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17. Citadel
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2024-10-29 19:42:56The sensation of the warm water dripping and falling down on my skin is what I needed to quietly think of all that happened. After a few minutes under the shower, Ludmilla’s face flashes in my head. My eyes widen as I realise that she was the one I pushed. Slowly, throughout the whole morning and afternoon, I recalled everything. I stayed in my room on my bed and I’m still, too ashamed of myself to get out. I’ve humiliated myself to such an extent last night that I want to stay under my bed forever. And the worst in all this is that it was Eren who had to control me and I disgraced myself more by kissing him.
I freaking kissed Eren!
And he didn’t kissed me back.
All my feelings for him overthrew me when I was drunk, and I couldn’t resist and think straight.
Great, how will I be able to face him again?
Adios to our friendship.
&n
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