I really want to curse myself and bash my head to the wall! After those words he said that day, my mind was completely baffled!
I just don't know what to do anymore. If shutting those shivering feelings effective or just worsen the circumstances! I feel that his words has magic and keeps enchanting me day by day!I hate this! It feels like my old vulnerable self is resurrecting!My confusion intensified when I've got to see him play. It was two days after the confrontation between us. I tried hard to not look at him on the game but every time I turned to his direction, I always met his intense eyes and lips which eventually crept into a smirk.Palaging iyon ang laging ganap kapag pinipinilit ako nina Jangkit na manood ng laro nila. Well, I couldn't deny the fact that I'm impress with his skill in basketball. He's in good team with good schemes, no wonder the gap between their team to others are understandable."Dali na, Slaine. KailanganThat basketball match is the last time I've encounter with Rafus. May came, which is his birth month, I became very busy in processing my papers for college registration and entrance examination that I couldn't get to greet him a happy birthday on his day.I couldn't believe I'm all alone now. I still can't accept it. Umalis na ng Antique ang mga kaibigan ko kamakailan para asikasuhin ang mga papel at para kumuha ng entrance exam sa unibersidad na papasukan nila.It sucks to say good bye but I have to accept it. In order to grow, I have to depend no one but myself. I will either succeed or try another chance to prove myself.I've come to decide to stay here in WeSaS, it's convenient. Bakit pa ako lalayo kung maayos at advantageous namang mag-aral dito? I admit that it isn't easy to adjust in my first year. Nasanay ako na kasama ko ang barkada kaya medyo nakakapanibago. My college life is peaceful, I gain some new friends but it's incomparable with my six b
I spent my vacant time in secluded and quiet place at the back of our campus. There's a tree here and an old stone bench. I settled myself and place my bag beside me."What now?" I asked to myself while staring from away.Reflecting on what just happened yesterday, it only causes my heart to feel a heavy burden. I guess I'll just get concern for Shey in a low-key way."Mind if I sit here beside you?"Napanganga ako at hindi agad nakabawi. Sinamantala niya ang pagkakataon na iyon para makaupo sa tabi ko. He glanced at me and a small smile made its way on his lips."Rafus..." I barely uttered his name, my eyes were pinned on his. "What are you doing here? Don't you have class?"He remained looking at me and I almost jolted when his finger trailed my hair that covers my face and putted it behind my ear."I was just walking around then I saw you here. I don't have class right now, maybe after one or two hours I'll have one."
What Helen said shocked my whole sanity. I didn't get to sleep well last night because of anxiousness that she might do something to herself.Basing her voice and her words, I feel like she's depressed and frustrated. Knowing her parents, they aren't likely to tolerate what had happened to their precious daughter. Only me and Crezst knew about this and I couldn't imagine what will happen once her parents finds out that she's pregnant.Kung malapit lang siguro ako sa kaniya ay pwede ko agad siyang daluhan at aluin, pero ilang kilometro ang layo ko at hindi naman ako basta bastang makaalis dahil may mga responsibilidad ako sa paaralan, sa trabaho, at sa bahay."I've been calling you several times last night, who did you talked to?" Natauhan ako nang maamoy ang pamilyar na pabango na minsang ko nang nakaadikan. Napaangat ako ng tingin at ang iritado na Rafus ang nakasalubong ko."What's with that reaction? And why do you care if I'm talking to someone over the phone?" I raised my voice
He's wearing a plain gray shirt and his hands were both on the pocket of his black jeans. Hair's a little push back and he's languidly walking towards our direction with a smirk plastered on his face. He freakishly looks like a model in a runway show."Hey..." With his low tone voice.I blinked twice and even Helen seems to be starstrucked by him. The moment I regained my consciousness, I surveyed Rojas."Hi," I greeted back. "What can we help you?""Actually... I'm here to fetch you." He licked his lips then glanced at Helen for a moment. My jaw drop and he take advantage of my shock to swiftly get the bag from me. "I'll take this now, hmm.""Teka..." Pigil ko sa kaniya pero nakapagpaalam na siya kay Helen at nagsimula nang maglakad papunta sa sasakyan niya.Akma kong susundan si Rojas pero agad akong hinawakan ni Helen sa braso para pigilan ako. May malisya akong tinignan ni Helen at dumako din ang tingin niya kay Rojas."Kayo?" Seryosong tanong niya.Napangiti ako at umiling. "Hind
We waited for almost fifteen minutes before our turn. He lowered the driver's window. The staff greeted us merrily then handed Rafus the menu."What do you want?" Bumaling siya sa akin."Basta ako ang magbabayad?"Hindi siya sumagot sa akin at ibinalik ang tingin sa menu saka dumukwang papalapit sa bintana para sabihin ang order."That much?" I gasped yet he just looked at me with that usual expression, calm.Pasimple kong tinignan ang pera sa wallet ko. Kinuha ko mula roon ang limang daan at nang iabot ko sa kaniya ay namilog ang mata ko dahil nakaabot na siya ng dalawang libo sa staff."Keep it," he simply said."But-"Pinutol siya ako sa pamamagitan ng pag-abot sa akin ng isang bucket ng fried chicken. Wala akong nagawa kundi ang kunin iyon sa kaniya at tumahimik."Just keep your money for you future expenses. You don't have to spend when you're with me, don't worry I won't charge you with anything." He sensibly said right after we received all the foods he ordered.Kinuha niya ang
"Why are you avoiding us?! We're making an effort to give you comfort Helen! Nanggaling pa kami sa malayo tapos magiging ganito ka lang sa amin?!" Crezst shouted at her and Helen was taking all of it quietly."Crezst..." Pigil ko sa kaniya at umiling para matigil siya.Crezst heave a sigh then slowly loosen her hold on Helen's arm. "Good thing, I've cutted my nails yesterday!""Kamusta ka na?" I turned to ask Helen.Tamad na napaupo si Crezst habang ako naman ay nasa likuran niya. Helen is in front near her center table. She looks like being interrogated by her evil aunts."She's obviously not okay, Slaine. Look at her state," she uttered then turned to Helen with piercing eyes. "What now? What are your plans?"Napayuko siya at nang makalipas ang ilang segundo ay narinig ko ang paghikbi niya. "I w-want to abort the baby..." She mumbled.My body went rigid and almost go deaf after hearing those words from her. I was immobile for a moment until I heard the sound of a hand landed on one
I plan to spend my weekend in Iloilo with Helen and Crezst. Yesterday we explored places excluding nightclubs using Helen's car. The next day we stray over malls, restaurants, and amusement parks.Actually I wanted to oppose with the thought that Helen will shoulder our expenses because she said that she's the reason why we're here. Even Crezst dislikes the thought. We came here wholeheartedly to comfort and ease her feelings, without expecting for return."Helen, hindi ka namin sugar mommy! Kaya naming magbayad para sa sarili namin!" Singhal na sabi ni Crezst.We're in Vikings Luxury Buffet at SM City Iloilo Southpoint right now. Helen's been insisting to pay for the food. I shook my head heaved a sigh because of the determination in her eyes."Sige na! Pagbigyan niyo na ako, bukas narin naman ang alis niyo. Just treat this as farewell treat!""Maka-farewell treat ka akala mo naman hindi na tayo magkikita-kita pagkatapos nito!" Natatawa kong sabi."Fine! Treat us whatever you want, y
"Slaine..." Rafus' voice echoed and firmly held my arm."What?" I turn to meet his eyes. They were intense, dark, and piercing my soul to oblivion."Siya lang ang matino sa aming magpipinsan, Slaine. I doubt you don't have feelings towards my cousin, I've been in serious relationship so I could determine that you're affected by that conversation." Rojas seriously uttered."I am not," I smiled at them and I could feel Rafus attempted to reach for my hand again beneath the table but I veered my hand before he could touch it. "I think it's better to drop this conversation. Don't worry, I won't change the way how I treat Rafus.""Slaine," Rafus barely whisper near my left ear. "Let's talk this later."I stared at him in a while before forcing myself to nod and smile. "Sure."The table went silent until we get to finish eating our lunch. Naunang lumabas sina Rojas at kami naman ni Rafus ay nagpaiwan ng ilang sandali."I'm sor