TAWNYWaiting.... How long is someone supposed to wait for someone they love and want, to finally decide that they want them too..? Is it Two months? Two years? Or five years?A lot of us have that question. Don't worry, me too...See, when it comes to my heart I've leant the hard way that if what I want and what someone elses wants doesn't go together in harmony, the other person might drop you without even a word... With everything that has went on for the past month.. I realized that how much you are willing to do nor take nor sacrifice to be with someone you truly love doesn't matter... what really matters is how they feel about you. I meant everything I said to Amora... I meant every word and the only thing I needed was for her to be fully on board or tell me she's at least working towards that because I knew we have a long way to go....Now tell me this.. if they were two different people, would you rather be with someone that you love wholeheartedly... or be with someone who
I got inside my car and decided to drive to my place. I had no idea what to do. My thoughts were racing and I knew that I couldn't go back to work, I was so distracted.The front door opened and I turned to it thinking I'm not even in the mood for Olivia's moods but was surprised to see my mom. "Mom?" "I came to see how... oh Godness Tawny what happened to your face? Look at your shirt, there's blood. What happened?" Fuck! I shrugged, "it's nothing mom..." She put her bag on the couch and went to the kitchen, then I heard the kettle boiling, "it's nothing? You look like you were in a fight. Good thing I came.." I wiped my face and my bottom lip was in pain, I might have bit myself when that idiot hit me. "I'm fine mom. There was no need to come all this way.. did you drive or did you ask Bab'Khumalo to take you..?" "I drove... for a good reason apparently.. come here.." I got up and went to the kitchen, I knew fighting her was going to be useless. When I got there she had a t
I didn't say anything because I knew they'd gang up on me. The drive back home was so short. My mind was busy again, which would explain why I didn't feel the trip. Coz now I was thinking about what Olivia said. I sighed and took my phone out then texted my fiance, Hey babe.. I hope you're good. Can we do that dinner tomorrow. I had a long day today..She quickly responded. I miss you.. just know that okay.. I'll text you the time tomorrow, you can be a gentle woman and fetch me at my place😎. I can't wait to see you and taste you😋😝😘.. I love you my soon to be wife😍..I was smiling like an idiot when I read that. Paris was truly something else. I love you too Maa❤Then I lifted my head up when the car turned and parked at my gate. I was so shocked to see Amora standing there inside my gate. Olivia cleared her throat and drove in. "What's Amora doing here..." It was quiet. "I'll ask again. What's Amora doing here.." "I texted her. I was a bit worried about you and thought ma
AMORA Immediately when I heard Luna talking to Tee on the phone, I knew she fucked up. Tee was protective of me and with that information she was going to kill Nash. So even in the condition I was in, I didn't want her killing him. Especially since I was feeling guilty for hurting him... Like my gut told me, seconds after we arrived at Nash's place, Tee got there and she beat him. Luna and I did all we could to stop her, even my stupid ex tried to blackmail her about the media, I was shocked when she didn't care but then again, it wasn't that shocking because she said she'd do anything for me... turned out she meant even risking her rugby career. I felt like shit when I had to stop her and tell her to leave. She was doing more damage that she intended. As much as she was pissed about what happened, I've hurt Nash and I somehow felt guilty that she was part of the reason I broke up with him.. even he knew I loved Tawny more than I did him. The look on her face killed me. Worse when
The envelope Olivia gave me turned out to be a Doctor's note, so I was thankful I didn't have to limp out again to go get it from a doctor. I entered work today trying so hard not to limp. Tyra was in her office. I opened the door, "boss..." The older woman quickly got up and came to give me a hug, "heeeey... I talked to Tee.. how are you.. what happened... I missed your small self walking around and asking loads of questions.." Tee told her? Then she asks what happened? She told her what? "Hey.. I'm okay Boss. Just got injured nothing much.." "I know moving is a lot or adjusting to a new place. Just don't break yourself please.." My phone vibrated and I looked at it. It was a text from my sister. Hey, I hope you're good. When last did you talk to Tawny.. is she in her office? Why was she asking me that..? Weren't they planning their wedding. And she texts me after I don't know how long and the only thing she asks about is Tawny? Didn't I matter..I looked at Tyra, "where's T
TAWNYFive days in and I was somehow still enjoying the view. The helicopter ride right above The Victoria Falls made my mind feel at ease. I felt light when I was there and seeing that water was just soothing and refreshing. After what I walked in on I took a flight straight to Zambia planning on clearing my mind, and oh God it was a great idea, because not only did I manage to clear my mind but I also managed to reflect back on the last 8 to 9 months. Being there made me realize how amazing my life was when it came to my career but how chaotic it was when it was about my love life. This right at this moment was a bit fuzzy and I was beating myself for what I did and didn't do. I reflected on my friendship that turned to relationship that turned back to friendship which now turned to nothing with Amora. I hated how I didn't give the girl a chance to figure herself out without rushing her. I felt like I was selfish to her for just expecting her to come to terms with us regardless o
And I hung up. I threw myself on the couch and stared at my phone. I had no idea what to do. I just went to my camera and started scrolling down and I reached pictures of Amora and I.. back when our relationship/friendship was so strong. When we were laying on the floor at my place as she told me she misses her parents. When she was cosy next to the fireplace in Pretoria after we got rained on to get her ice cream. And the selfie she took with her tongue out. My heart warmed at the sight. I smiled a bit and brushed my thumb on her cheek on my screen.. I feel tears run down my cheeks. This girl... This girl...A knock on my door startled me. I wiped my tears and got up. Fuck I shouldn't have ordered food and look at these pictures, now I felt like a wreck. I opened the door and smiled at the girl in front of me, "hey.." "Oh my God.. hey.." she said and I moved from in front of her making a way for her to drive the table with my food inside. She walked in, "here's your food.." "Than
TAWNYSomeone cleared their throat behind me and I got up then slowly turned around getting ready to see Amora.. but I was surprised to see .... "Luna?" She looked behind her and then pulled the door closing it a bit, "Tawny...? What are you doing here?" "Hi.. I umh..how are you Luna?" I asked since she seemed to be a bit tense. She shrugged, "as you can see I'm fine.. Tawny what can I do for you..?"I was so shocked and confused at the attitude she threw at me, but I responded either way, "Is Amora home..? I was hoping to see her... I.. I need to talk to her." She sighed before shrugging, "No..." I furrowed my brows at her. She looked a bit edgy or irritated...and she was at Amora's place... inside, refusing that I speak to her? I decided not to read too much into this new attitude and asked, "No..?" She looked behind her and then shrugged again, "nope.. when I woke up she wasn't here, so I don't know where she is..." I signed, "Luna I really..." "I get it..." she cut me of
My relationship with my sister was the best and Luna tried to spend as much time with me because I was leaving her. She made me feel like I was dying and never coming back, but I understood and wasn't complaining. My last days at work were amazing until on Friday they told me they have a party for me. God I hated it but it was tradition coz I was going to Thailand. I didn't know how I'd ask Paris to go but was so fucken happy when she told me she has a very important interview that she couldn't move. She felt bad that she could not come but I assured her that it was okay. Little did she know I was relieved. I didn't know how she and Tawny would act when they were to see each other. So she promised to come sleep over at my place when she was done with the interview. I dressed pretty nice in a navy blue notch lapel 2 piece tailored suit for women, a white shirt underneath the blazer and black heels. I wanted to leave with a bang. I got to the office and as I guessed all eyes were o
"Okay I just got an sms.. the ride is.. oh my God Tawny hello.." Freya said the moment she saw who was at the door.I was forced to open the door wide and move to the side so that she can walk in. She hugged my friends and said, "Frey frey and Tony... right?" My friends smiled like idiots that they were, "yesss.. God it's been forever and you still remember us.." Antony smiled, "would love to catch up but we have to go.. Amora it was great surprising you. You're a darling. Love you so much." I kissed his cheek and Freya was smiling from ear to ear, "you guys be good. Bye now." After closing the door my place became so quiet the only thing I could hear was the rapid beating of my heart. I could feel it in my ears, they were hot. I hated feeling like this. I wished Luna was up so I wouldn't have to deal with this on my own. I turned towards her and found her looking around the house. Right there anger slowly built in and seeing her here NOW was just pissing me off."You've done a g
AMORAMy party was greater than I thought. I was enjoying the company and the food actually. They forced me to drink telling me I won't drive, I refused and said I want to remember today but mostly I wanna study sober coz I had an exam on Monday. As for them.. well they got drunk. Around 9pm Paris got up, "okay.. I think I must say something to make this party official.." Everyone stopped what they were doing and turned to her. She smiled, "so this kid over here.." she said that motioning for me to go to her. I did and she put her arm around my shoulder, "she's my world. Took me hell to notice that I haven't been really great to her..." "Skip that part.. you're amazing now.." Luna cut her off and we all laughed. "Okay..definitely listening to this one coz she's my sister's wife.." We laughed again and Paris cleared her throat, "what I mean is, I'm totally proud of you baby. You've not only done you proud but also our parents. I know they want what's best for us hence they keep th
The following day I had school and work later. The morning lecture was important. I saw Freya and she came running to me. "Hey you stranger.." She looked different, good different. I pulled her into a hug, "how are you.. oh my God you look good. Did you get a boyfriend?" She laughed, "You're awful.. I'm good.. since you started working we hardly see you."I nodded, "sorry babe, I wanna graduate at the end. How's second year treating you though?" "It's amazing but too much work, I can't wait till I'm like you brushing shoulders with the big dogs." We talked a bit until I saw the time, "I have to run. My signature is important there.."She hugged me again and she smelled so good, I shook my head, "you definitely got a boyfriend.."We both laughed then I got a taxi to pass by work. When I got there Rachel was smiling like an idiot at the front table. I raised my brow, "I didn't know my signature could make you this happy." She laughed, "Mrs Banks kinda said something so I'm just
AMORANerves were killing me I could actually hear my heart beat from my chest. What the fuck was I doing? Why did I agree to this? God couldn't I tell Tyra that I already had plans when the internship ends. But then again I'd be having nothing and totally wind up homeless... "Please breathe.. I don't want you dying in my office." Tyra said walking in and I sighed, "like can't they do this Skype thing when I'm in bed wearing my PJs and definitely NOT today." She laughed, "nerves are good.. keep them up." "Mrs Banks I cannot breathe.. what part of that is good..?" She brushed on my shoulders, "Don't worry.. you'll do great.. they'll call you any second from now."Second.. God she said any second. I felt like I wanted to go to the bathroom..maybe take a little shit and I'll be fine after that. My stomach was in knots. My Skype tone kicked me back to the moment I was dreading. I looked at Tyra, "I won't do this with you in here." She took her headsets and put them on, "I'm working
TAWNYMy life felt like a rollercoaster. Everything was happening so fast and I felt like I was losing myself in between. Have you ever wanted something so bad but then the universe was telling you not to pursue it? I was in that boat at the moment and it sucked to be in it. When I took that Monday off I never thought Amora would show up in my bedroom when I was taking a bath... but seeing her there looking all cute and freaked out at the thought that something had happened to me kinda put me at ease.I knew I shouldn't have had sex with her as it was going to complicate things that were already complicated but I stupidly couldn't stop myself. After she left I felt like shit and regretted putting her in that position again. The plan was to create distance between us and not to give her hope.Everyday for me was hell. My mind was thinking about the past six months and how fast they flew by. I felt guilty for what I did to Mimi and Paris. That was not me and I needed to push them awa
AMORA'S POV I sat anxiously waiting for my sister to start talking. I had no idea what to expect but by how good she seemed it didn't look bad. "So I want to apologize..." My heart sank as guilt started building in. "Look I know I haven't been the best sister to you. I realized I measured my being there for you with money. The more money I gave you, the more I felt I was there for you..." If she wasn't nice to me then I'd feel better and my stomach would not be in knots. I wouldn't be thinking about everything I was doing with Tawny behind her back. She felt shitty for not being a sister and I felt somehow responsible for the break up of her and Tawny. ".. It made things easy.." she continued, "not seeing you all the time and just replacing that with money seemed better. You know you're like dad... how you talk and how wise you are, you are exactly him. At first I was running from having to deal with that...our Parents' death. I was running from having to be here for you emotion
The following day was said to be new from my talk with Luh, she said I shouldn't think about anything and go to work. She'll go to school and come back again. I didn't mind that.. her being here was helping keep me busy and I also missed her.I cleaned up pretty good and put on my pants and a shirt with boots. It was a little cold. July sucked. I requested and was at work on time. "Morning boss lady.." I said the second I saw Tyra and she ached her brow at me. God she hated it when I called her that. I smiled a bit and rested my hand on her shoulder, "what can I do to put a smile on your face.." "Tell me you're ready for a meeting with Tawny in 10 minutes." Fuck!!! That I wasn't. She must have seen the horror look on my face. She laughed a bit and asked, "did you open the envelope I gave you?" Fuck... I did not do that..I swallowed, "umh.. I'm so sorry no I didn't.." She just looked at me and then I started panicking, "God Tyra please tell me it didn't hold work for today or w
I laid there on my side facing away from her. My mind was all over the place. How could I allow my body to put me at such a vulnerable position. I knew how I felt about her and I felt stupid coz I knew how she felt about me too, it was different.Her phone started ringing and she didn't even move a bit, but by the way she was breathing I knew she was wide awake and could hear it. God! That's how our calls were being ignored earler.I sighed regretting this moment already because it wasn't going to change anything. I slowly got up into a sitting position facing away from her. "..leaving already?" she said and I suddenly felt like crying. Whether I stayed or not it wouldn't matter coz she didn't want to be with me. I got up, "can I use your bathroom?" "Are you okay?" I nodded my head, "bathroom..." "You're facing it... Mimi are you sure you're okay?" If I wasn't almost in tears I was going to laugh my ass out. For someone who didn't want to be with me, she sure acted like she car