shoulders, she had the biggest excited smile I had ever seen.A voice called from the bunk above, "Ah Candie shut up I'm trying to sleep." I guess Vixen still wasn't happy about the bed switch. Last night she stared me down before crawling up the shaky wooden ladder above me. Between the aches in my abdomen and the fear of the entire bed collapsing on me I didn't sleep well. Candie rolled her eyes. "Ignore her she's not nice to anyone, not even
I sat accross from a man I once knew, but no longer recognized. He looked like Warren, but I knew that wasn't his name anymore. His face was hardened now, new scars I wasn't privy too. His boyish features had turned cold. It brought a knot to my stomach. My mother reached under the banquet table for my hand, she rubbed her thumb reassuringly over my knuckles. I hadn't realized I had clenched my fingers together, I loosened them immediately. "Thank you for joining us here today." The man who looked like Warren said.My mother beamed under her embroidered sun hat, "Of course, Anything for our son." Father gave a half smile. His wrinkles etched into a unreadable expression. Then we fell into silence. Everyone looked pointedly at meIt was my turn for pleasantries, but all my words seemed to be trapped in my throat. How can we all sit here acting like nothing has changed? As if my brother was the same boy who left four years ago? I could still remember the day when I tripped down th
Warm suds ran down my body and into the bath water, leaving trails of lavender scent in their place.Holding my breath I dunked my head into the water of my claw foot tub. My hair becoming a tornado around my face. I couldn't hear or see anything, it calmed my racing heart. And for a second I pondered if I could stay under forever. But when I came back up for air a smiling face stood above me, peering down. "IRINA!" I sputtered, swallowing water from my shock. She covered her mouth and giggled, "It looked like you were having trouble Liza." I wrung my hair out and I stepped out hurriedly, slamming my feet on the cold marble floor. I draped a towel around my body before turning to look at her. My one and true friend, Irina Hobbins. Our fathers worked together and we were neighbors, I suppose our mothers would have been friends too if that were permitted. She stood in my bathroom in her afternoon dress, jewelry adorned all around her face. Ribbons and bows throughout her honey b
I slid into the white limousine sitting in front of my house. I struggled with how to place my legs with my short dress. How do northerners wear these?The coachman closed the door behind me with a thud that jump starts my heart. Now I was truly stuck inside this car. I looked around me. The seats were padded leather and upholstered with diamonds. I ran my fingers along the empty spot next to me. How many people have sat here before me? On this very same trip? The vehicles engine started with a faint roar. A white, expensive beast here to carry me away. I snapped my head to the tinted window that faced my home.There my mother stood on the garden stone path, clutching a porcelain doll from my childhood. I couldn't see her face, but I could only assume her cheeks were wet with tears. My poor mother, alone in that gigantic house. Father had never come to say goodbye but I expected as much. And now she would live the rest of her years alone. At least emotionally. The car moved forwa
So. Many. Questions. It felt like I was sitting for hours scribbling answers. I had to stand up multiple times just to get feeling back in my legs and to crack my back. Are you allergic to latex? No Next.List your sleeping habits. Average sleeping?I sighed, some of these didn't even make sense. It made me feel incredibly dumb. I had studied at a westian private school for years I should be able to handle a stupid test. Except it wasn't a stupid test, this was determining my life. Eventually I reached the last question, What is your knowledge of the south? That made me pause. The south was desolate, an old history lesson from school long ago. They disobeyed our selector and became obsolete. Our Rozzers had crushed them. The greatest example of our powerful nation. I wrote out a quick summary, ready to get this over with. I stacked my papers back into place and walked towards the small metal slot. I could hear the camera move to follow me, there really had been someone the
When I woke up everything had changed. All I could do was scream, hunched over in the seat of the transport van. The bottom half of my once pristinely pressed white dress was now soaked in rust colored blood. My blood. With every bump the van hit, my fresh stitches pulled apart causing a mangled cry from my throat. They had taken my body from me, my future. I could no longer ever have children, they cut those possibilities out of me. I don't know how long I sat in the back of the cold moving van, but it was long enough from my sobs to come to a slow. It felt like my mind was screaming at the top of its lungs, deafening me. I wasn't sure who was driving, or where I was going. I was just so scared. My whole body shook uncontrollably, I rubbed my arms in an attempt to soothe myself but it didn't help. The Selector couldn't have assigned this right? This was all just a sick joke on me. My hopes and dreams couldn't end here, not like this. The van came to a screeching halt th
I woke up in the morning to shrieking voices and loud clattering, I barely had a second to sit up and rub my eyes before I had someone crushing themselves into me with one of the tightest hugs I've ever had. "Oh my god! You are so pretty!" A high pitched voice squeaked in my ear. I pulled back from the embrace to see a girl half on top of me, the other half of her on the other side of my bed. I stared back into big brown eyes, pink glitter smeared over both monolids. Her platinum bleached hair lay flat on her head cascading just past her shoulders, she had the biggest excited smile I had ever seen.A voice called from the bunk above, "Ah Candie shut up I'm trying to sleep." I guess Vixen still wasn't happy about the bed switch. Last night she stared me down before crawling up the shaky wooden ladder above me. Between the aches in my abdomen and the fear of the entire bed collapsing on me I didn't sleep well. Candie rolled her eyes. "Ignore her she's not nice to anyone, not even
Fox held me upright as she poured cold tap water over me from a bucket, she listened to every scream of pain as the water made contact with the gash on my abdomen. She never said a word, her face remained expressionless throughout my torture. The torment was almost enough for me to forget that I was standing naked in front of a complete stranger. Something that was entirely unfamiliar to me. Except for this morning with Irina. My heart panged at her memory, but I couldn't let her face linger in my mind. It hurt too much. Finally we seemed to be finished, Fox tossed the bucket into the corner of the cement block "shower area." Which was just a small square without a curtain, a rusty spout with a drain.My teeth shuddered together from the cold, it felt like the building had no insulation at all. Fox was assembling a stack of clothes, presumably for me from a disheveled box labeled "newbies." She brought the pile to me, on top a large mens T-shirt that read out "EASTERN FISHING CO
When I woke up everything had changed. All I could do was scream, hunched over in the seat of the transport van. The bottom half of my once pristinely pressed white dress was now soaked in rust colored blood. My blood. With every bump the van hit, my fresh stitches pulled apart causing a mangled cry from my throat. They had taken my body from me, my future. I could no longer ever have children, they cut those possibilities out of me. I don't know how long I sat in the back of the cold moving van, but it was long enough from my sobs to come to a slow. It felt like my mind was screaming at the top of its lungs, deafening me. I wasn't sure who was driving, or where I was going. I was just so scared. My whole body shook uncontrollably, I rubbed my arms in an attempt to soothe myself but it didn't help. The Selector couldn't have assigned this right? This was all just a sick joke on me. My hopes and dreams couldn't end here, not like this. The van came to a screeching halt th
So. Many. Questions. It felt like I was sitting for hours scribbling answers. I had to stand up multiple times just to get feeling back in my legs and to crack my back. Are you allergic to latex? No Next.List your sleeping habits. Average sleeping?I sighed, some of these didn't even make sense. It made me feel incredibly dumb. I had studied at a westian private school for years I should be able to handle a stupid test. Except it wasn't a stupid test, this was determining my life. Eventually I reached the last question, What is your knowledge of the south? That made me pause. The south was desolate, an old history lesson from school long ago. They disobeyed our selector and became obsolete. Our Rozzers had crushed them. The greatest example of our powerful nation. I wrote out a quick summary, ready to get this over with. I stacked my papers back into place and walked towards the small metal slot. I could hear the camera move to follow me, there really had been someone the
I slid into the white limousine sitting in front of my house. I struggled with how to place my legs with my short dress. How do northerners wear these?The coachman closed the door behind me with a thud that jump starts my heart. Now I was truly stuck inside this car. I looked around me. The seats were padded leather and upholstered with diamonds. I ran my fingers along the empty spot next to me. How many people have sat here before me? On this very same trip? The vehicles engine started with a faint roar. A white, expensive beast here to carry me away. I snapped my head to the tinted window that faced my home.There my mother stood on the garden stone path, clutching a porcelain doll from my childhood. I couldn't see her face, but I could only assume her cheeks were wet with tears. My poor mother, alone in that gigantic house. Father had never come to say goodbye but I expected as much. And now she would live the rest of her years alone. At least emotionally. The car moved forwa
Warm suds ran down my body and into the bath water, leaving trails of lavender scent in their place.Holding my breath I dunked my head into the water of my claw foot tub. My hair becoming a tornado around my face. I couldn't hear or see anything, it calmed my racing heart. And for a second I pondered if I could stay under forever. But when I came back up for air a smiling face stood above me, peering down. "IRINA!" I sputtered, swallowing water from my shock. She covered her mouth and giggled, "It looked like you were having trouble Liza." I wrung my hair out and I stepped out hurriedly, slamming my feet on the cold marble floor. I draped a towel around my body before turning to look at her. My one and true friend, Irina Hobbins. Our fathers worked together and we were neighbors, I suppose our mothers would have been friends too if that were permitted. She stood in my bathroom in her afternoon dress, jewelry adorned all around her face. Ribbons and bows throughout her honey b
I sat accross from a man I once knew, but no longer recognized. He looked like Warren, but I knew that wasn't his name anymore. His face was hardened now, new scars I wasn't privy too. His boyish features had turned cold. It brought a knot to my stomach. My mother reached under the banquet table for my hand, she rubbed her thumb reassuringly over my knuckles. I hadn't realized I had clenched my fingers together, I loosened them immediately. "Thank you for joining us here today." The man who looked like Warren said.My mother beamed under her embroidered sun hat, "Of course, Anything for our son." Father gave a half smile. His wrinkles etched into a unreadable expression. Then we fell into silence. Everyone looked pointedly at meIt was my turn for pleasantries, but all my words seemed to be trapped in my throat. How can we all sit here acting like nothing has changed? As if my brother was the same boy who left four years ago? I could still remember the day when I tripped down th