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Chapter 26 - Inner Thoughts

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A part of me wanted Tawny to be happy, back then I wanted her to be happy with me but now that I saw that might be impossible with all the odds against us, I just wanted her happy.

Having her here made me feel some type of way though, it kinda showed me how much we have separated since we parted ways. Cutting communication from each other has created this huge distance, I mean we talked but I felt like I was talking to someone I didn't know.

She seemed happy on the other hand, very happy I couldn't ignore that. She texted Carrie here and there as we finished off the seventh season of Brooklyn and she would smile in between.

At first I wanted to cry, at how she was freely loving someone knowing very well how I felt about her and what I had wanted.

But then I noticed I was being very selfish. She was happy and I had to admit and fully let her go or make peace with it.

I then remembered what Luna said about not finding love and me being the only person in her life. I smiled a bit and tho
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