TAWNYMy life felt like a rollercoaster. Everything was happening so fast and I felt like I was losing myself in between. Have you ever wanted something so bad but then the universe was telling you not to pursue it? I was in that boat at the moment and it sucked to be in it. When I took that Monday off I never thought Amora would show up in my bedroom when I was taking a bath... but seeing her there looking all cute and freaked out at the thought that something had happened to me kinda put me at ease.I knew I shouldn't have had sex with her as it was going to complicate things that were already complicated but I stupidly couldn't stop myself. After she left I felt like shit and regretted putting her in that position again. The plan was to create distance between us and not to give her hope.Everyday for me was hell. My mind was thinking about the past six months and how fast they flew by. I felt guilty for what I did to Mimi and Paris. That was not me and I needed to push them awa
AMORANerves were killing me I could actually hear my heart beat from my chest. What the fuck was I doing? Why did I agree to this? God couldn't I tell Tyra that I already had plans when the internship ends. But then again I'd be having nothing and totally wind up homeless... "Please breathe.. I don't want you dying in my office." Tyra said walking in and I sighed, "like can't they do this Skype thing when I'm in bed wearing my PJs and definitely NOT today." She laughed, "nerves are good.. keep them up." "Mrs Banks I cannot breathe.. what part of that is good..?" She brushed on my shoulders, "Don't worry.. you'll do great.. they'll call you any second from now."Second.. God she said any second. I felt like I wanted to go to the bathroom..maybe take a little shit and I'll be fine after that. My stomach was in knots. My Skype tone kicked me back to the moment I was dreading. I looked at Tyra, "I won't do this with you in here." She took her headsets and put them on, "I'm working
The following day I had school and work later. The morning lecture was important. I saw Freya and she came running to me. "Hey you stranger.." She looked different, good different. I pulled her into a hug, "how are you.. oh my God you look good. Did you get a boyfriend?" She laughed, "You're awful.. I'm good.. since you started working we hardly see you."I nodded, "sorry babe, I wanna graduate at the end. How's second year treating you though?" "It's amazing but too much work, I can't wait till I'm like you brushing shoulders with the big dogs." We talked a bit until I saw the time, "I have to run. My signature is important there.."She hugged me again and she smelled so good, I shook my head, "you definitely got a boyfriend.."We both laughed then I got a taxi to pass by work. When I got there Rachel was smiling like an idiot at the front table. I raised my brow, "I didn't know my signature could make you this happy." She laughed, "Mrs Banks kinda said something so I'm just
AMORAMy party was greater than I thought. I was enjoying the company and the food actually. They forced me to drink telling me I won't drive, I refused and said I want to remember today but mostly I wanna study sober coz I had an exam on Monday. As for them.. well they got drunk. Around 9pm Paris got up, "okay.. I think I must say something to make this party official.." Everyone stopped what they were doing and turned to her. She smiled, "so this kid over here.." she said that motioning for me to go to her. I did and she put her arm around my shoulder, "she's my world. Took me hell to notice that I haven't been really great to her..." "Skip that part.. you're amazing now.." Luna cut her off and we all laughed. "Okay..definitely listening to this one coz she's my sister's wife.." We laughed again and Paris cleared her throat, "what I mean is, I'm totally proud of you baby. You've not only done you proud but also our parents. I know they want what's best for us hence they keep th
"Okay I just got an sms.. the ride is.. oh my God Tawny hello.." Freya said the moment she saw who was at the door.I was forced to open the door wide and move to the side so that she can walk in. She hugged my friends and said, "Frey frey and Tony... right?" My friends smiled like idiots that they were, "yesss.. God it's been forever and you still remember us.." Antony smiled, "would love to catch up but we have to go.. Amora it was great surprising you. You're a darling. Love you so much." I kissed his cheek and Freya was smiling from ear to ear, "you guys be good. Bye now." After closing the door my place became so quiet the only thing I could hear was the rapid beating of my heart. I could feel it in my ears, they were hot. I hated feeling like this. I wished Luna was up so I wouldn't have to deal with this on my own. I turned towards her and found her looking around the house. Right there anger slowly built in and seeing her here NOW was just pissing me off."You've done a g
My relationship with my sister was the best and Luna tried to spend as much time with me because I was leaving her. She made me feel like I was dying and never coming back, but I understood and wasn't complaining. My last days at work were amazing until on Friday they told me they have a party for me. God I hated it but it was tradition coz I was going to Thailand. I didn't know how I'd ask Paris to go but was so fucken happy when she told me she has a very important interview that she couldn't move. She felt bad that she could not come but I assured her that it was okay. Little did she know I was relieved. I didn't know how she and Tawny would act when they were to see each other. So she promised to come sleep over at my place when she was done with the interview. I dressed pretty nice in a navy blue notch lapel 2 piece tailored suit for women, a white shirt underneath the blazer and black heels. I wanted to leave with a bang. I got to the office and as I guessed all eyes were o
Today, I didn't even wait for my alarm to go off. I was overly excited about what the varsity planned for us. It was career expo day and they were actually bringing people who already were working in the field of our career choices to come tell us a lot about what to expect and how to go about looking for a job after varsity.So I woke up 15 minutes before my alarm, put my glasses on and ran to the bathroom. I sat down on the toilet and peed.I slowly lifted my glasses up a bit and tried to wipe sleep off my face as my mind raced to the shit I had to be doing when I was done peeing.I rolled down the toilet paper and wiped my self then ran to take a shower before Freya, my roomate woke up. I quickly cleaned myself up and got out to go to my bedroom."You're up early... and your stupid alarm woke us up, why didn't you switch it off before going to shower...?" Freya called out from the kitchen the second she heard the bathroom door closes. I rolled my eyes at her for referring to her a
I went to freshen up an put my PJs then went to bed and laid there looking at the ceiling.She was dead.. I swear I was going to kill this girl if she didn't call back.My phone vibrated and I jumped to it and saw that it was my boyfriend. I felt like throwing the thing to the wall but I calmed down and opened the message. Ahh he was home.I responded.ME: I'm glad baby.. sleep well, see you tomorrow yeah...I waited.. I waited for the call and nothing came. Then sleep took over...The following day was just a nightmare I swear. I haven't heard from the girl about my camera and honestly it made me feel fucked up.. but Nash promised me that we was going to meet this other friend of his this weekend and he'll see what he can get with that.My class ended soon and I found myself out at the soccer field looking for a particular light skinned lesbian.. but she was nowhere to be found."Amora, she's probably bailed on you..."I shook my head, "she doesn't know who she's messing with. Just
My relationship with my sister was the best and Luna tried to spend as much time with me because I was leaving her. She made me feel like I was dying and never coming back, but I understood and wasn't complaining. My last days at work were amazing until on Friday they told me they have a party for me. God I hated it but it was tradition coz I was going to Thailand. I didn't know how I'd ask Paris to go but was so fucken happy when she told me she has a very important interview that she couldn't move. She felt bad that she could not come but I assured her that it was okay. Little did she know I was relieved. I didn't know how she and Tawny would act when they were to see each other. So she promised to come sleep over at my place when she was done with the interview. I dressed pretty nice in a navy blue notch lapel 2 piece tailored suit for women, a white shirt underneath the blazer and black heels. I wanted to leave with a bang. I got to the office and as I guessed all eyes were o
"Okay I just got an sms.. the ride is.. oh my God Tawny hello.." Freya said the moment she saw who was at the door.I was forced to open the door wide and move to the side so that she can walk in. She hugged my friends and said, "Frey frey and Tony... right?" My friends smiled like idiots that they were, "yesss.. God it's been forever and you still remember us.." Antony smiled, "would love to catch up but we have to go.. Amora it was great surprising you. You're a darling. Love you so much." I kissed his cheek and Freya was smiling from ear to ear, "you guys be good. Bye now." After closing the door my place became so quiet the only thing I could hear was the rapid beating of my heart. I could feel it in my ears, they were hot. I hated feeling like this. I wished Luna was up so I wouldn't have to deal with this on my own. I turned towards her and found her looking around the house. Right there anger slowly built in and seeing her here NOW was just pissing me off."You've done a g
AMORAMy party was greater than I thought. I was enjoying the company and the food actually. They forced me to drink telling me I won't drive, I refused and said I want to remember today but mostly I wanna study sober coz I had an exam on Monday. As for them.. well they got drunk. Around 9pm Paris got up, "okay.. I think I must say something to make this party official.." Everyone stopped what they were doing and turned to her. She smiled, "so this kid over here.." she said that motioning for me to go to her. I did and she put her arm around my shoulder, "she's my world. Took me hell to notice that I haven't been really great to her..." "Skip that part.. you're amazing now.." Luna cut her off and we all laughed. "Okay..definitely listening to this one coz she's my sister's wife.." We laughed again and Paris cleared her throat, "what I mean is, I'm totally proud of you baby. You've not only done you proud but also our parents. I know they want what's best for us hence they keep th
The following day I had school and work later. The morning lecture was important. I saw Freya and she came running to me. "Hey you stranger.." She looked different, good different. I pulled her into a hug, "how are you.. oh my God you look good. Did you get a boyfriend?" She laughed, "You're awful.. I'm good.. since you started working we hardly see you."I nodded, "sorry babe, I wanna graduate at the end. How's second year treating you though?" "It's amazing but too much work, I can't wait till I'm like you brushing shoulders with the big dogs." We talked a bit until I saw the time, "I have to run. My signature is important there.."She hugged me again and she smelled so good, I shook my head, "you definitely got a boyfriend.."We both laughed then I got a taxi to pass by work. When I got there Rachel was smiling like an idiot at the front table. I raised my brow, "I didn't know my signature could make you this happy." She laughed, "Mrs Banks kinda said something so I'm just
AMORANerves were killing me I could actually hear my heart beat from my chest. What the fuck was I doing? Why did I agree to this? God couldn't I tell Tyra that I already had plans when the internship ends. But then again I'd be having nothing and totally wind up homeless... "Please breathe.. I don't want you dying in my office." Tyra said walking in and I sighed, "like can't they do this Skype thing when I'm in bed wearing my PJs and definitely NOT today." She laughed, "nerves are good.. keep them up." "Mrs Banks I cannot breathe.. what part of that is good..?" She brushed on my shoulders, "Don't worry.. you'll do great.. they'll call you any second from now."Second.. God she said any second. I felt like I wanted to go to the bathroom..maybe take a little shit and I'll be fine after that. My stomach was in knots. My Skype tone kicked me back to the moment I was dreading. I looked at Tyra, "I won't do this with you in here." She took her headsets and put them on, "I'm working
TAWNYMy life felt like a rollercoaster. Everything was happening so fast and I felt like I was losing myself in between. Have you ever wanted something so bad but then the universe was telling you not to pursue it? I was in that boat at the moment and it sucked to be in it. When I took that Monday off I never thought Amora would show up in my bedroom when I was taking a bath... but seeing her there looking all cute and freaked out at the thought that something had happened to me kinda put me at ease.I knew I shouldn't have had sex with her as it was going to complicate things that were already complicated but I stupidly couldn't stop myself. After she left I felt like shit and regretted putting her in that position again. The plan was to create distance between us and not to give her hope.Everyday for me was hell. My mind was thinking about the past six months and how fast they flew by. I felt guilty for what I did to Mimi and Paris. That was not me and I needed to push them awa
AMORA'S POV I sat anxiously waiting for my sister to start talking. I had no idea what to expect but by how good she seemed it didn't look bad. "So I want to apologize..." My heart sank as guilt started building in. "Look I know I haven't been the best sister to you. I realized I measured my being there for you with money. The more money I gave you, the more I felt I was there for you..." If she wasn't nice to me then I'd feel better and my stomach would not be in knots. I wouldn't be thinking about everything I was doing with Tawny behind her back. She felt shitty for not being a sister and I felt somehow responsible for the break up of her and Tawny. ".. It made things easy.." she continued, "not seeing you all the time and just replacing that with money seemed better. You know you're like dad... how you talk and how wise you are, you are exactly him. At first I was running from having to deal with that...our Parents' death. I was running from having to be here for you emotion
The following day was said to be new from my talk with Luh, she said I shouldn't think about anything and go to work. She'll go to school and come back again. I didn't mind that.. her being here was helping keep me busy and I also missed her.I cleaned up pretty good and put on my pants and a shirt with boots. It was a little cold. July sucked. I requested and was at work on time. "Morning boss lady.." I said the second I saw Tyra and she ached her brow at me. God she hated it when I called her that. I smiled a bit and rested my hand on her shoulder, "what can I do to put a smile on your face.." "Tell me you're ready for a meeting with Tawny in 10 minutes." Fuck!!! That I wasn't. She must have seen the horror look on my face. She laughed a bit and asked, "did you open the envelope I gave you?" Fuck... I did not do that..I swallowed, "umh.. I'm so sorry no I didn't.." She just looked at me and then I started panicking, "God Tyra please tell me it didn't hold work for today or w
I laid there on my side facing away from her. My mind was all over the place. How could I allow my body to put me at such a vulnerable position. I knew how I felt about her and I felt stupid coz I knew how she felt about me too, it was different.Her phone started ringing and she didn't even move a bit, but by the way she was breathing I knew she was wide awake and could hear it. God! That's how our calls were being ignored earler.I sighed regretting this moment already because it wasn't going to change anything. I slowly got up into a sitting position facing away from her. "..leaving already?" she said and I suddenly felt like crying. Whether I stayed or not it wouldn't matter coz she didn't want to be with me. I got up, "can I use your bathroom?" "Are you okay?" I nodded my head, "bathroom..." "You're facing it... Mimi are you sure you're okay?" If I wasn't almost in tears I was going to laugh my ass out. For someone who didn't want to be with me, she sure acted like she car