I woke up in the morning to shrieking voices and loud clattering, I barely had a second to sit up and rub my eyes before I had someone crushing themselves into me with one of the tightest hugs I've ever had.
"Oh my god! You are so pretty!" A high pitched voice squeaked in my ear.I pulled back from the embrace to see a girl half on top of me, the other half of her on the other side of my bed.I stared back into big brown eyes, pink glitter smeared over both monolids. Her platinum bleached hair lay flat on her head cascading just past her shoulders, she had the biggest excited smile I had ever seen.A voice called from the bunk above,"Ah Candie shut up I'm trying to sleep."I guess Vixen still wasn't happy about the bed switch. Last night she stared me down before crawling up the shaky wooden ladder above me. Between the aches in my abdomen and the fear of the entire bed collapsing on me I didn't sleep well.Candie rolled her eyes. "Ignore her she's not nice to anyone, not even the customers!"Vixen shifted above before grumbling,"That's part of the appeal."Candie stuck her tongue out upwards toward the other girl, mocking her."Uh hello-" I started but was quickly cut off."Eeek! Your supply box was delivered this morning I've been dying for you to wake up so we can see your cute new outfits!" Candie squealed, balling her hands up in excitement.I rubbed the grogginess out of my eyes before responding."What time is it?" I asked."Too damn early!" The top bunk yelled angrily."No it's only nine, besides who can sleep when we finally have a new girl!" Candie gushed before leaning back on my bed.This girl was a serious ball of energy, with a lack of boundaries. I didn't understand how someone could be so forthcoming. At home this behavior was prohibited."Thank you for the warm welcome." I said as politely as I could.Candie let out a shocked gasp, sitting up again to get closer. A little too close."Oh wow your all debutant like! What do they call 'em? Ladies?"I still couldn't believe that these girls first impression of me was that I was too formal and pretentious, that was certainly not how I was regarded back home.Before I could respond the door from the main area swung open, Fox struted in already dressed in a cotton shirt that stopped just below her breasts and demin shorts hiked up her thighs.There was so much skin showing I had to avert my eyes to keep from being embarrassed."Leave that poor girl alone Candie, you have a set to practice and Luis is stressed out waiting for you." Fox huffed.Candie gave both of us an exaggerated pout before leaving the room.Fox looked pointedly at me, I finally noticed the cardboard box in her hands.“That must be mine!” I said climbing to my feet.I was hoping for a letter, or something saying “surprise! This was all a big prank!” But my optimism was dwindling.Fox brought the box over to the rickety table we sat at the night before, and waved her hands around it as if to say, “ta-da!”The stone floor against my bare feet sent a quick chill up my spine as I inspected the box. It was white cardboard, with a insignia of a blue eye stamped on the sides.As I reached for it a familiar smell hit my nose, I crinkled it in disgust.“VIXEN!” Fox yelled out swatting the air around her.Vixen sat on the edge of the top bunk, her back slightly arched to keep from hitting the ceiling. A thick cigarette sat in between her full lips.“Oh shut it, leave me be and I’ll take your 6 o’clock.” She muttered exhaling a puff of smoke.This seemed to work for Fox as she stopped protesting, instead walking over to the crude coffee maker and brewing a cup.The smell of tobacco brought me back home for a moment, a memory of my childhood. Mother and father sitting by our marble fireplace. A glass of red wine in mothers hand and father’s tobacco pipe in his. I played at their feet with cotton dolls, basking in the warmth of the fire.My heart hurt.I snapped out of my self pity and tore into the box, inside were some very… interesting outfits. My mouth fell open at the site.I was so shocked that I didn’t notice Vixen peering over my shoulder, “looks like you’ve been picked out to be the babydoll type, figures.” She scoffed.Inside were white and pink stockings, different arrays of tiny school girls skirts and cropped button up shirts. Random makeup accessories and bows were littered along the bottom. A small caddy of hygiene products next to a pack of lacy bras.I was appalled. I couldn’t dare wear any of this. My father would soon figure out this mistake and I’d be home soon, there was no need in putting any of this on.Right?I looked over at Fox who was leaned against the wall sipping a small cup, my mouth agape.She gave me a sympathetic smile.“You’ll get used to it. Honestly it’s not that bad. I actually really liked the stuff in my box when I first came. “Vixen blew one last puff before putting her cigarette in a random cup. “The selectors son has some interesting tastes.”“The selectors son? I thought the Selector chose everything himself?” I asked“No.” Fox said pulling me in a chair and grabbing a small sponge from the box and some makeup.“The Selectors older son, Daniel, is in charge of entertainment. Which we are sectioned under. Speaking of which, him and his entourage will be coming here tonight. Including the Selectors youngest son. Let’s get you ready.”I sat accross from a man I once knew, but no longer recognized. He looked like Warren, but I knew that wasn't his name anymore. His face was hardened now, new scars I wasn't privy too. His boyish features had turned cold. It brought a knot to my stomach. My mother reached under the banquet table for my hand, she rubbed her thumb reassuringly over my knuckles. I hadn't realized I had clenched my fingers together, I loosened them immediately. "Thank you for joining us here today." The man who looked like Warren said.My mother beamed under her embroidered sun hat, "Of course, Anything for our son." Father gave a half smile. His wrinkles etched into a unreadable expression. Then we fell into silence. Everyone looked pointedly at meIt was my turn for pleasantries, but all my words seemed to be trapped in my throat. How can we all sit here acting like nothing has changed? As if my brother was the same boy who left four years ago? I could still remember the day when I tripped down th
Warm suds ran down my body and into the bath water, leaving trails of lavender scent in their place.Holding my breath I dunked my head into the water of my claw foot tub. My hair becoming a tornado around my face. I couldn't hear or see anything, it calmed my racing heart. And for a second I pondered if I could stay under forever. But when I came back up for air a smiling face stood above me, peering down. "IRINA!" I sputtered, swallowing water from my shock. She covered her mouth and giggled, "It looked like you were having trouble Liza." I wrung my hair out and I stepped out hurriedly, slamming my feet on the cold marble floor. I draped a towel around my body before turning to look at her. My one and true friend, Irina Hobbins. Our fathers worked together and we were neighbors, I suppose our mothers would have been friends too if that were permitted. She stood in my bathroom in her afternoon dress, jewelry adorned all around her face. Ribbons and bows throughout her honey b
I slid into the white limousine sitting in front of my house. I struggled with how to place my legs with my short dress. How do northerners wear these?The coachman closed the door behind me with a thud that jump starts my heart. Now I was truly stuck inside this car. I looked around me. The seats were padded leather and upholstered with diamonds. I ran my fingers along the empty spot next to me. How many people have sat here before me? On this very same trip? The vehicles engine started with a faint roar. A white, expensive beast here to carry me away. I snapped my head to the tinted window that faced my home.There my mother stood on the garden stone path, clutching a porcelain doll from my childhood. I couldn't see her face, but I could only assume her cheeks were wet with tears. My poor mother, alone in that gigantic house. Father had never come to say goodbye but I expected as much. And now she would live the rest of her years alone. At least emotionally. The car moved forwa
So. Many. Questions. It felt like I was sitting for hours scribbling answers. I had to stand up multiple times just to get feeling back in my legs and to crack my back. Are you allergic to latex? No Next.List your sleeping habits. Average sleeping?I sighed, some of these didn't even make sense. It made me feel incredibly dumb. I had studied at a westian private school for years I should be able to handle a stupid test. Except it wasn't a stupid test, this was determining my life. Eventually I reached the last question, What is your knowledge of the south? That made me pause. The south was desolate, an old history lesson from school long ago. They disobeyed our selector and became obsolete. Our Rozzers had crushed them. The greatest example of our powerful nation. I wrote out a quick summary, ready to get this over with. I stacked my papers back into place and walked towards the small metal slot. I could hear the camera move to follow me, there really had been someone the
When I woke up everything had changed. All I could do was scream, hunched over in the seat of the transport van. The bottom half of my once pristinely pressed white dress was now soaked in rust colored blood. My blood. With every bump the van hit, my fresh stitches pulled apart causing a mangled cry from my throat. They had taken my body from me, my future. I could no longer ever have children, they cut those possibilities out of me. I don't know how long I sat in the back of the cold moving van, but it was long enough from my sobs to come to a slow. It felt like my mind was screaming at the top of its lungs, deafening me. I wasn't sure who was driving, or where I was going. I was just so scared. My whole body shook uncontrollably, I rubbed my arms in an attempt to soothe myself but it didn't help. The Selector couldn't have assigned this right? This was all just a sick joke on me. My hopes and dreams couldn't end here, not like this. The van came to a screeching halt th
Fox held me upright as she poured cold tap water over me from a bucket, she listened to every scream of pain as the water made contact with the gash on my abdomen. She never said a word, her face remained expressionless throughout my torture. The torment was almost enough for me to forget that I was standing naked in front of a complete stranger. Something that was entirely unfamiliar to me. Except for this morning with Irina. My heart panged at her memory, but I couldn't let her face linger in my mind. It hurt too much. Finally we seemed to be finished, Fox tossed the bucket into the corner of the cement block "shower area." Which was just a small square without a curtain, a rusty spout with a drain.My teeth shuddered together from the cold, it felt like the building had no insulation at all. Fox was assembling a stack of clothes, presumably for me from a disheveled box labeled "newbies." She brought the pile to me, on top a large mens T-shirt that read out "EASTERN FISHING CO
I woke up in the morning to shrieking voices and loud clattering, I barely had a second to sit up and rub my eyes before I had someone crushing themselves into me with one of the tightest hugs I've ever had. "Oh my god! You are so pretty!" A high pitched voice squeaked in my ear. I pulled back from the embrace to see a girl half on top of me, the other half of her on the other side of my bed. I stared back into big brown eyes, pink glitter smeared over both monolids. Her platinum bleached hair lay flat on her head cascading just past her shoulders, she had the biggest excited smile I had ever seen.A voice called from the bunk above, "Ah Candie shut up I'm trying to sleep." I guess Vixen still wasn't happy about the bed switch. Last night she stared me down before crawling up the shaky wooden ladder above me. Between the aches in my abdomen and the fear of the entire bed collapsing on me I didn't sleep well. Candie rolled her eyes. "Ignore her she's not nice to anyone, not even
Fox held me upright as she poured cold tap water over me from a bucket, she listened to every scream of pain as the water made contact with the gash on my abdomen. She never said a word, her face remained expressionless throughout my torture. The torment was almost enough for me to forget that I was standing naked in front of a complete stranger. Something that was entirely unfamiliar to me. Except for this morning with Irina. My heart panged at her memory, but I couldn't let her face linger in my mind. It hurt too much. Finally we seemed to be finished, Fox tossed the bucket into the corner of the cement block "shower area." Which was just a small square without a curtain, a rusty spout with a drain.My teeth shuddered together from the cold, it felt like the building had no insulation at all. Fox was assembling a stack of clothes, presumably for me from a disheveled box labeled "newbies." She brought the pile to me, on top a large mens T-shirt that read out "EASTERN FISHING CO
When I woke up everything had changed. All I could do was scream, hunched over in the seat of the transport van. The bottom half of my once pristinely pressed white dress was now soaked in rust colored blood. My blood. With every bump the van hit, my fresh stitches pulled apart causing a mangled cry from my throat. They had taken my body from me, my future. I could no longer ever have children, they cut those possibilities out of me. I don't know how long I sat in the back of the cold moving van, but it was long enough from my sobs to come to a slow. It felt like my mind was screaming at the top of its lungs, deafening me. I wasn't sure who was driving, or where I was going. I was just so scared. My whole body shook uncontrollably, I rubbed my arms in an attempt to soothe myself but it didn't help. The Selector couldn't have assigned this right? This was all just a sick joke on me. My hopes and dreams couldn't end here, not like this. The van came to a screeching halt th
So. Many. Questions. It felt like I was sitting for hours scribbling answers. I had to stand up multiple times just to get feeling back in my legs and to crack my back. Are you allergic to latex? No Next.List your sleeping habits. Average sleeping?I sighed, some of these didn't even make sense. It made me feel incredibly dumb. I had studied at a westian private school for years I should be able to handle a stupid test. Except it wasn't a stupid test, this was determining my life. Eventually I reached the last question, What is your knowledge of the south? That made me pause. The south was desolate, an old history lesson from school long ago. They disobeyed our selector and became obsolete. Our Rozzers had crushed them. The greatest example of our powerful nation. I wrote out a quick summary, ready to get this over with. I stacked my papers back into place and walked towards the small metal slot. I could hear the camera move to follow me, there really had been someone the
I slid into the white limousine sitting in front of my house. I struggled with how to place my legs with my short dress. How do northerners wear these?The coachman closed the door behind me with a thud that jump starts my heart. Now I was truly stuck inside this car. I looked around me. The seats were padded leather and upholstered with diamonds. I ran my fingers along the empty spot next to me. How many people have sat here before me? On this very same trip? The vehicles engine started with a faint roar. A white, expensive beast here to carry me away. I snapped my head to the tinted window that faced my home.There my mother stood on the garden stone path, clutching a porcelain doll from my childhood. I couldn't see her face, but I could only assume her cheeks were wet with tears. My poor mother, alone in that gigantic house. Father had never come to say goodbye but I expected as much. And now she would live the rest of her years alone. At least emotionally. The car moved forwa
Warm suds ran down my body and into the bath water, leaving trails of lavender scent in their place.Holding my breath I dunked my head into the water of my claw foot tub. My hair becoming a tornado around my face. I couldn't hear or see anything, it calmed my racing heart. And for a second I pondered if I could stay under forever. But when I came back up for air a smiling face stood above me, peering down. "IRINA!" I sputtered, swallowing water from my shock. She covered her mouth and giggled, "It looked like you were having trouble Liza." I wrung my hair out and I stepped out hurriedly, slamming my feet on the cold marble floor. I draped a towel around my body before turning to look at her. My one and true friend, Irina Hobbins. Our fathers worked together and we were neighbors, I suppose our mothers would have been friends too if that were permitted. She stood in my bathroom in her afternoon dress, jewelry adorned all around her face. Ribbons and bows throughout her honey b
I sat accross from a man I once knew, but no longer recognized. He looked like Warren, but I knew that wasn't his name anymore. His face was hardened now, new scars I wasn't privy too. His boyish features had turned cold. It brought a knot to my stomach. My mother reached under the banquet table for my hand, she rubbed her thumb reassuringly over my knuckles. I hadn't realized I had clenched my fingers together, I loosened them immediately. "Thank you for joining us here today." The man who looked like Warren said.My mother beamed under her embroidered sun hat, "Of course, Anything for our son." Father gave a half smile. His wrinkles etched into a unreadable expression. Then we fell into silence. Everyone looked pointedly at meIt was my turn for pleasantries, but all my words seemed to be trapped in my throat. How can we all sit here acting like nothing has changed? As if my brother was the same boy who left four years ago? I could still remember the day when I tripped down th